I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

"She's just cheating you with expediency. Do you take it seriously? Do you really think she wants to fall in love with you? Wake up, she just doesn't want to continue this kind of relationship, but you are the only one here to deceive yourself. "

"I still want her to knead clay at you, how could she have such patience?"

"She saved you on a whim back then, but she just helped you casually, didn't you see that?"

In elective courses.

The old professor with high literary literacy wrote beautiful blackboard writing on the blackboard. Whether it is Oracle, Bronze, Xiaozhuan or Lishu, it is more beautiful than the one printed in the picture on the book. His extensive knowledge makes him stand there at his age. , still has a very strong appearance, even when explaining the celebrities of the Wei and Jin Dynasties, there is a coquettish tone in his tone.

Shen Yelan was taking notes following his voice, she looked like a good student who was serious and rigorous outside of class, but even the classmates sitting next to her didn't know how noisy her world was at the moment.

Since that night—

Her symptoms got worse.

The hallucinations that had not appeared for a long time now not only reappeared, but also intensified, not only one before, but two or three appeared at the same time, some were urging her to imprison Xu Jiao, and some were urging her to imprison Xu Jiao. Like just now, he was dissecting Xu Jiao with her that she didn't want to read, ridiculing, inciting, seductive, everything.

But the most exaggerated thing is that some hallucinations always imitate Xu Jiao's daily words and deeds, including her performance in bed with great contrast, making her think that what she sees is Xu Jiao whenever she loses her mind. myself.

To her, the experience of that night was like a believer who could only see the light, but was suddenly deceived by the dark walker, allowing her to touch the robe of God in her heart and taste the taboo, so Since then...

Willing to fall.

She clearly knew that this was wrong, and she tried hard to resist, but she knew in her heart that the embankment of a thousand miles was destroyed by an ant's nest, and some things just couldn't be opened, otherwise... the cracks would only get bigger and bigger.

Shen Yelan could no longer hear the teacher's voice on the podium. She tapped the pen in her notebook for a long time, leaving many dots of ink. After a while, the content of the previous note was still a sentence of Cao Cao's "Xiaolu Xing" , followed by a pause for a while, and what followed was a sentence that pierced through the back of the paper, "Shut up."

"Shut up shut up shut up, she's not like that."

There was a phantom sitting on her lap, the clothes on her shoulders were loose and she couldn't fall off. This was the clothes she had seen Xu Jiao wear at home, and now this phantom was wearing exactly the same clothes. Holding her neck, he leaned over and said to her:

"Why aren't you like that? You are very clear in your heart. Aren't we talking about what you think in your heart?"

Knowing that it was fake, but when the voice spoke, Shen Yelan felt the breath coming from the other party in an illusion, it was hot and cold, and even the hand hugging her neck seemed to be relying on her It's as if she had to support herself so as not to slip off her legs.

Shen Yelan's eyes moved slightly, and suddenly she saw a large bite mark on the back of the neck of the man sitting on her body——

It was when she and Xu Jiao were messing around in the hotel earlier, she subconsciously bit on it to show possession, and she didn't notice this mark until later when she was helping him clean up after finishing the work.

So Shen Yelan remembered clearly.

Her throat moved, and the pen in her hand didn't move for a long time, until the person next to her got up and accidentally knocked over the water glass, which shocked Shen Yelan.

"Oh sorry, I didn't mean to."

Sitting next to her, the girl who also came to take elective courses held her long hair pinned to her ear with one hand apologetically, squatted down and touched the thermos cup that had rolled down to Shen Yelan's feet with the other hand.

Shen Yelan was silent for two seconds, bent down to help her pick up the red cup, raised her hand and handed it over, the other party thanked her one after another, but she was indifferent.

Looking down at the traces on her notebook, Shen Yelan realized that the neat handwriting on it was only the upper part, and the rest was messy, like the last struggle of a person on the verge of collapse.

She exhaled slowly, calmly stuffed the book into her schoolbag, got up very lightly and walked outside the classroom.

……

"What did I say?"

"This little bastard looks gentle on the surface, but in fact he has a lot of tricks--making a clay figure, I have never learned this craft, I don't know how long it will take me to make a cup that can be seen , how many years will it take to reach the point where it can be lifelike and pinch people, this kid has a good plan."

"She wants me to think about her for many years from now on, to kill people, but that's all."

In the entire professional English class, Xu Jiao listened to the English teacher spit out coherent and natural content with fluent American pronunciation. She rested her chin in one hand and held a pen in the other, pretending to be listening carefully, but her heart was not as good as the system. They chatted in boredom.

System: "Isn't that the way to kill people and punish one's heart?"

Xu Jiao sighed slightly: "It doesn't matter, I, the client, regret it now, very regretful, if it wasn't for the wrong trick at that time, there wouldn't be so many bad things now, hey."

She now feels like she was just a passer-by who came to the game, but accidentally got involved with the characters in the game. In order to erase that trace, pretending that nothing happened, she had to do more matter.

The consequence is...

The involvement seems to be getting deeper and deeper?

The more Xu Jiao thought about it, the worse she became, and she secretly made up her mind that no matter whether there is a way to eliminate Shen Yelan's blackening value in this world, she will not be able to make such a big sacrifice in the next world. Even if she accidentally falls asleep, she should Let's be frank, we pay the prostitution fee and leave, everyone is clear.

Shen Yelan's well-behaved, obedient, quiet and gentle that night, like lard, deceived Xu Jiao's heart, and made her feel strange guilt, the guilt of treating people as substitutes, so much so that she agreed to Shen Yelan again. The absurd request, and was tricked by the system into agreeing to work hard to eliminate Shen Yelan's blackening value.

Now it's all right, she's going to knead clay again, and teach people to fall in love, that's all - there are six more times left!

Life is not easy, Jiaojiao sighed.

She recalled the technique taught by the training teacher when kneading the clay last time, recalled the light movement in her hands, and the rhythm of constantly turning the base. The salted fish lay down.

"It's very difficult."

She said: "If I let Shen Yelan die in one day, I'll forget it. Once it's over, I can be regarded as dying under the peony flower. It's an honor to be a ghost."

system:"……?"

The English teacher on the podium cast her gaze in Xu Jiao's direction intentionally or unintentionally. The originally smooth tone of voice slowed down a lot, and there was even a rhythm of ups and downs, sometimes light and sometimes heavy, obviously to remind some students not to be in her class. Sleep in class.

Feeling the teacher's earnest gaze, Xu Jiao straightened her bent back reluctantly, and supported her head with the other hand, and said to the system:

"However, don't tell me, just Shen Yelan once a day, once a day, as long as she doesn't overeat like this, if she is a little average, being her bed partner is quite happy."

System: "Sorry, I don't need to know this knowledge point."

Xu Jiao dragged out her voice boredly: "But I want to tell you."

The system was quiet for a while, and the ordinary mechanical sound made people feel a little helpless: "Well, tell me, although I may not be able to hear it in shielding mode, a harmonious society encourages everyone to actively Express yourself."

When Xu Jiao heard that it was rare for her to support her to engage in flirting, Xu Jiao changed her face instantly: "Oh? You want to hear it? Then I won't say it."

System: "..." It doesn't need to pay attention to her!

……

"Dang-dang-dang"

The bell for the end of get out of class rang slowly, and the English teacher stopped what he was going to say in a timely manner, and said instead: "I will assign the homework in the group, everyone remember to hand it in before the next class, otherwise I will do it at the end of the semester." Appropriately deduct from your usual points."

All the students here are masters, and no one has any objection. When the teacher was packing up the lesson plans on the stage, he also lowered his head to pack his own textbooks, notes, and personal belongings, and then went out the door one after another.

Xu Jiao received a message from Su Xi. This little girl also took an exam with her in the same city, but the school is a little far away, and there is probably no class now, so she asked Xu Jiao to go shopping and buy clothes.

While replying to her messages, Xu Jiao walked out while listening to her complaining about her strange roommates and school affairs.

When she lowered her head and went downstairs, she diverted her attention and walked down the stairs, only to meet Shen Yelan who was also attending class in the same building here, their eyes met, but Shen Yelan was expressionless He moved his eyes away, as if he didn't see her at all.

Xu Jiao: "...?"

Weird.

Didn't this person stick to him as soon as he saw him before?Even if the movements were not sticky, her eyes would still stay on her body, and the scorching temperature would not change even if she got on the bed, and it would even become much hotter.

Why are you acting like you don't know each other and are indifferent now?

Doubts flashed through her mind, but Xu Jiao quickly put them aside. It would be best not to care, lest there be any more difficult demands on her, as long as it does not affect the blackening value that she promised the system would lower, other things will be fine. None of it matters.

Out of the corner of her eye, she paid attention to the movement of going downstairs, typing and replying very quickly, and sent Su Xi a sentence: "Wait for me at the main entrance for 5 minutes, come right away, we don't have a student card here recently, so we don't let people in casually."

A person holding a book walked past her. He didn't see the movement of his feet very clearly for a moment. He stepped between the two stairs and had no time to adjust his posture. The books in his hand were sent to the sky, and he was shocked. With a cry, he instinctively wanted to grab something while falling.

Xu Jiao stopped sending messages to Su Xi when she caught a glimpse of someone about to fall from the corner of her eye, but before she could react, the strap of her schoolbag was pulled violently. Small, so she only had time to lean back to counteract the force of the initial fall, and then because she couldn't take a step in time to lower the center of gravity in the narrow stairwell, she rushed down along with it.

The students around were subconsciously sticking to the wall, picking up the handrail, and those who couldn't dodge and were pulled away by friends. In short, the voices of the students echoed all over the stairs for a while:

"what!"

"be careful!"

"My God!"

Accompanied by the sound of shoe soles rubbing against the ground suddenly, bodies touching together, stair handrails being hit, and so on.

Standing on the floor of the next floor, Shen Yelan saw several people falling in her direction one after another, among them was a phantom that was mixed in by some kind of prank, so she stopped walking.

The first thought that comes to mind is:

Again.

These hallucinations are getting more and more excessive.

When she opened her eyes and woke up recently, she would always see those images appearing in front of her, falling asleep next to her, some were Xu Jiao when she was sleeping normally, and some were after a night of tossing and exhaustion. In a exhausted state, the red marks on the corners of the eyes have not faded, the eyelashes are still moist, and the lips are swollen.

And when Shen Yelan couldn't tell the difference between today and night, and when she raised her hand and wanted to press her into her arms, and then be tender and gentle——

As soon as the hand touched it.

All I touched was the cold quilt.

In addition, when she was about to get out of bed, a pity Xu Jiao who was sitting there, hugging her knees, would suddenly appear on the ground, stretch out her hand and say to her:

"Shen Yelan, give me a hug."

"Shen Yelan, how do you know to bully me, can you give me a hand?"

When guilt welled up in her heart and she reflected on her actions, the illusion dissipated just as she stretched out her hand and before it touched the man's fingertips. In the distance, another man stood there with arms folded and hooked her. He hooked his lips and said in a taunting tone:

"You should really look in the mirror and see what you look like now, Shen Yelan, that's just me playing with you and teasing you."

……

"The students below give way!"

Someone uncontrollably fell in Shen Yelan's direction, and when he was about to hit her, he couldn't help but close his eyes, leaving only a tone-changing reminder that almost broke through the ceiling.

Shen Yelan looked up calmly, but didn't choose to move away, but took a half step back with one foot, while stabilizing her figure, raised her hand to hold the person back, following the opponent's inertia, retreated a little, But it caught people firmly.

Then, feeling that the person would not fall as hard as before, Shen Yelan focused her eyes on the phantom that fell down the stairs. Although she knew that the shadow would disappear as soon as she raised her hand, she still Seriously raised his hand to grab the opponent's wrist.

However, when he raised his hand, he caught the truth.

Shen Yelan's calm eyes suddenly set off shocking waves. If it wasn't for the reflexes trained by Dongqing in her body, she would definitely fall back to the ground heavily with Xu Jiao's movements.

Fortunately, her instincts came to her senses. At the critical moment, after Shen Yelan took a few steps back with Xu Jiao, her back hit the wall next to her, but she managed to stop her castration intact.

Xu Jiao had planned to land on her shoulders to alleviate her injuries, but Shen Yelan dragged her over. She didn't notice for a while, her right foot stepped on Shen Yelan's left foot, she instinctively raised her head, But it bumped into Shen Yelan's chin.

Both of them suffered instant pain.

Shen Yelan paused, tasted the rusty taste from the tip of her tongue, moved her throat, and called out in a low, hoarse voice: "Xu, sister Jiao..."

Xu Jiao raised her eyebrows, smiled at her, and withdrew from her arms: "Thank you, thank you."

Students around surrounded the girl who fell down the stairs first, and many classmates staggered along with her, but no one could hold her up. She said with concern:

"Student, are you alright?"

"Did you fall somewhere? Shall I take you to the hospital?"

The classmate shook his head, looked in Xu Jiao's direction with red eyes, and apologized cautiously: "I'm sorry, classmate, I didn't mean to pull you just now."

Xu Jiao shook her head, smiled at her, and said gently, "It's okay."

Beside her, Shen Yelan felt that the temperature in her arms was gone away in an instant, she instinctively raised her hand to stop her, and grabbed Xu Jiao's clothes corner with a single pull. After she was sure again that this was not a phantom, she was unwilling to let go.

Seeing that Shen Yelan returned to the clingy look in her memory, Xu Jiao couldn't help but raised her brows, met Shen Yelan's eyes, and moved her gaze down to In the action of the other party, silently asked:

what are you doing?

Shen Yelan was quiet for a while, because her voice was a little hoarse, once she lowered it, it was as if she had been wronged, giving people a wonderful feeling of being coquettish:

"Where is Miss Xu Jiao going? I'll see you off."

Xu Jiao looked at her amusedly: "I'm going to the main entrance, and I can walk there, so there's no need to send it off."

Under the suggestion of her eyes, Shen Yelan reluctantly let go of her hand, but followed her honestly. After walking out of the lobby on the first floor with Xu Jiao, she also followed her through the corridor outside. Walk along the green path towards the main entrance.

She is sticking to what she said just now with actions.

Xu Jiao took two steps, and seeing that she was about to reach the main entrance, she stopped helplessly, and turned to look at Shen Yelan: "If you really just want to see me off, then you can just send it here, just two steps away , I can finish by myself."

Shen Yelan didn't say a word, and didn't know whether to agree or disagree.

Xu Jiao found that she didn't know how to deal with such a boring gourd, because as long as Shen Yelan didn't speak, no one would know how many things she was worrying about in her heart, and what she was thinking about at this moment.

Suddenly, she didn't rush over, instead she stood still and looked Shen Yelan up and down, as if she was only getting to know the person in front of her from today.

She didn't understand Shen Yelan, and Shen Yelan didn't understand her either, but Shen Yelan was willing to indulge her in anything, so Xu Jiao let her watch if she wanted to.

Until Xu Jiao couldn't help herself, and broke the silence first:

"Hey, let me ask you—"

Xu Jiao looked around and found that the people passing by were far away, so, thinking of what to say next, she took the initiative to lean in Shen Yelan's direction and lowered her voice, giving people a feeling that she and this The Illusion of Great Relationships:

"Would it make you happy to have sex with me?"

Shen Yelan: "...!"

She was stunned for a moment, as if she couldn't recognize the person in front of her for a while, her throat moved, and she instinctively raised her hand to grab the corner of Xu Jiao's clothes to confirm that it was a real person asking this question, and it was not a sudden one. Visions of her are tempting her.

After touching the fabric, Shen Yelan lowered her eyes, and finally squeezed out the content from her throat: "Why did Sister Xu Jiao ask you so suddenly?"

Of course, I want to know how to quickly and effectively reduce your blackening value!

Complete this damn system task early and be born early!

Xu Jiao answered loudly in her heart, but on the face she just squinted her eyes, raised her hand to block the suddenly hot sunlight above her head, and said in a casual tone, "Just curious."

She said: "I just want to know, am I so delicious? How can it make you have this idea of ​​'eat ten times as compensation'?"

Shen Yelan: "..."

She watched Xu Jiao speak in a very calm tone, in broad daylight, those things that would definitely surprise passersby and turn their heads, and she couldn't help but began to wonder if her hallucinations had become more serious.

After all, such sloppy words usually only appear in the mouths of those identical phantoms, in order to make her constantly recall the happiness of falling, and thus make her sink even deeper.

now……

Shen Yelan clutched the corner of Xu Jiao's clothes, the fabric in her hand was almost deformed by her movements, as if it was the only medium for her to distinguish between illusion and reality, she took a deep breath, she did not answer Xu Jiao's question, Instead, he asked:

"Then, will sister Xu Jiao be happy that I dragged her into doing such a thing?"

When Xu Jiao opened her mouth, she wanted to answer "Of course not" according to the normal logic. When she got to her mouth, she stopped suddenly and smiled: "Shen Yelan, I asked you first, so you have to answer first."

Shen Yelan's lips moved, and she honestly spit out the answer:

"hapiness."

"Delicious too."

Xu Jiao raised her eyebrows, intending to ask you how to be happier and more satisfied, but before she could say it, she was reminded by Shen Yelan: "It's time for Sister Xu Jiao to answer my question."

Xu Jiao smiled lightly and said, "If I were your girlfriend and you were not so domineering in bed, of course I would be happy."

Shen Yelan was startled.

Those voices lingered in my ears like crazy again, and whispered: "Hee hee hee, she means she is not happy."

"Of course I'm not happy, Shen Yelan, if you were forced like this, would you be happy?"

"You are not love at all, true love will not make the person you like feel pain - admit it, Shen Yelan, you are just a despicable possessive desire."

……

Su Xi waited at the door for a long time, but Xu Jiao didn't come in for a long time. In a hurry, she randomly found a classmate who looked kind and asked him to take her in, wondering if Xu Jiao was troubled by something I stayed, and I didn't reply for a long time after I sent a message.

As a result, as soon as he entered the campus, he saw two familiar figures on the side road.

One is Shen Yelan and the other is Xu Jiao.

She didn't think much about it, she was about to sneak past and scare Xu Jiao from behind, but she slowed down, and just approached, she saw Shen Yelan raised her eyes and looked over, then moved the corners of her lips, and said something quickly .

When Su Xi approached, he heard another sentence from the other party:

"Be my girlfriend, okay?"

Su Xi: "..."

Su Xi: "!!!"