Dawn Redemption

Noah groped to take off Finn's hat and put it on the table, and hugged him again.

The arms were so tight, so hard that the muscles tensed and trembled slightly, but it still made Finn feel that the embrace was so fragile that it couldn't withstand the slightest blow from the outside world.

"I don't want to go." Finn raised his arms to hug him back, took a deep breath to keep his words from trembling, but the sore feeling quickly spread from the bridge of his nose to his eyes.

He finally understood now, how stupid he was, how completely, utterly different he was from that little boy.

Boys will give up their dignity in order to survive, for their own safety, or even just for better treatment.And myself, especially the current self, would rather give up that better and safer position, would rather my soul be filled with sins and never be redeemed, and also want to stay with Noah forever.

He loves him, why is he still suspected?

It's ridiculous and downright fucking stupid.The moment he finally figured it out, he also understood that everything was irreversible.

The scapula hurt a little from being strangled by Noah, but he didn't want to struggle, he just wanted to be held by him like this for as long as possible.

"I don't want you to go either...Fin..." Noah closed his eyes and murmured softly, greedily sniffing the familiar smell on the back of his neck, afraid that one day he would suddenly forget, "But, you have to go .”

Finn put his hands on his shoulders and pushed him away gently.He lowered his eyes so Noah couldn't see those blue eyes that he never forgot from the first time he saw them.He could only see Finn's cheek, and he saw that he was not crying, but he didn't know if there were any dark tears on his shoulders that were slowly fading.

Fein turned sideways, reached out to pick up the letter on the table, and said in a low and dry voice, "I will take this letter to deliver later. I don't know when I will leave, but before that," he said He raised the envelope and shook it in front of Noah's eyes, "I'm still your adjutant. I will do these things for you until the last day before you leave."

He closed his eyes, took a few long breaths, and was about to put the letter in his arms and turn away when Noah grabbed his wrist.

"What?" He raised his head subconsciously, "Is there anything else you want to tell me?"

"Yes." Noah's voice returned to his usual calmness, but it was deeper than usual, "When you get there, try to forget me first."

It was only at this time that Finn felt that there was still blood flowing in his body, and at this moment, it all rushed to his head, boiling hot like magma, almost so heavy that he couldn't stand still, and he moved forward and almost stuck to Noah's body : "Fuck you Noah von Seifert! How selfish are you to say something like that?"

He moved forward step by step, and Noah was also stunned in the face of his sudden explosion of anger. He had no words to refute, so he could only retreat.

"Do you think that letting me go is for my consideration? Okay, I agree to this, why do you want me to forget you? Why do you even deprive me of the right to think about you?" He didn't care whether Noah or him in name He wanted to vent everything, smash everything that was pent up in his heart, and didn't want to leave any regrets, "What you do is for my own good, do you think this is your love? Okay, I can take it, so what about mine! What do you take my feelings for?"

He questioned loudly, grabbed Noah's collar and pushed it back fiercely. Noah had no time, or he didn't want to take precautions at all, and was pushed to sit on his office chair.

Noah heard heavier breathing as Finn leaned down.He suddenly understood what Finn was going to do, and pressed his hand that was untying his belt: "Go upstairs."

Fein was startled: "Okay." He turned around and left without saying anything else.

This time it was Noah's turn to keep up. He walked into the upstairs master bedroom one after the other. As soon as he closed the door, Finn pulled him over and pushed him onto the bed, and then straddled him quickly.

It's not that he can't resist his little one, it's just that he doesn't want to.He wants to pamper him.

Finn bent down to kiss him, and despite his poor kissing skills, Noah guided him patiently, sucking the tip of his restless tongue soothingly.Finn was frantically undoing the belt buckles, and it took a lot of effort to undo both of them's belts.

This is the last time.Finn said to himself.

This is the last orgy.

He released Noah's heat and let it stand upright in front of him.I want my palms, body, and heart to be tainted with this temperature.

Like tinder and fire source.He wants to borrow it, let this feeling, no, let everything between him and him burn in his heart, no matter how cold this body will become, no matter how far away he goes, he can still remember that hot feeling source.

He didn't know if the fire would suddenly go out.In short, it's not something to think about now. If there is such a day, he can't stop it with his strength.

After all, it is still impossible to escape from this background.He used to naively think that as long as the two of them are together, they can withstand all the wind and rain outside.However, in the face of the storm, there is still only humility to admit one's insignificance.Everyone is so insignificant, and everyone's strength is so weak.

"Fin!" Noah kept silent, watched him take off his clothes, licked his lips, but finally stopped him in panic when he stood up and was about to sit down, "Wait, you will get hurt—"

He reached out to open the drawer of the bedside table to get the condom, but Finn grabbed his wrist lightly.He bent down and took Noah's hand, gently placing it on his face.

"That's it, that's it, Noah." His movements were so strong, but his low voice seemed to be pleading, "That's it, look at me."

The strength in Noah's hand disappeared, and his thumb gently rubbed his cheek.Finn lowered his head, his hair, which had always been neatly combed with pomade, hung down, casting shadows and covering his eyes, but he could still see the corners of his mouth slightly raised.

But Noah would rather not see such a smile.As he wished, the smile disappeared quickly, and the thin lips trembled uncontrollably.

"Hmm... ah..." Finn asked Noah to stretch his body in some pain.There is no lubrication and no smooth rubber space in the middle, and the friction between flesh and flesh is extremely difficult.

Finn resisted the pain and still did not stop his movements. Under Noah's slightly surprised and worried gaze, he slowly sank his body down.

The inside of his body was so dry, just like his tearless eye sockets, just like his heart.What a shameless way to divert attention from the pain in the chest with physical tearing pain.He relies on rough sex like an addiction to tone down the sadness a bit.

He grabbed Noah's arm, and used the strength of his legs and waist to shake it up and down vigorously, letting the thing collide wantonly in his body, all the way to the deepest part.

He couldn't see Noah's expression when he was bumping, but he knew that Noah would always watch him.He didn't care about any shameful issues anymore, he raised his head, his exquisite Adam's apple trembled, and let out a low sigh mixed with enjoyment and pain.

The body leaned back to the extreme, almost falling down, the bowed waist was supported by Noah, and then slowly went up, stroking the scar.The scar that was unique to him and told of his past.

"Don't be afraid..." Noah sat up, hugged Finn's trembling body, hugged him tightly in his arms, stroked his back with his palms, and heard the chaotic voice that he didn't know whether it was sobbing or panting. Never weakened, "Never...don't be afraid."

He lay down slowly, let Finn lean on his chest, combed slowly with his fingers the blond hair that was not as shiny as usual in the dark room, and traced his ears carefully with his lips. profile.

"When you're in Berlin, don't let your guard down, you've done a good job. No matter how easy the position is, the world is far more complicated there than here, and it's tricky to handle all the relationships in it, but I believe in you. You are always the best in my heart and nothing can replace you.

"I like you the way you are, no matter how much you pretend to be different from yourself, don't forget who you are."

If he had been just Fern's officer all his life, just the manager of the camp, he would have liked the way Finn was trying to be.Never knowing fatigue, running like the most delicate machine.There won't be a little bit of emotional expression, and naturally it won't interfere with work because of those things.

But he is not.He doesn't just.Stripped of all titles and all honour, he was Noah von Seifert.

He liked the way Finn showed it casually, and he knew that was who he was.So he likes to look at him when he is not paying attention, and when he is doing other things, in order to catch the smile on his mouth, the worry on his brow, and the unresponsive look in his eyes when he encounters unexpected situations. He was stunned for a moment, but when he was shy and pretended to be calm on his cheeks, he betrayed his blush.

If possible, what he wanted was to escape with Finn and leave this place.But he couldn't find a place where they could live as they were without restraint. The only thing he could do was to send Finn to a relatively safe place, so that he could wait until the end of the war. .

"Wait for me there." Noah whispered in his ear, "If we can survive until the end of this, I will go to you, I promise you, believe me."

"I... can't see the light." Finn said in a hollow voice, his eyes were also blankly opened, "It's too dark. I can't see the future."

"You will see." Noah kissed his eyes, "You have to believe. The reason I let you remember who you are is that as long as people are not completely lost in the dark, where they are, there will always be Light."

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