Accompanying is the longest love confession

It took Wang Nan a month to realize the fact that he fell in love with Zhang Yining. It was a bit sweet, but more painful.The unrepentant love torments Wang Nan, the external factors are secondary, the most important thing is that the little girl doesn't like herself.

Fortunately, because of their identities as the main players in the team, they arranged rooms for them respectively, otherwise Wang Nan with such a feeling would not know how to face Zhang Yining.When Wang Nan moved out of the dormitory, Zhang Yining's aggrieved and reluctant expression made Wang Nan have a little expectation. Does she also like me a little bit?Wang Nan still didn't dare to say, she didn't dare to bet, she couldn't imagine that the little girl couldn't accept her and even hated her.She thinks that a little bit is enough, and she can always be by her side, and let that little bit of liking gradually increase until the little girl finds out by herself.She is not in a hurry, she can wait until the little girl also likes herself, until she can accept herself.

But Wang Nan's humble wish was broken by Zhang Yining himself.

During the Spring Festival of 2007, Wang Nan received a New Year call from Zhang Yining. The two of them exchanged New Year greetings as in previous years. Afterwards, Zhang Yining said to her excitedly and shyly, "Sister Nan, Xu Wei and I are together."

Wang Nan looked at her face in the mirror, she was very glad that Zhang Yining told her on the phone.When Zhang Yining called her voice again and again on the phone, Wang Nan looked at herself in the mirror and smiled slightly, which was no different from her usual smile. She replied with a smile: "Yes, congratulations, we Lao Zhang is finally wanted by someone."

She knew she was dreaming again, it was Busan again, and it was the women's team finals again.Wang Nan couldn't remember how many times he had dreamed about this game.In the dream, she watched herself lose again; she watched herself facing the reporters surrounded by a wall after the women's singles final, looking up, holding back tears, swallowing countless times to suppress the tears she wanted to cry Impulsive, let my voice be the same as usual; I watched myself cover my face with a towel after winning the World Table Tennis Championships, and cried loudly.

This is her own inherent pride. She doesn't want anyone to see her fragility and unbearability. She has to hold back no matter how difficult it is. Even if she raises her face again after burying her head and crying, she still has to smile.

She saw her desperate expression when she stood on the balcony and looked down after losing the game. It was the urge to jump off the tall building.But she heard Zhang Yining calling her again, and the little girl said to her, Sister Nan, I believe in you, I have always believed in you.Wang Nan's eyes were red, idiot, but I don't believe in myself anymore, how can you believe me, how can you believe me.

Then she saw Zhang Yining holding Xu Wei's hand, saying goodbye to herself with a smile, their figures gradually disappeared, she wanted to catch up, but those microphones and cameras surrounded her again, more and more, More and more, she was about to be overwhelmed.

Wang Nan screamed and sat up, those pictures disappeared completely.Holding her forehead, she felt a strong pain in her wrist. She looked at her left hand and smiled bleakly. Heh, are you here to join in the fun again?

The pain was transmitted along the nerves to the heart to the brain, and she had the urge to chop off her left hand. Maybe the pain of being chopped off was easier than it is now.Lifting the quilt, getting out of bed, Che Shulu gently opened the drawer, sleeping pills or painkillers?

She smiled wryly, why, haven't you recalled enough of your dream?He picked up the painkiller, squeezed two pills, and swallowed them directly.Looking at the clock on the wall, it was 04:30 in the morning, which was much later than before.

Opening the door and going out, it was still the playground and the stone chair. Wang Nan picked up a small stone and drew a horizontal line at the bottom of the street lamp. She wanted to count how many times she was awakened by the nightmare. But those scratches were so messy that Wang Nan couldn't count how many sleepless nights this was.In the past, Wang Nan had only one nightmare, the Busan Asian Games, but now there is another one, her junior sister, Zhang Yining.

I also dreamed that she and Xu Wei were gone, and dreamed that I was abandoned.

She covered her face and smiled, Wang Nan, Wang Nan, why are you so worthless, why can't you forget, why do you like to make mistakes so much.

Wang Nan leaned back and looked at the sky. The night in Beijing is really eerily quiet.

A drop of water dripped on his face, Wang Nan wiped it with his hand, is it raining?Hey, it will still rain in Beijing.The rain was getting heavier and heavier, Wang Nan thought, it seemed that he couldn't help the little girl make breakfast today.

She smiled and shook her head, went back to her room, and fell headfirst on the bed.

First, a clear sense of smell, a smell of disinfectant, and a fever again?She was a little helpless.

Wang Nan opened her eyes, only to find that Zhang Yining was lying on her left hand side. She reached out to touch the man's head, but stopped in the air again.

Can't get close, can't let go, Zhang Yining, what should I do with you.

At this moment, Zhang Yining woke up, and Wang Nan smiled at her: "Why did you fall asleep here?"

Zhang Yining looked at her worriedly, with too many emotions in her eyes, with blame and distress, she said: "When I went to find you yesterday morning, I found that you had a fever again..."

Before Zhang Yining finished speaking, Wang Nan asked in surprise, "Yesterday? I slept all day?"

Zhang Yining, who was sitting by the bed, nodded.

"Have you been guarding here all night?" Wang Nan asked.

Zhang Yining continued to nod.

This silly girl.She said, "How many degrees this time?"

"39" Zhang Yining paused, "Sister Nan, you can move in with me." It was more like an order than a question.

Wang Nan was a little funny, the little girl dared to talk to herself like that, she was really stiff.She looked at Zhang Yining with a heartless smile on her face: "Why, I'm fine on my own, so I won't move."

"What's wrong?" Zhang Yining's tone was full of anger, "I saw all the medicines in your drawer! Is that why you don't care about your own body?"

Wang Nan still smiled, disapprovingly: "I only eat it because of love. You see, this wrist hurts and you can't sleep. Then I don't have to take sleeping pills or painkillers. Only after I sleep can I have the energy to go to practice. Ah, I have the energy to take care of my body, and I'm not eating indiscriminately, I'm following the doctor's advice, okay, I know my body best, so don't worry about it."

So in her eyes, her concern is just worrying. Zhang Yining wanted to get angry and question her, but seeing Wang Nan's pale face, she held back again. Forget it, she is still sick, so what is she fussing about with a patient? , let go of his fist, and said calmly: "I'll help you buy something to eat." Then he walked out of the room.

God knows how much effort Wang Nan took to resist the urge to hold Zhang Yining.What can you say if you hold it back, he has a boyfriend, and you are just a senior sister.

The door was opened again, Wang Nan thought it was Zhang Yining, and it was a doctor who came in, he walked over and pulled out the needle on Wang Nan's right hand.Wang Nan said, "Thank you."

The doctor paused, and said earnestly: "Wang Nan, if you torture your body like this, you will always be the one who suffers in the end."

Wang Nan nodded, she knew what she was doing, she knew what was going on with her body, Wang Nan stared at her left hand, she probably understood the so-called deep love.

She once promised Zhang Yining that she would always be with her.It's just that how long can I walk with her in this rotten body?

Wang Nan knocked on the leader's door and said to the people inside: "I want to apply to be a coach."

She leaned on the door frame and looked at Zhang Yining who was fighting with her teammates. The little girl smiled happily. Whether it was a senior sister or a coach, it was enough to be with you and watch you all the time.