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I asked my brother if he had watched "Love in Blue" and "Winter Sonata", and he said no.Instead, Jin Chao became interested, and used his eloquent ability to differentiate and comprehensively explain the plots of the two dramas. He spoke vividly as if he were a screenwriter, which aroused my brother's curiosity, and wished he could compare the two dramas immediately. The show is spot on.

In our house, there is a TV with a DVD player, and Jin Chao bought the VCDs of these two dramas from a video store outside.After my brother stayed up all night on the weekend, his eyes were red and swollen from crying. I gave Jin Chao a hateful look: "Look, it's all your fault."

"Didn't you mention it first?" He countered me unwillingly.

Lin Daiyu is a woman made of water, and she has endless tears all her life; my elder brother is a man made of water, and her life is too tender.

Is my brother supposed to cast a female fetus, but accidentally cast a male fetus?

In the spring of the following year, SARS swept across the entire land, causing panic, and everyone was in danger. When we went to the street, the smell of disinfectant was everywhere, and every pedestrian was in a hurry, wearing a mask.

At the end of March, the superior unit issued an order strongly urging the closure of all primary and secondary schools and colleges and universities in the city.Therefore, I was forced to live on campus, and it lasted for more than two months. During my stay at school, my thoughts about my brother surged up and down like a tide, and then surged up again. Embarrassed tonight."I vaguely felt that my dependence and affection on him were no longer as pure as before.I want to see the torture that I can't see, and I am about to become sick from lovesickness.My brother's internship unit did not stop working because of SARS. He still had to take the bus to and from get off work on time every day. I was worried about his safety all day long.It wasn't until the end of the final exam that the school was finally unsealed, and I rushed home non-stop to meet the person who made me miss him like crazy.

"Dong dong dong" I knocked on the door, and it was him who opened the door. I hugged him tightly by the waist, buried my head in his heart, and said coquettishly, "Brother, I miss you so much."

At the beginning of June, my brother and Jin Chao were going back to school to prepare for the graduation project, graduation thesis, defense and participation in the graduation party.

"Finally I can rest, and I don't have to work day and night to sell Zhou's skin and blood." Jin Chao said with a smile.

Although they don't have to go to work, they are too busy to see anyone for a month.

In July, my brother graduated.At the same time, he is also a lucky one, because the internship unit signed a regularization contract with him.

In August, Jin Chao found another job in a foreign-funded enterprise.

During the summer vacation, I started to learn to cook so that my brother would not be tired when he came home from get off work every day.

"Brother, try it quickly, how does the fish-flavored pork shreds I learned today taste like?"

"Brother, what do you want to eat tonight? I'll make it for you."

"Brother, my cooking skills are not as good as yours, so you can just eat a few more bites, okay?"

"Brother, how about we eat hot pot today?"

"Brother, I want to cook for you for the rest of my life."

……

I always ask my brother what he wants to eat before cooking.Therefore, Jin Chao was sour and vinegary, and often picked on me, saying that this dish was still raw, and then saying that there was too much salt in that dish.

"If you have the surname Jin, if you dare to say one more word, put your chopsticks for me immediately, pick and choose, don't eat if you have the ability, and leave it to my brother. Knowing that you are rich, go out and have a big meal . "I don't show my anger and treat me as a sick cat.

"Pingsi, look, there are no rules, I don't know, I thought you taught it by yourself." Jin Chao brought out my brother to suppress me, "I didn't mean anything about your craftsmanship. It’s not that bad, it’s just...we’re a family, aren’t we? When you’re cooking, you can also ask me what I like to eat, and ask your brother all the time, am I not your brother?” At the end, Jin People actually pretended to be wronged.

"Then, Brother Jin, what would you like to have for breakfast tomorrow? I'll make you a small one, and I'll make sure you're satisfied, Ang." I asked him with a sinister smile.

"Forget it, I'd better go to work to have breakfast, I can't control the laxatives or something in your breakfast."

"I...Jin Chao, you really treat people's good intentions like donkeys!" I moved over to my brother, hugged his neck and complained: "Brother, look, who are these people? Serving him well, he actually bullied me."

"Jin Chao, you have spoken too much, why don't you apologize quickly and tell An Qing that you are sorry."

"Come, come, Master An Qing, I'm here to apologize to you. Your prime minister can row a boat in his belly, and the general can run a horse on his forehead. Don't be as knowledgeable as a young man." Jin Chao pulled me up, looking serious He bent down, bowed and clasped his fists to make an apology.

"Hmph, I don't know as much as you do."

"Okay, let's eat. With the two of you living treasures at home, it's really not peaceful to eat."

Jin Chao and I have nothing to do with each other, we have a small quarrel every three days, and we have a big quarrel every five days, but there is a sense of "home" in the quarrel.

Several times during these two months, my brother brought another person home for dinner.This person is his classmate in the university, and he was arranged to practice in the same unit as him.

My brother is not like the Jin Dynasty, he knows where he goes, and he can call others brothers in less than a day.My brother doesn’t talk much, and he doesn’t have many friends. Since I’ve known him for so long, I haven’t heard him mention others, and I haven’t seen him bring back people other than the Jin Dynasty. Every time my brother brings him Before that friend came back to eat, he would call the landline at home and ask me to cook more meals.

That friend's name is Shang Shu, he is from this city, his family is well-off, his parents are both in business, he is an authentic rich second generation.However, no matter how you look at his words and deeds, you can't tell that he is a rich second generation. He can't see or smell the dandyism of the rich family at all, and he looks like a down-and-out young master from a poor family.After graduation, he didn't need to look for a job, he just went home to inherit his father's business.

When I heard his name for the first time, I spit out a mouthful of food, because after studying history for a year, I knew that in ancient times, the class status of "scholars, farmers, businessmen" was very important, so I joked with him: "In ancient times, people were more Pay attention to the distinction between "scholar, farmer, businessman and businessman" class, your parents must want you to study hard, once you are named on the gold list, you will rise to the top, and you will be honored from then on. "Master Shangshu" is such a prestigious official title."

"An Qing's head turned quickly. I have been with you for four years, and I don't know that I can still make fun of you like this, 'Master Shangshu'." It was rare for my brother to be serious, and he joked about Shangshu's name together.

"Brother, that means your arc is long enough to go around the earth." I made fun of this well-behaved person, and suddenly remembered something, so I turned my head to look at Jin Chao, and started to tease him strangely: "Speaking of someone , Is it the Western Jin Dynasty or the Eastern Jin Dynasty? If it is the Western Jin Dynasty, it does not have the appearance of Tan Lang; the Eastern Jin Dynasty lacks the tranquility and seclusion of Tao Qian..." Hahaha~ Before I finished speaking, I made myself laugh first.

"I said you boy, didn't you just study history for a year? I dare to be a historian or archaeologist in the future, and my head is full of things that are out of shape." Jin Chao poked my head with his finger to teach me, Then he went to complain to my brother: "Ping Si, An Qing bullied me again."

"No way, who made your names so meaningful for historical exploration." My brother replied Jin Chao pretending to be serious.Then he smiled and said: "Don't talk about you, even I was raped by him at the beginning." Looking at Jin Chao and their faces of disbelief, he continued: "It's because I introduced the name and said it was Sisi. , the child said, 'Your parents gave you ideas, and they must want you to be a great thinker in the future'."

Ha ha ha ~ suddenly burst into laughter.

"You little brat, the name our parents gave you can be used as a joke by you innocently." Shang Shu smiled and stood up and grabbed me, tearing my mouth open.

"Master Shangshu, spare me, I don't dare anymore, I don't dare anymore. Brother, save me!"

Later, we gave him a nickname—Master Shangshu.

In the second year of junior high school, I realized that the real natural enemy in the course was waiting for my arrival, and that was physics, which could kill me the most.No matter how hard I try, I have memorized those public announcements and theoretical knowledge, but I still can't use it in the topic.

My brother finally surrendered after tutoring me for a semester.I saw his disappointed eyes, shivering even more in the cold winter.

Jin Chao suddenly became very normal at this time, and no longer laughed at me like usual.Zheng'er Bajing said: "Ping Si, don't worry too much, An Qing, I guess he has struggled with physics in this life, let's not push him too much, if physics is not good, then let's work more on other homework alright."

"I didn't force him, it's just... An Qing can learn every subject very well, why can't she learn physics?" My brother was finally discouraged and calmed down a lot, saying: "That's the only way, let nature take its course .”

"Brother, I'm sorry." Thinking of my brother's hard work in the past few months, I couldn't help feeling annoyed.

"Nothing, no one is perfect."

"Xiao Anqing, I think you are good at liberal arts, but you are really bad at science. You have to learn chemistry in the third grade of junior high school. You should be mentally prepared. I guess you will be a mess in chemistry. I can't learn well..." Jin Chao began to tease me again, he still wanted to talk, hung his appetite, kept pretending to worry about wringing his fingers, and said after a long while: "I'm really worried about your high school entrance examination. "

"Go away! I know you have nothing good to say."

Someone from Jin pretended not to notice my anger at all, hugged my brother in his arms, and kept laughing.

In front of me, my brother has always paid more attention to the intimate words and deeds between them, so he immediately sat upright from his arms, with a genuine worried expression on his face.Even I was asking questions in my heart, physics is not good, what about chemistry?What will it be like to learn?unimaginable.

In the first semester of the third year of junior high school, I took the final report card and spread it fiercely in front of Jin Chao. I pointed to my nearly full score in chemistry and showed him, "Brother Jin, take a good look at it. Your alarmist words have made my brother and me worry for half a year."

Jin Chao hadn't spoken yet, but my brother spoke first: "An Qing, don't say that about your brother Jin Chao, he was really worried about you back then." Someone in Jin saw that my brother was helping him. Under the gaze of my four eyes, I stood up humming a little song and walked across the room, "holding my head high" with a great look.

My brother looks at Jin Chao with the eyes of favor, and with me the eyes of kindness.How much he loves Jin Chao, needless to say, I know that my brother, this fish, can't live without Jin Chao's water.

04.

Winter goes to spring, and it is another year of "green poplar smoke outside the dawn and coldness, and red apricot branches in spring".

At this time, online songs appeared on the Internet on a whim, such as "Two Butterflies", "Fairy Tale", "Mouse Loves Rice", "Song of Pigs", "Lilac Flower", "Lonely Northern Hemisphere", "Who Do You Think of When You Are Lonely" " and so on were so popular at that time.

Jin Chao changed the ringtone of his mobile phone to "Mice Love Rice".

I said: "It's really vulgar."

He said: "What do you know?" Then he called my brother: "Ping Si."

My brother replied to him: "What?"

Jin Chao raised his mobile phone and kissed it, singing: "I love you, I love you, just like a mouse loves rice."

"Not serious." Although my brother said that he was not serious, but the sweet smile on his face that just got up from the sugar bowl has already betrayed him.

Seeing my brother's happy appearance made me feel uncomfortable.

My elder brother is not good at pentameter and hardly sings, but there are always unprecedented times.

One day, when I came home from study in the evening, I saw that the lights were not turned on in the room, and I thought there was no one at home.Just as I was about to take out the key to open the door, I heard a voice inside, a cappella without any accompaniment: "I forgot how long I haven't heard you tell me your favorite story. I thought about it for a long time and I started to panic, didn't I?" What did I do wrong again You cried and told me that fairy tales are all lies The angel you love spreads its arms and turns into wings to protect you. You have to believe and believe that we will write our ending together like happiness and joy in a fairy tale..."

It was my brother's gentle and magnetic voice.

Although the song "Fairy Tale" was not very well sung, it still made me so beautiful that I froze in place. I wished him secretly in my heart: "I hope happiness and happiness are your ending."

"Jin Dynasty, happy birthday." The voice came from my brother's vocal cords that were nourished by love.

My brother's voice made me feel sad, wronged, and tears rolled up, and I said to myself: "I am still not as important as him in your heart. After all these years, you never told me on my birthday. These four words."

There was no sound in the room, no need to think about it, it must be Jin Chao taking advantage of my brother.I am jealous, and I will never let them succeed.

"Brother, are you at home? Open the door for me, I don't have the key."

It wasn't my brother who opened the door, it was Jin Chao.As soon as I stepped in, there was no shadow of my brother. When I saw Jin Chao's unhappy face, I knew that I had knocked on the door well, and I was extremely proud.I walked into my room with a positive step, put my schoolbag away, and when I came out, I saw my brother coming out of the bathroom with a face full of water. Although he pretended to ignore his red and swollen lips, he still felt uncomfortable.After a while of upset, he said angrily: "What are you doing, you don't turn on the lights at home, I thought I was going to sleep on the street tonight?"

"That..." My brother was making excuses.Jin Chao took it all at once: "Just now the wire was short-circuited and we were checking it, which delayed the time to open the door for you."

I cursed in my heart: "Jin Chao, you bastard, bullying me is not good at physics." I don't know if the short circuit of the wire will really cause the light to go out, and I can't find other physics knowledge to compare with him, so I simply Shut up and stop talking.

My brother saw that something was wrong with me, and asked softly, "What's wrong? I lost my temper today."

"It's nothing, it's just... just about to take the senior high school entrance examination, and I feel a little irritable. Just now... I didn't lose my temper on purpose, brother, I'm sorry." In front of my brother, I will never get angry. for complete annihilation.

"Don't be nervous, just treat it with a normal mind. I won't scold you if you do well or not well in the exam. Just try your best." When my brother smiles, he will show his two rows of neat white teeth.

"Okay, okay, it's not worth it to lose your temper and make you feel unhappy because of this little thing, An Qing, if you think about it, there will be a college entrance examination in the future, and the high school entrance examination is really nothing. Ability is nothing to worry about." Jin Chao's words are always much more than my brother's, "Quickly wash up and sleep, don't worry about this irritating thing, things will turn against each other, the more you think about it, the less successful you will be." He said and pulled me to go The toilet poured water and squeezed toothpaste for me in a series of actions smoothly.

That night, I tossed and turned, unable to sleep.

There are some things that I have to figure out for myself, "Why am I so angry? My brother and Jin Chao are a dignified couple. If I really squeeze in, what's the point? Winning love with a knife? It may not be possible to win." Come here. Forget it. Even if you really fall in love with him, you should keep it in your heart secretly. Don’t let him know, otherwise how can you live together. Isn’t it just a happy birthday? What’s the big deal, it won’t be long anyway , I begged him to bless me on my birthday, my brother loves me so much, why would he still refuse me? As long as he is happy, as long as we are still a family, as long as he can watch him every day, as long as he can watch him every day As long as he is still alive." After thinking through this, he finally fell into a deep sleep when the sky turned pale.

However, we have all forgotten that "Fairy Tale" itself is a tragedy.

After the high school entrance examination, I have nothing to do all day long.When my brother passed by the bookstore after get off work, he bought me a few books by Liang Jing. I took them over to thank him and asked him with a smile: "Brother, didn't you give me Mr. Shuren before? Why did you change the tune now?" For me Liang Jing?"

"Mr. Shuren's novels are humorous and unpretentious in simple terms. Besides, there are many articles written by him in junior high school texts. With your language comprehension ability at that time, reading his works will be more interesting. Liang Jing's writing Both light and elegant, but also cold and aloof, the emotion she imparts to the article is bleak and desolate. If you get in touch with it too early, you may find it difficult, obscure, boring, and it will be counterproductive.”

I came across Liang Jing's articles and fell in love with her writing, all because of my brother.

The results of the senior high school entrance examination were announced, and this day happened to be my 15th birthday, so I wished I could get rid of the word "physics".The comprehensive science of the senior high school entrance examination is a paper composed of 70 points in physics and 50 points in chemistry. Unsurprisingly, I did not do well in the comprehensive science test, with a score of 68. I have no face to see my beloved again.

When I came back from school, my brother brought a plate of food from the kitchen and put it on the dining table. The whole room was delicious. It was my brother who prepared a large table of delicious food for me. I walked over and hugged him from behind: "Brother ,Thank you."

"I'm back," he turned around, with that gentle smile on his face again, then hurriedly ran into the kitchen, and came out with a bowl in a hurry, "Try this, I just made it for you today No one else has a share of this bowl of noodles." Picking up the noodles in the bowl to feed me.

I took a bite out of his hand, and said with a smirk, "It's delicious." I took the chopsticks from his hand, picked up a little, and fed him: "Take a bite too, and I'll feed you."

Jin Chao came in from the house and saw me feeding my brother noodles, so he yelled for me to feed him too.I just wanted to share it with my brother, and no one else knew, so I replied to him: "It's too late, the bowl has bottomed out."

"My lord, look at how stingy this kid is." He pointed at me and said to another person by the door.

I also looked towards the door, and this person was Shang Shu.Shang Shu looked at me with strange eyes, but he returned to normal in a moment, and said with a smile: "I was just trying to find an excuse to come over for a tooth festival, but Ping Si called me early this morning and said that I was invited to come over for dinner. He came over and glanced into my bowl, "Longevity Noodles? So today is your birthday?"

It turned out that the Jin Dynasty went to the roadside to pick up the minister just now.

At the dinner table, I took the initiative to mention the results of the senior high school entrance examination.My brother said: "After a few days, the score line for recruitment will come out before making plans."

Jin Chao said that he had only been promoted in the company in the past few days.

Double Happiness is about to drink to celebrate, and Jin Chaodang ran downstairs to buy wine first.My brother went to the kitchen to search the cupboard for a wine glass. I originally wanted to greet Shang Shu to continue eating, but Shang Shu's eyes looking at me were like detectives. I was not delusional.I felt that Shang Shu had seen through my heart, he seemed to have discovered something, I stopped looking at him and pretended not to know anything.

After one or two glasses of wine, he started to go crazy.Jin Chao talked about the stupid things he did when he was a child, and his mother called him "Jin Jin" at home; Shang Shu talked about how dignified and generous his unmarried daughter-in-law was, knowing the book, being rational, being cold and hot; Because of the infection of the atmosphere, brother no longer maintained his usual good upbringing of "eating without talking", and also talked about some things about his childhood.

"When I was young, it was hard to carry and I often fell ill. My dad asked an old fortune-teller to show me. The fortune-teller suggested that my dad give me a nickname so that I could be raised safely. So I have a The nickname is 'Pianfan', but I just left my hometown and came here to go to university, and I never used this nickname again."

I still didn't ask him to say "Happy Birthday" to me on this birthday. A bowl of Changshou noodles can prove everything better than these four words.

Filling in the application form, I listened to my brother's suggestion and filled in the No. [-] Middle School of the City. The No. [-] Middle School of the City is a key high school in the city.Although my score has reached the admission line of the provincial key provincial experimental middle school, it just happened to be stuck at that point.

My brother gave me an analysis and said: "An Qing, although your score can be admitted to the Provincial Experimental Middle School, you can only be assigned to the parallel class, and if you are enrolled in the City Ninth Middle School, you can be assigned to the top class. Therefore, we have to give up the 'bear's paw' and want 'fish', and don't do things that are too small to lose the big. Judging from the current educational trend, every school will have one or two in each grade. Key training class. For example: if you are in the key training class of No. [-] City Middle School, the teachers you receive will be many times stronger than those in the parallel class of Provincial Experimental Middle School, so you can get twice the result with half the effort. Can you understand?"

"You have analyzed it in such detail, how could I not understand? Brother, don't worry, I didn't insist on going to the Provincial Experimental Middle School, it's just that it was difficult to choose between the two schools at the beginning, now listen to your analysis , It’s really like a drink.”

05.

Life seems to be going on as usual, with a slight difference. The relationship between Shang Shu and I is getting closer after sharing the same bed for a few nights.

That night, Shangshu knocked on the door of our house, and I opened the door for him. He stepped in without thanking me, so he pulled my brother up and began to complain: "Pingsi, I'm homeless now." Yes, please do me a favor and take me in for one night."

It turned out that it was he and his fiancée who were quarreling, and his parents were partial to the unmarried daughter-in-law, so he "run away from home" in a fit of anger, and only remembered when he came out that he wanted money but no money, no card, no mobile phone. Belt, short-sleeved shorts and a pair of slippers are left on the whole body.

"Go back and get it, but I don't feel ashamed. I haven't passed the door yet, so I'm partial to it, like Wen Qing is their biological daughter, and I'm the son-in-law who's half-entry and hasn't come in." Shang Shu sat on the sofa with Erlang's legs crossed. , biting his lip with his teeth, feeling aggrieved in his heart.

Seeing his unbalanced and aggrieved look, Jin Chao teased: "You, stop pretending to be wronged here, to be pitiful, and after two or three days if you can't control it, you will flirt with your little wife again Lennon, Lennon, envy kills others."

"It's normal for two people to quarrel, you are a big man, you don't let her go out at all, do you?" my brother said.

"That's right, beating is kissing and scolding is love, arguing and arguing are so joyful." Jin Chao twisted his buttocks, covered his nose and lips with his hands, and acted like a daughter's coquettish gesture.

Pfft... My brother couldn't help it all of a sudden, and burst out laughing.

And I was already rolling on the sofa with laughter, pointing at Jin Chao and saying: "You don't study liberal arts, you don't make a joke, it's a waste of talent."

It was agreed, Mr. Shang Shu stayed with us for one night, who would have thought that the young couple got into an argument, and it really became more intense, neither of them bowed their heads, and the small quarrel escalated into a cold war.Monk Shu shared a bed with me, who suffered from the hot weather, and it was so hot that I couldn't sleep at all.

"An Qing, are you asleep?" Shang Shu asked with his hair at my feet.

"No, you can't sleep either?"

"Well, I... miss her a little bit."

"Cut, it's worthless, who is still saying cruel words that are a big deal during the day, why do you feel lovesick again now?" After a pause, I said: "I miss her, so go and coax her tomorrow." She will."

"Then... Jin Chao usually makes Pingsi angry, how does he coax him?"

"I don't know. I'm busy with school all day long, and they are busy with work. Who has the time to eavesdrop on their love conversations at night."

At this time, Shang Shu turned over and sat up from the other side, stretched out his hand and opened the curtain, and the night sky outside the window was full of stars.

"What do you think of the Jin Dynasty?" He suddenly changed the subject, and then asked, "Do you hate or hate him?"

"No, although he is glib and ruffian, his heart is always good." I replied.

"I mean... because of Pingsi, you hate him? Hate Jin Chao for loving Pingsi?" He asked seriously.

"This... I don't hate him. It doesn't matter whether it's because of my brother or not." I didn't dare to raise my eyes to look at him, and asked guiltyly, "What did you find?"

"What do you say I found?" He tacitly said.

"Is it obvious? I mean, is it obvious that I'm acting?" I was a little nervous and a little scared.I thought to myself, "If even Shang Shu can see it, then my brother would have discovered it long ago?"

Shangshu shook his head with a smile and said, "At least Pingsi can't see it, it's called the authority's obsession."

"What about the Jin Dynasty?" I asked.

"Even I can see it. Do you think the Jin Dynasty will not be able to see it? Among the few of us, I am afraid that only Ping Si has not discovered it."

"It never occurred to me to squeeze in between them."

"Fate is predestined, we ordinary people, who can predict what will happen in the future."

"Aren't you disgusted? It's... homosexuals like my brother and Jin Chao. Don't you feel disgusted? Don't you repel them?" I asked him.

"No!" Shang Shu replied solemnly, "I don't care about others, but I myself don't feel disgusted or rejected. What's wrong with homosexuality? Isn't it just falling in love with someone of the same sex as me? What's the problem? Don't you care about others? How can you be so humble that others can make irresponsible remarks?"

"No matter what, I'm still not accepted by the world." Thinking of my brother struggling to suppress my feelings for the Jin Dynasty, and thinking that he couldn't hold the hand of his sweetheart as openly as others outside, I felt very distressed for him.

"So, they deviated from the so-called right path, and they will walk very hard on this path. However, I am really worried for Pingsi whether they can make it to the end."

"Are you afraid that my brother will not be able to bear the public opinion?"

"No."

"what is that?"

"How much do you think the Jin Dynasty loves Pingsi?"

"How should I put it...Jin Chao doesn't seem very reliable at ordinary times, but he has put all his heart into my brother. Over the past few years, because of him, my brother has become a lot more cheerful and talkative. "I said calmly.

"Do you think they are a match made in heaven?" He smiled and said, "It's true, if it weren't for the Jin Dynasty, Pingsi's gentle temperament, you don't know how boring your life is. People say ' "Three women in one drama", but in your family's "three men's family", living in such a noisy and jovial way, I really envy you."

"However, I still like my gentle temper." I blurted out.

"Yo, isn't this a confession to Ping Si?" Shang Shu said with a smile.

I was told to my face by him, so I was so ashamed that I wanted to get into the crack of the wall, and said inarticulately: "Stop talking nonsense, or I will drive you out tomorrow." Then I got under the covers and stopped chatting with him.Although he changed the topic later, I always feel that Shang Shu should have something to say.Maybe I was too suspicious, but there was nothing wrong with it.After thinking about it, he went to Zhou Gong in a daze.

When the summer vacation was about to end, my brother brought back another good friend of his. The name of this person was heard in their conversation earlier, and like Shang Shu, he knew about my brother's private affairs.But it's just these two people, no more outsiders know about it.

During the years I lived with him, I heard him say: his concept of classmates is just classmates, classmates are not necessarily friends, and friends are not necessarily good friends. There was, and there is nothing anymore.There are only one or two good friends, nothing more than a Shangshu, an ancient prose, and a bosom friend in this life should be enough.

Guwen is from Gusu, and the water and soil in the south of the Yangtze River are very nourishing.

Guwen, my brother, and Shangshu are in the same major but in different classes, but they are often grouped together for big classes.Guwen Xijing, a very gentle person like my brother, first my brother got acquainted with Guwen, then Shangshu joined in, and later because Shangshu talked nonsense with the Jin Dynasty that my brother and Guwen were very good at goingssip, Jin Chao often took advantage of them to come to the class when they were in the big class, so as to do investigations on the spot, and made a lot of oolongs.They came and went, you came and I went, the four of them changed from classmates to friends, and after a few years, they became good friends again.

One year after graduating, Gu Wen spent another year on a whim preparing for the postgraduate exam, and he really passed the exam.I will leave in a few days and go to other places to continue my studies for three years. My brother was very reluctant, so he and the young couple of Shangshu invited Gu Wen to practice for him.

There is no permanent banquet in the world, and there will be a date later.

In September, I became a high school student.

Since education in our country pays more attention to the enrollment rate, "remedial lessons" in urban high schools have become an unwritten rule.In a week, only Sunday can be a day off at home.Even if the Education Bureau or a higher-level unit issued a civil order to cancel high school make-up classes, but this clear order has never defeated the unwritten rule.

Due to the above reasons, after I went to high school, my studies were even more arduous than in junior high school, so that I stopped thinking about romantic affairs all day long.Every night when I came home from self-study, I was so tired that my upper and lower eyelids could not hold up. When I went back to my room to sleep, I hugged my brother out of habit and said good night to him.I stay at home on Sundays, sleep until the sun rises, wake up and have breakfast and lunch together, and in the afternoon I will be locked in the room to do the endless questions and memorize the endless vocabulary.In the evening, I boasted to my brother about his wisdom at the beginning, and didn't send me to the experimental middle school in that province, otherwise I would have been ground to a handful of ashes long ago.

My extracurricular books have changed from prose novels to tutoring materials for various subjects. Fortunately, in addition to the necessary textbooks for Chinese in high school, there is also a Chinese reader, which is full of famous essays and excerpts from classical literature.

This is the first time I saw that ancient poem by Xu Zaisi in this reader——

Folding Guiling · Spring Love

You don’t have lovesickness in your life.

The body is like a floating cloud, the heart is like a fly, and the air is like a gossamer.

There is a scent of emptiness here, hoping for a daughter-in-law.

When did the syndrome come?When the light is half dim, when the moon is half bright.

Zhou Pingsi, Pingsi——If you don't love lovesickness in your life, you will love it, and then you will still love it.

During the National Day holiday, the school did not allow us to have a seven-day long vacation. The first four days made up classes, and the last three days were rested. The students were crying.

It is a matter of course for teachers to assign homework, except for homework other than language and mathematics, but there are so many homework in the fields of materialization, biology, politics and history that it seems that the teachers of each subject have discussed and adjusted us.

Therefore, the three-day holiday is also nominal.

Since the Jin Dynasty was promoted, it's no longer a serious time to go on vacation. This National Day, he was sent by the company to Changzhou on a business trip, leaving my brother alone at home for four days.

When I got home, as soon as the school uniform was changed, I put my arms around my brother and kept acting like a baby, complaining that there was too much homework, complaining that the school was too tasteless, saying that he was the only one who treated me the best in the world and hated me to suffer. Still treat me gently as always, and prepare three meals a day for me.When I did my homework in the evening until midnight, he warmed up a glass of milk and put it next to me, and then read it with Nalan Ci anthology, and stayed with me until that time.He knew that I was most afraid of physics and would not do it at all. He was responsive to my requests. Of course, he did the physics homework for me, and I was only responsible for copying it again.He has stopped expecting me to take a third of physics in other subjects.

On the morning of the [-]th, I woke up from a soft noise, got up and saw my brother pushing the door in with my school uniform.

"Sorry for waking you up," he said apologetically.

I stretched and smiled and said, "No, I woke up by myself."

He also smiled at me, folded his school uniform and put it at the end of the bed, stood up and asked, "What do you want for breakfast?"

I climbed over and grabbed his hand from the back of the hand to hold it together, and said: "Brother, you spoil me like this, I can't leave you in the future, what should I do?"

"If you are an adult, you may go to another place to go to college at that time, and then things will be up to you." He took his hand away and walked straight out of my room.

I felt lost for a while, with tears in my eyes, and said to myself: "I know I rely too much on you. Sooner or later, I will delay myself and... harm you. There are still three years until you graduate from high school. At least you will still Spoil me for three years, earn every day. The rest of your life belongs to the Jin Dynasty."

Seeing him busy making breakfast in the kitchen, the morning light shining on his body made me feel warm again, "I secretly like you, but I don't want to tell you. For three years, please let me spend more than 1000 days here. At night, I rely too much on you."

After lunch, he cleaned up the dishes in the kitchen, and I went in to help him, told him some interesting things about school, and talked about the five years since we met.

He turned to face me, and looked me up and down: "After a few years, my An Qing is really a 'young man facing the wind in Yushu'."

When I heard him say "My Anqing", although I knew he didn't mean anything else, just his younger brother.But I still couldn't help blushing, and followed the bowl in my hand, turned sideways and put it in the cupboard.He couldn't speak clearly and said: "This is from Cangyang Gyatso's "Worthy of the Tathagata and Not Bad of Your Honor."

He said, "Exactly."

I was surprised, I thought he couldn't hear, because he was already at the kitchen door.

In the evening, while I was doing my final English homework, he brought another book from his room over to me and sat on my bed.

"Brother," I act cute.

"Ah."

"That...you help me make this English paper." I continued to act cute.

"Don't try to be lazy."

"Brother" I stood up from the chair and moved to sit next to him, "I still have to recite "Pipa Xing". I will read the Chinese language tomorrow morning, and the head teacher will conduct random checks." I lied to him.

"Le Tian's "Pipa Xing" is very long, and I have only memorized half of it. If I am drawn so hard that I can't recite it, it will be too shameful." I continued to hold on.I know the weakness of 'he knows my weakness of ego'.

Sure enough, he got up and sat down at my desk, and I went out with a smile and picked up his water cup, poured half of the hot and cold water into warm water and brought it in for him.Then, I picked up the Chinese book, sat on the bed, and began to chant like mosquitoes, pretending to read "Xunyang River sees off guests at night, maple leaves and grass flowers rustle in autumn. The master dismounts and the guest is on the boat. He wants to drink but there is no orchestra. Drunk is not happy. Farewell, when the vast river is immersed in the moon. Suddenly heard the sound of the pipa on the water, the owner forgot to return and the guests did not send out. The boat was moved closer to invite each other, and the wine was refilled and the lamp was re-opened. noodle……"

After a while, he has already devoted himself to the self-realm of making papers, so it doesn't matter whether I am endorsing the papers with my heart or not.In fact, I would have memorized "Pipa Xing" long ago, I just wanted to greedily earn a fortune from his tender pampering.

Seeing his focused expression, hearing the soft and hoarse sound of the pen in his hand writing on the paper, I really... really want to hug him from behind.I remembered what he said in the morning, "My An Qing is a young man facing the wind in Yushu."

In the middle of the night, I pushed open his door, and he breathed evenly and fell asleep peacefully.

I wanted to reach out to touch his face, but after reaching out halfway, I retracted it again.Turning around and going back to her own room, she took a pen and wrote silently on the paper: "Worth the Tathagata and the Lord"——

Beauty is not born from the mother's womb, it should grow from a peach blossom tree,

I already hate that peach blossoms are easy to fall, and falling flowers are more affectionate than you.

When you are still, you can practice movement and meditation, and you can see your lover in front of you.

If you use this mind to learn the Tao, what is the difficulty in becoming a Buddha?

To make the best of the same heart and make a close relationship, although this life is short and lingering,

On the day when Qing reincarnated, Yushu was a young man.

Not contemplating birth and death and impermanence, but turning round to death,