Dawn Redemption

"Have you felt better these days?"

After many days, Noah finally came to the hospital again.

In the days before, Jonas and Lucas talked with him, and he also had a little understanding of the past.But Finn always felt that the man could tell him something that Jonas and Lucas didn't know.

And when talking about Noah with them, they always end the topic with the reason of "you can ask him directly".Strangely, the two of them did not show any signs of impatience, but instead had a smile on their faces.

These made him believe that Noah must have played an important role in his past.But when Noah finally came to him, his mind went blank again, and he didn't know where to start asking.

The initiative of the conversation was still in Noah's hands, and Finn just listened quietly, but didn't feel any discomfort.

"Well, the doctor said that the wound on his body is recovering well." Finn replied, "The environment here is not bad, don't worry."

Noah nodded: "That's good."

Finn looked him in the eye.When Noah came this time, he looked a little more haggard than the last time we met. I don't know what he has experienced in the past few days, but those eyes have not changed.

Those brown eyes made Finn feel inexplicably familiar, even almost resonating with a certain area hidden in memory.

Seen by those eyes, he seemed to be lying in the golden wheat field, or floating on the sea warmed by the sun.To him, Noah's eyes are like the most distant long poem, the calmest discussion, and the most gentle dialogue.It is the sum of all the books he has read.

Finn blinked hard to keep his thoughts from wandering in other directions.Continue to ask: "How did we meet? Do you remember?"

Noah smiled, but he couldn't see what that smile meant: "Oh, of course I remember. It was an ordinary day, in fact, most days are ordinary. I was transferred...to A place where you used to work and just got to know each other, that’s all.”

He didn't want to mention that place.Finn nodded half-understanding.Seeing that Finn did not continue to ask, Noah took the initiative to tell him everything, to be precise, everything he knew about Finn.He also deliberately omitted most of the childhood that made Finn miserable.

"In other words, my mother died a long time ago, right? She died in the war." Finn sighed, with a sad tone, "It would be great if she could live to this day."

Noah didn't expect that Finn, who had experienced amnesia once, would say that.At the same time, he slowly made a plan in his heart not to tell Finn the truth about her mother's death for the rest of his life.

"I'm sorry too."

When this sentence was said, even Noah himself didn't know what it was aimed at.

He really wanted to guard Finn for the rest of his life.

Even if you can never go back to the previous relationship.

Finn asked again: "What about my father?" His eyes looked directly at Noah without any hesitation, so clear that there was no impurity.

Recalling their trip to Dachau and Augsburg, Noah felt an unstoppable sourness in his heart, and he had to restrain himself not to let this emotion affect his expression.

But he felt that before that day came, he really needed to find a place to recall those days.

Sunny country roads, small towns with fresh air after the rain, and Augsburg full of classical atmosphere.

And his loose gray sweater, his blond hair like wheat waves blown by the wind, his blue eyes reflecting the sky clearer than the sky, and his faint smile when looking at the scenery outside the car.

In fact, all the scenery is just the background board flowing in the drama.

He is the only one who is eternal and highlighted in his memory.

"Father...your father is still living in Augsburg." Noah realized that he had slipped his tongue, and hurriedly changed his words. "His name is Eric Yanik. I think he should be living well."

Fein nodded and said with a smile: "Then, I want to see him after he is discharged from the hospital. Can you go with me? If it's not troublesome?"

It seemed that an electric current surged up from the soles of his feet, and Noah felt for a moment that his body was completely out of his control, as if his soul had been separated, and it took a while to come back.

He didn't even understand why Finn would suddenly make such a request.

Like, he never lost his memory.

However, he is no longer qualified to make a promise.

Whether it's for Finn before or Finn now.

"If there is a chance." Having said that, Noah never took his eyes off Finn, and turned to the window frame on the other side.

It was also because he turned his head slightly that he didn't see the regretful expression on Fein's face.

Some did not say a few words, and Noah left again on the grounds that he would not disturb his rest.

In the following time, Noah came two or three more times.

Seeing Noah telling himself everything that happened to him, rarely interjecting, but there was always something strange in his heart.

It doesn't matter how good the relationship is between friends, you will be familiar with it as if you have lived the other person's life once.

He knew about his family, almost all of his experiences, the food and drinks he liked to eat, and even some life details and habits that Fein himself was not aware of, all were told by Noah.

In fact, Noah didn't know what angle to start from, so he said whatever he thought of, except for those he wanted to hide deliberately, and told Finn everything he knew.

When Noah wanted to further explain Finn's obsession with white sheets and pillowcases, Finn finally couldn't help interrupting him.

"That... Noah." Finn said carefully, "Can you tell me something about you?"

Noah was taken aback, his thoughts were still stuck in the inertia of what he said before, and he didn't turn the corner.Fein thought he was not happy, and quickly said: "If you want to say anything, you can say anything. You know me so well, but I know almost nothing about you... It feels so unfair. It shouldn't be like this from a friend .”

In fact, this is how you knew me before.

This sentence is on the lips, but Noah can't say it.

He wanted to work hard to distance their relationship in Fein's mind so that Fein would not have too much psychological burden.But everything he said has exposed this.

After all, he still loves him so much.How could it be possible.

Noah struggled silently in his own consciousness for a long time, then nodded: "Okay, I'll tell you."

He thought of the morning after their relationship was established.It was a fresh morning, and he leaned against the door, listening to the sound of water in the shower, and confessed his past to him as a boyfriend for the first time.

Slowly, again, he told him what he had said.

Only this time, when it comes to war, he is no longer proud.

The war had ruined him, Fern, and the country.No matter how many medals and honors, they are just fleeting sparks.

"...All of this was before I met you. But I was injured, and the higher-ups suddenly issued an order to arrange me to another place." He was silent for a while, thinking of that hellish place on the land of Poland, and finally, Say what's on your mind for the first time: "I don't like it so much. Don't like it so much. It's hell."

If it wasn't for the thought, he would meet Finn there. If the current Noah was given another chance to choose, he didn't want to have anything to do with Auschwitz.

But even if it happens again, it's not something he can choose.

He can't control too much.

Finn frowned and asked, "Then why didn't you object?"

Noah smiled bitterly.Now Finn has lost the memory of that period in the army, and no longer attaches so much importance to obeying orders.He thought of the soldier who worked like a machine. If the current Fein was his original face without any embellishment, then he didn't know how much effort he had put into packaging himself like that.

"I did what I thought was the best thing to do." He sighed. "I wrote to headquarters and said that I, as a soldier, would rather fight for my country on the front lines. Besides, I know very well... Wait. What will my job be."

Seeing what Fein was about to say, Noah didn't let him speak, but continued: "But I guess they may not have read my letter at all, and they probably just threw it into the archives. I also Very helpless, sometimes I really feel that my strength is too small."

Noah raised his hand slowly, and Finn looked down, thinking he was going to grab his hand on the bed.His fingers moved, but did not move away.

But Noah just helped him tuck the quilt that didn't come out from under him, and then withdrew his hand.He didn't notice Finn's small movements either.

It's just that Finn has been staring at Noah's hand that looks a little rough and has very strong knuckles.

A vague image remained in his remaining memory.

When he was trapped in an endless nightmare, someone gave him a hand.

It seemed to be sucked down by the whirlpool, and below it was a raging fire and piles of flesh and blood corpses, filled with the screams of evil spirits.

Just as he was about to fall into it, someone grabbed his hand and pulled him toward the only ray of light above.

Finn could no longer remember the face of the man, or even the shape of that hand, but Noah was in front of him now, and he felt very familiar.

"Fin." Noah had been looking out the window just now, and the sun was starting to set, although it would be a brand new dawn after more than ten hours.But no one knows what will happen tomorrow.

"Listen, this may be the last time I see you." He knew that he had to tell Finn.And this is the last chance.

Finn didn't appear flustered, but he moved a little uneasy: "Where are you going?"

Noah sighed, he really wanted to raise his hand to touch Finn's golden hair, he still remembered the delicate touch, but in the end he still didn't: "Go far away. You have to take care of yourself ,Okay?"

"I will wait for you to come back."

These words of deja vu are very similar to the last time the two parted.

Last time, because of his waiting, he finally put himself on the line of life and death.

For anyone, it is a kind of suffering.

"Do not be silly."

Noah stood up and stared at Finn deeply for a while.Maybe for a long time.

"Goodbye, Finn."

He turned around to leave.

"Noah—actually, I seem to have a little..."

When Noah turned his head, Finn stopped talking.

"Nothing... goodbye."

"Goodbye."

Finn lowered his head not to look at his back.After a while, the door was gently closed.

Sure enough, after many months, Noah never came again.There is no information at all.

The sun rises and sets every day.If the weather wasn't getting colder, if the doctor didn't come in regularly for a series of checkups, and then told him that his injury was improving, Finn almost thought that these were all just repeated hundreds of times on the same day.

Until Jonas rushed into the hospital despite the doctor's obstruction that day.

He threw the doctor's arm away again and again, and came running panting.It could be seen that he should have run all the way here.

Jonas had shaved off his beard when he went home since the first meeting that day, and restored the vigorous look in the photo.But today, his anxious look made Finn feel as if his heart had been pushed to the bottom of the water.

And he wasn't here to find Lucas.

It's for me.

"Fin." He squeezed into Fein's ward, and quickly closed the door to block the doctors who followed.Clearly he needed a space to speak alone.

"You take a deep breath and look at this."

He handed over a newspaper clipping.It looks like it's still new when printed, but it's already wrinkled by him.

Judging from the font size, the page does not take up much space.

But the content is shocking enough.

For Finn, it seemed that all the wounds that had healed burst open in an instant.

The brain that had become calm during this period began to roar endlessly again.

"Noah von Seifert confessed to his crimes and was sentenced to hang by the International Military Tribunal."