If this love becomes a memory

【15】

Cheng Lili leaned on the bed, drank the cup of sugar and salt water, and felt much better. She opened her eyes, looked at Sister Yi with an anxious face, and said weakly, "Okay, it's all right."

"Don't be stubborn, go to the hospital to hang water or get an injection."

Cheng Lili shook her head, since the accident until now, Sister Yi has paid a lot of money in advance. "I'm really fine. It might be heatstroke. Just lie down and be fine."

"You don't have to think about money, just treat it as a loan from me, okay?" Sister Yi said, "My heart aches when you look like this."

"I know." Cheng Lili held Sister Yi's hand and said, why didn't she understand Sister Yi's feelings for her? For the past two months, if it wasn't for Sister Yi's help, she might not be able to survive.

The mobile phone on the table rang. Sister Yi picked up the number and picked it up. "Didn't you decide to come over tomorrow? Can we talk in detail after meeting? Cheng Lili is sick now and needs to rest." After finishing speaking, she hung up the phone , Think about turning off the phone again. "What can you say clearly on the phone!"

Cheng Lili understood that it was Mo Xiaonan who called again. Since contacting her in the morning, she made several phone calls to ask Xiao Yi. She could understand Mo Xiaonan, but she was really tired at the moment and didn't want to talk too much.

"Is that woman surnamed Mo familiar to you?" Sister Yi asked.

"We have contacted each other and had dinner a few times." Cheng Lili said, "In front of her, Xiao does not shy away from our relationship."

Miss Yi nodded. "That's good, you don't have to have any scruples when you talk to her."

At this time, there was a howl from outside, Xiao Yi rushed in with his head in his arms, and rolled on the bed. "Her head hurts again." Cheng Lili hurriedly got up, brought the medicine, coaxed it down, picked up Xiao Yi's head and put it on her lap. "I'll rub it for you, and it won't hurt in a while. Be obedient, don't move around, and you will sweat again in a while."

Sister Yi watched from the side, sighed, "I'm going back to the company, and I'll see you in the evening." She walked to the door and turned her head. "Don't be too tired."

Cheng Lili responded, massaged Xiao Yi's head lightly, and said like coaxing a child, "Good boy, close your eyes and sleep." The person in her arms gradually calmed down.The face that used to be very good-looking, although it has been disfigured, still fascinated her, she leaned down and kissed it.Is everything fate? Xiao Xiao 20 years ago, her husband ten years ago, and Xiao Yi today, could it be that she is really an ominous woman?Cheng Lili burst into tears

When she was five years old, a fortune teller made a fortune teller for her, saying: "This child has a hard life, and he will be born in Kefuke in the future."

"What is Kefuko?" she asked her father.

"That means you are a broom star." The mother on the side said coldly.

The mother in my memory is very indifferent, with a cold face and cold words, and a house is arranged by her like winter all the year round, cold and chilly.Later, even when Cheng Lili became an adult, she imagined herself as a mother and put herself in the shoes of others, but she still could not forgive her.A good-looking, educated daughter of a capitalist, because of family birth problems, had to marry her much older father, who was born in a farmer and worked as a small laborer in a water pump factory.This is a tragedy that was not uncommon in that era. You can blame the sky, the earth, those sports in that era, or even your father, but you can’t blame your children alone, let alone the curse of fate and the disgust of your father. , the refraction is extended to the child.

She is a woman born without motherhood.This is Cheng Lili's summary of her mother.

Fortunately, God gave Xiaoxiao to her.On the first day of elementary school, when the teacher talked about solidarity and mutual love, he specially introduced the youngest student in the class—Liu Xiaoxiao, who was less than six years old at the time.Really small, small in everything, except those surprisingly big eyes, thick black hair, and indescribably cleverness.

There are often classmates who know the truth behind Xiaoxiao and shout: "Dumb dad, blind mother, the daughter I gave birth to is a fool." After hearing this, Xiaoxiao was not very annoyed. With the index finger, he rubbed his nose, then turned his head and walked away.On the contrary, Cheng Lili went to the teacher to report many cases of bullying her little classmates.But Xiaoxiao doesn't accept her love, and still walks alone. Many times after school, Cheng Lili follows Xiaoxiao, watching her grab a grass and break a branch, and play along the way; watching her bounce and let her schoolbag beat her With her ass in her hands, she happily ran to the dumb dad who picked her up.

Until one day on the way to school, there was a blind man standing at the intersection, and Cheng Lili stepped forward to help him cross the road.After a while, a furry head stretched out in front of her from behind, and the pair of black and bright glass balls were staring at her, and then Xiaoxiao took her hand.Since then, on the way from the living area of ​​the pump factory to the children's school, there will always be two children holding hands, day after day, year after year, rain or shine.

The first time I went to Xiaoxiao’s home, Xiaoxiao’s mother was pasting cardboard boxes, and Xiaoxiao’s father was working in a water pump factory. Mom was out of work and relied on odd jobs to support the family.Xiaoxiao put down her schoolbag, climbed onto her mother's thigh, put her arms around her neck, and kissed her like a baby. Cheng Lili looked very jealous, and she couldn't remember what it was like to be in her mother's arms.

"Xiaoxiao, did any classmates bully you?" Xiaoxiao's mother asked.

"No."

"If your classmates bully you, don't argue with them, go tell the teacher."

"Um"

"The teacher will tell the classmates that Xiaoxiao can go to school because he passed the exam, and it is because I am so clever."

"Yes." Little Cheng Lili waved and said, "Mom, this is my good friend."

"Ah, Xiaoxiao has a good partner?" Xiaoxiao's mother happily stretched out her hand. Cheng Lili stepped forward and put her face into that hand. There was a faint fragrance of paste on the hand. The hand was big, gentle and gentle. Gently stroking her face, like a warm current flowing slowly through her body, she was immersed in this kind of happiness, and took advantage of the situation to throw herself into her arms.

Xiaoxiao's mother's embrace is very warm, and Xiaoxiao's home is also very warm. Because of Xiaoxiao, Cheng Lili spent a carefree childhood.

After entering junior high school, Xiaoxiao grew taller and played more games, "Lili, shall we make a model airplane?" "Lili, shall we catch butterflies as specimens?" Is the group okay?" Usually, Cheng Lili would answer yes, she is used to being played by Xiao Xiao, who is two years younger than her.

Cheng Lili felt that the reason why her always snobbish mother didn't stop her from interacting with Xiaoxiao.It's because little homework is good.You can often hear such comments in the water pump factory, "A blind man, a dumb man, how did he give birth to such a smart daughter!" The homework is excellent, and those who play and play can always get the first place in the grade.However, Xiaoxiao didn't help her much in her studies. According to her understanding, the answering process of an exercise would take a full page, and the small steps would only be three or five lines.Often Xiao Xiao talked dryly, but she still had a dazed look on her face. "Lili, I'll punch a hole here and pour you the answers, okay?" Every now and then, Xiaoxiao would knock herself on the head in frustration.She thinks it's not that Xiaoxiao's explanation is not good, but that she is too stupid to understand Xiaoxiao's thinking.

There will be a kind of processed olives, which are the snacks they all love. It costs [-] cents a bag. If you have a chance to buy one, put one in your mouth, look at each other's puffed cheeks, and bite down gently , Taste together at the beginning, it is astringent and sour, and then it will return to sweetness for a long time.

Sometimes, lying on Xiaoxiao's bed and chatting face to face, Xiaoxiao likes to pull her ears and touch her face while chatting.Or, touch her breasts that have begun to develop, and say: "Lili. It has grown again." Then touch her own breasts, and ask doubtfully: "Why am I still flat?" "You are still young, It will grow in two years," she said.Sometimes, Xiaoxiao would lean on her body, put her furry head against her chin, and smell like a puppy. "Lili, you smell so good, like milk."

Those were three years of sourness and sweetness.

Later, Xiaoxiao was admitted to a listed key high school with excellent grades, so she could only continue to study in a junior school.This is the first time the two are facing separation, and due to the financial situation of Xiaoxiao's family, they can only come back once a month.

"Lili, shall we write letters?" Xiaoxiao went to the new school, and the two began to communicate frequently, as little as one letter a week, and as many as three or four.Fortunately, almost all the teachers at Zidi School knew about Liu Xiaoxiao, otherwise, she would have been regarded as a puppy love object and her letterhead would have been withheld.

"Did you make any new friends at school?" she often asked.

"No. I already have you." Mr. Xiao answered like this.

In fact, within two days of the second year of high school, her mother asked her to drop out of school.That year, in order to deal with the children of the factory leaders, the factory specially applied for several replacement places, and her parents worked hard to get one for her.She didn't want to, she always wanted to leave here, leave this home, and going to college was the only way out.

"University? Are you sure you will be admitted?" Mother asked: "This place is no more than a chemical factory. If you don't pass the university exam, you can go to a technical school. Your sister is still young. What if you don't pass the exam? Do you want to eat at home?"

At this point, even her father, who always loved her, took her mother's side. "Lili, this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity."

She was very hopeless, and she didn't even have the slightest joy in Xiao Xiao's return.

"Lili, don't be angry, I'm going to college, will I take you away later?" Xiao Xiao stretched her index finger, rubbed her nose, and tried her best to comfort her.She remained silent and stayed here, feeling that everything in this life was over.

"Lili, really, I swear! I will take you away!" Xiaoxiao held her face and said firmly: "Believe me, I will take my parents and you and leave here ,we will be together forever!"

With a small promise, Cheng Lili went to work in the water pump factory.She paid her monthly salary, and she gave half of her mother's living expenses, and spent almost all the rest on Xiaoxiao, buying nutrition, study materials, and clothes.She made a plan to save money for Xiaoxiao to go to college in the future, and when Xiaoxiao graduates and works, she can take her away.

That was that year, at noon on a summer weekend, the two were lying on the bed, chatting, as usual, Xiao Xiao still touched her face from time to time, then slipped her hand behind her, and undid the bust button through the clothes , This is a prank that Xiaoxiao likes on weekdays, but she felt something was wrong that day.There was something moving in her body that she couldn't explain clearly, so she hugged her chest and turned her back to Xiao Xiao. "Don't make trouble, buckle it up for me."

Something was wrong with Xiaoxiao that day, she even pulled her body and rode up on her.She saw Xiaoxiao blushed and stared at her in a daze.She was tense and could hear herself breathing heavily.Suddenly, Xiaoxiao pulled away her hand protecting her chest, and lifted up her shirt. The little hand was very hot, stroking her well-developed breasts, then Xiaoxiao hugged her, gently After sucking it down, in an instant, she felt a numbness, like an electric current hitting her whole body from the soles of her feet.Confused, flustered, excited, looking forward to it, she took off her clothes and let Xiao Xiao grope around her body

Afterwards, looking at the blood on her fingers, Xiaoxiao cried out of fear and distress, while she hugged Xiaoxiao tightly, her heart filled with happiness.

After the relationship between the two improved, Xiao Xiao wrote letters more frequently. She used to go home once a month, but now she returns every week. She will soon be in her third year of high school. In order not to affect Xiao Xiao's homework, Cheng Lili decided not to communicate with Xiao Xiao for the time being. .

"Then what's the matter? If I can't see you, it will affect my homework." Xiao Xiao said anxiously.

"Then you have to be among the top five in every test, or I'll ignore you," she said.

Xiao Xiao crossed her index finger, rubbed her nose and smiled happily. "Is it good to be the top one in the grade test, Lili?"

On the eve of the college entrance examination, Xiaoxiao's first choice was to fill in the prestigious university that thousands of students yearn for.Two or three volunteers are blank.

"To be on the safe side, let's fill in all of them." Cheng Lili persuaded.The university at that time was a situation where thousands of troops crossed the single-plank bridge.

"No need. Lili, I can pass the exam." Xiaoxiao is always full of confidence.

On the day of the end of the college entrance examination, Cheng Lili deliberately asked for leave to wait outside the examination room. Seeing Xiaoxiao walking out with a happy face, she finally let go of her hanging heart.

"Lili, I performed better than I did in the preliminaries."

"Really?" She cried with joy, the score in the little pre-examination was already ridiculously high, which meant that there was no problem going to that prestigious university.

The days that followed were happy, and it seemed like the sun was shining every day.The two are full of hope for the future, and there are still some days before the admission notice is issued, and she has already started preparing for Xiaoxiao to go to college.Thinking that Xiaoxiao will be full in a few months, at that time, Xiaoxiao should study in an institution of higher learning in the capital, and can't celebrate Xiaoxiao's birthday, Cheng Lili decided to knit a sweater as a birthday present for Xiaoxiao.

Who knew that it was this sweater that caused the disaster, or maybe it was the joy that gave birth to sorrow?