He is cuter than the character [Entertainment]

Ji Shao's words were like a shot in the arm, precisely hitting Ji Hanjing's most nervous and critical point.

He is also thinking alone, so why not one-sided?

Perhaps Qi Ran is not as easily swayed as he thought.

His brother has never been a person who can't figure it out, he can distinguish between priorities, and knows what he should stick to and what he can give up.What he said may not have as much influence as he thought.

He was always worried that he would influence Qi Ran's decision-making and hinder his judgment.But in fact, for Qi Ran, it is also a kind of help, allowing him to choose the direction he really wants without any worries.

If he is willing to operate, arrange the best medical conditions for him and recover as quickly as possible.Find the best resources to help him come back.

It doesn't matter if you don't want to.Plato is Plato, anyway, except for Qi Ran, the pheromones of others, no matter how strong they are, smell like inferior perfume.If it can't be cured, it can't be cured. At worst, he will go to gland sealing surgery to accompany him for the rest of his life.

The selfish desires in my heart are nothing compared to the person I like.

No matter what happens next.Ji Hanjing thought, it doesn't matter what will happen.As long as his brother can live a good life, it is with him, and the two of them will live a good life.It is already the only expectation - the only expectation that cannot be given up.

Either way is fine.Give whatever.

Just be together.

He just didn't want to be the one who was abandoned.

At least these things must be told to Qi Ran.

The time before the previous year has already been vacated, and I have to go abroad to visit the elders in advance to make room for it.Just haven't informed the family yet.

But Ji Hanjing always had a heavy uneasiness in his heart.Especially after the last phone call with Qi Ran a few days ago, he didn't even want to leave, and simply sent a message to his family, saying that he would stay in China this year and make a video call instead.

The family agreed without much thought, and no one even asked him why he stayed.

In a daze, Ji Hanjing felt that in the past many years, the so-called family gathering to bid farewell to the old year was not as ceremonial as he thought.For the rest of his family, they are just used to checking in once in a while, and it is not a reunion moment that is so special that "one cannot be missing".

It's the same with or without him.

No one asked him how he planned to spend his birthday.

Thinking of this, Ji Hanjing felt even more sad, and made up his mind to pack up his things and prepare to find his brother, but before he left, he unexpectedly received a courier.

What I sent was the postcard I wrote with Qi Ran before.At that time, I was still thinking about going abroad for the Spring Festival, and the postcards needed to be forwarded abroad. I estimated the turnaround time on the road, so I deliberately moved the date a few days earlier.

Unexpectedly, by mistake, I personally received it a few days before the Spring Festival.No need to forward any more.When Ji Hanjing held it in his hand, he hesitated for a moment, thinking whether to wait until that day to read it.

But this kind of problem doesn't have to be entangled for long.After half a minute, he gave up the pleasure of delayed enjoyment, and read it first after getting it.

At first glance, the postcard has patterns on both sides.Ji Hanjing couldn't find the characters, so he twiddled them to see that they were two sheets, with the characters facing inside and pasted together face to face.

I didn't notice it at the time, and Qi Ran didn't say it was two, probably because he wanted to give a double surprise.As if there were too many words to write, I manually divided the episode into the upper and lower episodes.

The neat small characters were arranged tightly, which added extra weight to the postcard in his hand.On the way to Wenzhi, Ji Hanjing watched it over and over again from beginning to end.

The weight was also multiplied by ten times by a hundred, and it was pressed on his heart.

**

Although the itinerary was once insanely dense, but the annual leave is still necessary.Qi Ran didn't plan to be a model worker until New Year's Eve, so he finished his last job of the year a few days earlier.

The original plan was to go back to spend time with my parents first, and then spend a few days off with my boyfriend after Chinese New Year.Two do not delay.

Regardless of what the boyfriend should do now, his parents would definitely be very worried if they saw him in such a state, and they would not dare to just go back like this.

After finishing work, he didn't inform either party, and went back to his residence first, still wanting to be alone.

He still hasn't contacted Ji Hanjing, which is really not his style.He has always been a person who cuts and breaks - he doesn't like the itch of the turmoil, he would rather be in pain.It doesn't matter if it's okay or not, the boundaries are clear.

Even when he was tossing about whether to accept Ji Hanjing, he either refused or stayed with him. He never thought of dragging him to see him for a while.

But now he can't tell what he wants to do.After returning home, there is no entertainment, no work, and I shut myself in the room to practice the piano every day, sitting for three to five hours, and go back to practice the piano when I am hungry and have something to eat.Go to sleep when you are tired, and practice the piano when you wake up.Let the mind be completely occupied by the melody without thinking about other things.

He was so dazed that even the concept of the alternation of morning and evening was almost blurred, and he finally went out on the afternoon of the third day.

If there is no drink at home, I have to go to the convenience store downstairs to buy it. There is a random pile of soda and juice, and I will take it away after buying it in 2 minutes.

When I met Mu Sen at the checkout, seeing him buying so many drinks in one go, I laughed and joked, "Hoarding New Year's goods?"

Qi Ran forced the corners of his mouth to make an expression, didn't even answer politely, and didn't even look at him more, looking like he was wandering in the sky.

Mu Sen obviously saw that something was wrong, and stopped at the exit for half a minute after paying the bill, waiting for him to come out.

He didn't say anything.Qi Ran acted as if he hadn't seen him, and walked straight forward without stopping.He also followed, and the two of them walked out together.

The moment he went out, a gust of cold wind blew up.Walking past the two of them, carrying the vaguely familiar scent of perfume from the person next to him.

Qi Ran shook his head and subconsciously looked at him.Suddenly remembered, this is "black humor".

At that time, I smelled it when I was the endorsement of a perfume designed with Ji Hanjing, and it was a perfume scent customized for Ying Jieyi.

It was the smell that Ji Hanjing once had.

"...Brother Ran?"

Seeing him distracted, Mu Sen stretched out his hand worriedly and shook in front of his eyes, "Are you all right?"

"fine."

Qi Ran was soured by the familiar smell of perfume, he looked away and quickened his pace, trying to overtake each other and go their own way.But he rushed a few steps and grabbed the corner of his clothes.

"That...Brother Ran, I have something to tell you."

Qi Ran began to regret going downstairs for this trip.

In fact, he has also followed him for many years, and Mu Sen appeared by his side even earlier than Ji Hanjing.

But when he heard the confession of "I have loved you for many years", he only felt helpless towards the behavior of fans, "I'm sorry."

Even faintly a little irritable anger.

When Ji Hanjing came here, he had already negotiated.Everyone knows each other well and it's over, and they don't challenge each other.

So today it was seen that the relationship had suffered a setback, so I received the confession?

Where did the courage come from choosing to speak at this time.

Do you know what kind of person I am, just say you like me?

Seeming to see what he was thinking, Mu Sen quickly added, "I didn't want to take advantage of others. Brother Ran, you... If you feel surprised, it's okay to think about it again."

Qi Ran said coldly, "No need."

Not everyone who receives a confession needs to consider it.

Mu Sen's face darkened when he heard the words, he gritted his teeth and asked, "Is it because I don't have the background of Ji Hanjing? Because I can't give you what you need?"

Qi Ran didn't even cast another glance at him.Pulling back the corner of his clothes and brushing past him, his tone was indifferent and uncompromising.

"Just because I don't like you."

He walked away without looking back.

But Musen stood in place like a sculpture, and was even accidentally bumped by the aunt who was passing by in a hurry. Hearing her say "Oh boy, I'm sorry to bump into you", he still didn't respond.

Under the strange eyes of my aunt, I continued to stand where I was.until dark.

The bell rang.He answered the phone without looking at it, but didn't put it to his ear.

The shouting from the phone became more and more uncontrollable.

"You said... only 20 days! At most 20 days, how could it be two years! He wants to sue me!"

He listened expressionlessly, and only sneered at the end, "The money has already been sent to you. The person you want to hate is Ji Hanjing, and it has nothing to do with me."

Immediately cut off the call, delete it and block it.The hoarse roar stopped abruptly.

As night fell, the voice floating in the dry and cold air did not belong to that delicate and kind enthusiastic shopping guide.

"...Qi, burn."

**

After finishing the sad confession, Qi Ran didn't go anywhere, and went straight upstairs with a drink.The whole person is exhausted.I just want to go home quickly, take a shower and sleep in the dark.

He didn't meet anyone on the whole journey, and he was the only one in the elevator.After arriving quietly, before walking a few steps, there was a ding sound from behind.

It was too crisp in the quiet corridor.

He shuddered.His hairs stood on end, and he turned his head to look.

I saw his mother coming out of the elevator next to her with a small bag on her shoulders.

"..."

"Oh yo!"

His expression and reaction at this moment, in the eyes of his mother, was severe malnutrition, and his pale face made people feel distressed, "Our cubs are so skinny, did they work too hard! I won't tell you when I come back." Oh, mom? Come in and make some soup for mom."

"..."

The shadow of being followed last time is still there, and Qi Ran's mood fluctuates up and down and almost suffocates, but now she is holding her arm and dragging forward, dumbfounding, "Mom, I just came back."

"Are you still telling the truth to your mother?"

She took her son with one hand and opened the door skillfully with the other, "I heard what you Xiao Zhou said, you came back from vacation two days ago. Why don't you come home? Are you in a bad mood? Then you don't come back, mom Just come and see you."

She hasn't been idle since she entered the house.The tea table and sofa, which were already considered tidy, were tidied up even more neatly, and the cold pot and cold stove in the kitchen were once again disgusted by her.

There are no ingredients in the refrigerator.She wanted to go downstairs to the vegetable market, but Qi Ran stopped her and said that it was too late, fresh food could be ordered and delivered to her door, so she finally stopped and sat down.

After calling her that day, he received the results from the laboratory, and Qi Ran was in no mood to convey them.I finally told her about it at dinner.Other details are withheld, except that nothing has changed.It really can't be cured.

Aunt Qi sighed.Of course, it could be seen that he was depressed, and he took it for granted after hearing this because of this disappointing result.After dinner, I took him to watch TV together, and hugged my son for a good meal of comfort.

He also said that when he is free after the Chinese New Year, he can spend more time with friends.It just so happens that Xieyi is also coming to the house, and the young people are lively and lively together.Let's not think about this unavoidable thing.

Qi Ran was lying in her arms, watching TV dramas and listening to her family talk while accompanying her, humming coquettishly from time to time.

No matter when, the company of family members is always the most heartwarming.Even if he couldn't express the real distress in his heart, being in her arms would naturally ease his emotions a lot.

When she was so relaxed that she was drowsy, and heard her wondering how to choose a new one after watching the TV series, Qi Ran took the remote control, helped her exit to the main interface, and told her how to reselect.

A wonderful collection of various recommendation columns on the screen.Aunt Qi took back the remote control to choose the show, and one of the cover of the video caught her attention, "This is like your show, but the time is short."

Qi Ran opened his eyes and saw that it was a four-minute video.The melody sounded, it was the version of the theme song sung by the two protagonists of "Perseverance".

At first, only the audio source Chunxiang was launched, but after "Perseverance" ended, the comments all shouted that it was not enough and wanted to eat candy.Ji Hanjing released the theme song mv with a gesture of secretly poking dog food for everyone to watch again.

Qi Ran's drowsiness disappeared, and his eyes were fixed on the screen, unable to move half a minute.

At that time, the two of them couldn't sing duet due to the schedule.But they were edited in the same frame in the MV, and put together face to face on the screen.

The two looked at the camera as if they were watching each other sing a duet.

He looked at Ji Hanjing's face on the screen almost greedily.Looking at his clear and shining eyes, when he sang the tender lyrics, he would bend slightly to show a smile, as if he was a little shy.

His eyes were fixed on the camera all the time.As if looking at the person represented by the camera, sing to him.

Aunt Qi has followed "Perseverance" from beginning to end, and she is familiar with the theme song, and she can even sing a few lines along with it.After watching the video from beginning to end, I hummed the melody to pick the next drama.

Qi Ran turned over in her arms, hugged her waist and wiped away tears.

Knowing that I have been dragging and escaping.Knowing that this relationship is difficult to continue, but still unwilling to say goodbye to Ji Hanjing, just because of that look.

Eyes full of heart.Full of love.

Will he look at another person with such eyes in the future?

Like that person more than me?

Qi Ran thought, of course he can like other people like this in the future.

I can't.

It seems that half of my life of more than 20 years happened this year.

Immersed in the sweet time, half a lifetime passes in the blink of an eye.

Can't remember when I fell asleep.Aunt Qi couldn't hold him, and she couldn't bear to scream when he was asleep, so she took the quilt and let him sleep on the sofa all night.

When he woke up the next day, Qi Ran opened his eyes and met Professor Qi's eyes.

"……dad."

Whether he was stunned or something, when he sat up, he hadn't quite reacted yet, "Why are you here?"

Professor Qi also looked helpless, "What will I eat if your mother doesn't come home."

"..."

Aunt Qi came out of the kitchen happily, "Oh, these winter bamboo shoots are very fresh. I'll go to the vegetable market to buy them in the afternoon."

It's been a few years since he moved out by himself, and it's the first time that all three of his family are here.The usually quiet house suddenly became lively, and Qi Ran had to restrain himself.I am used to living casually by myself, and at this time, I am afraid of being nagged by my parents, so I dare not even take out the soda I just bought yesterday.

In the afternoon, Aunt Qi went to the vegetable market. She said that the fresh food delivered to the door has no soul, and must be bought on the spot. It is best to bring mud to be fresh enough. She went out with a small basket.

Professor Qi took the newspaper with him when he went out, and sat in the living room drinking tea and watching the news.Although the soundproofing effect of the room was good, Qi Ran still didn't dare to make a phone call at home, told him to go for a walk, and went out alone.

The weather is still cold in mid-February, but the early cherry trees planted beside the riverside trails have already bloomed one after another.Qi Ran walked here slowly wearing earphones, and sat down on the stone chair beside the path.Within a few minutes, a few pink and white petals fell on the shoulders.

He twisted it in his palm and looked at it for a long time, and then blew it off piece by piece.Until my palm was empty, and I couldn't bear the time anymore, I finally made the last call.

Ji Hanjing's ringtone is the prelude loop of the theme song of "Perseverance".It took about ten seconds, and no one answered the third round of the cycle.

Qi Ran didn't hang up either.It hurts to hear it, but I still listen to it over and over again.I don't know if it's because of psychological effects, it rang louder and louder in my ears over and over again, invading my mind in all directions 360 degrees.

After the fifth ring, the call was hung up by the other party.

Qi Ran was startled, unable to tell what mood he was in, took off his earphones, but suddenly heard a voice beside him, "Brother Ran."

Looking up, there was a little fool standing not far away with a suitcase and smiling at him.He rushed here in a hurry, and the top of his head was covered with sporadic white powder along the way. When he looked at him, he still had the same look in his eyes.

That look that makes people reluctant.

Qi Ran didn't make a sound, just looked at him without blinking for a moment, as if he wanted to keep his sudden appearance in front of his eyes firmly in his heart.

Watching him walk to her side and sit down in two or three steps, before he could open his mouth, he opened his arms and hugged him.I used all my strength.

Ji Hanjing was dumbfounded by this.After being stunned for a few seconds before realizing it, he clasped his hands back and patted his back, and said with a smile, "Did you miss me?"

"Ah."

Qi Ran pressed his forehead against his shoulder, and his voice was so soft that it seemed that he was about to wake up from a cruel dream, but he said clearly, "Ji Dongdong."

"Let's end here."

**

In Ji Hanjing's impression, when Qi Ran talked to him, he always had a tone that was half doting and half coquettish.

Shall we do this?

Do you want to do that?

Rarely, the sentence pattern that does not allow him to refute, the judgment-like dictatorship.

He had indeed made an unshakable decision, but it wasn't any one he had expected.So much so that when he heard it, he couldn't even connect the voice with the person who just gave him a hug.

But the second the voice landed, even the hug ended.

"……not good."

Ji Hanjing said.

"No, this is the best way. I've been thinking about it for days." Qi Ran didn't look at him, and said with ease, "I figured it out too."

"Actually, I guessed it would be like this from the very beginning. For a person like me, it's not very good to fall in love, and it's even worse if you talk for a long time. It's actually quite good to check the results this time. Fortunately, I went to check early, Don't delay any longer, otherwise it will be more difficult to talk about in the future."

"I've been very happy these past few months, and I'm already content. Don't we all share and cooperate when we fall in love? It's normal for the two of us to do this."

"Let's get together and get away, shall we?"

Ji Hanjing's body tensed until he was stiff, looked at him, and asked word by word, "How do you plan to get together and break up with me?"

"..."

"Do you have someone else you like?"

"……No."

"You don't like me anymore?"

"..."

"why?"

"……do not do that."

Qi Ran watched his eye circles turn red, and listened to his series of questioning, he almost couldn't hold back anymore.Averted his face in embarrassment, adjusted his tone and said, "This is not a fairy tale world, and we can't be together as long as we like it."

"We'd be better off apart. You can't do without me, can you?"

When I saw him on stage before, when he was in good condition and performed freely, Ji Hanjing would often blow rainbow farts in real time, saying that his brother's expression control was perfect.But now I don't want to see him calmly like this, everything is under control.

Ji Hanjing said, "How do you know I'm not."

"..."

Qi Ran took a breath.He forced a smile and said, "Be more confident, you are an excellent alpha. Even without me, you will still..."

"But I don't want to have a future with anyone other than you!"

"..."

"I just want to hear why."

Ji Hanjinghong looked at him intently, insisting on an accurate answer, "Why?"

"Do you want me to say it myself?"

Qi Ran gritted his teeth.It seemed to give him a convincing reason, more like to make myself give up.The secret shame hidden in his heart became open and blatantly ringing in his ears, so strange that he didn't seem to say it from his own mouth, "It's not like you don't know the test results. I can't satisfy you, in this life No way. The lab has already explained it so clearly, so what else is there to ask!"

If this continues, not only the tone, but also the emotions will become more and more difficult to control.

He didn't expect to lose control in front of this person in the end, so it took a lot of effort to restrain himself and continue as smoothly as possible, "It's good to get together and leave. Save some face for me, okay?"

He didn't say a word about surgery, obviously ruling it out.Ji Hanjing didn't care about loss or other things, so he put it aside completely, and said hastily, "I don't mind. I didn't stay with you just to sleep with you. It doesn't matter if I have sex or life. Make me like you."

"You have a little confidence in me, brother! Do you think I'm all yellow?"

"..."

Ji Hanjing suspected that he nodded slightly, and almost laughed angrily, "I'm not!"

"There are many ways to solve this problem, we will take it slowly in the future. There must be a way. I can be a vegetarian for the rest of my life! Don't...just give up on me like this."

Where is there any way to have the best of both worlds.

Knowing that he said this just to comfort himself, Qi Ran shook his head vigorously until his brain ached, and said firmly, "I don't want to do that. No matter how you solve it, you will be wronged."

"I don't feel wronged, Brother Ran, don't feel wronged for me." Ji Hanjing almost had to autopsy himself to test his sincerity, "I really don't mind."

"...I know you don't mind!"

There was a buzzing in Qi Ran's mind.

As if the last bit of sanity had been broken, the trembling voice could no longer be controlled, "Of course I know. But I don't mind. Ji Hanjing, do you understand, I fucking mind for the rest of my life!"

Finally got to this point.

He doesn't want to be hysterical in front of the person he likes, he wants to say goodbye well, and he thinks that it is enough for each of them to have a good relationship in their lives, and even if they can't be together, they should live well.

But he didn't have the ability to finish everything calmly as expected.I can't let go enough in my heart, it's more like a compromise because of unwillingness.

Who would want to give up on someone they love?

Qi Ran knew in his heart that as long as there was still a chance of getting better, he would not give up on this person who fell in love with him for the first time in his life and didn't know what to do.

But the reality is that there is no such thing, and the trial in the laboratory couldn't be more clear.He can only do multiple choice questions.Cruel words come from him.No matter how cruel it is, it is better than two people torturing each other for a long time in the future.

"...Brother Ran."

Ji Hanjing panicked, trying to touch him in a hurry, "Don't cry."

"I didn't cry."

Qi Ran brushed his hand away, pulled his sleeve and wiped his eyes heavily.The matter has come to this point, and the whole thing is broken, pouring out all the struggles and grievances of these days, "I know you have always hoped for me, and I am the same. I hope you will live happily for the rest of your life, even if you don't Me, even if it's not with me! As long as you live well, understand?"

"Even if it's for my sake! I don't want to fall in love with anyone anymore! Why do I have to be with you? Are you going to live in guilt for the rest of your life seeing me by your side?"

If you want a lover.Someday, someone else will fill my void.

And I have friends and family.I can also fill your void with other feelings.

"I don't have to fall in love to survive." Qi Ran gritted his teeth and said cruelly, "I didn't meet you so many years ago, wouldn't I still live well without falling in love? It will be the same in the future."

The tears didn't wipe away fast.Anyway, the image is gone, and the boyfriend will be gone too, he doesn't even bother to take care of it anymore, his face is wet/wet/wet.

"……elder brother."

Ji Hanjing stretched out his hand, but it seemed like he couldn't touch him anyway.

"We're better off apart, really."

Qi Ran almost begged, "Let's just have a good time, okay? Just think it's for me. Live a good life, okay?"

Ji Hanjing never thought that he would say these words to himself in such a tone.

He had made up his mind before he came here, the only expectation is for the two of them to live well together, and any other difficulties can be overcome.

But it turns out that for his brother, being with him and living a good life are two incompatible expectations.

His resolution is his pain.

Ji Hanjing couldn't tell whether he was overcome by difficulties, or by the intense pain expressed in these rare heartfelt memories.The last sound in my ear was Qi Ran's "Don't follow me".

He always listened to his brother.

Until Qi Ran's figure disappeared on this beautiful flower path.He sat where he was, and read the two postcards over and over again as he did when he set off in the morning.

"Give me Dongdong:

See the word as the face.

Happy birthday to you first!

We haven't seen each other for two weeks before writing these words, and we only have one day to date today.so happy.

Let me think about where to start.Ah, you asked me a silly question last night...

Don't ask me such stupid questions again!

Of course I like you.I like it now, and I will like it even more in the future.

You always underestimate me on this one.How can you have so little confidence in yourself?

look at me.I wasn't sure before, but now I can say with confidence that I like it.

I don't know when it started, and I don't know when it will end.But for sure, it has always been there.

No matter how it is defined, no matter what language or culture is used to describe it, the final result must be the same, that kind of existence.

It's the confidence you gave me.

After being together, I always think that it would be nice if I could get to know you earlier.

But it's fine now, I'm happy every day~

I am happy even when I am tired.I am happy when I miss you, and even happier when I see you.

Change faces!

In short, although I will probably be busy in the future, I will gather less and leave more.But you have to have a good time when you can't see each other.

When you miss me, you have to take good care of yourself, along with my share.

You know, my instincts are always right. When Eureka first formed a group, it was also a limited group, and originally only had group activities for one year.But I always feel that everyone's bond is more than that, and it really hasn't disbanded, and it has been up to today.

My gut tells me that we will too.

So there is still so much time, I will try my best to like you more in the future.It won't make you much worse.

Then one day, maybe it will surpass you.

I can't write on this side either.Just stop here.

I will send you many more words in the future.

happy Birthday.

Hope you are always happy.

Qi Ran"

"……fraud."

Ji Hanjing clutched the postcard tightly, his fingertips turning white.Condemning these deceitful obedients with his eyes, tears splashed upwards.

fraud.

Liar liar liar liar.

……elder brother.

"How can I be happy?"

He said to the card in a daze, "I said there is still a long time... I said I would go on vacation together, just the two of us... I said I would like me... I only like me."

In the end, just stop.

Say it's over and walk away without looking back.

As expected of you.

"Don't you celebrate my birthday?"

"I'm still here...don't you just look at me again?"

Ji Hanjing sat there for a long time.

He couldn't even think of where he should go.There is nowhere to turn back, and the road ahead does not know where to go.It seemed that no one wanted him.

Until it got dark, everyone was in a hurry on the way home.Suddenly, a footstep stopped beside him.

"Oh... is it an explanation?"

He raised his head blankly, the tears on his cheeks were still wet.

"Why are you sitting here by yourself, darling. Are you going home for dinner with your aunt?"

The author has something to say: Lai Liao

It's the last shot

Trying to break in a place that is not so sharp

There is one more to write until midnight Liao

You can see it tomorrow

Goodnight everybody

mua!

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