Don't act like a baby

She is menacing, but her actions are cautious and gentle.Although there is no time for others to react, I am also very willing and willing when pressed.It's just that under such circumstances, it seems that there is no other way but to cater to the little girl's behavior.Fortunately, Zhao Xinghe held Si Yu's face in his arms, and after finishing that sentence, he could only stop and kiss him clumsily.

Her lips pressed against each other softly, and the hot air she exhaled hit the tip of her nose, her chin and the corners of her lips.Si Yu was very stiff, Zhao Xinghe knew that she would be like this, put down a hand to comfort Si Yu's back, "Relax, I won't force you."

From her trembling tone, Si Yu knew that Zhao Xinghe was just as nervous as himself.It was just a very simple kiss. Zhao Xinghe looked up at Si Yu persistently after raising his head, touched the root of Si Yu's ear with the other hand, and then gently inserted it into her hair, making Si Yu's head slightly tilted back .

Without further hesitation, Zhao Xinghe unconsciously licked his lips in the gap, and greeted him again.

The fragrance that belongs only to girls stubbornly got into her arms and nose, until she captured all the rational defenses in her mind.Si Yu's hand was hanging by his side, motionless, and he didn't know whether he should wrap his hand around Zhao Xinghe or just leave it like that.All of this happened so suddenly that she didn't have time to make any preparations, and her reaction was the most authentic.Zhao Xinghe is not very good at kissing. After kissing her, she accidentally bit Si Yu's lower lip with her teeth, but of course she didn't feel any pain in this situation.

Apart from the excitement and bewilderment rushing to the brain, there is also a kind of numbness that makes Si Yu want to go crazy. This feeling is no stranger to her, and it reminds her of how Zhao Xinghe begged for mercy to herself over and over again that night.Because I had never been mentally prepared for this moment, apart from the natural physiological reaction after being kissed, an uncontrollable sense of resistance also appeared.

"Not paying attention?" Zhao Xinghe raised his head and put Si Yu's bracelet around his waist, "Don't respond to me, it's not like you that night."

Her tone was teasing, not angry at all.Only the eyes that still had a little bit of water shimmered, and the light lipstick on the lips disappeared into someone's mouth when they kissed, leaving only a faint smear of red on the corners of the lips.Obviously it was Zhao Xinghe who took the initiative, but at this glance, it looked like Zhao Xinghe had been bullied all the time, and the blood that had finally calmed down continued to surge.

Si Yu endured it, and then resisted not reaching out to touch her lips, "You..."

"I know what you're going to say." Zhao Xinghe refused to let Si Yu put his hand down, nor did he want to distance the two of them. You have rehearsed it countless times in your mind, so you can respond to me so quickly."

Si Yu was so afraid of being in close contact with someone who actually slept with her.One month, three months, or half a year?In the time that he didn't know, how much effort Si Yu had put in, Zhao Xinghe's heart ached to death just thinking about it.

Zhao Xinghe frowned and said, "Si Yu, are you tired?"

Si Yu pursed his lips tightly and said after a while, "I'm sorry."

As soon as she said she was sorry to Zhao Xinghe, she wanted to cry, but she didn't want Si Yu to feel that she was too fragile, so she sniffed and continued, "I understand everything."

When she turned on the audio, it contained a passage that 45-year-old Si Yu recorded for her alone. The tone was completely different from before. At the same time, she was also very calm, telling her story calmly: "26 Hello Zhao Xinghe, [-] years old, I'm glad you heard this audio. If you hadn't asked Zhao Si about my childhood, this USB flash drive would never have been handed over to you.

I don't know what made you want to know about my childhood, but I can tell you, yes, your guess is right, Si Yu is not a child with a happy childhood.Because of her incompetent parents, she only got doubts and pains about a stable relationship, because no one has ever guided her, so that after meeting you, Si Yu discovered her resistance and unacceptability to intimacy .So she built walls around herself, closed herself off.

I can also tell you one thing for sure, you will not divorce.After many years, we have spent many, many hours together, rediscovering that missing sense of security, and learning how to enjoy being close to you.But I never forgave myself for not telling you all this in high school. In fact... I really want to make up for that lost childhood. "

When he heard this, Zhao Xinghe thought of a word.

Children who have had an unfortunate childhood spend their entire lives making up for lost childhood.And children who grew up happily in an environment of love in their childhood will spend their whole lives in childhood when they grow up.

She listened carefully to every word.

"Although you may not be able to accept this for the time being, I have to tell you what I can't help. Now I am 25 years old, and I have no doubts about my love for you, and I have loved you for many years.

I want to hold your hand all the time, kiss your lips, roll in bed with you, but I can't.But I want to do it, so I want you to help, student Xiao Zhao. "

When Si Yu said these provocative and ambiguous words in a serious manner, there was a different kind of attraction, and Zhao Xinghe could still see the picture in his mind just by listening to it.How can there be such a person?So openly and openly, I said that I want to go to bed with you openly and openly.

"You have to know that a person who can't trust a stable relationship will respond to his partner's sexual needs out of responsibility. In fact, he will put pressure on himself psychologically again, which is harmful to his own healing. Of course, This doesn't mean she doesn't love you. Special people need special treatment, student Xiao Zhao, and now Si Yu just needs a little more time."

……

Zhao Xinghe stared at Si Yu, who was obviously not as emotional as before, and went forward again. She had already thought about what she should do when she went upstairs, and the reason why she kissed Si Yu before was because she wanted to test whether Si Yu was real There are these pressures, and the answer is beyond doubt.

This made Si Yu feel uncomfortable, but she still didn't push herself away, but endured it.

"Are you the last person to reply to the post I posted in high school?" When Zhao Xinghe asked this question, he already knew it in his heart.At that time, Si Yu didn't mention a word to himself, and he also broke up with her not long after he didn't know it.

... I don't know how sad she must have been at that time.

But Si Yu suddenly raised his head and said, "Zhao Xinghe, you don't need to treat me specially because of your pity for me."

In Zhao Xinghe's impression, Si Yu has always been calm and perfect, no matter what she encounters, she can solve it very well.Even in the relationship between the two, Si Yu seemed to be too calm, but he was not at all caring and considerate of himself.It was before, and it is also here.

It was only today that she knew the other side of Si Yu's imperfection, but it made Zhao Xinghe feel that he was finally getting closer to Si Yu.Such Si Yu made her feel distressed and moved, and she also found that under Si Yu's seemingly calm words, it was not difficult to find the depression and longing.

Si Yu clearly hoped that he would stay by his side to help her child, but he stubbornly refused to speak.

She wants a childhood, and she is willing to rebuild her childhood.She wanted to be a child, and Zhao Xinghe was willing to become an adult who only spoiled her for Si Yu.

After learning about this, Zhao Xinghe understood how much courage Si Yu agreed to be with him at that time, but he didn't know how to understand Si Yu's heart at that time.She feels really clumsy, even at the age of 24, there are too many things to learn.The only thing that is certain is that this incident made her firm in her determination to accompany Si Yu.

In the past when the two got along, Zhao Xinghe had long been used to taking care of Si Yu.In fact, she... also wants to learn to be a person that Si Yu can rely on and trust.Use my actual actions to tell this child who is actually very fragile in my heart that I can give her a sense of security and heal her.

"No pity, I just came here to tell you." Zhao Xinghe thought for a while before he hooked Si Yu's little finger, squeezed it tightly, and put some distance between himself and Si Yu, "Can you trust me again? "

Si Yu's eyes froze, "What do you want to say?"

"What do you think I want to say?" Seeing that Si Yu didn't feel uncomfortable, Zhao Xinghe carefully took Si Yu's entire hand and said seriously, "I want to chase you again."

"I assure you, I will chase you once on the premise that you are comfortable." Zhao Xinghe curled his lips, "46-year-old Si Yu said, I hope I can cure your intimacy phobia as soon as possible, so that we can be better communicate and fall in love.”

Zhao Xinghe and Si Yu's ten fingers were clasped together and they didn't loosen. Si Yu's ears were burning all the time, and he felt that there was still a lot of Zhao Xinghe's breath on his body, so he asked, "What communication?"

"Fuck." Zhao Xinghe guessed that Si Yu might be a little shy at this time, but he answered fluently, "You in the future said that sending us both here at the same time is not only to take good care of the brat, but also to get it done by the way. Your question is so that we can enjoy kisses, hugs and certain sports more happily at such a young and lively age. It seems that you have little resistance to holding hands and hugs, and the crux lies in certain sports."

Si Yu's face became hot from what she said, and he withdrew his hand suddenly: "...I'm not that kind of person."

"Then I am." After Zhao Xinghe's mentality changed, she suddenly felt that her skin was thicker, and she could continue to say, "I want to desensitize you."

The corners of Si Yu's eyes twitched: "What are you, what desensitization treatment?"

"Let me give you an example. You can't respond to intimate actions, such as kissing, hugging, and going to bed." Zhao Xinghe paused, and said firmly, "Then let's kiss, hug, and do more."

Si Yu: "?"

The author has something to say: Student Xiao Zhao: What are you laughing at?I'm seriously looking for a solution.

Si Yu: ...the method is not bad.

Xiao Sizai: Stop messing around, I've already formed in my stomach, okay?