If this love becomes a memory

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Xu Meifeng recuperated at Mo Xiaonan's house for a few days, the redness and swelling on her face gradually subsided, but the sclera under her eyes were still congested.During the period, Houzi called once, solemnly announcing that he wanted to divorce her.However, this also means that the monkey will not do anything again, and she is safe.

On this day, in Luo Simin's middle class, Xu Meifeng wore sunglasses and went to the preschool to pick up Domi. On the way back, the wind blew and shivered. The pants still can't stand the cold.

"Aunt Xu, let's have hot pot tonight, it's so cold." Domi said.Xu Meifeng agreed, took Doomi to buy vegetables, returned home, broke the bones of the stick, boiled the broth, and fried the bottom ingredients over low heat.He also instructed Xiao Yiduomi to work together to choose and wash the vegetables, while he handled the meat dishes, cut them with a knife and put them on the plate. After a while, the room was filled with a strong spicy smell.

When Mo Xiaonan came back from get off work, looking at the sumptuous table, he secretly praised the goblin's ability.Different from Simin, Luo Simin highlights her ability from being methodical, while the goblin highlights her flamboyance and arrogance from her ability.

Considering that the weather is too cold, Mo Xiaonan took out the induction cooker, poured beer into a small pot, put red dates, goji berries, rock sugar and old ginger, and prepared to boil the beer. I drink white today."

Mo Xiaonan took a bottle of Honghualang, and Meifeng thought it was a sauce-flavored one, so he found a bottle of 1573 in the wine cabinet, and said, "Only this bottle is a strong-flavored one. It's hard to do."

Mo Xiaonan smiled, greeted Xiao Yiduomi to the table, and said: "You will be cruel, this Guojiao is still left by Zhuo Ercong."

A group of people gathered around the hot pot, eating steaming hot, after a few glasses of wine, Mo Xiaonan and Xu Meifeng drank some Hongxia, and were teasing each other, when Xu Meifeng's cell phone rang, and after answering the call, she became impatient He said: "Isn't it just a divorce? What a big deal. I'll come back to talk to you in a few days. Stop calling and drink with senior sister. I'm busy."

Mo Xiaonan was stunned for a moment, and asked, "Divorce? What kind of marriage should I get?"

"Hou's nerves went crazy this time, and he decided that I was a bad woman with a heart like a snake. Uh, in his words, I can't have it."

"Because of the master?"

"Not entirely, there may be a factor from Miss Xiaoman." Meifeng simply said what Xie Sanli told that day, and said: "Think about the incident with Miss Xiaoman, that Xiaoqing died, Brother Xie Sanli Because of his family's kindness, he has no one to attack. This time the master had an accident, and the driver and Jiang Yicheng couldn't find it. Didn't the new and old grudges fall on me alone? Divorce is still good, there must be a machine gun, It would be strange if you don’t scan my whole body.”

Miss Xiaoman also likes women?But Mo Xiaonan didn't expect it.I really don’t know how many people like this are around. They try their best to hide their differences and show the normality needed by the secular world. But in order to conform to this normality, how much blood and tears have been paid and how many tragedies have been performed, only they themselves Got it.She sighed softly in her heart, somewhat understanding the monkey, but what problem can divorce solve?

"If it's just for the sake of the master, it won't be related to the divorce. I'll talk about monkeys later." Mo Xiaonan said.

"It's useless, do you think Hu Zi and the third brother didn't persuade him? Why did he let go of that tone after endlessly talking about me? I'll just go back and actively cooperate."

"It's best not to take this step. Divorce will hurt your muscles and bones, and it will hurt your feelings."

"I was divorced once before, and feelings are like chewing gum to me." Xu Meifeng said: "Besides, Monkey, his feelings were hurt in his early years. Later, he fell in love with a widow for a while, and fell in love with a widow for a while. It's not a good bird to sleep with a woman of unknown origin for a few days. When he pursued me, I was repairing the house, and I longed for a home in my heart, so I followed him in a moment of confusion, but I didn't have any emotional love that was desperate. Now To divide, it's not that whoever leaves can't live without children, how simple it is."

Mo Xiaonan didn't know whether Xu Meifeng was really as calm as he said, so he drank some hot beer and started eating vegetables.Xu Meifeng stared at her bowl, clicked her tongue twice, and said in dissatisfaction: "I said that the master is biased. The people sitting in front of her are all apprentices. You can know you by looking at her."

Only then did Mo Xiaonan realize that Domi had left the table at some point, and Xiao Yi hadn't eaten yet, but he kept boiling the dishes in the pot and handing them to Mo Xiaonan, and hurriedly said, "I'll do it myself, master. You Go and play with Domi." Then he dragged Xiao Yi to the living room, where Domi was watching a video, so he asked the two of them to sit down, covered their feet with a blanket, and said, "Go to bed when you see nine o'clock. sleep."

Back at the table, seeing Meifeng still pulling her face, she said with a smile: "Do you drink this kind of dry vinegar?"

"Tch, we all know that the master likes you the most and me the least." Meifeng curled her lips, poured a glass of wine, and raised the bottle and asked, "Would you like to try it? Not bad, a belch smells so good."

Mo Xiaonan shook his head, brewed another bottle of beer, and said, "Drink slowly, let's have a good chat."

"Okay, I wanted to talk to you a long time ago."

"Then let me tell you about you first. I have always been curious about you, and I feel that you are quite mysterious."

Xu Meifeng smiled, lit a cigarette, took a puff, and said, "I don't know that I have a sense of mystery in the eyes of my senior sister."

"The main reason is that Zhuo Ercong said before that you seem to have a good background, but you went to the Seventh Factory for some reason. Of course, it's not convenient to just say so."

"It's nothing inconvenient. If you talk about your background, it's a history. I share my mother's surname, and my father's surname should be Mi."

The surname Mi is very rare, and Mo Xiaonan suddenly remembered that when she first entered the factory, the factory was not called a company, and the director of the main factory seemed to have the surname Mi.Mei Fengxiang saw through what she was thinking, nodded and said: "Yes, in the early 90s, Mi, the director of the main factory, was my biological father. He was transferred from the office and didn't bring his family over here, so we know about his family situation here. Very few people.

In my family, there are two older sisters, one older brother, and one younger brother who was adopted by my uncle when I was [-] years old.Compared with the noisy big family of my parents, I prefer my uncle's house.He was the principal of a middle school. After the death of his girlfriend during the Cultural Revolution, he never married.As an adult, when I sneer at the so-called love and think of my uncle, I still believe that there was such a thing as forever and ever, but it just disappeared.

The education I received since I was a child was very orthodox. I have always been indoctrinated to love the motherland and the people, to be useful to society, to abide by laws and regulations, and to abide by morality.When I was a student, the word 'devotion' appeared most frequently in my composition.Countless times, I have imagined that in times of war, I would block eye-catching and blow up bunkers, and in times of peace, not to mention sacrificing myself to save others, I would also do something earth-shattering for the construction of the motherland.

Even now, I have no intention of laughing at that year. At that time, I was indeed a motivated young man with faith and ideals.

When I was a sophomore, my uncle died of cancer. I was very sad. My first husband, let’s call him Little K, came into my life naturally.At that time, my father had become the director of the factory, and Xiao K was his secretary. He graduated from a prestigious university and looked just like Miura Yukazu's younger brother. When he opened his mouth, his knowledge was so profound that he was so knowledgeable that he had never seen the world like me. , A woman who has never been in a relationship, was immediately dumbfounded by the electric shock, and fell into that river crazily, caught in that kind of net, and couldn't pull it out.

My father likes little K very much. He not only deliberately cultivates him, but also intends to accept him as his son-in-law.So after graduating, I was assigned to the main factory as a matter of course, and I went to the workshop for a while, and the internship period had just passed.He married Little K.At the end of [-], my father resigned and was transferred back to the office. Before leaving, he transferred little K to the supply and marketing department as the deputy director. At the time, K was only [-] years old, and he was the youngest deputy director-level cadre in the factory.And I went to the newly established editorial department of the factory newspaper and became an editor.

In the past two years since then, I have felt quite happy, with a happy marriage and a smooth career. Every day I go out like a chicken blood, and I am so high-spirited that I wish I could announce to the world that I am the happiest woman.

After the establishment of the group company, a sales company was set up, and Xiao K became the vice president.Gradually, I found out that he had financial problems. Little K handed over his monthly salary and bonus to me, but his daily expenses were very high. Where did he get the money to maintain those high expenses?During the period, there were rumors that Little K often went to karaoke to play girls. He listened to it too many times and felt lost. He went to ask Little K for verification, but he readily admitted it. Interrupted my passionate outburst with a look of hating iron but not steel.

Little K said: Meifeng, we talk about the need to unify our thinking, improve our understanding, change our thinking and update our ideas in our daily conferences and meetings. Why do you still stay where you are?What time is it now?It has been reformed, opened up, revitalized, and allowed some people to get rich first.Who gets rich first?It can only be a person with courage and ability!I don’t understand how you look at the problem. I helped the company earn money, and I withheld some deductions. That’s what I should get for my hard work. Can it be related to economic issues?When someone does something for me, I give something as a reward, or I do a favor for someone else, and they thank me. It’s just a gift between friends. Why are you offering bribes and accepting bribes?As for Miss Zhao, that's the way it is now, isn't it just calling a girl when drinking and singing, playing dice and telling jokes together, what else can you do?Don't you always think of dirty places

Little K's eloquence has always been very good. What I didn't expect was that such unreasonable words would come out of little K's mouth with such righteousness!Sister, you also know that people like us who live in enterprises.Almost all the year round, you are nested in your own world, in the small environment of the company, and you really don’t have much contact with the outside world.In order to understand the changes of the times and keep in line with my husband's thinking, I climbed out of the well and actively participated in social activities to observe the society. I didn't know it, but I was really shocked when I saw it. The world has really changed.

Once upon a time, those things we pursued and insisted on were discarded unconsciously and replaced by the pursuit of money and power. In that materialistic world, we can no longer see etiquette, integrity, and moral virtue.

I can't adapt to this kind of change, especially the change of little K. He is becoming more and more addicted to playing karaoke. I went to the field to investigate, and it is far from the simple and simple chatting with Miss Zhao as he described.At that time, most of the company's cadres had this hobby. I witnessed the ugliness of cadres playing with girls in the best card halls in the city. The scenes of them groping and groping with young ladies in their arms, or naked and naked, are the root cause of this disease.

During those days, Little K tried his best to brainwash me, but I resisted confusedly, and our marriage was in crisis.At the end of [-], I found out that I was pregnant. I went to the hospital for an examination. I was so shocked that I almost bit my tongue on the spot. Pants stretched legs for physical therapy, all my shyness and shame were exhausted.

I was in terrible pain there, but the little K who was the instigator refused to admit it, and said lightly that I got the infection from not paying attention to personal hygiene.hehe.

This kind of marriage couldn't last anymore, so I filed for divorce.Divorce was really difficult in those days. The unit had to sign. Little K was afraid of affecting his career, so he refused to agree to the divorce at all. The newspaper I worked for belonged to the Party Committee Propaganda Department, and the editor-in-chief also came forward to mediate, saying that the divorce would damage the image of the unit. .It will take more than two years to go to court.

I can't get divorced, I don't know how to continue this day, in order to find a kind of relief, I became obsessed with playing mahjong, and gradually I was not satisfied with the company's employees. Helping businessmen, playing big cards, winning or losing in one night is more than my annual income. The excitement brought by gambling makes me forget my troubles.

One day, a poker friend brought a friend who was a civil servant. Civil servants were not popular at that time. The man just sat and watched. He heard that I belonged to this company, so he approached me and asked me if I knew Little K, saying that Little K was from his university The relationship between classmates is very good.I said no, I know that little K is a foreigner, and it is said that he has no relatives or friends here.The man was in a hurry. In order to prove that they had a good relationship, he talked about little K's trivial matters in college, focusing on the five or six years of relationship between little K and the school belle. Such a woman, a good piece of vanilla was planted on the pile of cow dung.

I asked calmly, why is the woman K is marrying now so ugly?The man said: Ugly is the second, the most important thing is, in the words of little K, his wife's head was caught by the door, the whole thing is a treasure.At a young age, she is like a Marxist-Leninist old lady, and she doesn't know whether she is serious or not. Even if she plays tricks on the bed, she will be scolded as a hooligan.Once when little K was drunk, he said that his wife would take a certain posture, like a dead fish, and she would die without making a sound, and she lost her sexual interest when she watched it. "

Hearing this, Mo Xiaonan shook his head in disbelief, thinking that little K was really too much, why did he publicize the matter between the couple's bed, and that classmate is also hateful, and he said this in public, so he asked: "Little K K's classmates really don't know you?"

"I don't know him. Little K hasn't introduced any of his classmates to me. I think I'm much worse than that school beauty, so I can't make a move." Meifeng smiled wryly, and continued: "I can't remember how much I lost that night. I just feel like I've lost all of myself.

In fact, Little K was the only man I loved with all my heart, with blindness, admiration and appreciation. Even though I filed for divorce at that time, the love in my heart was always there.And those words turned my whole world upside down, he can not love me, he can use me as a tool, but he shouldn't even give me the least respect.

It’s not that I’m making excuses for my later behavior. Anyway, after that, I think about everything and don’t care. Since the marriage can’t be divorced, I feel so miserable in Little K’s heart. He can be a groom every night, why can’t I How many big brothers will you recognize for him?Yes, let's climb out of the wall for fun too.He has the mentality of revenge on Little K, and also wants to prove to other men whether he is really as miserable as Little K slanders. "

"I can't imagine what you looked like before." Mo Xiaonan said, "Knowing you is fascinating."

Meifeng laughed: "Style? A woman's style is created among men after reading countless people. I don't understand that some men want women to be both pure and charming. He doesn't know that the two are the same thing. Is there any relationship between palm and fish?

Later, when I opened a house one time, I happened to encounter the police cracking down on pornography. This is not the first time I have dealt with the police. At that time, they were keen to arrest gambling, whoring and prostitution, just for fines.I was in a bad mood that day, and I had a few words with a policeman, arguing that I was not a prostitute, at most an improper relationship between a man and a woman, but I was slapped in the face, and the worst thing was that I was fined for my bad attitude and had to Unit leaders come to lead people.

The editor-in-chief took me back and tried to control the spread of the matter as much as possible. I knew that I would not be able to stay in the newspaper office anymore. After all, it is a mouthpiece unit.At that time in [-], every unit was overcrowded. At that time, my father had already retired. Firstly, his words would not have much effect in the company. Secondly, his concept was that it is normal for men to play games, and it would be humiliating for me to cheat on a woman. The family got windy, so he refused to help me. Little K hated me for cuckolding him, so naturally he didn't care. On my own, in such a big company, I couldn't get in touch with a management position. In the end, the editor-in-chief helped me and contacted the Biotechnology Department of the Seventh Factory. Find me a management position in the drawing room.

I don’t know if you’ve been to the Seventh Factory ten years ago. It’s remote and bad. The staff are either illiterate or scum. I’m only [-] years old. I shudder at the thought of living and working in that ghostly place for the rest of my life. It's gone.

A lot of things happened during the more than a year when I went out, so I won’t go into details. It was a very crazy time. I savored the depraved happiness in the indulgence. It’s just that the night is quiet, and there will still be the pain of getting sober after drunk .Not long after, a friend died of a drug overdose. That incident shocked me a lot. In all fairness, the outside world is wonderful, but I still can’t get into it. I am happy with other people’s happiness, amazed by their wonderfulness, and suffer from my own pain. That was definitely not the day I wanted, and I even missed the plain and simple life in the company.

At the end of [-], Xiao K offered to divorce me, and it happened that Factory No. [-] also notified me to go back. After much consideration, I stayed, but I couldn't keep the management position. "

"Is little K still in the company now?" Mo Xiaonan asked.

"No, not long after I divorced, he was transferred to another state-owned enterprise in the same system. It is said that he married a high-level daughter and got along well. And I left the workshop in early [-] and worked as a shift worker."