Accompanying is the longest love confession

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2005

Li Ju looked at Wang Nan who was sitting on the hospital bed and wearing a hospital gown, and felt a little sad: "How did you make yourself like this?"

And Wang Nan spread her hands. She was blowing on the air conditioner, eating apples, and watching TV. Isn't it good? She blinked and smiled and replied, "What's wrong with me?"

Li Ju was a little annoyed. Can this person be more serious? She still has the mind to joke around. She asked seriously, "When will the surgery be?"

Hearing this, the light in Wang Nan's eyes disappeared, and the smile on his face changed into a wry one: "A week later."

This appearance of Wang Nan made Li Ju feel a little distressed. She shouldn't have treated her like this. She swept away the previous seriousness and changed her smile, grabbed the apple in Wang Nan's hand, and said with a smile: "Didn't you not cut apples before?" You don’t eat apples with the skin on, why, change the taste now?”

Wang Nan curled her mouth and said in a slightly coquettish tone: "You are gone, no one will help me peel the skin, so I can just eat it."

Li Ju smiled, picked up the fruit knife beside her, and peeled the half-eaten apple that Wang Nan had eaten.Li Ju looked at Apple, Wang Nan looked at Li Ju, the room was very quiet, only the sound of the air conditioner could be heard.

Wang Nan broke the silence: "Li Ju, do you regret it?"

Li Ju didn't look up, and continued to shave: "What do you regret?"

"I regret returning after retiring, and I persisted with my injuries." It was Wang Nan's voice, a little ethereal.

Hearing this, Li Ju stopped what she was doing, looked at Wang Nan, and the people in front of her also looked at her, and smiled: "No regrets, what is there to regret, at that time the country needed me, you needed me, so I came back .”

There were tears in Wang Nan's eyes: "Thank you."

Li Ju sighed, handed the peeled apple to Wang Nan, and said to her: "I know what you want to ask, to be honest, I really don't regret the decision at that time. But if I choose again, I may not choose to come back. The reason, I think you should also know."

Wang Nan took a bite of the apple and nodded. She knew that most of the reason why the team let Li Ju come back was because of herself. The defeat in Busan made them a little scared. Who will fight against the banner of the table tennis team, who can resist, that will undoubtedly bring Li Ju back to stabilize the morale of the army, and also for the Athens Olympics two years later.It's a pity that the promised Olympic seat was still broken.

"Have you complained?" Wang Nan asked Li Ju again.

"It's self-deception to say there is no." Li Ju smiled sadly, "It was really hard at the time, and it was really tiring for me to be able to maintain the same training as you when I was tortured by injuries. But I still persisted. I am confident that I can enter the Olympics. After all, the World Table Tennis Championships ranked third in women's singles and women's doubles. The results are not bad, but in the end, they are still regarded as abandoned. Wang Nan, I know what you are thinking now, you have to think clearly , now they make you insist, let you continue to compete, because no one can reach your level in a short period of time, 08 is still far away, no one can guarantee you can participate. Moreover, your body..."

"I know, in fact, sometimes I feel that God is unfair to me, but I also feel very kind. Although it is cancer, it sounds scary, but it is not very serious. At least it is not that kind of blood cancer, lymph cancer. Ah, lung cancer or something like that, I just need an operation. Hey, do you think God doesn’t like me and always comes to torment me every few years?” Wang Nan smiled self-deprecatingly talking.

Li Ju was about to speak, but she heard Wang Nan continue: "Actually, I also know that no one can guarantee that if I continue to persevere and play, I will be able to play 08. I never thought about it. I just think that few athletes can In his sports career, he can meet the Olympic Games held in his own country, can represent his country to participate and even raise the national flag in front of his house. I am very lucky to meet him, and I cherish this opportunity very much , only 3 years, if I persist, maybe I can achieve it. I want to work hard and work hard for my dream. I have been tied to that ball for the first half of my life, and all the honor and disgrace are brought to me by it. My, tell me, what else can Wang Nan do if he doesn’t play table tennis.”

Li Ju looked at Wang Nan, while the man was looking out the window, with deep sadness in his eyes that couldn't be resolved.Li Ju's throat was a bit congested. She knew that Wang Nan had already made a decision, and she couldn't persuade her. At first, she didn't hold out much hope, because she was also an athlete, and she had experienced it. She understood Wang Nan, after all, at that time She has already retired, just because of one sentence, Li Ju, the motherland needs you, so she came back without even thinking about it.Now that she has decided, it's good to support her herself.

She stepped forward, patted Wang Nan on the shoulder, and said to her with a smile: "Okay, Fat Nan, you have ambition, come on, I support you."

Wang Nan also laughed, stretched out her right hand and clenched her fist, and stopped in the air. When their fists touched, she said, "Thank you."

Zhang Yining came to the hospital in the third week after Wang Nan's operation.

The red eyes of the little girl made Wang Nan both distressed and funny.She patted the side of her hospital bed, and Zhang Yining sat up consciously, her voice choked up: "Sister Nan, why didn't you tell me?"

Judging from this tone, is the little girl still blaming her?Wang Nan was a little helpless: "It's useless to tell you, it may also affect your ability to practice well, and it's not serious, don't you see that I'm alive and well now, okay, it's okay, don't cry. Listen without?"

Wang Nan was a little thankful that Zhang Yining came here now. If a few days earlier, he still had a tube stuck in his throat and couldn't speak, then he wouldn't have scared the little girl.

When Zhang Yining heard this, she clenched her fists. Wang Nan was always like this, never saying anything to her, always self-righteously thinking of her, but he just wanted to be by her side when she needed someone to accompany her.The tone didn't soften, but there was more resentment: "Then you can practice well without telling me, and you said that it's just a little discomfort in the throat, it's all cancer, and it's not serious? Then what do you want? It's serious! Always Like this, if you don’t say anything and carry everything by yourself, you think you’re really a superman. I’ve said it many times, you can tell me, don’t always treat me like a child, I’m not much younger than you Years old." The more Zhang Yining said, the more excited she became, her face flushed red.

When Wang Nan saw this, the little girl might be really angry, so she hurriedly said something to comfort her, put her hands on her shoulders, stared at her, met her eyes, and smiled softly: "Okay, it's okay if sister Nan is wrong, I I promise to tell you next time no matter what."

"You swear." Zhang Yining said seriously.

Wang Nan was amused by her serious look, of course she didn't dare to show it on her face, otherwise the little girl would have swallowed her alive, she raised her right hand and said solemnly: "I swear."

Zhang Yining nodded, her face softened a lot: "It's more or less the same."

This silly girl touched Zhang Yining's head, her eyes felt a little hot.

But Wang Nan still violated the oath, she didn't tell Zhang Yining everything, she still kept it from her, and kept it for three years.

That day was partly to appease the little girl and partly because it was too late, Wang Nan left Zhang Yining in the ward.For many nights after that, Wang Nan thought that it would be great if she hadn't left Zhang Yining behind.

Unlike the past when she woke up at dawn, Wang Nan suffered from insomnia that night, while Zhang Yining slept soundly with her arm on her pillow. Looking at Zhang Yining in her arms, she couldn't help smiling softly. The little girl's excited performance today , left and right are just caring for her, the so-called caring is chaotic, she cares in a disorderly way, it is impossible for her not to be moved.Wang Nan leaned over and kissed Zhang Yining on the forehead, thank you.

As for the reason why Zhang Yining was angry, Wang Nan also knew that she was used to not saying anything, taking everything on herself and not sharing it with her. It was not because she was a child, but because of her own personality.From a poor family, she matured earlier than her peers. She left home to play since she was a child. She has always reported good news to her family but not bad news. The poor life of the team in the early years made her used to forbearance. She has been the captain of the women's team for so many years , I am used to carrying responsibilities and obligations on my shoulders, which is why I am like this now.I didn't think there was anything wrong with it, but I heard the little girl's complaint today, and I didn't expect it to be such a bad habit.

Wang Nan kept his eyes open, without any sleepiness.Until the light outside became brighter and the sun was a bit dazzling, Wang Nan wanted to get up and close the curtains, but the little girl in his arms just woke up. I don’t know if the sun outside was too bright, or the little girl was not fully awake, half-closed her eyes, her face With a big smile on her face, she stretched herself in her arms, and said to herself, "Good morning, Sister Nan."

At this moment, Wang Nan heard her own heartbeat, and she replied with a smile: "Morning." Then she turned her head and looked out the window. The sunlight was just right, and she knew that something was different.

After that, Wang Nan recalled countless times the moment when his heart was moving. The morning sun shone into the room. The two of them were squeezed together on the small hospital bed. He also returned a gentle smile, looking at each other.It was a beautiful picture, a beautiful moment, but what this beautiful moment brought to Wang Nan was nearly three years of torture.

At that moment, she realized that whether she is moved or not, whether she likes or dislikes, love and friendship are all in an instant.

The author has something to say:

Nan Ju’s first love is so beautiful, Ju Jie’s doting on Fat Nan is really boundless, after the women’s singles final, she can walk off the court with her waist hugged; watching Ju Jie’s documentary, she said that she was not allowed to play in the women’s singles at the time, and it was acceptable , but she thought at least she could do women's doubles, and she would definitely win a gold medal. I know, Sister Ju meant to be with Fat Nan. . .At that time, I was really abused. . In the World Table Tennis Championships in 03 and the Olympic Games in 04, Fat Nan and Lao Zhang stood together on the women's doubles championship platform. Thinking about Sister Ju again, alas, Nan Juning, what a bloody triangle. . .