I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

The phrase "I like it a little bit" is more like leaving some room for improvement than expressing her heart, but Xu Jiao doesn't want her to be shaken any more, so she expresses her mood during this period, Thoughts, as well as those unspoken real emotions, are replaced by such invitations.

Zheng Zhiyu raised her eyebrows.

Her pale face made her facial features more delicate, and even her eyes, which were as black as ink, were particularly eye-catching under the moonlight in the middle of the night. She just stared at Xu Jiao quietly, waiting for two The silence between people had been brewing long enough before she spoke up and asked:

"Jiaojiao, can I take your words as an invitation?"

There was not much expression on Xu Jiao's face, as if this could suppress the eagerness in her blood and the passion that had been engraved in her bones in sweat. She was still holding Zheng Zhiyu's wrist, but it was slightly off. He shook his head, as if he couldn't bear the cold and hot gaze of the other party.

After no longer looking at each other, as if resisting attitude, still holding each other's hand, there was a next move——

She put Zheng Zhiyu's wrist on her neckline.

"You didn't seem to have so much nonsense before?"

Today Xu Jiao is wearing a black and white plaid shirt. The first button of the collar was not buttoned when it was designed, so in the slightly exposed V-shaped part, you can clearly see the direction of the clavicle on both sides. This is the middle of the night. The moonlight became very bright, and there were even circles of halos hanging in the sky. When the light fell, Xu Jiao's soul became translucent, and her collarbone became whiter and more dazzling.

Obviously being seduced by the other party's sweet soul, Zheng Zhiyu had to put on a face, but when he heard Xu Jiao's words, he smiled and pulled her gently into his arms, his movements almost She didn't use much force, as if she just swiped, and this person who was as light as the wind came to her.

Zheng Zhiyu wrapped her arms around Xu Jiao's waist, and her lips were close to Xu Jiao's pale red lips, as if she was about to open her mouth to swallow this person's soul in the next moment, exuding an unspeakable sense of strength and possession, but she He just stopped and didn't move, and then his lips moved down little by little.

The faint cold breath fell from Xu Jiao's lips to her chin, and then to her neck.

Xu Jiao involuntarily tightened the strings in her mind.

Although she doesn't know the difference between her soul state and her body, her instinctive reaction to Zheng Zhiyu's closeness seems to be the same——

Just want to escape.

It was an inexplicable fear.

Not from the pain, but from the fear of "out of control" itself.

Rational sinking, completely dominated by the senses, and all the reactions of the senses come from the other party, as if being dominated, I don't know what will happen in the next second, and how much the threshold of happiness will be raised.

In fact, Xu Jiao herself is a very insecure type. She has analyzed herself many times from the inside, and even thought about why she fell in love with the neighbor sister back then. One of the answers to this psychology yes:

She lacks a sense of security and is unwilling to place her soul and feelings on a real person. She is afraid of disappointment and being let down.

It is difficult to give up trust easily, so I miss someone who no longer exists in such a distant place. I know that the other party is very kind and has helped me a lot. As long as I don’t contact him anymore, all the impressions of the other party will stay at the best Moment, never change.

For her, that person is a benefactor, a teacher, and a spiritual pillar that she can talk about when she experiences setbacks in life.

Xu Jiao defined it like this.

So she doesn't like things to escape her control very much, and she never wants to find some real love——

until now.

All the rationality in her mind and all the past experiences are telling her that there are still doubts about the person in front of her who said she loves her, and she cannot be completely trusted. If she really decides to transfer her emotions to Zheng Zhiyu, it will be the last It is best to explore everything about the other party without leaving any ambiguity.

Even if it's just a little bit like it.

In an instant, those rational voices turned into tens of thousands of blocking hands. In Xu Jiao's mind, they kept pushing her in the opposite direction to Zheng Zhiyu. Some were persuasion, some were harsh warnings:

"You still don't know the real reason why you were selected by the system this time, and you don't know her true identity. How dare you entrust your emotions to someone you don't know or understand so easily?"

"When emotions overwhelm your reason, you will make stupid decisions. You have seen too many people like this, and you have written too many people, haven't you?"

"Have you ever thought that maybe the more you let her ask for it, the more she will miss it, and once you let her get it, maybe she won't be so rare?"

"Don't become the kind of person you look down on the most."

Xu Jiao closed her eyes, and those voices appeared in her ears one after another, loud and small, as if she didn't want to miss any chance to pull her back from the cliff.

She was quiet for a while, and heard the voice of emotion in the corner of her inner world:

"Why must you be cheated?"

"Why do you fall in love with a liar who has become a good liar, a bastard who plays with people's hearts by all means, a criminal who has received love from others but doesn't know how to cherish it, and is always pursuing what he can't get? type?"

"You understand human nature, you know where your bottom line is, and you always stick to your principles and bottom line. Even if you find yourself misjudging someone for a moment, but one day you discover the truth, will you continue to make mistakes again and again? "

"Be mentally prepared to be able to bear wrong results, don't be entangled by sunk costs, and always be mentally prepared to be self-reliant and self-reliant. Under this premise, what's wrong with boldly liking someone you like?"

Xu Jiao stood there without moving.

Zheng Zhiyu didn't know the reason why she closed her eyes suddenly, so he raised his hand to touch the corner of her eyes, and said in an ambiguous, low voice, as if he could turn into an entity and wrap her whole body around:

"Why are you so impatient today?"

Xu Jiao had already made a decision in her heart, and when she opened her eyes again, her expression was much firmer. She raised the corners of her lips slightly, because Zheng Zhiyu was bending over slightly at the moment, so from the point of view, Xu Jiao treated her very well. A little condescending looking down.

This gave Xu Jiao the feeling that she was always in control of the initiative.

feel.

She likes it.

Hearing Zheng Zhiyu's words, she provocatively said unhurriedly: "I have always acted swiftly and resolutely, no matter whether I refuse or agree, it has always been like this, but you—"

"Before, I always looked like I was eager to get close to me, but now I invite you, but you are still hesitant, could it be..."

"You can't do it?"

Zheng Zhiyu: "!"

It doesn't matter what the attacker is said, but I just can't hear the word "no"!

Right now, Zheng Zhiyu didn't care what Xu Jiao's mental activity was just now, she just hugged the other party's ethereal soul and went up to a high place together, as if she wanted to take Xu Jiao to pick the stars and the moon in the sky , the silver brilliance became more and more dazzling.

……

The cold wind is blowing, and the solitary bright moon hangs in the sky, insisting on being the brightest light in the world at night.

I don't know how many lost people got fingerprints. Occasional sounds from the forest spread into the sky, sometimes it was the roar of unknown animals, and sometimes it was the sound of birds coming out to hunt in the middle of the night.

Xu Jiao was really taken too high by Zheng Zhiyu, those movements sounded too far away, and she couldn't tell the difference.

The current experience is really unbelievable...

She was brought to the cloud by Zheng Zhiyu.

The vast sea of ​​clouds I saw through the window when I was flying in the plane, I thought that only the world of immortality or mythology could touch it, but Xu Jiao didn't expect that when encountering these clouds in a spirit state, it is completely different from when she has a body.

The clouds condensed by countless water droplets are like soft cotton candy to the touch now. The first time the fingertips touch it, there is actually no obvious feeling. In my mind, I suddenly realized that I had encountered a cloud.

But Xu Jiao raised her hand to look carefully, but found that there was nothing in her hand.

No ice, no water.

Only the feeling remains real.

I don't know if it's because she's too light, or because the world view of suddenly going to the supernatural channel is unreasonable, but she was able to stay on top of this cloud with Zheng Zhiyu, looking at the high moon, as if she could touch it with her hand.

The silver brilliance dazzled her eyes a bit too brightly.

The moon halo must have dazzled her eyes.

Thinking of this, Xu Jiao raised her arm to block her eyes, but the lights and scattered lights in front of her eyes had not dissipated, and she let out two low, invisible voices, which leaked from her throat , such as soft words, like chanting.

Only then did she realize belatedly——

The dizziness is not because of being too close to the moon, but because of...

She was shaken so badly.

Xu Jiao vaguely thought that it must be because her soul was too light and the wind in the sky was too strong, so she was swaying like a boat in Zheng Zhiyu's movements, and if she didn't pay attention, she would fall off the top of the high clouds down.

Originally, the two of them were still in the middle of the cloud that couldn't be seen, but Xu Jiao reached the edge of the cloud by hiding. She herself didn't feel afraid of heights, but now there were stars in front of her eyes, and the whole world was shaking. They couldn't tell the difference, as if they were all spinning in her mind, Xu Jiao naturally and instinctively wanted to grab something. .

But this cloud bed...it seems to be a water bed.

fingers outstretched, there

Scratching the slightly cool and smooth surface left no traces except wetness, but because her desire to grab something was too strong, when she grabbed something empty, the sense of fear in her heart would instantly intensify.

For a moment, it really seemed like she was afraid of heights.

Going back is to let Zheng Zhiyu behind her understand herself more deeply, but going forward, she can hardly fall into the clouds, Xu Jiao is stuck in this dilemma, before she can clear anything out of her chaotic mind Choice and thoughts, but Zheng Zhiyu got closer.

The coolness fell on the back of her neck. At first Xu Jiao thought she was being kissed by the other party, but when the starlight in her mind receded and her whole body tensed and relaxed, she felt the pain belatedly.

It was bitten.

These words slowly popped up in my mind.

Xu Jiao didn't respond. She stared at the moon in front of her with a little blank eyes. The fingers of both hands were tightened, as if she was holding on to the edge of the cloud and refused to let go. She let out a heavy breath, as if because of the previous overly excited action, This caused the breath to be tight in the chest for a long time, and now I can really breathe.

Zheng Zhiyu stroked her hair, pressed it up and kissed her side face, watching Xu Jiao's eyes slowly recover from chaos, just when the traces of love and desire were about to disappear——

She saw Xu Jiao's eyes suddenly widen.

Zheng Zhiyu gave a low laugh.

The tone is full of joy.

As childish as a child who succeeds in pranking.

Xu Jiao paused for breath, and then her whole body trembled uncontrollably. Zheng Zhiyu noticed her trembling, lowered her head to bite her ear, and asked her unhurriedly:

"Didn't you just say I can't do it?"

"I'm not starting to prove myself? Why are you so surprised?"

Xu Jiao's soul throbbed when she was told, as if she was about to turn into water in the next moment, she could only gurgling, no longer able to gather into a human shape, the words of begging for mercy had reached the tip of her tongue, but out of a certain backbone, she insisted on holding back. Tolerance.

It's a pity that when I said it, it was already in pieces and I couldn't hear the original appearance.

"don't want……"

"enough……"

"stop……"

There were also those more unspeakable things that rushed to her lips. Xu Jiao didn't know how much perseverance she had to swallow those shameful things back into her stomach, and only said some words of rejection messily.

She couldn't catch any more clouds.

For a moment, it seemed like the sky was full of the moon, and it seemed that the sky and the earth were covered with stars, and there were dazzling lights everywhere. Xu Jiao kept shaking her head, thinking that the continuous tears she was tossed by Zheng Zhiyu had reached her limit. Now that she has changed to a more sensitive spiritual state, she realizes that the scariest thing is to make herself unable to cry.

People in the soul state are not so prone to tears.

But some stimuli overwhelm the senses even more.

Xu Jiao bit her lip, and pushed Zheng Zhiyu with trembling hands and feet. Because of her extreme patience and suppression, the words came out one by one. Zheng Zhiyu felt her patience and kissed her with some distress. her lips.

He casually said:

"Shh."

"Look there."

Xu Jiao was transferred by her

Pay attention, and felt that her movements were much slower, so she moved her eyes obediently to look at the place Zheng Zhiyu indicated, and found a few rows of birds flying past and then away.

It's an unknown sparrow.

At first Xu Jiao couldn't find out if they were in the same group, until she found that they were flying up and down, coming and going several times, as if they were focusing on the two of them.

Xu Jiao's image at the moment is not the kind that can see people——

The button on the hem of the shirt was undone, not to mention the lower part, it was obviously just the innocent eyes of animals, but it made her feel extremely ashamed in an instant.

She raised her hand and waved, never in such a panic, trying to drive those birds away:

"Go away..."

"do not look……"

Don't look.

It's embarrassing.

Even if the bird doesn't know who she is at all.

She waved her hand messily. At first the bird was really frightened and flapped its wings and flew far away, but then out of curiosity for some reason, it made the sound of fluttering its wings while flying.

Xu Jiao couldn't drive these birds away, so she could only cover her face, this time she really scolded with a little cry:

"Damn."

Seeing that she was really frightened, Zheng Zhiyu dissipated the well-contained yin energy, and drove away the birds from a long distance, and some even staggered and fled away.

After chasing away the onlookers who wanted to watch action movies for free without paying, Zheng Zhiyu kindly promised Jiao:

"Okay, I'm asshole."

"Hey, they won't come here anymore, really, give me a kiss, huh?"

Xu Jiao refused to let go of her hand, so Zheng Zhiyu deliberately used more force to tease her.

It wasn't until Xu Jiao really cried that the sensory stimulation had reached its limit, and the whole person couldn't stand it anymore, so she could cry in the state of the spirit body.

She closed her eyes, letting the tears fall from the corners of her eyes——

at the same time.

The large cloud that carried the movements of the two of them swayed slightly from side to side in the sky, and rain fell in a patter of rain, which bathed the forest in a trickle, and let some green leaves splash with this wet trace.

At first the movement was not very noticeable.

However, this cloud is not small, it is almost the largest one hanging on the nearby mountains. Therefore, after the first drop of water that cannot bear it falls, it seems to open the valve, and thousands of water drops follow Afterwards, it began to rain with a patter of rain.

After Xu Jiao recovered from that brief absence, the sound of rain could be heard in her ears.

Zheng Zhiyu held her in his arms, lay on the rainy cloud, and whispered to her:

"It's raining."

Xu Jiao replied drowsily, "En."

Zheng Zhiyu said again: "The ground is wet."

Xu Jiao didn't accept her.

So Zheng Zhiyu went down by herself: "I got wet too."

Just now Xu Jiao was immersed in the hard-to-recover experience. Now that she heard what Zheng Zhiyu said, she didn't react at first. It wasn't until her ears put the sentence into her mind, and after turning it around several times, her nerves finally recovered. react to--

She lazily opened her eyelids to look at the man in red beside her.

People lying on the clouds can't get wet from the rain, what can they get wet?

The two looked at each other for a few seconds, and then, Xu Jiao bit the other's shoulder fiercely, and Zheng Zhiyu didn't know whether it hurt or not, so she could only hear her laughter.

There was a hint of satisfaction in this pleasure.

The more Xu Jiao listened, the angrier she became.

What a normal natural phenomenon, now being described by Zheng Zhiyu in this way, it seems that her reaction...caused such an unprovoked rain on the ground.

Even the rain that moistens things silently will be stained by these words.

The speaker is really hateful.

Xu Jiao didn't have the energy to scold this thick-skinned guy, she just gritted her teeth silently.

Zheng Zhiyu lightly touched her cheek with her fingertips, as if teasing, but also loving, and let Xu Jiao bite herself for a long time before reminding her quietly:

"Are you the first person who dared to bite a ghost?"

Hearing this, Xu Jiao stopped for a few seconds.

Then she let go of her mouth silently, turned over, straightened the corners of her wrinkled shirt, and slowly buttoned it up again. Turning her back to Zheng Zhiyu, she emphasized:

"I don't eat game either."

Zheng Zhiyu: "..."

She couldn't laugh or cry, and didn't argue with Xu Jiao about this strange classification, but just hugged him and brought him down from the cloud again.

The body is still on the roof. Although the soul is separated from the body, if it is cold outside the house overnight, when Xu Jiao returns, she probably won't have a bad cold, nor will she escape being top-heavy.

……

When Xu Jiao was put back into her body, she was already sleepy and tired, and when Zheng Zhiyu carried her back to the house, she fell asleep completely.

The next day, she was woken up by neighbors.

Xu Jiao changed her clothes casually, and only found out about the situation when she went out——

It turned out that Xu Dashu went out with a shoulder pole this morning, and when he saw anyone, he said he was going to kill ghosts. The neighbor was frightened, so he sent him directly to the hospital in the town. hall, so another one was sent.

Seeing Xu Jiao come out yawning as if nothing had happened, the neighbors looked at her a little strangely.

Someone tentatively asked:

"A-Jiao, your father and your mother seem to have run into a ghost last night, did you see that?"

Xu Jiao put down her hands, put away the sleepiness and tiredness in her eyes, and then politely replied: "No, Uncle Six, I fell asleep as soon as I got home yesterday, and you saw it too, so I didn't wake up until this hour .”

After a pause, she said again: "There are no ghosts, Uncle Six, don't scare yourself, I think they must have done something wrong in the middle of the night, and they can't pass the test of conscience, so scare yourself .”

Onlookers: "..."

For some reason, they vaguely made up a scene from this subtle ridicule.

For example, the couple wanted to kill their unfilial daughter in the middle of the night, but they didn't know what scene they saw, and they frightened themselves.

Or maybe Xu Jiao beat them both up secretly, directly knocking out one and making the other stupid.

Combined with Xu Jiao's fierce one-vs-three when she just returned home, the villagers felt that the latter possibility was very likely.

一

Time, everyone saw that her expression was very complicated.

Xu Jiao guessed what they were thinking with just a quick glance. Seeing that everyone was eager to call the police to clean up the old Xu's family, she took the initiative to say:

"But I think this is a bit strange."

"I have to ask the police to take a look. What's going on here? If you don't make it clear, you might think that I scared people into fools. I can't do this kind of thing."

It's true that she wasn't scared to be stupid.

It was all done by Zheng Zhiyu.

Xu Jiao nodded in her heart, her face was calm and ready to call the police for self-examination, she made a call with one hand, and rubbed her forehead with the other hand, maybe it was because her body was blown by the wind for too long last night, now she always feels a little headache.

Of course, it may also be because of being woken up early in the morning.

She dialed the phone, just said a word, suddenly her whole body was spinning——

The people around looked at her in bewilderment, and it took a long while to help her up.

"Ouch! This doll is so hot! It's a fever!"

"My God!"

Hearing this, Zheng Zhiyu, who originally wanted to go out from the house to help, stared at the foot he stepped out, not knowing whether to advance or retreat.