If this love becomes a memory

【39】

When Xu Meifeng woke up, it was nearly four o'clock in the afternoon. After resting, she became more awake. The place where the monkey punched her in her eye socket began to throb with pain, and the scene in the morning slowly flashed back.Monkey is a stubborn person. When he is nice to people, he can peel his heart out. If he is provoked, he will not only be unreasonable, but also fight like a ghost. For her own safety, Xu Meifeng decided to avoid Monkey for the time being. Wait until he's over his convulsions before making any plans.

After getting up, I wanted to wash my face, but when I looked up, I was taken aback by the picture in the mirror. My nose was swollen and lost its outline, and my eyes were dark and purple. When I fell to the ground, the corner of my mouth hit the foot of the sofa, and there was also a bruise , could not help shouting.

Mo Xiaonan was opening the door when he heard the shout and rushed in. Seeing Meifeng's colorful pig's head, he was also startled, and hurriedly said, "Hurry up and go to the hospital to have a look."

Xu Meifeng shook her head, soaked her face in cold water for a while, wiped it off lightly, and said, "Senior Sister, I have something to discuss with you, I'm so shameless that I can't go to work, can I stay with you for a few days? "

Mo Xiaonan hurriedly nodded in agreement, and Xu Meifeng called Huzi again, asking him to drive over and take her back to the Seventh Factory.

Huzi drove to the front of Mo Xiaonan's building, and when he saw Meifeng, his apology was even heavier. No matter how much he disliked Meifeng, after all, he had helped him at the beginning, but now because of him

A moment of inadvertent speech caused disharmony between the younger brother and younger sister, so he kept blaming himself and wanted La Meifeng to go to the hospital.

"I don't blame you, that's how you are a senior brother. You don't have to go to the hospital, take me home to pack my clothes and stay here with my senior sister for a few days." Meifeng said, thinking that this beard is always like this, and nothing can be done. If you are clear, you will know how to add chaos.

Back home, Xie Sanli was bathing Beibei in the dam, Meifeng greeted her and went upstairs with her head down.Beard secretly winked, took the things in Xie Sanli's hand, and took over from him to wash Beibei. Xie Sanli wiped his hands and followed him upstairs.

Xu Meifeng finished packing her things a few times, saw Xie Sanli standing outside the door, and asked, "Third brother, what's the matter?"

Xie Sanli coughed dryly, scratched his head and walked in.Huzi found him at noon, and when he told the situation, he was shocked. He didn't know that Xiao Yi was back, and he didn't expect Xiao Yi to follow in Xiaoman's footsteps.Hearing that Houzi was planning to divorce Meifeng, he hurried over to try to persuade Houzi when he came back from middle shift.

After divorcing Xiaoman that year, he reorganized the family, but he always felt ashamed of the monkey siblings, and the monkey refused any help from him. It was not until Meifeng married that the lives of the siblings entered normal. With a real home.Therefore, he felt that no matter what, he had to keep their marriage and this family.

Xie Sanli handed Xu Meifeng a cigarette, and said, "Monkeys shouldn't do anything, I'll tell him later."

Xu Meifeng really didn't expect the monkey to do anything to her, and the monkey's aggressive behavior in the morning was a bit unexpected.

"He may have seen Xiao Yi's appearance and thought of Xiaoman, so he was impulsive." Xie Sanli said.

"Master just has amnesia, which is different from Eldest Sister." Xu Meifeng said.

"I don't mean this, Xiao Man and Xiao Yi are actually the same kind of people. Xiao Man's madness is related to a woman."

Xu Meifeng was so shocked that she almost cried out. This is probably the most absurd statement she has ever heard. If you can see the characteristics of that kind of person from the master's appearance and personality, then in her opinion, Xiaoman is completely Femininity has been married, nothing is different from her.

Xie Sanli ignored her surprised gaze, sat down, took a breath, seemed to calm down his emotions, and said slowly: "You know that Xiaoman and Houzi are orphans. After their parents passed away, our family has been taking care of them. Xiaoman and Houzi I am about the same age, and my childhood sweethearts have a very good relationship. After graduating from high school, I entered a factory, and Xiaoman was admitted to university. Before leaving, the family held a banquet and invited friends from all around. First, I came to see the farewell, and second, it was an appointment for me and Xiaoman. relative.

After she went to college, she was normal for the first two years. When she came back from holidays, she wrote letters on weekdays, which were full of the special affection of being in love.But things changed from the beginning of my junior year. First, I wrote fewer letters, and then said that I was busy with homework, and I didn’t come back during the holidays and Spring Festival. At first, I didn’t care. Based on my understanding of Xiaoman, such words as changing her mind were not on her head. Up.

Just before the graduation assignment.She wrote to say that she didn't want to be assigned back to the factory. Isn't the subtext of this sentence just to break up with me?It was only then that I realized that something was wrong. I found out her letters from the past two years and read them carefully.Xindao, could it be that she has a new friend in college, and she doesn't like me as a worker?

With doubts, I went to the college to find her. She was very surprised by my arrival, but she didn't answer any of my questions, only repeatedly saying that she didn't want to be assigned back.I said: If you don't go back, isn't it the meaning of the two of us?Do you have another boyfriend?If you want to break up, just say so.She said it was not what I imagined, and if she asked again, she just cried.

After a few days of stalemate, I threatened Xiaoman with death. I knew it was very dishonest to do that, but I had no other choice.I waited for Xiaoman for four years, I think I should have the right to know what happened, right?I said to her: If you have another love, let that person come and talk to me. As long as he can really give you happiness, I will thank Sanli and go back immediately. city.

The next day, a person, a woman, came to the hotel where I was staying. She was quite refined and bookish. She introduced herself as Xiaoqing, a classmate of Xiaoman, and came to talk to me about Xiaoman.In order to gain her understanding and support, I told the story of my relationship with Xiaoman in detail.That Xiaoqing didn't say a word, just kept blushing and humming, and finally said: I am the one Xiaoman loves.

I didn't hear clearly, or I didn't understand, so I asked: What did you say?She let out a breath, raised her head, and even though her face was flushed, she looked at me firmly and said word by word: I——I am Xiaoman's lover!

Meifeng, think about it, let alone 20 years ago, even now, if a woman ran in front of a man and said she was the lover of his fiancée, how many men would accept it?Xiaoqing then said: Xiaoman and I love each other very much. We decided to hold hands for the rest of our lives. If you can make it happen, we will be grateful for the rest of our lives.

I was completely stunned, Xiaoqing didn't know when she left, stayed for a long time, raised her hand left and right and slapped herself a few times, convinced that it was not a dream or hysteria, so she went to find Xiaoman.This time Xiaoman was very forthright and admitted her relationship with Xiaoqing. She also said that they had signed up for the branch and planned to stay away from the city, away from their relatives, and live in a place full of ethnic minorities.

In those few days, I kept persuading Xiaoman, but she was determined not to get in, and I was going crazy, not because Xiaoman changed her mind and wanted to break up with me, but because I felt heartbroken because of her obsession with obsession and depravity.At that time, the market was criticizing the liberalization of capitalism. I think Xiaoman, like some young people who yearn for the decadent Western lifestyle, has learned badly.The kind of behavior they describe in newspapers and magazines is associated with drug crimes and ugly social phenomena.

In real life, I have seen this kind of people. When I was still studying, we had a man upstairs who was not married in his thirties. He often brought a young man home. Later, their hooliganism was exposed. This man He was sent to a labor camp, and the young man was punished.The family members of the two families could not hold their heads up because of this, implicated that one's younger sister could not marry, and the other's elder brother could not marry a wife.

I don't know if the two girls are like hooligans, and whether they will be sent to labor camps, but at least this kind of behavior is shameful, will be cast aside by the world, and will bring shame to their relatives.I don't understand, I understand the truth as an old man, how can these two educated people who have studied in institutions of higher learning not understand?

So, I decided to save Xiaoman no matter what. It doesn't matter whether she marries me or not. The important thing is not to let her slip further and further down this wrong road.I inquired about Xiaoqing's situation in their school, and her father happened to be a lecturer in that school, so I went to visit him.

I told the lecturer about their situation, and hoped that he would come forward to take care of his daughter, cut off the two of them from continuing to communicate, and at the same time find a way to stop their absurd idea of ​​going to Zhibian.As far as I know, it is a place where no grass grows. If you spit in winter, it will freeze into ice bumps before it hits the ground. Only those who are stupid in reading will think of running there.Xiaoqing's father was as shocked as I was a few days ago. An intellectual with a thin face, his face was red and white. And said that their family would never agree with their daughter Zhibian.

I don't know how Xiaoqing's father did it. After graduation, Xiaoqing stayed in that city, and Xiaoman was assigned back to the research institute of our main factory.

After Xiaoman came back, she was obviously indifferent to me. I knew she blamed me and Xiaoqing's father for breaking them up.But I don't blame her, I still treat her well as always, I believe that one day she will understand my painstaking efforts.

After two years like this, she said to me one day: Third brother, you should marry a woman, don't waste it with me.I didn't agree, and said: If you think I'm not good enough for you, you can find another boyfriend. When you get married, I will consider my own marriage, otherwise, I will wait for your change of heart.

She wanted to take the postgraduate entrance examination that year, but her unit disagreed, so she had to give up.Another two years later, the relatives and friends around us were anxious for us, and many children of the same age would run around carrying bottles to make soy sauce.In their eyes, Meifeng and I have been in love for [-] years. After [-] years, the War of Resistance has been won. They don’t understand what we are wasting!So they took turns lobbying and persuading, and even the leaders of Xiaoman's unit came forward to care.

In the end, when Xiaoman was almost [-] years old, she agreed to marry me, but she asked not to have children for the time being, saying that she wanted to make some achievements in her career while she was young, and I agreed.After marriage, she was very kind to me and my family. As a wife and daughter-in-law, no one could do better than her. In those three years, I felt that I was the happiest man in the world." Xie Sanli said here He stopped, as if he was still reminiscing about the sweetness of those three years, Xu Meifeng didn't rush, handed him a cigarette, and lit it for him.

Xie Sanli was quiet for a while, watching the cloud of smoke slowly dissipate in front of him, and continued: "I remember that at the beginning of [-], Xiaoman mentioned to me that the few who wanted to leave their jobs without pay and go to the south to join her did well. classmate. I didn’t agree at the time. At that time, some people with connections and capital around me went to sea to do business, and some of them went to the south with unsatisfactory lives. I am very satisfied with our life. We are not rich, but we are safe. Besides, Hui Xiaoman is highly valued in the work unit, and his design has won awards. He is a key training target for leaders, so there is no need to go out.

But Xiaoman seemed to be possessed, she mentioned this matter to me whenever she had the opportunity, and she seemed, how should I put it, very urgent and irritable, and I was a little alert to her abnormality.

Xiaoman's daily social life is very simple, and she is also very frank with me after marriage. There is only one locked drawer at home, and there is a bankbook and cash in it, so I can say no secrets to me.If there is really something to hide, then the relevant things can only be stored in her office, so I took the opportunity to make a set of all the keys of her office privately.

Soon, Xiaoman worked overtime one night, and I went to pick her up. Because something happened on the construction site, she and her colleagues rushed over to deal with it, and I waited in her office.After a while, she called and said that she might have to stay overnight and asked me to go back first.I thought to myself that this is really a good opportunity, so I closed the door and opened Xiaoman's desk calmly.

I searched a few drawers carefully, but found nothing abnormal. In the end, there was only one cabinet left, which was full of drawings. I carefully took out some, and poked my hand in. There was one, and it was empty inside, and I touched it. A few notebooks and a portfolio.

Those notebooks are Xiaoman’s diary, not written every day, intermittently, but the file bag contains Xiaoqing’s letters, from 87 to 95, bound into two thick stacks according to the date, even the envelopes Neatly unfolded and bound.

Meifeng, I can no longer describe to you how I felt when I saw those things. I just remember that it was already spring, but I was shivering from the cold and my teeth chattered.Xiaoman came back separately in 87, and was far away from Xiaoqing. I thought they had lost contact for a long time, but unexpectedly, they kept in touch with each other, and even met each other in different places when they were on business trips.

Xiaoqing's letter is full of sorrow, and Xiaoman's diary, apart from missing Xiaoqing throughout, also has a sense of guilt.They rarely mention me, they only say that I am a good person, marrying me is just to repay your kindness.

That night, for the first time, I felt deeply hurt. For the first time, I had a deep hatred for that Xiaoqing. In 85, she dragged Xiaoman into the water. Ten years later, Xiaoman is still married. Don't let it go, they even agreed to leave their jobs without pay and go south together.

I copied the address on Xiaoqing's envelope, and among her letters, I chose several letters of different years, and carefully cut them out with a razor blade. I had to act.I can't let Xiaoqing succeed, I want to defend my marriage and save my wife.

A few days later, on the pretext of going back to my hometown to visit my grandfather, I went to the school where Xiaoman was studying, and found Xiaoqing’s father, who was already a professor. When talking about Xiaoqing, the professor was very helpless, saying that Xiaoqing could not be controlled at home, and she was working. After that, they seldom interacted with each other.

I went to Xiaoqing's unit again, which is some kind of design institute.Parents can't control her, there must be a place to control her.Her leader listened to my feedback, read those letters carefully, and attached great importance to them. She said that she would deal with this matter seriously and give me a satisfactory answer.

So I came back, I believe that Xiaoqing's unit organization will persuade and educate Xiaoqing, and her unit promised not to approve her suspension without pay, so that she can't kidnap Xiaoman away.

Some days later, one day when I came home from work, I saw Xiaoman lying straight on the bed, unable to wake up. There was an empty bottle of sleeping pills next to her, and I hurried her to the hospital for gastric lavage. I had a premonition that something might have happened to Xiaoqing. Sure enough, when I called her work unit, a colleague said that Xiaoqing committed suicide by jumping off a building.

I asked for a leave of absence and stayed close by. Xiaoman had no chance to take medicine and cut his pulse, so he went on a hunger strike.I had no choice but to find Monkey, and dared not tell him the truth, only that Xiaoman was sick and couldn't eat.Monkey was in a hurry, so he moved back from the dormitory to our house and took good care of Xiaoman. Maybe because of the monkey, Xiaoman finally survived.But it didn't take long before he went crazy. "

After Xie Sanli finished speaking, he sat there with a lonely expression. Xu Meifeng didn't understand what he said, and wanted to express what he meant, so she asked: "Brother San, do you think you did something wrong?"

"I don't know." Xie Sanli said: "If they are all alive and healthy, I firmly believe that I am not wrong, but the ending of one dead and one crazy, my right or wrong, what is the point? I only know that after that, I wasn't at ease."