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Perhaps it was because of the past that Bai Bai accidentally talked about, since then, Nan Jiu would laugh unconsciously when she met a man playing with a child on the street, which was almost impossible for her in the past

"Miss, you seem to be in a particularly good mood recently, and you will laugh when you see children playing around."

Nan Jiu pressed the window down button and made a slight sound of the window rubbing against the edge. After the window was opened, the noise from outside came in, disrupting the originally quiet and independent space. The gentle breeze outside the window disturbed the hair between the temples

"Well, I think those children are really happy."

Nan Jiu put his left hand on top of his right unconsciously. It was just a subconscious movement. After Uncle Li saw this movement, he twitched the corners of his mouth and didn't speak any more.

In fact, Nan Jiu hates Uncle Li's expression like this, which always gives people the illusion of pity, the more unbearable the more he hates other people's pity

"Pity me"

Uncle Li did not shy away from this topic

"Sometimes you have to lose something when you gain something, Missy, let's take it easy"

The car has started, the father and son who are fighting are far away from sight, the wind outside the window is getting stronger and stronger, blowing on the face is full of discomfort, when the breeze turns into a strong wind, those comforts will no longer exist Nan Jiu closed the car window a little annoyed, and everything returned to calm again.

"What did I get?"

money?right?Also, everyone can only see what they have gained forever, and habitually ignore what they have lost

The ring hanging on the neck has a cold touch, it is a feeling that no matter how you cover it, it will not be hot, which makes people feel a little desperate. Nan Jiu holds it in his hand and feels its temperature

The relationship between Bai Bai and Nan Jiu has always been in this way, like friends but not quite like friends, but these relationships will end one day, because of some accidents or some inevitable things

As the new year approaches, Bai Bai's boyfriend can't go home to celebrate the New Year because some things abroad have not been handled well. He can come back in a few months, so it doesn’t matter whether he comes back this year or not, because he will be able to stay by his side soon, and he will never leave again. Two years really passed in the blink of an eye, as if the separation was still yesterday things

Bai Bai shared this good thing with Nan Jiu, and incidentally told some good and bad news

"He proposed to me and said he hoped to get married after returning to China"

At this moment, the two of them were standing on the rooftop which was only about three stories high, which was not very high, but because there were no very tall obstacles, the line of sight was quite wide. Most of them were bungalows, and thousands of houses were lit up in the dark. Lights, like stars in the dark night

The wind is very strong, and the end of the year is approaching, which means that it has been winter for a long time. The wind blowing on people's faces is not so comfortable, and it is even a bit biting. After a while, the face is blown red, Nan Jiu subconsciously Shrinking his neck, he wanted to bury his face in the scarf to avoid the cold. When he heard the news, he stopped his movements, but in the end he just said plainly.

"I told you on the phone? About the marriage proposal"

Bai Bai nodded, and looked into the distance, a little distracted

"He will save trouble, just perfunctory so casually"

It's just complaining and complaining

"I don't care about these, as long as the two can be together"

Maybe Bai Bai is really stuck in this relationship. The so-called authority fan, in Nan Jiu's eyes, her boyfriend is really bad. Maybe she doesn't understand it and can't say it is bad. Objectively speaking, it can only be said that it is very ordinary, very...ordinary, A bit unworthy of Bai Bai

"I'm just a little worried"

"worry about what?"

Bai Bai withdrew his distant gaze, took out the mobile phone, and took out the earphones from the left pocket. They are earbud earphones that are very convenient to carry. They are simple black and look clean and tidy. She brought one herself. The other one was put on the hand and rubbed a few times, so that the earphones would have some warmth, and it would not be so cold when you put it on.

She turned sideways, facing Nan Jiu, raised her hand and gently pulled Nan Jiu's hair that was scattered around her ears behind her ears, her movements were very gentle, her hands were not very warm, and it was also true that her hands were cold in such a cold situation Of course

Maybe this sudden intimate action made Nan Jiu feel a little uncomfortable. He took a step back unconsciously, but Bai Bai didn't care much. The music that comes is peaceful

"If he knows that my mother is sick, will he feel that it is a burden, and will he not want to marry me?"

Sometimes it’s really humble to love this kind of thing, it’s because of humbleness that this kind of worry arises

"Shall I tell the truth?"

Nan Jiu put away the turmoil in her heart, and her expression began to return to normal

"what?"

"If he can't even accept these things, then he's not worthy of your marriage, Xiaobai, you... don't seem to know how good you are. What you should worry about is that he is not you."

Maybe it was because it was too cold, so Bai Bai shivered twice, and said something so cold, whether it was intentional or unintentional, he interrupted the topic

"Go down when it's cold"

"Um"

Bai Bai responded in a low voice, turned his head to look at the girl wrapped in an army green padded jacket, sighed and said

"Actually, I'm pretty bad. I'm not as good as you say. You always say that I'm blinded by love. In fact, you are also like this."

Nan Jiu stopped in her tracks. At this time, the two of them had separated by nearly three meters. Nan Jiu looked back, the distance was neither close nor far. Nan Jiu couldn't see Bai Bai's face clearly, it was blurry

"To some extent, I have been using you, haven't I? Knowing that you like me, but still enjoying your kindness to me with peace of mind"

Nan Jiu didn't refute Bai Bai's words, more because there was nowhere to refute, the wind was still strong, messing up her hair, and the ring hanging around her neck seemed to be even colder

"Feel sorry"

As for what to be sorry for, Bai Bai didn't want to say it, but he felt that this apology was both due and necessary

"Um"

Nan Jiu has always had such a peaceful attitude, and sometimes Bai Bai would doubt whether she really likes herself, like it or not?Is it an illusion or a gut feeling?But it doesn't matter now

When the new year is approaching, Bai Bai received a text message from Nan Jiu, a very simple sentence

——Happy New Year and happy wedding

Bai Bai did not reply

At that time, Bai Bai made up his mind to completely distance himself from Nan Jiu. In the past two years, Bai Bai admitted that he was somewhat habitually dependent on Nan Jiu. She always gave people an indescribable sense of security. Bai Bai also relied on Nan Jiu's liking to become a little unscrupulously attached, until her boyfriend proposed the idea of ​​getting married, it was considered that Bai Bai made up his mind, and some relationships should be broken.

In the beginning, Bai Bai was a little uncomfortable. He always felt that there was something missing around him. Maybe he was used to her existence, but he was just used to it. There was no liking mixed in these habits. Bai Bai was sure that he did not I don't like her, to put it bluntly, I'm just using her a little despicably

However, since her boyfriend came back, he has been busy getting together with him, which has gradually diluted these unaccustomed feelings. Since his boyfriend came back, he has not mentioned the matter of getting married, and Bai Bai has been struggling with how to tell him about his family. This situation is a bit embarrassing and a bit scary, I'm afraid that my boyfriend will really not be able to accept it

He didn't mention the marriage, and Bai Bai didn't take the initiative to mention it. It may be that his boyfriend is busy with work recently, so he doesn't have time to think about it.

However, after learning about the company where her boyfriend works, Bai Bai almost quarreled with him again.

"Tell me what company you are in now"

The boyfriend was sitting on the sofa, lazily playing games with his mobile phone, not caring about other things, let alone noticing Bai Bai's slightly angry expression at the moment, he replied absent-mindedly

"Minghai Group"

This name used to be hated by Bai Bai, but now it appears in such a way that people are a little caught off guard, and their hands even tremble a little. It takes a few deep breaths to calm down

"Can't you resign?"

This is a bit abrupt, a bit unclear, so

"What are you talking about? It's hard to get into such a big company. There's no reason to resign."

Bai Bai put the quilt he had just picked up on the coffee table heavily, and made a loud noise, as if the purpose was to smash the cup. The boyfriend was obviously frightened, and almost threw the phone out

"What are you doing, scare me?"

"nothing"

Bai Bai didn't want to say any more, but turned around and went straight to the bathroom. The door was pushed open and closed with a bang. The action was a bit rude, which also showed that she seemed to be really angry at the moment. Her boyfriend looked up. Glancing in the direction of the bathroom, he pursed his lips and picked up the teacup on the table, and just brought it to his mouth, but because the tea was too hot, he couldn't hold the teacup firmly for a while, and it fell to the ground

The boyfriend squatted down with some distress, and sighed, this teacup was bought abroad, it was a pair, one for Baibai, one for her boyfriend, and now one was accidentally broken, but usually Baibai would come over at this time , I will anxiously ask my boyfriend what's wrong, but today there is no movement at all, completely ignoring such a secretly sad boyfriend

"Hey"

The boyfriend walked to the door of the bathroom, and instead of knocking on the door, he called tentatively through the door

"Why are you angry?"

There was no echo from the bathroom, only the sound of water from the faucet, and just as the boyfriend was about to continue talking, the door was suddenly opened, and the boyfriend who was standing at the door looked blankly at Bai Bai who was close at hand. He smiled flatteringly, but Bai Bai ignored him and walked around

"I have something to do today, so I will leave first"

Picking up the coat on the hanger, he was about to go out, but his boyfriend hurriedly stepped forward to stop him

"Baby, why are you so angry, did I do something wrong?"

Bai Bai frowned and looked at the person blocking the door

"I am not angry"

Her boyfriend hugged Bai Bai in his arms, she struggled a bit and wanted to push her away

"You are not angry yet, the top of your head is about to smoke"