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"Actually, I'm very unhappy today because of some things, but because of Nan Jiu, I think this birthday is very happy."

Bai Bai was very happy on that birthday. He was so happy that he didn’t even have time to get angry with his boyfriend. Of course, his boyfriend really forgot about his birthday. For some reason, he cherished it or didn’t want to argue anymore. Bai didn't mention this matter again, and just brought it over like this

In love, in fact, there is no need to worry too much about many things. Relationships are about mutual humility and running-in. If you can take a step back in these small things, you can take a step back. Maybe a step back will really open the sea and the sky.

Because of these seemingly reasonable theories, when Bai Bai and Nan Jiu talked about this topic accidentally, Bai Bai talked a lot at length, as if he was an expert in love. The relationship patterns are all given examples.

"Will it make you tired if you let it go?"

That was the only question Nan Jiu raised about Bai Bai's remarks, and it was also a question that Nan Jiu encountered later.

I'm tired, but I just can't bear to let go

"Maybe you are tired. If you are really tired, it can only mean that it is not suitable."

"Then do you think you are suitable for him?"

Bai Bai put his hands in his clothes pockets, and said carelessly

"I used to think it was pretty good when we didn't separate, but now, maybe it's too far apart and we haven't seen each other for a long time, so there are more conflicts, and the values ​​​​have begun to become a little different. In general , it’s not that appropriate.”

This sentence paused for about three or four seconds, and then continued.

"However, it doesn't matter if you like this kind of thing. If you like it, you like it."

Nan Jiu nodded, did not look at Bai Bai again, and said absent-mindedly

"Maybe"

When Bai Bai and Nan Jiu are talking, they rarely refer to their boyfriends. They just occasionally mention a sentence or two, but it is not difficult to find in such a sentence or two. In Bai Bai's mind, Boyfriend does not seem to be a very perfect existence, he will be sloppy, lose his temper and forget his birthday, he is not even a qualified boyfriend, but Bai Bai likes it very much, so much that he can ignore these shortcomings

It was also that day that Bai Bai witnessed something, it was not accidental but it was definitely not deliberate, it just happened to be seen

It was also from that day on that it completely overturned everything before.

From the surprise at the beginning, it slowly turned into suspicion, and I couldn't believe it. During this process, Bai Bai almost tried his best to behave calmly, but in fact, the bottom of his heart had already exploded.

Nan Jiu seldom shows absent-mindedness. She has an indifferent attitude towards everything, indifferently, or there are too many things that are too important in the past, and then as time goes by, she gradually I put it down at the beginning, and put it at the end, it seems calm and calm

So it's very rare to see the panic on her face, and this panic started after receiving that phone call, Bai Bai also asked, but Nan Jiu just shook her head and said it's okay, but like that Looks like it's okay

Many years later, Nan Jiu talked about this incident, which was a few years late explanation, although Bai Bai was not that interested in these explanations at that time

"It was also that matter, and I finally understood that I really came out of that relationship."

After a long silence, she said

"Guess when I can get out of this relationship with you"

At that time, Bai Bai smiled and said

"What are you doing out here, I'm here"

What Bai Bai said was a little against his will and far-fetched, and the serious expression he made was also very hypocritical.

It was originally an appointment to go to dinner together, because Nan Jiu has been absent-minded since receiving the call, so the date also ended hastily

Looking at Nan Jiu's figure leaving anxiously, he suddenly realized that she didn't take her handbag, and the small and exquisite light blue bag stayed quietly on the stool, looking a little pitiful, as if abandoned by the owner Generally, she hurriedly chased after her with her bag, and finally saw her get into a taxi and go away.

In fact, I was not in such a hurry to return it. In fact, it was obvious that I could return it to her later, and I didn’t have to chase after it in such a hurry, but I don’t know why the first reaction was to stop the car and chase after it.

After getting off the taxi, he didn't immediately chase after Nan Jiu who was in front of him, but followed him all the time, whether it was because of curiosity or other reasons, I don't know

On that day, I vaguely remember that the sun was shining brightly, and it was a rare and very good weather. Nan Jiu stayed at the door for a while, looked around, and found that it was a nail salon, which was considered relatively high-end in terms of appearance and decoration. , in such a bustling street, there is such a big storefront, you don't need to think about it, you know that the consumption should be very high

Although it's not something ordinary people can't afford, but it's not something ordinary people can spend at will. Bai Bai followed behind curiously, wondering if she was in such a hurry just to get her nails done?not

Watching her go in, Bai Bai also followed in, and after going in, he wanted to call Nan Jiu to stop, and then returned the handbag to her, but Nan Jiu and the skinny girl who appeared in the nail salon Fascinated by some conversations of skinny little girls

She didn't make a sound for a while, and just stood there, but she didn't hide her figure, but Nan Jiu's back was facing Bai Bai at the moment, so of course she couldn't see the person standing behind her

The reason why Bai Bai stopped without making a sound was because it was the first time she saw Nan Jiu get angry, in the true sense of the word, such a gentle person would be angry, but yes, in this world There is no one who can't be angry, it's just that there is nothing worth being angry about

Bai Bai still had a vague impression of that skinny little girl. She was the girl he met when he was eating Malatang. Although he didn't communicate much at that time, his delicate and delicate face was always given to Bai Bai. left a certain impression

At that time, the atmosphere of the conversation between the two was a bit strange, originally there was some doubts, but looking at Nan Jiu's excited reaction now, the relationship between the two is indeed not very simple, as for what is not simple, Bai Bai did not go into detail Thinking about it, even if you think about it carefully, it is absolutely impossible to guess that it is the situation in front of you.

It was Nan Jiu who deliberately lowered her voice, but her tone was faintly angry.

"Is this what you said you were sick? What's wrong with you? Is it your brain!"

The thin and frail girl didn't take it seriously, but when she saw Nan Jiu's arrival, a trace of complacency flashed in her eyes. When she was proud, she raised her hand and dangled it in front of Nan Jiu several times

The nails are painted with dark green nail polish, and some patterns are carved on them. Baibai is a little far away, so it is not very clear. The patterns on the nails should be bamboo leaves. Yes, it should be. Nan Jiu likes it very much. Bamboo

"Does it look good?"

Asking this happily and easily, Nan Jiu breathed a sigh of relief, as if she wanted to calm down

"Your favorite, I made this specially, and you came just after finishing it"

The girl laughed as she talked, looking innocent

"You're so sure I'll come"

"Aren't you here?"

The girl's determined attitude made Nan Jiu's heart ignite again, and she wanted to ask questions, but in the end she suppressed it and said calmly

"ok, one last time"

What flashed in the eyes was determination, and besides the determination, there was some tiredness, tired, really tired

When Nan Jiu was about to turn around, the girl seemed to be anxious, maybe she read the decision from the sentence just now, maybe she really felt Nan Jiu's determination to leave completely, so the girl was a little flustered and get anxious

Regardless, she stood up and grabbed Nan Jiu's hand. Nan Jiu was a little annoyed and planned to throw it away, and the movements did start like that, but unexpectedly, before she could do these movements, she was tiptoed by the girl Mu Ran. Standing on the tiptoes, kissed Nan Jiu's lips impartially. He was used to it and was familiar with it. The touch between the lips was soft. There was a difference in height between the girl and Nan Jiu, so she had to stand on tiptoe to kiss. arrive

If it was in the past, Nan Jiu would definitely push the girl away excitedly, but at that moment, Nan Jiu didn't react too much, just stood there and let the girl come closer to kiss, not for enjoyment, nor for compromise, but it doesn't matter

The sudden relief made Nan Jiu suddenly understand that she didn't love her so much anymore, and her heart was completely cold in her place, because it was cold, so she didn't care anymore, it didn't matter anymore

This kind of emotion was projected from the eyes, which made the girl stop all movements, let go of Nan Jiu's hand in a somewhat decadent manner, and pulled the distance away, the girl said

"Am I too greedy? I can't stand gossip, but I still naively want to occupy you"

There is no sound of response, the surrounding is silent and quiet

The clerk in the nail salon was obviously a little surprised when he saw this scene. After being surprised, he would look at him from time to time, just like watching animals in a zoo, but at this moment, the two of them had no intention of caring about others.

"That's right, I'm the one who's despicable, but aren't you despicable? You never kept me. You said yes when I said I was going to break up, and you said yes when I said I was going to get married. Are you really good or fake?"

Nan Jiu raised her eyes and looked at the girl, she couldn't see any joy or anger, she was so peaceful that it was scary

"You're always like this, you look like you don't care, you haven't actually loved, have you?"

The girl seemed eager to know the answer, so she repeated the question

"Right?"

Follow the trend, if the girl wants to get this answer, then give her this answer

"Then just pretend I've never been in love"

Turning around, no more words, but at the moment of turning around, he happened to see Bai Bai who had been standing behind him all the time. There seemed to be doubt, puzzlement and surprise in Bai Bai's eyes, and Bai Bai smiled awkwardly for two or three times. At that time, Bai Bai really felt very embarrassed, so she stuffed the handbag into Nan Jiu's hand and said incoherently

"You forgot your bag, that... I have to leave beforehand"

Before Nan Jiu could react, Bai Bai left the nail salon as if fleeing, but Nan Jiu seemed to want to chase after him, but found that there was no need to chase, so he stopped and looked at the man quietly. people leave

The voice came again from behind

"Actually, it's really bad to be a betrayer. I just want to find an excuse, an excuse that can relieve me, do you understand?"

She just wanted to be free, but she never thought about whether Nan Jiu was free, especially how people in trouble can free others

"Don't contact me again"

This is the last sentence Nan Jiu left. She didn't turn her head to look at the girl. It was just a cold sentence. As for the girl's reaction, I don't want to know and don't need to know

After Nan Jiu left, the girl leaned on the counter and slowly sat on the ground, covering her chest with her hands, sobbing as if she couldn't breathe, she kept suppressing, suppressing and didn't want to cry out, as if once she cried Sounds like you really lost, in fact, you lost a long time ago, but you just don't want to admit it, your heart really feels like it's splitting

At that second, for her or her, it is the real relief and letting go

She left and she didn't wait

Worldliness, vision, ridicule, and contempt can really separate those so-called love

Not strong enough, just not strong enough

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