leaving marks

Song Wenran still remembers the appearance of Bai Chong when he saw him for the first time. Until now, Bai Chong still presented him with this appearance. He knew from the beginning that he had a son, and his feelings for him gradually developed. Sometimes he even thinks it is a good thing that Bai Chong has children, because there will be no children between them.

But now, Song Wenran was inexplicably flustered.

If it is true as Bai Ziqi said, Bai Chong's illegitimate son is already a graduate student, so he must be at least 22 or [-] years old. How old was Bai Chong at that time?But eighteen or nineteen years old, the age when he just came out of college.Bai Chong said that this child was born to his ex-girlfriend before he got married, so did they still have contact after marriage? Is it true that he is romantic and irresponsible as Bai Ziqi said? Song Wenran found that he was not at all. clear.

He was a little scared.When Bai Ziqi said the word romantic, the first thing he thought of was his father. This kind of man was the one he feared and resisted the most in his life. He was selfish and reckless in doing things for others.He didn't believe that Bai Chong would be such a man, but he couldn't help worrying faintly.

Bai Chong thinks that he thinks too little, and now it seems that is indeed the case. He thinks he understands Bai Chong very well, but many things may not be as good as he imagined. Whether it is about Bai Chong or this relationship, he finds that he has thought too far Not enough.

Bai Ziqi went out in the afternoon.

Song Wenran can clearly feel that Bai Ziqi's attitude towards him has become colder, this is just the beginning, if he and Bai Chong continue, Bai Ziqi may become more and more opposed, and his attitude will become worse and worse.

When Bai Chong came back at night, Bai Ziqi hadn't come back either.

"Ziqi went out?" Bai Chong asked.

Song Wenran sat at the dining table, "He went to see a friend."

Bai Chong didn't continue to ask, he sat down in his seat, and saw Song Wenran slightly lowered his head, a little dazed with a spoon in his hand, so he didn't say anything, but said to the nanny, "Let's serve dinner."

After dinner, there was a light rain, so Wen Qian couldn't go for a walk in the park, so she went back to her room early to look through picture books.Song Wenran stayed with her for a while, and went back to his room to stay, lying on the bed with nothing to do and looking at his phone for a while.

Later, Bai Chong knocked on the door and came in, bringing him a cup of warm milk.

Song Wenran sat up with his left hand on the bed, saw Bai Chong put the milk on the bedside table, and didn't take the initiative to speak.

Bai Chong sat down beside the bed and asked him, "Have you thought it over yet?"

Looking at Bai Chong's face, he hesitated for a long time and asked, "You—knew that your ex-girlfriend was pregnant, but you still married your later wife?"

Bai Chong lowered his gaze, and smiled bitterly, "I thought you would ask me this question last night." He was ready to be honest and accept the question, but last night Song Wenran was in a daze, There are a lot of things he didn't have the chance to say all of them.

"I had been studying middle school in the county seat before I went to university. My ex-girlfriend was a classmate in the county seat high school. She liked me for three years. After the college entrance examination, I agreed to be with her. I spent most of my summer vacation working in the county seat. I and She has always maintained a very innocent relationship. She was not admitted to Chongfeng University and went to study in another prefecture-level city in the province. There were no mobile phones in those days, and public phones were very rare. It was difficult to contact after we separated. I asked myself that I didn't have any feelings for her, and I'm afraid it will be difficult to get together after graduation, so I didn't want to waste her time, so I wrote to break up with her."

These things happened more than 20 years ago, Bai Chong kept frowning slightly when recalling, just like he said, it was the one thing he regretted the most in his life.

"She didn't answer my letter. But before the end of the first semester, she came to see me in person. At that time, the transportation and communication were not very convenient. It was already evening when she arrived. I couldn't send her back and I didn't know how to How to deal with her, we can only take her to a small hotel next to the school and open a room."

Song Wenran sat on the bed with his knees bent, with his left hand resting on his knees and his chin lightly resting on his arm. He asked Bai Chong, "Just for that night?"

Bai Chong nodded, "I'm not yet 19 years old, I don't know how to deal with a girl's sudden enthusiasm. I refused at first, but she cried and said that just for one night, she won't pester me anymore, She said she liked me for three years and wanted me to help her realize a dream. Then I used her words as our excuse and had sex with her. That was the first and last time.”

"Did you know she was pregnant?" Song Wenran asked.

Bai Chong shook his head, "I don't know. In fact, when I found out, she was already sick and passed away. Her father brought that child to me. I couldn't believe it. I don't know what kind of mood she had when she gave birth to the child." This kid then raised him, and I regret it so much, my acceptance that night didn't fulfill someone's shitty dream, it ruined her life."

Song Wenran buried his face in his arms, he felt a little unspeakably uncomfortable, but he relaxed after a day of tension, at least he knew that Bai Chong was not the flamboyant and irresponsible person that Bai Ziqi described. man.

Bai Chong raised his hand and wanted to touch Song Wenran's head, but he hesitated before touching his hair, and he silently withdrew his hand.

Song Wenran asked in a muffled voice, "How did Ziqi's mother get into a car accident?"

Bai Chong said in a low voice, "Ziqi's mother is an arrogant woman. On the same day, that child was brought to me by his grandfather. She couldn't accept this and took Ziqi back to her natal home. On the way There was a car accident."

Song Wenran raised his head, "So Bai Ziqi hates you?"

Bai Chong sighed softly, "For a long time after Ziqi's mother passed away, Ziqi was taken away by his grandfather and refused to let me see him. After two or three years, the relationship between us was only So relieved, Ziqi usually comes back to my place, and often goes to his grandfather's place during holidays. He always believed that his mother's death was caused by my disloyalty. I tried to explain it to him, but the existence of the other child was a fact. Plus I am very busy with work and don't have much time to spend with him, so he prefers to pamper his grandpa, and the relationship with me is getting more and more rigid."

Song Wenran said, "Is that son of yours named Bai Yangyu?"

Bai Chong nodded, "You have met him before. He is currently studying in Chongyi Medical College, and your elder brother is his mentor."

Song Wenran inserted his fingers into the middle of his hair, "Do you think he is very pitiful?"

Bai Chong said: "Yes, I don't even know whether I owe him or his mother owes him, but no amount of money can make up for those things that are owed."

Song Wenran took a deep breath and said, "When I hear you talking about Bai Ziqi and Bai Yangyu, I will think of my childhood."

Bai Chong was silent and did not speak.

Song Wenran looked at him and said, "I want to go home first."

Bai Chong sighed silently, and he asked, "If you go back, how will you take care of yourself and Wen Qian?"

Song Wenran said: "There will always be a way. It's hard for me to calm down and think about our relationship when I'm by your side. I think I need a separate space now."

Bai Chongying said: "I understand, as I said, I will accept all your decisions. If we are together, then these old scars must be torn; if we cannot be together, I will be happy for you, your life is still very good Long, you deserve a fuller and better future."

Song Wenran suddenly felt sad. He lowered his head and stared at the bed sheet, unwilling to raise his head. He felt that his eye sockets might be red.

Bai Chong stood up from the bed and said, "Have a good sleep, I will drive you and Wen Qian back tomorrow morning." Then he picked up the milk on the bedside table, "You probably don't need it, I'll take it down. "

Song Wenran still didn't look up.

When Bai Chong walked to the door, he couldn't help but stop and said: "Perhaps you won't believe it. After Ziqi's mother passed away, I haven't been with any woman again, because I would feel scared myself. I ruined it." I have a family, but I am not disloyal."

Song Wenran looked up at him and said, "I believe in you."

Bai Chong smiled softly at him, "Go to bed early, good night."

The next morning, Bai Chong took half a day to send Song Wenran and Wen Qian back.

Wen Qian didn't know what happened yet, when Bai Chong helped Song Wenran pack his things, she took Song Wenran's hand and asked, "Second Brother, are we going back?"

Song Wenran nodded to her, "Yes, I have disturbed your Uncle Bai's family for so long, we should go home."

"Oh," Wen Qian accepted it calmly, but she didn't look so happy.She likes it here, the heating at home, the small yard outside, and the large park nearby.

Song Wenran and the others didn't bring many things, so Bai Chong packed all the things in a box and helped them carry them downstairs.

When he went downstairs, he ran into Bai Ziqi who had just woken up. Bai Ziqi's hair was still messy and he was wearing pajamas. Seeing them sneer, he ran to the first floor in front of them.

When passing by the living room, Bai Ziqi was having breakfast in the dining room, and played with an egg for a long time without peeling it, so he looked up at them.

Song Wenran held back Bai Chong who was walking outside, "Otherwise, Brother Zhang, please take us back."

Bai Chong patted the back of his hand, "It's okay, I'll see you off."

Bai Chong drove the family's off-road vehicle out of the garage, opened the trunk and put the box in, and then put in the small car given to Wen Qian.

Wen Qian raised her head and shouted, "Uncle Bai! Uncle Bai!"

Bai Chong lowered his head and looked at her with a smile.

Wen Qian was a little shy, but still asked with a smile: "Is the car mine?"

Bai Chong touched the top of her head, "It's yours now, what else do you want, uncle can give it to you."

Song Wenran heard the words, and quickly stepped forward to hold Wen Qian, "She doesn't need it, the car is enough."

When Wen Qian heard Song Wenran say this, she also said, "No more, that's enough."

Bai Chong didn't force it, he opened the door and carried Wen Qian into the car, and then helped Song Wenran, who was handicapped, into the co-pilot, then got into the driver's seat himself, started the car and left.

The house that had been bustling for the past two days suddenly became deserted. After peeling the egg, Bai Ziqi stuffed most of it into his mouth. He suddenly felt choked, so he opened his mouth and spit the egg on a napkin.

Just when the nanny came out of the kitchen and saw it, she frowned and said, "Hey! Why are you doing this! Is it dirty? You're wasting food."

Bai Ziqi pushed the bowl and chopsticks, "I don't want to eat." Then he ignored the nanny calling him behind, and ran back upstairs.

Bai Chong drove Song Wenran and the others home, and neither of them spoke during the journey.

Later, Song Wenran couldn't bear it anymore, and said first: "I think Ziqi may have a deep misunderstanding of you. If you have time, please have a serious chat with him."

Bai Chong looked ahead, "His view of me comes from his mother and grandpa's family's constant indoctrination. It is deeply ingrained and difficult to change."

"His mother?" Song Wenran felt a little surprised.

Bai Chong said: "It was his mother who took the initiative to pursue me. After she had a child, she did not continue to work and raised the child at home. I was very busy working in the hospital. At that time, I was the hospital chief for a year. In the hospital, she always doubted me and didn’t trust me. She came to the hospital with her children twice in the middle of the night. Her father often beat me at that time, blaming me for not being good enough to their mother and child, and not paying enough. Especially when she died in a car accident Afterwards, her father beat me with a cane and made me kneel in front of her mourning hall for three hours and not allowed to get up, all of which were done in front of Ziqi."

Song Wenran felt uncomfortable again.

Bai Chong didn't continue, "Forget it, she's been away for so long, I shouldn't say this in front of you. In fact, she is also a good wife. She was raised like a princess since she was a child, and she is willing to marry me, a poor man who has nothing. Boy, I should be content. And for this family, she did pay more than me. "

Having said that, Bai Chong did not continue, Song Wenran quietly leaned his head against the car window and closed his eyes for a while.

Bai Chong parked his car outside the community, got out of the car, took his luggage and sent Song Wenran and Wen Qian upstairs.

Standing in the corridor, Bai Chong said: "Then I'll go back first, and you can call me if you have anything to do."

Song Wenran nodded, "Thank you."

Bai Chong smiled and said: "Take a good rest. You don't need to have a psychological burden on this matter. If you agree, you will come and if you don't agree, you will go. The more feelings you experience, the more you know how to deal with a relationship. When you meet the right person in the future time, the mistakes of the past will not be repeated.”

Song Wenran knew that Bai Chong was comforting him, so he looked at Bai Chong and said, "Mr. Bai, the work side..."

"You rest first, the New Year is coming soon, let's talk about everything after the New Year," Bai Chong said, slowly took two steps back, waved at them and turned to leave.

When Bai Chong left, Wen Qian felt something was wrong. She asked Song Wenran, "Second Brother, did you quarrel with Uncle Bai?"

Song Wenran opened the door with a key, "Who told you?"

Wen Qian said, "Isn't it?"

Song Wenran said to her: "No, don't think about it, what do you want to eat at noon, the second brother will take you to eat."

It was inconvenient for Song Wenran to cook. After putting his things home, he took Wenqian out for lunch and went to the park for a while in the afternoon. Because the weather was too cold, they left early.

Song Wenran asked Wen Qian what she would like to have for dinner, and Wen Qian said, "How about going to Third Brother's?"

"Do you miss him?" Song Wenran asked.

Wen Qian nodded.

Song Wenran took her hand and walked forward, "Then I'll take care of your third brother's business for dinner."