[Jiang Cheng bg] hate goodbye

"Let Jiang Cheng rest with Si Zhui tonight, he is carrying Zidian, the evil spirits will definitely not dare to get close to him, and Si Zhui will naturally be able to sleep peacefully, right, Lan Zhan." Wei WuXian tugged at him. He winked at him, he knew that Lan Zhan didn't want SiZhui to have too much involvement with Jiang Cheng, and he still blamed Jiang Cheng in his heart, but they are biological father and son after all, this blood relationship can't be cut off no matter what.

Lan Wangji looked at Wei Wuxian, then at Jiang Cheng, whose pale face was full of expectation and even pleading, and nodded slightly.At least it was Jiang Cheng who saved Si Zhui today, and he couldn't stop him.

After everyone retreated to rest, Jiang Cheng finally had the opportunity to take a closer look at the child he had only just known, their child.

Jiang Cheng clearly knew that Wei Wuxian asked him to rest with SiZhui, saying that his Zidian made Xie Chong afraid, and that he would be able to sleep peacefully with SiZhui. It was all an excuse, if it was for this reason that he let Zidian stay. Yes, he is clearly creating opportunities for himself so that he can take a good look at his own flesh and blood.

That night, Jiang Cheng didn't sleep, he couldn't bear to sleep, for fear that his arms would be empty again when he woke up.He just looked at SiZhui's small face quietly, very carefully and seriously, as if afraid of missing something.SiZhui's eyebrows and eyes are very similar to hers, his mouth is like his, and his nose is hard to tell, but they are indescribably cute when put together, such as Lan is even more beautiful, as if he will never get tired of looking at her for a lifetime.

This is their flesh and blood, a little thing that is fused with their blood, should have their company and love, should be protected by him under the wings and held in the palm of the heaven's favored son, and can inherit everything from him openly.But he couldn't and didn't dare to recognize Hui SiZhui, because when he came back to him, SiZhui was an illegitimate child who was pointed at by others, and all he could have was his incomplete paternal love.

But in the Lan family, he has a pair of adoptive fathers who love him, an uncle like Ze Wujun, his friends, and many people who love him. He really wants to leave SiZhui behind, but he knows that Awei He definitely hoped that Si Zhui would grow up in Lan's family, simple and happy, safe and sound, instead of being caught in their unspeakable love and hatred and being forced to take the responsibility on his shoulders now.

To love someone is to own, but also to let go. Even if he can't recognize SiZhui, he can still love him silently, let him do what he likes, stay in the environment he is used to, and have Wei Wuxian and him for him. Lan Wangji, who could even give up his life, why can't he let go of it?

Sometimes, Jiang Cheng felt that he could understand Wen Ruohan's feelings in the past. He was full of tenderness, holding a little bit of good memories of the past, hoping that one day he would recognize his own flesh and blood. Love is poison, and ecstasy eats away.

"Cold." Sizhui murmured unconsciously, with a little grievance in her voice.This sound hit his ears, and Jiang Cheng felt a certain part of his heart swell, as if something had taken root and sprouted in that barrenness.

Hearing his cry of coldness, Jiang Cheng quickly helped him tuck the quilt up, and then wrapped him in his arms. The little child still had a faint fragrance of milk on his body. Perhaps he warmed up after being hugged. Rubbing Jiang Cheng's chest affectionately like a small animal.

The wound was crushed and it hurt a lot, but Jiang Cheng couldn't help laughing silently, while laughing, he let the tears flow wantonly, he finally understood what is called licking the calf and pity the child, that is the little thing in his arms He is willing to give anything he wants, even if it is his life.

Holding him, he couldn't help imagining what it would be like if she was still there, maybe she would fall asleep in his arms, and there would be SiZhui clinging to her beside her, and he would be able to Hold his whole world in his arms.

Perhaps, in the daytime, in Lianhuawu, there will be gentle whispers from women and carefree laughter from children. They will watch him practice sword under the eaves, and she will wipe his forehead carefully when he finishes practicing. beads of sweat.At that time, he can hold Sizhui with one arm and her with the other, and the family of three will come back talking and laughing.

He wanted to take them to the lotus pond to pick lotus pods, the freshest one, she would definitely like the sweet taste.He wanted to take them to the street to watch lanterns, hold the most beautiful girl and the cutest child, and tell everyone that he also has a wife and children, and they really don't have to worry about his life.

In a few years, maybe they can add another daughter, preferably more like her, she must be very beautiful and cute, when the time comes, he will teach Si Zhui how to practice sword, and she will teach her daughter to read and write. There is no better scene than that.

But when he came back to his senses, everything dissipated, it was just a beautiful dream like flowers in water and moon, which turned into nothingness after waking up, and the cold and quiet night was a real reminder to him, how he personally destroyed the happiness that was within his reach.

He was only one step away from the consummation of his heart and mind, but he pushed his lover away, cut off their relationship with cold words and hatred, and after that, all his hope for the rest of his life was probably that he was still ignorant of the world. young children.

Awei, I saw our child, he is very similar to you, very good, a small one, fragrant and soft, I really like him, love him so much!

Awei, if you were still with us, would we be able to have a family reunion now? I make tea very well now, especially Yunwu, which you like. Now I know how to control my temper, and I will never say those words that hurt others or myself. , so, would you like to come back?

The author has something to say: the next chapter will tell the story of Wen Ruohan and Lan Jieyu, it should be a very long chapter