prison love

The atmosphere was strangely silent, the moonlight shone into the room, and the originally white walls were reflected even paler, which made Lin Lin even paler.

A ridiculous thought popped out of Zhuo Xingyuan's mind, and then he blurted out: "You don't believe in love, do you?"

"No, I believe it, of course I believe in love." Lin Lin muttered to himself with a dazed look on his face.

Thinking of certain things, Lin Lin laughed. Of course he believed in love, but the so-called love eventually drove him to a dead end. His adoptive father's love for his adoptive mother was really unforgettable, but it made Lin Lin want to die.

Zhuo Xingyuan hugged Lin Lin into his arms and said, "Lin Lin, some things buried in my heart for a long time will cause psychological burden. Wouldn't it be good to find someone to listen to?"

Lin Lin looked at the night sky outside the window in a daze, the moon was always lonely on a starless night, just like him for so many years.listener?Is Zhuo Xingyuan trustworthy?Those things have been held in my heart for many years, is it still meaningful to say it now?But is it really good to hide it in your heart?

Lin Lin kept asking himself in his heart, but couldn't find a suitable answer.

Lin Lin imprisoned his heart in the prison, Zhuo Xingyuan couldn't get in, and Lin Lin couldn't get out.

"Lin Lin, I feel very sorry that I didn't participate in your life in the past, but I want to participate in all your years to come. I want to share happiness with you and bear pain together. Believe me, okay?" Zhuo Xingyuan stared closely Looking into Lin Lin's eyes, trying to make Lin Lin feel his sincerity.

"...Okay." Lin Lin surprisingly didn't run away this time, maybe he was bewitched, maybe he really felt Zhuo Xingyuan's intentions, maybe he was too tired, and he had too many burdens on his own. I wanted to rest a long time ago.For the first time, he wanted to rely on one person to tell others about his sadness for so many years, and this person was Zhuo Xingyuan.

Lin Lin pondered for a few seconds, and summed up his previous life in a few short words: "domestic violence, drug use, murder, prison, torture, release from prison, loneliness." He looked at Zhuo Xingyuan's face with a gloomy expression Unknown, said: "This is almost my life before the age of 27."

The more Zhuo Xingyuan listened, the more stunned he became. He knew that Lin Lin had been imprisoned for murder but he didn't know the details, but these few words were enough to surprise him, especially the third last word. No wonder Lin Lin said it was not the first time he .

"Don't you feel disgusted? I was taken turns." Lin Lin said the bloody truth, "I am disgusted myself."

Lin Lin didn't see disgust and indifference on Zhuo Xingyuan's face. Instead, he felt distressed. Zhuo Xingyuan's heart burst into thousands of emotions. He didn't know how to comfort Lin Lin. Zhuo Xingyuan didn't participate in Lin Lin's past. He also couldn't say "the past is over". He knew that this matter might always be a hurdle in Lin Lin's heart, and maybe this was the main reason why Lin Lin kept rejecting him.

"Lin Lin, I can't comfort you, I can only tell you that I don't care about your past, I only care about your present and future." In fact, it is impossible to say that I don't care, Zhuo Xingyuan wants to kill those people with his own hands.

"Actually, I forgot that it was when I was a teenager. I spent 12 years in prison, and I can't remember everything clearly." Lin took the initiative to talk about the past, "I have forgotten what they looked like. After all, they have been dead for so many years. I only remember that there were six people, and then there was pain."

Lin Lin really only remembers so much. The human brain often has selective memories. It is normal for Lin Lin to choose to forget. What impressed him most was the pain, as if his whole body was being torn apart. Zhuo Xingyuan was gentler than them too much.

Lin Lin thought of a funny thing, he blinked at Zhuo Xingyuan and said, "Do you know how they all died?" Before Zhuo Xingyuan could answer, he continued, "They all committed suicide, they all died , the doctors said they committed suicide."

The expression on Lin Lin's face was not ferocious, at best it was evil. He said to Zhuo Xingyuan sinisterly: "It's true that they committed suicide, but... they were tortured by me. They couldn't stand the torture, so they went crazy , and then committed suicide."

Lin Lin thinks about those days and still feels very happy, and it can be regarded as revenge. Those people insulted him, so he should use his life to pay for it. Everything in this world has to be paid. It counts.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked you to expose your scars." Zhuo Xingyuan felt that Lin Lin like this was a little strange, but this is the real and complete Lin Lin, isn't it?

Now that you have decided to be with him, you should tolerate everything about him. Past experiences will not change Zhuo Xingyuan's liking for Lin Lin, isn't that enough?

"Brother Xingyuan, do you still want to be with me like this? Do you feel disgusted after seeing me last night?" Lin Lin asked with a smile. He seldom smiles, because laughing doesn't mean he is happy of.

Lin Lin could probably imagine what his smile looked like now, but those people in the past were probably right, he was a complete pervert.

Zhuo Xingyuan held Lin Lin's hand and said, "We also have something in common. We have never been soft on those who have hurt us."

Lin Lin didn't speak. He was waiting for Zhuo Xingyuan's next words. Zhuo Xingyuan gave a recent example: "The one who drugged me was an artist. He came out to make trouble on the day I confessed my love. Do you know what happened to him?" Zhuo Xingyuan Yuan rubbed Lin Lin's hand, and continued: "He has been banned, and if nothing else happens, he may not even be able to afford to live in a slum in the future."

Lin Lin is a ruthless person, he is ruthless to others, and he is also ruthless to himself.He was only obedient to deceive himself. For example, when Lin Yue asked him to deal with the bodyguards, he had dark thoughts in his heart, but he restrained himself, and told himself that he couldn't do that, he couldn't be a cruel person, he had to show It's like a normal person who just stepped into this circle.

"I want to talk about something else." Lin Lin blinked, her eyelashes fluttering slightly, "I don't want to stop the topic here, would you like to hear me talk about my other past?"

"Of course, although I can't heal your scars, I can be your most reliable shoulder." Zhuo Xingyuan went to bed, wrapped Lin Lin in the quilt, hugged him from behind, kissed his ear, and said softly: "Say it, baby, I am the tool for you to vent your emotions. You can tell me if you are unhappy, now and in the future."

Lin Lin was itchy. He wanted to get out of Zhuo Xingyuan's arms, but he couldn't exert himself due to physical reasons, so he could only be hugged. He shook his head, trying to avoid Zhuo Xingyuan's breathing, and said with a light cough : "Let me start from the beginning, you should just listen to the story."

"it is good."

Lin Lin grew up in an orphanage since he was a child. It may be because of his poor memory. Lin Lin doesn't even remember how old he was when he was adopted, four or five years old?Anyway, he was not very old, he remembered that the dean was a very kind middle-aged man, and he seemed to have gold-rimmed eyes in his impression.

This is the first time for Lin Lin to recall something so long ago, and only then did he realize that his memory is so poor that he can't even remember the face of the dean.

The weather seemed to be very good on the day he was adopted, because Lin Lin remembered that he was playing on a swing in the yard that afternoon. Swinging slowly on the swing, I immediately saw a man and a woman passing by their yard and heading to the dean's office.

Lin Lin was secretly thinking about who would be adopted this time. They all said that if they were adopted, they would live a good life. Almost all the children yearned to be adopted, but Lin Lin didn't feel much about it. , He has never been adopted, how do you know what they said is true or false.

Lin Lin didn't like to talk since he was a child. His language function has developed very well, but he just doesn't like to talk. He is always the quietest one when other children are chattering endlessly, quietly watching others making noise. Annoy the aunt who takes care of them.

"Really, I don't even remember being so quiet when I was a child." Lin Lin said lightly.

Maybe it's because of the age and Lin Lin's added imagination, anyway, life in the orphanage is quite peaceful.

Based on Lin Lin's words, Zhuo Xingyuan could almost imagine a poker-faced little boy sitting on a swing, looking at the ordinary people in the yard doing all kinds of monsters like a master, a very cute scene, he couldn't help it smiled.

The laughter spread into Lin Lin's ears, and made him feel a lot more relaxed. Zhuo Xingyuan's lips were next to Lin Lin's ears, and he could be kissed as long as he moved a little. He wanted to reach out to touch his ears, but he couldn't help He was also wrapped in a quilt and couldn't move.

"Baby, what's the matter? Itchy ears?" Zhuo Xingyuan deliberately leaned into his ear and talked, making Lin Lin's ears tingle little by little until his heart went numb.

Lin Lin ignored Zhuo Xingyuan's words. This memory was not heavy, so his tone was very relaxed. He tried his best to remember and try to think of more beautiful things.

Lin Lin was still sitting on the swing. He didn't know how long it had been before he saw the two people come to the yard, standing in the corner with the dean and watching everyone. To be adopted.

The originally noisy courtyard became much quieter. The children tried their best to show their best sides. Even the two who were fighting stopped. Everyone gathered together in twos and threes. The two who used to quarrel often also pretended to be happy Look good, let's play together.

Get used to the hard life, let them know how to please people at a very young age, because only in this way can they have a chance to be taken away, and it is possible to escape from this hard life.

Lin Lin is always the different here. When everyone is trying to show himself, only he is unmoved, counting the clouds at a slow speed, and occasionally counting the number of fallen leaves on the ground.

With a casual glance, Lin Lin saw the man's eyes lingering on him. He seemed to have been looking at him for a long time. After looking at Lin Lin, he smiled, then turned his head and said something to the woman beside him. After looking at him several times, the dean spoke enthusiastically to them.

The dean is a good man. He hopes that all the children here can be adopted and live a good life.Lin Lin still remembered that the dean always smiled at them gently, and would buy them candy and biscuits. Lin Lin didn't want to rob people for things, and every time he couldn't get anything, the dean would leave him delicious food alone , and touched his face with a smile.

Lin Lin didn't remember the dean's appearance anymore, but he could imagine the dean's appearance, he must be a kind-hearted man.

Lin Lin had a premonition in his heart that he might be the one who was adopted today. He didn't feel anything, and he didn't care about anything. It was the same wherever he lived. Anyway, the orphanage didn't have a good relationship with him except the dean and aunt.For some reason, the children didn't like to play with him. Lin Lin sometimes wondered if it was because he didn't like to talk, but he never thought about changing anything.

"As expected, I was right about what happened next. The couple chose me." Lin Lin said.

Lin Lin remembered that the woman was very fair and beautiful, but maybe it was a child's intuition. Lin Lin didn't like her very much, and he didn't like that man either, but he didn't refuse to be adopted, so after completing the formalities, He followed them without even packing his things.

Lin Lin thought about it now, maybe that was the beginning of the nightmare. He always thought that the appearance of that woman was the beginning of the nightmare. Thinking about it today, the nightmare had already had signs.

At that time, Lin Lin had already stepped into hell with one foot.

The author has something to say:

Lin Lin: He has been a quiet and handsome man since he was a child.

Zhuo Xingyuan: Yes, you only make the most noise when you are on the bed.

Lin Lin: You can go now.