Light Snow to Beginning of Spring GL

The sky at five o'clock is a bit purple, and the dawn in winter in the north always makes people worry whether the sun is too weak to pierce the dense clouds.

Maybe it's the suffocating weather that made He Xueyan's mood sink to the bottom. During her self-enclosed time, she sailed like a ship floating in memories. Her lonely childhood was full of talents. Teenagers, youths who failed in love and achieved nothing have passed or are about to become past.

Wrapped in a thick coat, walking on the street before dawn, there are young couples setting up a breakfast stall on the side of the road, white smoke is rising from the doughnuts fried by women, simple and honest men are greeting the sporadic customers in front of the stall, the couple is busy Busy and busy complement each other, the stove on the small cart was glowing redly, He Xueyan took an extra look at the stove because of the cold.

Want one?The owner greeted her warmly.

He Xueyan glanced at him Nana, shook her head, and wanted to smile politely at him, but she couldn't, so she walked away quickly and took a taxi on the side of the road.

When she left, Bai Linyu hadn't woken up yet. She stood by the door of her room for a long time, watching her fall asleep in the dim light.Thinking of her shedding tears last night, holding herself like a child and begging herself to stay.For a moment, He Xueyan admitted that she would still be easily moved by this man, so she nodded in her arms.

She hated herself for being such a weakness, and she didn't know how to reject her.It seemed to be such an endless loop again, no different from many years ago. She was tortured by all kinds of things and went crazy because of her emotional oversensitivity. Bai Linyu grabbed her hands and refused to let her go. Standing, pretending to reconcile with the surroundings, and wait for the next time to make a big fuss.

He Xueyan thought, how bad this feeling is, Bai Linyu will still be tired.And how hard she is, like a terminally ill person who cannot be saved, but still has to obey the doctor's orders, and can't leave the ward to get injections and medicines on time.

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Taking a peek at the city at dawn from the car window, high-rise buildings, and traffic interchanges, He Xueyan closed her eyes and felt very tired.In fact, there was nothing wrong with Lin Yu, these layers of mistakes were more like the result of her weakness.All along, always complaining that the other party destroyed her life is just an excuse.

It was because she didn't have the courage to start a new life, so she could only look at herself in the memory of the past.

Thinking about something, she got off the car at the entrance of the alley.

The day He Xueming left was icy and cold, and he didn't look back, like a wolf that had taken away its meat.In fact, it was not just this time. In the past, whenever her sister did something excessive, she decided to break up with her in her heart, and never spoke to her again.

However, no matter how many times she swears, as long as He Xueming puts down her posture, no matter whether it is hypocrisy or not, she will still forget about hating her and continue to listen to her high-spirited ridicule.He Xueyan also didn't understand why she let her be hurt.

Last night, she finally thought of the answer.

She lives too lonely alone, so lonely that she needs a reference, people, only by seeing the shape of others can they outline their own appearance in their hearts.When she saw her sister, it was like looking in a mirror, seeing her beauty as well as her ugliness, so that Fuer could be sure that she still had joy and anger.

She was afraid that sitting in front of the mahogany table, she would lose even the mood of sorrow and joy.But what happened this time, after all, made her feel completely cold, and she never wanted to see her again...

Stepping on the stone steps, he opened the door of his house.Her old courtyard house, her family status, her home, finally, she came to pack some things and leave here.Where she is going, she has not yet determined, but it is no longer a picture of the ground as a prison, allowing reality to become a wall of hardship.

He Xueyan returned to the room, packed some clothes casually, and dragged out a suitcase. She took the suitcase to the garage and stuffed it into her car.After doing these things, it was completely dawn. Her heart was empty and she had never been so determined. She started the car and slowly left the alley.

Before she turned onto the main road, she turned on her cell phone and called her mother.

"Xueyan? Are you back from training?"

"Mom..." She replied in a low voice, still trembling habitually, tried her best to overcome the fear of her mother, and said slowly: "I'm in a bad mood and want to go out for a while." Plus: [-], [-], Zero, eight, one, seven, nine, five, one "What's wrong with you?"

"..."

"Why don't you speak?"

"It's hard to tell on the phone. I'll drive over and tell you."

She drove the car onto the street and chose the most congested time to go all the way to the hospital. The sun was still so light and the clouds were still as thick as a quilt. She tried her best to reach out and touch the dark wall in front of her. I want to tear open a hole in the bad mood and take a breath.

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When Bai Linyu woke up, the person next to her pillow had already left, and she blamed herself for losing He Xueyan because of a deep sleep.Grab the phone, dial it, hang up after one ring, and then turn off the phone.She felt flustered and sent her many text messages and WeChat messages, but none of them worked.

She had no choice but to call He Xueyan's friends, but even Wang Xudong didn't know where she had gone. As a last resort, she broadcast Yan Fei's phone number, but she never knew that the girl had a happy tone and advised her not to look for her.

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Is Bai Linyu still looking for it? Yan Fei is not sure. She hung up the phone and suddenly felt a little relieved. She carried the meal for Shen Suyu and pushed open the door of the other party's room with a smile: "Eat something while it's hot, I'll give it to you." You go through the discharge procedures."

"What's wrong with you?" Shen Suyu asked her.

"What can I do?" Yan Fei asked back, handing her the rice.

Shen Suyu frowned and said, "Can you beat me if you have something to do? Are you raised by me? I know your virtue better than your mother."

"Don't pretend to be my mother, take advantage of my father." Yan Fei was not convinced, and after thinking about it, she told her: "Bai Linyu called and said that Xueyan had left her, and Xueyan said that she wanted to go out for a walk alone, alone Wait a while."

After hearing this, Shen Suyu raised her eyebrows and smiled, sat on the sofa, ate some porridge, and said calmly: "This makes you happy? He Xueyan at least notified Bai Linyu before leaving, and she didn't even call you."

After hearing this, Yan Fei was neither angry nor sad. She found that her heart was surprisingly peaceful, and said with some new hope: "It doesn't matter whether you beat me or not, as long as Teacher He thinks it's okay. She's such an old man." I haven’t left the city for seven or eight years, and I’m filial enough to guard my parents every day. I figured it out, and I’m happy for her if I want to go out alone. Whether she misses me or doesn’t miss me, the earth It’s all the same, and I’m going through it.”

Shen Suyu lowered her head to eat, smiled at the corner of her mouth, looked up at the girl, her eyes suddenly softened and said: "The porridge is good, come and have a couple of bites."

Yan Fei was hungry, so she sat on the sofa and took a spoon, scooped up the porridge and put it in her mouth.Shen Suyu couldn't help touching the hair on the back of her head, and said lightly: "Yanyan, I always feel that you are different from other people."

"What's different?" Yan Fei was also quite curious.

Shen Suyu smiled and said: "You are very generous when you love people."

"Hey, I thought you were talking about something." Yan Fei pouted his head and took a few more sips of the porridge, then replied, "I've been doing it for you for so many years, and today you can see how generous I am... I'm too busy."

"I owed you." Shen Suyu said to her with a little affection: "But you didn't pester He Xueyan, you understood her in your heart and respected her... This is what He Xueyan needs. The people around her in her life are too strong , she is introverted, and there are too few people who respect her."

Yan Fei was eating, and said to Shen Suyu: "You are sober from illness, you can see through other people's affairs at a glance, and it is your turn that you are not sure at all."

"Okay, okay, I am this kind of person." Shen Suyu smiled, and then touched the top of her head: "Hurry up and finish eating, and you should go back and have a good rest, you haven't slept well."

Yan Fei sighed, she couldn't eat anymore after two more bites, packed her things, went through the formalities and drove her back first, and when Shen Suyu was delivered to her home, the phone rang.

At first glance, it was He Xueyan's.

Holding the mobile phone, she walked to the balcony of her home, pressed the phone, and said cautiously: "Xue Yan?"

The other end of the phone paused for a few seconds, hummed softly, and said softly, "Yan Fei, thank you for visiting my parents these two days."

"It's okay... I went for a stroll along the way." Yan Fei is a person who can speak well, and she doesn't know what to answer at this time: "Did you go to the hospital?"

He Xueyan's voice was not loud: "I just went to stay for an hour."

"Your parents are fine. If you want to go out, you can go out. Sister Yu has been discharged from the hospital. I can run here now. I will help you keep an eye on them every day after get off work. Don't worry." Yan Fei volunteered.

"Did Lin Yu call you and say I'm leaving?" He Xueyan guessed, pinching the phone, and said in a low voice: "You don't want to go to the hospital for now... My mother probably doesn't want to see you either. She needs to be quiet for a while. My sister will take care of her."

"...You, are you okay?" Yan Fei's heart skipped a beat.

"I talked with my mother for a while, about things with Lin Yu, and about me and you." He Xueyan frowned, but her heart was surprisingly calm.

This was something Yan Fei never expected, and he couldn't tell what he felt, "Are you out?" After a pause, he said with mixed feelings: "Should I congratulate you, or... I don't know what to say, but I I think you did a good job."

He Xueyan was silent for a while, before saying: "Thank you."

Yan Fei looked at the high-rise buildings outside, and was still happy about the phone call: "Go for a walk, when you come back, maybe she will understand, she is Xu Liping, not so old-fashioned."

"It doesn't matter anymore." He Xueyan said indifferently, then remembered on the phone and said: "Xudong just said that you are leaving too."

Thousands of miles to set up a shed, where there is a never-ending banquet.

She blamed the man for his fast talk, and it seemed that this was the end of their separate ways. Yan Fei really didn't want to admit it, "It's sort of it." After a pause, there was nothing to hide at this point: "I finished processing Bai Chen's book, Find a buyer for the house, and I will accompany Sister Yu to Hong Kong to discuss business, I may have to resign, and I will no longer engage in publishing-related matters in the future."

"Alright..." He Xueyan uttered two words, took a deep breath and didn't know what to say.

"But I didn't reconcile with Sister Yu... I just feel that I'm still young and I should make more breakthroughs. I want to have my own career, so I can't just eat and drink with you all the time." Yan Fei felt that it was really bad to say that. , but she was not sure about He Xueyan's heart.She and Bai Linyu, He Xueyan didn't say who to choose, or she didn't want to choose anyone now.

"It's fine to go out." He Xue didn't say much.

There is the sound of the airport announcement on the phone.

Yan Fei knew she was there, she pretended to be calm for a long time, but found that it was all futile, finally couldn't hold back the feeling, her eyes were sour, and she tried to cry: "He Xueyan, will I never see you again? ? You left, can I still contact you?" After a pause, he was straightforward and bold: "I went to Hong Kong to pursue a career, but that doesn't mean I won't pursue you. I know you need time to calm down, so I respect you I have always liked you, whenever you say you want to make up, I will go to you if you say anything, and I will support you even if it is difficult."

"Yan Fei..." He Xueyan called her name, and when she heard that she was always in a daze, she said lightly to her, "Go, if I miss you, I will go find you."

"What if you don't want to?" Yan Feite had no idea.

He Xueyan also seemed to let go a little bit, and patiently said to her: "I won't hide it from you." After a pause, he said softly: "I like you, but the matter between me and Lin Yu has been bothering me. If one day I look away I'm going to find you, I don't want to be with you with the burden of the past, it's not fair to you."

"You haven't thought about it for seven or eight years. You can't always ignore it. People's hearts are fleshy. I can't wait for you forever." Yan Fei smiled and cried again: "I can wait for you for three years at most. I'm 30 years old and you still can't see it, so don't you too, just go to her. I wish you two grow old, and I'm unlucky."

"Stop crying, you don't look good when you cry." He Xueyan heard the sound, the little girl was very delicate.

"I look good no matter what, I cry whenever I like, you can't control me now." Yan Fei has a temper.

"Looks good, looks good." He Xueyan coaxed a few words helplessly, and when she heard the announcer calling to board the plane, she could only say, "I'm leaving, you're fine."

"Bon voyage." Yan Fei was worried, but she maintained her usual carefree attitude. She neither begged for anything in a low voice, nor pretended to be mature. Things in this world are just like this. It's easy to get together and part ways. Everyone ends up together in the end You have to face your own life by yourself, people who can't even see clearly, why bother to get together and hurt each other.

He Xueyan has a flawed personality and doesn't want to hurt others, so she left alone.

Yan Fei hung up the phone and looked at the noon sky outside, the misty sun was willing to let out a little light.This is the world of adults. They finally stumbled and went their own way, gathering and dispersing, and cultivating independently. At least she still has some opportunities, because of this opportunity, she is not completely lost.