Willingly ABO

On Monday, May 2013, 5, the weather was fine.

My friend drove the car to the gate of the university, and I pulled the door of the back seat and got out of the car.

"Xin Gan, don't you really want to go with us to see the place to rent a house? We don't dare to make a decision without you! Zhuang Qin will beat us."

"It's okay, you can discuss it, I don't care about the working environment, and our magazine is just starting, how can Zhuang Qin have so many demands?"

"Then I wish you a smooth defense! Take your graduation photos well!"

"Okay, thank you!"

I watched my friend drive away and clenched my fists.The award certificate for the photo contest was in my bag, and I dug out the Nokia N9 from my pocket. After deliberating for a long time, I decided to call Qin Yuan to announce the good news to him.

It's been a year, and I want to tell him that I have succeeded, and that I don't need him to protect me from the wind and rain, and I can do well.

beep - beep - beep -

After the call was connected, I nervously carried my mobile phone and walked on the student street with anxiety.

I hope Qin Yuan will answer my call, but I haven't figured out what to say to him first.Should I say hello?Will it look too raw, so why not say hello?I haven't been in touch with him for so long, and it doesn't seem right to just chat like a normal person when I open my mouth.

During the period of breaking up, I have thought clearly, I love him, and I also love my own life, the two are not fish and bear's paws, why can't I have both?In the past, he was everywhere in my life, which caused me to see problems from a one-sided perspective. Once I felt that there was a distance between myself and him, I would feel anxious.But now my life is very fulfilling, with less sense of insecurity in my heart, I miss Qin Yuan even more.

The world is bright and life is beautiful. I don’t need anything now, but he is the only thing I need.

However, I want to understand a lot of questions, what about him?How did he see it?

Does he still want to be with me?Does he miss me?

Does he still love me?

My heart was beating fast, my heart was tangled, bitterness and excitement were intertwined.On the one hand, I was afraid that he would not answer my call, and on the other hand, I was afraid that he would answer my call. We had nothing to say.

The phone was connected, but the person on the other side didn't speak.I immediately stopped and swallowed, thinking that it would be better to act first, at least I would not be embarrassed if I spoke first.

So I stood by the pancake stand, mustered up my courage, took a deep breath, and shouted, "Hello! Qin Yuan——"

The sound was deafening, and the posture was overwhelming. The classmates who bought cakes next door were so scared that they backed up three steps. Those who didn't know thought I was making an appointment with someone.

I regretted it as soon as I made a sound, Qin Yuan didn't know if I was arguing with him, what if he just hung up on me?

Sure enough, there was no sound from the other end of the phone. I pressed my phone nervously, and was about to call him again, when the other person suddenly said, "... Xin Gan?"

I breathed a sigh of relief, thankfully.

"It's me, so what, you... are you free now, I want to show... no, I have something good to show you! Come quickly! I promise you will be as happy as I am when you read it! Absolutely true!"

After briskly speaking, I slapped myself backhanded, almost killing myself.

God, how can you talk to your ex-boyfriend so happily?

Xin Gan, Xin Gan, you and Qin Yuan have been in contact for almost a year since you broke up, and you get straight to the point when you call, without even saying hello, are you not afraid that the other party will feel embarrassed?He might be thinking, hey, Xin Gan really has no heart, even if we are friends after we break up, and we haven't seen each other for so long, he still talks like a normal person, isn't he sad?

Qin Yuan obviously didn't react, and the phone was silent for several seconds.These few seconds are really long for me, and my palms are slightly sweaty.

He won't really blame me secretly in his heart, will he?

Hey, these few seconds are enough for me to imagine a reunion drama in my mind.

Qin Yuan finally spoke. He lowered his voice and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I'm talking to someone else. Are you in a hurry? Shall we make an appointment another day?"

A gust of cool wind blew by, and I finally calmed down a bit.

In the past, I hated hearing him say this sentence the most. It was because of this repeated evasion that we were pushed further and further apart, and finally a gully was opened between us, and the land would collapse at any time.

Holding my mobile phone, I raised my foot again and walked slowly along the shops on the student street.

"I... I'm not in a hurry, I just want to share with you quickly, aren't we still friends! I've been wanting to contact you, but I've been too busy this year, so I haven't taken the time. Hey, it's you, why don't you Contact me?"

"...I thought you'd never—well, thank you."

Qin Yuan took a deep breath and spoke slowly, his voice trembling slightly.He was obviously a little excited and wanted to tell me something, but he only spoke halfway, but then changed the topic and said something wrong.

It was clearly not to me, he was to the people who were right next to him at the moment.

I was taken aback, but before I realized that he was thanking others, I heard a particularly elegant female voice from the other end of the phone:

"Well, you're welcome, boyfriend."

In an instant, there was a thunderbolt from the blue.

man... what?

The thunder fell and pierced me in an instant. I was suddenly nailed to the spot, and murmured in disbelief: "...man...what?"

I fell into the sea, the noise around me was drowned out, my mind went blank, my legs went limp, and I almost couldn't stand.The mobile phone almost fell from the palm of my hand during the call, did it become so hot to the ear, otherwise why did it make my ear hurt unbearably.

Qin Yuan sighed softly, probably covering the mouth of the phone, or taking it away, his voice was as hazy as mist: "...Miss Huo, I did not agree to your proposal, please don't call me that I--"

My ears were buzzing, and I couldn't get back to my senses for a long time, so that I didn't hear his reply clearly.

As soon as the words fell, he moved closer to the phone again, and softly called: "Xin Gan? What do you want to show me, Xin Gan?"

"……what?"

The sudden clear voice gradually called me back, and I spoke in a daze.

"Xin Gan, are you still listening?"

"I..." I didn't know how to speak for a while.Rather, I don't know what else to say.He has a new partner, should I tell him again, I want to stand by your side again, let's make up?

I bit my lower lip tightly, full of sadness, resisting the soreness of the tip of my nose, sniffed, and said with difficulty: "No, it's okay, you should be busy, haha... Then I'll hang up first..."

After all, before Qin Yuan could respond, I quickly put down the phone in an evasive manner.But when I moved my finger to the end button and was about to end the call, an inexplicable sense of unwillingness suddenly surged in my heart, which was itchy and painful, making me scratch my heart and lungs.

I went crazy, got a Gu, raised the phone to my ear again, accompanied by Qin Yuan's bewildered and anxious call, I angrily opened my mouth and shouted:

"Qin Yuan! I didn't expect me to hurt you so much! It's so big that your sex/orientation has changed! You are still amazing! You are still awesome! Hmph——"

"Singer? You—"

drop--

I poked viciously at the red button on the screen, hung up the phone completely this time, and took a long press to turn off the phone.The moment the screen went dark, my heart also went gray.

"Classmate, hey classmate, can you stop standing here if you are arguing with others? It will affect our business!"

The uncle at the pancake stall finally couldn't hold back and chased me away. I ignored him and left in a daze.

There are college students hanging out in groups of three or four on the street, or young couples feeding each other, and everyone has happy smiles on their faces.I was wrapped in a happy atmosphere, but the feeling of suffocation spread all over my body.

Vendors selling graduation photo bouquets and balloons squeezed past me, dragged away the colorful colors, and seemed to have taken the colors from me, leaving only gray and ruined.The laughter and laughter became harsh, and when I thought of the prize in the backpack, it was even more heavy at this time, leaving only sadness.

I aimlessly found a milk tea shop to sit down, and my heart was still unable to calm down. The anxiety and sadness in my heart were fighting together, and my heart almost stopped beating.

In fact, I very much regret the words I yelled at Qin Yuan just now.It was me who said we broke up, and he was the one who agreed. After that, we didn't contact each other for a long time. It is completely reasonable that he has a new lover.But I was dazzled by anger at the time, I was angry with him, and I was also angry with myself!When I proposed to break up, I had a big fight with Qin Yuan. Both of them were not clear-headed, and they didn't have a chance to calm down and communicate with each other.When the cooling-off period passed and I wanted to have a good talk with him, he couldn't wait to find someone new!Am I willing?I can not be reconciled!

Why do I still like him, I still miss him, it's just a little later, but he has already fallen in love with someone else?

It turned out that it was just one step too late, and everything could not be repeated.

I glanced at my backpack, reached out and took out the certificate that I wanted to show off in front of Qin Yuan and try to break the deadlock between us, looked deeply for a while, and let out a heavy breath.

I put the certificate back, got up and went to the counter to order all the cakes displayed in the small freezer, square, round and triangular, which surprised the clerk.

They don't understand, this is called turning grief and anger into appetite, after eating this cake, forget about him!

I was holding the cake, leaning against the window weakly, stuffing it into my mouth mouthful, the taste was like chewing wax.Don't others say that eating sweets will make you feel better?Why don't I feel it?

I turned my head to glance at the mobile phone on the table, and I don't know if Qin Yuan will call me back, what will he do if he finds out that my phone is turned off?

Looking out the window at the bustling street and the crowds coming and going, I felt very helpless and lonely, and suddenly lost my direction and purpose.

After all, this incident became a knot in my heart. Others were confused because of work after graduation, but I was because of a broken relationship.

It's not just a lovelorn, but also a part of the lost youth.

From waiting to be fed to becoming a young boy in the blooming season, Qin Yuan has been by my side for too many years, and I spent a whole year without being able to accept the fact that he left me. At the age of 22, I realized for the first time here in Qinyuan that I have grown up and people can no longer remember the past.

Faxiao will not talk about everything forever, and lovers may not always love themselves. One day everyone will drift away, and they will say goodbye in a hurry without even waving.

The author says:

Qin Yuan: I was killed by Huo Ling

Huo Ling: Sister Sao Urui