Accompanying is the longest love confession

Zhang Yining couldn't fall asleep, how could she fall asleep?Her mind was full of Xu Wei and Wang Nan, and the two faces changed back and forth. Zhang Yining felt that she was going crazy. She was obviously not sure about her feelings for Wang Nan, but she also felt that she had betrayed Xu Wei, her legitimate boyfriend.

She was annoying, very annoying, and she almost didn't know who her heart was for.

Running is a common way for Zhang Yining to solve her troubles.After running for countless laps, her body was exhausted, she walked to the stone chair in front of her to rest, gasping for breath, her brain got a moment of peace.It was already late at night, and the playground was empty, and her heart gradually calmed down.Inadvertently, I caught sight of the junction of the street lamp beside the stone chair and the ground, there are many scratches, of different sizes, in a mess.Does this count as vandalism?If you let yourself catch this person next time, you must teach him a lesson.

This meeting is finally quiet, at least I can still joke.She looked up, the moonlight was just right, the playground was empty, only the sound of her own breathing and heartbeat.She closed her eyes, stroked her left atrium with her right hand, felt her heartbeat, thumping.

She thought, she couldn't go on like this, she had to take care of her feelings.

He opened his eyes again, smiled slightly, and was completely clear.

Zhang Yining stood up, clapped her hands, and went back to the dormitory.She was getting farther and farther away from the stone chair and street lamp, and each chair and lamp looked very lonely in the dark night. What Zhang Yining who was far away didn't know was that Wang Nan, who liked Zhang Yining, suffered from countless crushes and injuries. In the tormented sleepless night, a person sat under the street lamp and licked the wound. Those irregular scratches were Wang Nan scratching with a small stone again and again, recording her bitter secret love.

It was still the same, Zhang Yining was still sitting on the table during the training break, and she began to sort out her feelings.Wang Nan said that she likes herself. Since 05, Zhang Yining thought back to these years. Although Wang Nan and herself did not live in the same house, they were still together most of the time. Whether it was practicing basketball or eating, they usually chatted and made jokes. , There is no change from before 05, is it because I didn't observe carefully enough?

A person who likes me for so many years, or a person who gets along day and night, I don't realize it at all, is it because she hides it too deeply?Or did I miss something from the beginning?

At first, Zhang Yining recalled the first time she met Wang Nan.

In 1996, Zhang Yining entered the national team.She walked with the peloton, visiting places all athletes dream of.Walking to the training hall, Zhang Yining saw Wang Nan who was training at a glance. She was not far away from him, and he could clearly see the sweat on her face.

She was fighting someone, and the opponent was Li Ju, which Zhang Yining only found out later.Wang Nan pulled a ball sideways, but Li Ju rushed over and failed to save the ball. The ball fell to the ground steadily. Wang Nan raised his right hand to Li Ju and made a V sign. , hot pot, hot pot." Li Ju nodded and smiled, without the slightest unwillingness or anger, she put her arms around Wang Nan's shoulders, and said with a smile that could not be concealed: "Okay, I am willing to bet and admit defeat, let's go, sister will take you Let's go eat a big meal." Wang Nan who was hugged also naturally put her hands around Li Ju's waist, and the two walked out of the field talking and laughing.Zhang Yining stood behind the two of them and watched, not knowing what the two of them said halfway, Wang Nan turned her head and laughed at Li Ju.That smile infected Zhang Yining, and she unconsciously raised the corners of her mouth.

That was the first time Zhang Yining met Wang Nan, 15-year-old Zhang Yining met 18-year-old Wang Nan, and 18-year-old Wang Nan was so high-spirited and reckless.

Zhang Yining knew very well that in Wang Nan's memory, the two of them met for the first time in 97. Half a year after he entered the national team, it was Li Sun who took him to find her.After that, the two of them became teachers and sisters and lived in the same room.

From 97 to 99, Zhang Yining probably had the most relaxed years. As a junior in the team, she did not have the responsibility and pressure of the main force.And Wang Nan also takes care of her in every detail, and she is also happy to be cared for by Wang Nan in every aspect, although this "being cared for" also includes helping her who is surprisingly lazy to wash clothes occasionally, and cleaning the bedroom floor alone. And the person who took care of her, in the standard Northeast sitting posture, was smiling and admiring her labor status.

My little thought came after the World Table Tennis Championships in the Netherlands in 99. That World Table Tennis Championships was my first time to participate in an international competition.

World-class competition, world-class master, Zhang Yining is nervous, but more excited.

He was adjusting his state beside the arena when he suddenly heard someone calling his name. Zhang Yining followed his reputation and looked over. Not far away, Wang Nan held a paddle in his left hand and water in his right. He tilted his head and looked at him with a smile.

Zhang Yining walked over and asked, "Sister Nan, why are you here?"

Wang Nan didn't answer directly, but asked her softly, "Are you nervous?"

"A little bit." Zhang Yining replied honestly.

Wang Nan didn't speak, and handed herself the water in her right hand. She reached out to grab the other end of the bottle, but Wang Nan didn't let go, and pulled herself towards her with the water bottle, leaning sideways, and said in her ear: "I Waiting for you in the final."

The exhaled air brushed over Zhang Yining's ears, a little itchy, and the hot air traveled along the nerves to the heart, which was warm.

Zhang Yining, who was sitting on the billiard table, couldn't help scratching her ears. The itching feeling was still so clear. She felt her heart beating irregularly. She stroked her heart and felt a little throbbing.

I must have felt this way back then, Zhang Yining closed her eyes again, and tried hard to recall how she felt at that time.

She looked at Wang Nan who was close in front of her, and the man also looked at her, smiling slightly, with a gentle and firm expression, and her heart contracted slightly.

That's right, it's here, was it because I was too excited?Still too nervous?Thus ignoring the feeling of this moment?

She remembered that she nodded solemnly and said, "OK"

In that final, she arrived as scheduled.

For a long time, Wang Nan was her role model and her goal to catch up with, but when Zhang Yining was about to catch up with her goal, she had small thoughts and small emotions.In particular, she and Wang Nan belong to Li Sun's coach. That person is the main force, the world champion, and the number one seed in the Olympics. The coach naturally puts her first in everything. He understands it, but accepting it is another matter.Seven points of unwillingness, two points of resentment, and one point of jealousy, Zhang Yining really loved and hated Wang Nan at that time, loved her thoughtfulness and carefulness, hated her brilliance and excellence.

Li Sun knew her thoughts and emotions, and so did Wang Nan.How could Wang Nan not know, Zhang Yining at this meeting is the former Wang Nan.Those thoughts, those little jealousies, Wang Nan had, to Deng Yaping, to Qiao Hong.

Everything got better after Wang Nan was assigned to be coached by Li Xiaodong.At that time, Wang Nan had already won two gold medals in the Sydney Olympics and achieved a Grand Slam.Zhang Yining is happy for her, her sister Nan should have such achievements, Wang Nan's devilish training before the Olympics, Zhang Yining feels distressed and admires, and the two Olympic gold medals gave her the perfect reward.Zhang Yining was really happy for her, and also for herself, she finally saw the light.

When Zhang Yining won her first world championship, she thought, it's time, it's time.

But she still lost. In the Ninth National Games, she lost to Wang Nan in the women's singles final.Why?Even though I practiced so hard, it was 3:0, why did I still lose.

Wang Nan was angry, this was the first time Zhang Yining clearly saw the anger on Wang Nan's face, and it was towards herself.Ever since the two of them lived together, Wang Nan had never been angry with her. If he provoked her, he would at most say something with a straight face, but this time Zhang Yining really felt Wang Nan's anger.She knew why, it was Zhang Yining's own fault, who told her to be passive in the game, but she still felt uncomfortable, her sister Nan was angry with her, Zhang Yining was a little wronged, she wanted to apologize to Wang Nan, but Wang Nan's stern face was so frightened She didn't dare to speak, so she followed Wang Nan obediently.

The man walked forward with big strides. He lowered his head and looked at Wang Nan's pace without any intention of stopping. She was really angry. Zhang Yining reminded herself again that her nose was a little sore.Suddenly the person in front stood still, Zhang Yining was immersed in self-pity, she didn't notice, she still walked forward, and bumped into Wang Nan naturally.

Zhang Yining held her nose, feeling a little pain.And Wang Nan also turned around covering the back of his head, with a little anger in his eyes, and said in a bad tone: "Why are you following me?"

When the words fell, Zhang Yining's eyes turned red. She lowered her hands and lowered her head, not daring to look at Wang Nan. Her voice was hoarse: "I'm sorry, Sister Nan."

Wang Nan looked at Zhang Yining with red eyes, the little girl still had an aggrieved expression on her face, and apologized timidly to her, feeling as if she was bullying her, Wang Nan smiled helplessly, stretched out her hand and pinched Zhang Yining's fair skin The face, the little girl has grown taller again, I am almost half a head shorter than her now, alas, after all, she is a senior sister, she is big, she opened her mouth, without the impatience and anger before, with a gentle expression: "How is it? Nose Are you okay? Is there any bump pain?" He stroked Zhang Yining's nose and observed carefully.

This gentle tone completely opened Zhang Yining's tears. She hugged Wang Nan, buried her head on her right shoulder, and burst into tears.The grievances and unwillingness of these years, the complicated feelings for her, the discomfort after losing, all emotions, poured out at this moment.

Wang Nan hugged Zhang Yining and stroked her back. The little girl cried like this, of course she knew the reason.

After a long time, Zhang Yining stopped crying, came out of Wang Nan's arms, rubbed her eyes, and asked cautiously, "Sister Nan, are you still angry?"

Wang Nan smiled and shook her head, reaching out to help her wipe the tears off her face: "You are crying like this, how dare I be angry. Alright, wipe away the tears, we have to go back by car." Holding Zhang Yining's hand, she walked towards the bus.

Zhang Yining let Wang Nan pull him. Looking at the man's back, she admired Wang Nan's open-mindedness and magnanimity. She seemed to understand the so-called style of a general.

Standing at the other end of time, Zhang Yining looked at her and Wang Nan at that time. In fact, at that time, they hadn't been truly flattered or humiliated.

And when Wang Nan did it, the price she paid was so huge.

Busan in 02 was probably the nightmare of Wang Nan's life. She still remembered that after the man lost, the first time she saw her was to comfort herself. Obviously she was the one who needed comfort the most.

Zhang Yining was not Wang Nan, she couldn't understand Wang Nan's mood during that time, but saw Wang Nan who was full of confidence and smiling, frowning all day long, questioning herself over and over again.Zhang Yining was very distressed, but she couldn't comfort Wang Nan. As soon as she opened her mouth, Wang Nan comforted her emotions in turn, pretending to be strong and saying to her: "Don't worry, I'm fine. Just practice hard."

Zhang Yining knew that she couldn't give Wang Nan the same affection she had for Wang Nan. She trusted Wang Nan, relied on Wang Nan, and didn't have to hide her ugliness in front of her. She would let go of her pride and burden and cry loudly in front of her.

But Wang Nan will not.

why?Sitting on the table, Zhang Yining was a bit puzzled. She still doesn't understand. She used to think that her strength was not comparable to Wang Nan, but when Wang Nan and Zhang Yining were mentioned together for a long time, when The two of them faced off again and again in major competitions. When she stood side by side with her on the highest podium again and again, Zhang Yining still subconsciously relied on her, relied on her, even if that person is gone now, when she met When there is a problem, when there is trouble, Wang Nan is the first thing that comes to mind. In the past, I was afraid that Sister Nan was there anyway, but now it would be fine if Sister Nan was there.

And that person still never shows her vulnerability in front of her, but shouldn't she know everything about herself when she likes someone, whether it's good or bad, she should reveal her heart in front of her lover, it's true for her Do you like yourself?

Zhang Yining didn't know whether he was questioning Wang Nan's feelings for her or complaining about her.

Ah, yes, she seems to have forgotten that the Wang Nan who fell in love with her is the one who has gone through Busan in 02, the World Table Tennis Championships in Paris in 03, the Athens Olympics in 04, and cancer in 05. It is Wang Nan who has a truly open-minded heart and has truly achieved neither humiliation nor surprise.

Zhang Yining felt that she was a little funny, liking was liking, relying on was relying on, how could she confuse the two, at that time Wang Nan treated her just like she treats Ding Ning and Xiaoxia now.And the current self, just like Wang Nan back then, has no way and will never show his vulnerable side in front of the two of them.

And the person Wang Nan can trust wholeheartedly is probably Qiao Hong, and maybe Li Ju.

Both of them came back because of Wang Nan, one is her trusted senior sister, and the other is a teammate who has fought side by side with her for many years. Their return has brought Wang Nan great support and encouragement.

Because of the close relationship with Wang Nan, Zhang Yining often stays with them, and she can clearly feel that Wang Nan is a side that she, herself, and other team members don't have at all in front of them.That Wang Nan is relaxed, can be mischievous, funny, and occasionally act like a baby.

And when the four of them are together, unlike her usual chattering self, she is often a quiet listener, listening to them tell stories about those years, those who have retired long ago, and those who are not around her. In the old days, her sister Nan was the youngest member of the team.

"Hey, old Zhang, do you know?" Qiao Hong patted Zhang Yining on the shoulder, put her arms around her, and said with a smile on her face, "You sister Nan, ouch, it's terrible, obviously The youngest one in the team, but he has a big temper and is not afraid of us old players at all. Just one thing, the meeting is still poor, and there is only one TV in the team. If we want to watch TV, we have to move it by ourselves. Zhang stool, I went to a room to watch TV. At that time, I teased her, saying that people who have never won a world championship are not allowed to watch TV here. You know, I have fooled many people like this before. The reaction was very aggrieved, and then I asked me with red eyes, really, those demos are very pitiful. Hey, it turned out to be your sister Nan, guess what happened to her, she pulled out the small stool from under her buttocks, raised her face, and made a With a particularly disdainful expression, he said coldly: "If you don't look at it, don't look at it, who cares. Oh, you haven't seen it, that expression is really amazing, come on, Li Ju learns."

Desperate, Li Ju immediately rolled up her sleeves, cleared her throat, "Here we are." After speaking, he seemed to use all his strength to mobilize his facial muscles, and made an extremely exaggerated expression.

Zhang Yining and Qiao Hong were completely amused, and Wang Nan who was on the side had already rushed forward, covered Li Ju's face, and retorted for his own dignity: "It's not that exaggerated, you are slandering me, don't slander me as a wise man The image of martial arts."

"Hey, you are still wise and powerful, please don't insult this word." The one who spoke was Li Ju, who was thrown down by Wang Nan, patted the ashes on his body, and gave Wang Nan a supercilious look.

"That's right, Wang Nan, other people don't know about you, don't Li Ju and I know about you? Your black history, will I tell you all about it?" Qiao Hong still put her arms around Zhang Yining and looked at it proudly. Looking at Wang Nan, then looking at Zhang Yining: "Old Zhang, tell me, did your sister Nan bully you because of her own qualifications? Tell me if you have something, and your sister Qiao Hong will avenge you, and I will train her to death."

Zhang Yining really can't laugh or cry, sister Qiao Hong, you said you want to bully sister Nan, you just go straight to it, why did you bring me along, how difficult it is for me to be caught in the middle, do you really want to help me or do you want to hurt me Me, Zhang Yining helped me, but I had to answer respectfully: "No, Sister Nan is very good to me and takes good care of me. Not only me, but all our team members are also very good."

"Really? Don't be afraid of what your sister Nan said deliberately against your will." Qiao Hong continued to tease.

Zhang Yining looked at Qiao Hong sincerely, and said, "It's true, Sister Nan is really nice."

Wang Nan on the side laughed when he heard this, the little girl can really talk.She stood up, snatched Zhang Yining back from Qiao Hong's hand, looked at Qiao Hong and said, "Sister Qiao Hong, don't keep trying to provoke me and my junior sister, I'm on good terms with Lao Zhang. You continue to chat, we will start Go back to the room to rest, see you later." He made a face to Qiao Hong and Li Ju, waved his hand, and pulled Zhang Yining away.

Looking at the backs of the two of them going away, Qiao Hong couldn't help but feel that the little girl who used to follow her behind to eat chocolate had grown up and became someone else's senior sister and the leader of the Chinese women's table tennis team figure.This life is really a cycle.

But Zhang Yining, who was pulled by Wang Nan, looked at Wang Nan who was close at hand, but felt that she was far away from her. These days, she watched Wang Nan and Qiao Hong and Li Ju gag, talking and laughing.She found that Zhang Yining couldn't fit into the world of the three of them.For the first time, she really felt that Wang Nan and her seemed to be from two different ages.She has witnessed Wang Nan's peak and glory, and also accompanied her through the trough and darkness, and now she is a doubles partner, a teammate who fights side by side. This experience made her think that she and Wang Nan are the closest to each other People, and the appearance of Qiao Hong and Li Ju let Zhang Yining know, oh, to Wang Nan, she was just a junior sister who appeared in the middle, but Wang Nan participated in everything about her.Nearly 5 years of living together made Zhang Yining gradually forget the gap between her and Wang Nan, but this time, it reminded Zhang Yining that she and Wang Nan are not only three years apart, there is a gap between them, and a time gap The gap, no matter how hard Zhang Yining tried, he couldn't cross the gap.

But later, a long time later, when Zhang Yining, who had retired for many years, faced the interview camera, without thinking, she blurted out: "I and Wang Nan are from the same generation." Zhang Wang, or the later Nanning, made Wang Nan and Zhang Yining, two leading figures of different eras, inseparable, and made the insurmountable gap in Zhang Yining's subconscious disappear completely. It is Wang Nan's company and persistence for nearly ten years.

The author has something to say:

Regarding the time when Lao Zhang entered the national team and met Fat Nan for the first time, Baidu Encyclopedia shows that he entered the national team in 1996, and in her documentary, Li Zhi said that because Lao Zhang played like Xiaoshan Zhili, he was pulled Into the first team.In addition to the 12 strongest people on the surface a few days ago, Lao Zhang personally said that when Fat Nan was the main force, he would not notice her small players (the resentment from the devil~~ hahaha) So, about the two of them There was a time difference of half a year when we met for the first time.

According to Fat Nan, after the Ninth National Games finals, the two of them went directly back to the provincial team. They met again in the national team. They met each other and smiled, and then Lao Zhang hugged Sister Nan and cried, hahaha. . .The real situation is also very cute. The change here is mainly because I am happy. .Hahaha. .

The matter of Fat Nan watching TV was mentioned in a press release. . .When I looked for it later, I couldn't find it. .Hahaha. .I can only write by feeling. .

The stalk of Fat Nan following Qiao Hong asking for chocolate is from Qiao Hong's documentary.The two of them were also the same coach back then, and Qiao Hong was the main force, mainly training Qiao Hong, and taking care of Fat Nan when she was free. The situation was exactly the same as that of Fat Nan and Lao Zhang later on.