Cambridge Love Weekly

Lu Sheng's Memoirs 17: Who would like your senior sister as much as you do, don't you know that I like you?Cambridge, you are a pig!You are a pig!

Once the military training is over, he is a sophomore, and the student union also has a lot of activities, but after having Lu Sheng in his heart, his thoughts on the senior sister seem to disappear.Wang Xin'an was always puzzled by my actions, and he asked me again: "Why haven't you confessed?"

He has been asking about this since the beginning of school, and it is now a month since school started and the National Day holiday.In the past few days, Lu Sheng and his classmates made an appointment to go out to play, and Wang Xin'an and I could only hang out together in the Internet cafe.

Right now I'm playing billiards in the basement of the internet cafe.I didn't have much of a mind, I sat on the side drinking milk tea, and he was having fun by himself.

"Where are you people in the dormitory?" I watched him fly the ball.Both of our billiards are indeed scumbag skills.

"They all went to accompany their girlfriends, so I, who is also a single dog, came to play with you. But why don't you confess your love? Do you want me to help you?"

"No need." I refused straight away, "I was just thinking, does Lu Sheng like me? She doesn't like me, so what's the use of my confession? It should be done when two people are in love with each other. Besides, I still I didn't think about whether to spend the rest of my life with her."

"Why do you think so much? It's still a lifetime! Graduation is also a point." Wang Xin'an felt incredible, he stopped and looked at me and said, "Kang Qiao, a lifetime is so long, and you don't know what will happen in the future. Now just watch Now."

"I don't know now. I don't feel any difference. Lu Sheng is still Lu Sheng's life, and I am still my life. I don't feel the difference between before liking and after liking! I even wonder if this is liking."

"You are really troublesome. If you like it, you like it. If you don't like it, you don't like it. Is there anyone who doesn't know? Then let me ask you, who do you save when your mother and Lu Sheng fall into the water?"

"Lu Sheng. My mother is a good swimmer, and she is much better than me in the water. Maybe my mother will save me then!"

"I'll go, your mother is so powerful!" He looked surprised, "Then change it, you and Lu Sheng fell into the water, only one can live, who do you choose?"

This question stumps me.If I choose myself, then I will feel guilty for the rest of my life; if I choose Lu Sheng, I am not reconciled.But if I had to choose one, I suddenly remembered Lu Sheng's mother, that beautiful woman.

"Choose Lu Sheng to live." I said, "My mother can have another one when I am gone. What will her mother do if Lu Sheng is gone?"

"Her mother can have another one, too."

"Don't you know she is a single-parent family?" I wondered.Wang Xin'an was more puzzled than me: "Really? Why don't I know?"

"Hey, you don't know? Why do I think everyone knows? Didn't she say it last semester?"

"When? I told you!"

"Really?" I thought about it, but I couldn't remember when it was told to me. Maybe it wasn't from Lu Sheng, but I just overheard it.But the last time I went to her house, there was no sign of a man living there.

"She is a single-parent family." Wang Xin'an sighed, "So you chose her to live because of her mother? Don't you have the idea that you would rather die than live?"

I pondered for a while, and the sound of gurgling milk tea matched his hitting the ball.It felt like a long time before I came up with a sentence: "Maybe I just like her, not love. Wait until I fall in love with her one day, and then confess."

"What if you graduate before you fall in love, or she falls in love with someone else?"

This is a very serious question.I thought about it and felt irritable. I stood up and took the pole and jumped over the pole...but I still pretended to be calm and said: "I am tired after thinking too much. There must be a way for the car to reach the mountain, and the boat will naturally go straight when it reaches the bridge. Then wait." Let's talk about it when she likes someone else."

I decided to put these problems aside and continue my free life.As soon as the seven days of National Day passed, the days ran quickly.It's the annual [-]th anniversary again, and the school's favorite thing is long-distance running.I refused to participate because I was unwell.

But fortunately, with freshman elementary school girls on top, our pressure will be reduced a lot.But what I didn't expect was that the senior sister actually participated again.The specific reason is unknown.

On the day of the competition, I went to cheer for my senior, and at this time I knew that she had broken up with her senior.The lonely back makes me think she is just a girl.When the game was about to end, I made a point of picking her up.

She crossed the finish line. "Sister!" I hurriedly ran over to catch the figure that was about to fall. "Hoo hoo..."

"Sister, are you okay?" I helped her walk slowly on the lawn.

"No, nothing." She gasped, leaning against me limply.

"I'll help you back to the rest area." I said.

As soon as I walked outside the rest area, Lu Sheng stood ten meters away from me and watched me.Then she and another classmate came over and took the senior sister from me.I was a little dazed and a little apprehensive.

For the past two months, Lu Sheng is still busy, and we get along as usual.It's just, it's just that I don't feel like myself.But at that moment just now, I felt that Lu Sheng was not very happy, and I also felt a little embarrassed.

The senior was surrounded by everyone, and Lu Sheng came out from the crowd and walked out of the rest area.I followed suit.She walked out of the stadium.Behind the school's stadium is an empty avenue. Few people pass by. Everyone usually enters through the east gate and west gate. The north gate is almost useless.

At this time, the grass had turned yellow and the flowers had faded, even the trees were bare. Lu Sheng walked across the avenue and sat on a flower bed by the side of the road, with his back to me.I walked over to her and sat down with her back to back.

When no one is talking, I just feel very bad. I want to open my mouth to explain, but I can't talk about it.explain what?Explain that I'm just going to pick up my senior?But why explain it to her?

"Cambridge." Lu Sheng called me.I couldn't see her emotions, I looked down at my own shadow on the ground. "Um?"

"Are you..." She stopped talking suddenly.

"What?" I turned and sat next to her.She buried her head in her knees, looking wounded.The voice was low and deep. "nothing."

I tilted my head and thought about what she wanted to ask me, but I couldn't think of it, so I also tilted my head and lay on my lap.The sun was shining directly in front of us, it was dazzlingly white, but Lu Sheng looked extremely fragile under the light.

Perhaps on a whim, I reached out and rubbed her head, and asked her, "What did you want to ask just now?"

"Nothing." She didn't look up.

"Lu Sheng, how would I know if you don't tell me?" I was a little helpless, "And don't lie on your stomach, the sun is so good today, let's go for a walk."

She said nothing and did not move.I squatted and moved to her, stretched out my hand to hold her two arms, and pulled her up from the ground with all my might.She stood up staggeringly and knocked her head on my chest, making me groan in pain.

"Are you okay?" She rubbed her forehead and looked at me, I shook my head: "It's okay, let's go for a walk."

I took her hand and walked on the deserted road. Those hands were a little cold, and I held them tightly. I couldn't help thinking, if she is unhappy in the future, who will coax her?

I never thought that I would spend my whole life with Lu Sheng, it was too long, I didn't even want to think about my own future, let alone my future with her.I just like her at this moment, and I like her every moment I still like her.

"Cambridge." Lu Sheng said, "Do you have someone you like?"

I turned back suddenly and stared at her in astonishment. I thought she had seen through my liking for her.But she looked away and asked, "What kind of person do you like?"

Only then did I realize that she didn't know what I was thinking.I suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.I haven't decided whether to be with her or not, but she can't let her know that I like her so quickly.

"Me!" I thought about the ideal partner in my heart, and the appearance of my senior sister suddenly came to my mind. I said, "Be gentle and able to manage the house. People, you can't be too ugly, and you don't need to be too ugly." Pretty, preferably a little older than me. No bad temper or bad habits."

"Like senior sister Meng Xiao?"

"Yes." I said what was in my heart without paying attention for a while.I looked back at Lu Sheng, her face was full of sadness, I was shocked for a moment, does she also like senior sister?No, no, it's impossible, Lu Sheng is not me, how could he like girls by such a coincidence?

"You really like girls." Lu Sheng muttered to himself.Just don't like girls like me.

That's when I realized I was revealing my sexuality.I was a little dazed, and looked at Lu Sheng's expression carefully, but there was no disgust on her face, only a layer of melancholy that I couldn't understand.

"Lu Sheng, what's wrong with you?" I asked her fearfully and worriedly, she looked really bad.

"I'm fine!" She suddenly raised her head and smiled.

"Your smile is real." I exposed her lie, "If you have any questions, just ask, Lu Sheng, I don't want to guess at all, even if you like senior sister, it's no big deal."

She looked surprised: "Who? Me?" She sneered: "Do you think everyone is like you?!"

She shook off my hand and strode away.I froze and couldn't move.Sure enough, she couldn't accept it... The distant figure was getting smaller and smaller under the sun, but I just felt as if I had fallen into an ice cave.

"Do you think everyone is like you?!"

That voice echoed in my ears again, full of repulsion and disgust.Am I really an outlier in her eyes?The words that made me heartbroken kept repeating in my ears.It almost made me blind and dizzy for a while.

After a while, I buffered over, but just stood there not knowing where to go.How should I face Lu Sheng?When I decided to like her and was so disgusted.Maybe I made a mistake at the beginning, whether I like senior sister or Lu Sheng.

I shouldn't like anyone.But how can the heart be wrong?The heart can't be wrong, if she likes it, she likes it, if she doesn't like it, then let me like it quietly.

It's just that after that day, I dare not face Lu Sheng, I always feel that she looks at me with a different color when she looks at others.I was scared, so I had to actively avoid our encounter.

I sat next to Wang Xin'an again during class, and he asked me what was going on, but I just shook my head and didn't want him to get involved.After some guessing, he felt that he could understand my feeling of being hit hard, so he encouraged me not to give up, and one day I would be able to impress Lu Sheng.

But the disgust from the source is not moved by many things at all.No matter what I do, it must be crazy or just feel sick in her eyes.

Then do nothing, just stay quietly.Just like when I liked senior sister.But everything in the world is not the same.An Jingjing didn't feel bad when she liked her senior, but now I just feel extremely lost and hurt.

Because before I fell in love with Lu Sheng, she was still my good friend.So you must not like your good friend, otherwise you will have nothing if you lose it.And what hurts me the most is that as my best friend, she can't understand me as much as anyone else.

Of course, I can't blame anyone for this, but I can't restrain the unprecedented grief that erodes my body and mind, making me unwilling to face everything.

I was depressed and hurt, and everything seemed to lose its color, and no one ate with me anymore.No one will drag me to morning reading, stay up late with me to read, help me review for exams, and put on a coat for me...

Just like this, I don't know the passage of time, and I don't even know that the exam is coming, and then I fail terribly.Wang Xin'an was dumbfounded looking at my grades: "Even if you're dumb, you don't just get five points, Cambridge, what's wrong with you?"

Yes, there was one subject with only five marks.I closed my eyes, and tears rushed out in a hurry.

"Cambridge." Wang Xin'an might have been frightened, he had never seen me cry.

"I'm fine." I wiped my tears and stood up, "I'm leaving first. Go home by yourself and come out to play next time when you have time."

I went home dejected, and my mother was watching TV on the sofa. When she saw me coming back, she couldn't help but mutter: "Where did you go? It's winter, why don't you stay at home? Why do you look so depressed?"

"Mom!" I ran over and threw myself into my mother's arms, crying.

My mother was probably frightened, and she hugged me after a while and asked softly: "I'm not a child, why are you still crying? What happened? Did someone bully you, or did you break up in love?" Huh? Tell Mom, Mom will give you an analysis."

"Mom, I like girls. Am I really abnormal?" I cried, trying to find comfort from my mother.I forgot that my mom was intimidated too, especially when I told her to come out so suddenly.

But I didn't expect that my mother just hugged me more tightly and comforted me: "It's okay, it's okay, if you like girls, you like girls, it's no big deal, why are you crying like this? Do other girls think you are abnormal? , there is nothing abnormal about you, Cambridge. Just boldly like whoever you like, and your parents will support you."

"Mom—" I wailed, crying heartbreakingly until I couldn't cry anymore.

"Tell me, who do you like?" I found that my mother was more concerned about this matter, her eager eyes were full of gossip and curiosity.

I blushed and shook my head.

"If you don't say it, don't say it. What do you want to eat tonight? Let your father make it for you." Mom said happily.

"I want to eat Coca-Cola chicken wings!" My eyes lit up, and I blurted out immediately.

"Okay, wait for your father to come back and make Coca-Cola chicken wings for us."

"Mom, why didn't you do it?" I poked my head at my mother's stomach and asked her coquettishly.

"Well, as long as you dare to eat the cola chicken wings I made." I thought about it and decided to give up. "I'm still waiting for my dad to get well."

"You little villain, you betrayed too fast!"

I stuck out my tongue at my mother, but I didn't want to get up from her.My mother hugged me and patted my back gently like when I was a child.

On that day, I ate the most delicious cola chicken wings in the world. I thank God for allowing me to be the daughter of my parents.