sigh youthful glitz

A few days after the incident, he may have felt embarrassed and never came to school.I also proposed to my parents the idea of ​​transferring to another school on the grounds that it would affect my studies. Later, due to the dissuasion of the school, I ended up transferring to the next class.

In the new class, there is his best friend---Xiao Li.Although I also hate Xiao Li, it's better than being in the same class as him and seeing him every day.

Xiao Li asked me curiously, "You obviously threw away your clothes, how did you come back?"

I didn't answer, and he couldn't ask any more questions.

When he came to school again, I washed the dress and put it on his seat when he was not in the classroom.

I did this just to avoid seeing him. I returned everything related to him to him, and buried the past with him deep in my heart. No one should mention it again. It seems that this is the only way. Only then can he be sober and not think about the things that happened between him and him.

This avoidance, however, cannot withstand accidents.

During class break, I came in from outside the classroom and found him sitting in my seat talking to Xiao Li. This was the first time I saw him after that incident.When he heard the sound, he turned his head and looked at me. The moment his eyes met, all the muscles in my body stiffened, and my heartbeat seemed to be malfunctioning.

He was also a little surprised. Fortunately, the bell for class rang at this time. He stood up awkwardly, pretending that nothing happened, and ran out of the classroom.

I looked at my seat that he had just sat on, and thought: I really have to be careful, I really don't want to see him again.

But fate always likes to play tricks on people, watching you forget someone painfully, but let him always appear in front of you.

One week later, on Friday, school ended very early.

I was pushing my bicycle on the way home, when a bird fluttered up from the tree in front of my sight, leaving a dim shadow in the air, and I saw that shadow turned into countless silhouettes of him in a trance ...

At this moment, I heard someone calling me from behind, turned my head, and he actually appeared in front of my eyes.

I thought I was hallucinating, and I fell down on the roadside stone in fright. The sharp stone cut a hole in my calf, and blood flowed out.

He hurriedly supported me, and the moment he touched my body, my heart felt like it was about to fall into hot water and "swish".

"I'll take you to the hospital" he said to me looking at me with bright eyes

His voice was like a spell, blowing into my ears with the wind, a feeling of turning from fantasy to reality.

I didn't refuse. Along the way, he took me by bike, and I held him lightly, and I could feel his body temperature. I have never had such an intimate act, not even my parents.

But now, I can hear the sound of his breathing, even the sound of his heartbeat, everything is very quiet.

My heart is hot like summer.The body also seems to be stepping on the clouds, floating and erratic, so unreal.

Does this feel like happiness?

If not, why is my heart so happy at this moment?But cautious like a child who has done something bad.

If not, why do I hope that the road leading to the hospital can be extended indefinitely, all the way to the horizon...

In the hospital, he surprised me with his tenderness to me.

For a moment, I wished he was my family.He made me feel that there is someone who can cherish myself and don't have to live alone in this world anymore.

But in the next second, thinking of the humiliating pain he brought me, my heart was confused.

Which one is the real him?

After coming out of the hospital, he sent me home again.

When I was about to enter the house, he took out my long-thrown clothes from my schoolbag.

After putting it in my hand, he turned and left.

I stood blankly facing the direction he was leaving for a long time.

That night, I couldn't sleep.

I kept telling myself that I couldn't sleep because of the pain in my leg.

But in fact, I covered myself with the clothes he gave me back and thought about him all night.

Thinking of the scene where he took me by bike.

That scene, until many years later, is still so clear, it is the initial throbbing that I can never forget...

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