dissatisfied [campus]

From noon onwards, the usually sunny sky suddenly turned gray, and it didn't take long before it started to rain lightly.

Slowly, the rain began to increase gradually until the evening.

Since Jiang Yu left, Xu Ji spent the whole day in a state of disorientation. After a day's class in a daze, he didn't hear Jiang Yu's name again until he went to the cafeteria for dinner at night.

"Hey, the last class of Class 2 this afternoon is Jiang Yu's math class, right? Why didn't I see him?"

"I don't know either. I wanted to ask him to bring me a meal at noon today, but I didn't see him when I went back to the dormitory."

......

Seeing the two chatting classmates walking away gradually, Xu Ji frowned.

Haven't come back yet?

He took out his mobile phone and called Jiang Yu, but the ring rang for a long time but he still didn't get through, probably because the signal was too bad.

After Xu Ji finished his meal in a hurry, he first came to Jiang Yu's dormitory. After finding that there was no one in the dormitory, he went to the principal's office, only to find that the lights in the principal's office were also dark.

At this time, Teacher Zhang from the next office came out.

He was about to turn off the lights and lock the door, when Xu Ji hurriedly stepped forward and asked, "Mr. Zhang, have you seen Principal Yu?"

"Huh?" Teacher Zhang thought for a while and said, "No. It seems that the lights in the principal's office have been dark since five or six o'clock."

It takes more than ten kilometers to go back and forth from the school to the neighboring village. No matter how slow the mountain road is, I should be back within seven or eight hours.

Xu Ji felt a little uneasy, so he found Qiu Yue, the accompanying teacher of Qixian No. [-] Middle School, and told him about Principal Yu and Jiang Yu's search for Da Zhuang.

"Xu Ji, don't worry," Qiu Yue comforted, "It's also possible that they were left in the village for dinner or something. I remember I left the village head's phone number. I'll look for it later."

Qiu Yue found out the village head's phone number, and when the signal finally got through, the village head went to Da Zhuang's house to ask about the situation after the call was connected.

After the call was transferred, Da Zhuang's grandma said in a loud voice: "The child has been taken away by Principal Yu and a young man. He left at three or four in the afternoon. Why hasn't he arrived yet?" ?"

Xu Ji glanced at the torrential rain outside the window, and when Qiu Yue hung up the phone, Xu Ji said in a deep voice, "Go find someone, go now."

The mountain road on a rainy night was very muddy. Among the teachers and students accompanying Qixian No. [-] Middle School, all the men in total were no more than eight people. They were wearing raincoats and holding flashlights. Led by two other teachers from Huashan Primary School, they walked along the road to the village. Shanlu began to look for someone.

The gust of wind whizzed past my ears, making the grass and trees in the mountains rustle, and the downpour of rain hit me straight through the towering forests, crackling like nails and hurting my body.

The raincoats were useless. Everyone was soaked from inside to outside, and even the muddy water from the ground was mixed in the shoes.

"Principal Xu—!"

"Jiang -!"

"Big pile—!"

Everyone shouted with difficulty, muddy water poured into their mouths every time they opened their mouths, and it became difficult to even open their eyes.

They didn't see anyone until they got off the Dongshan Mountain where Huashan Primary School was located and reached the path between the two mountains.

Everyone gradually felt a little tired, especially some students who were used to pampering, two or three of them began to complain in a low voice.

"When did you find it like this?"

"That's right, just the few of us, if we turn over both mountains, it won't be until dawn?"

"Hey, let me tell you, a few days ago I talked with Teacher Zhang at the school. I heard that the mountains here often have various small mudslides when it rains. I heard that people died before!"

"Really? No way? Is it so serious?"

"Of course! Is the mudslide a joke? If this is swept down, how can there be life?"

"Oh my god, we are here to participate in a practical activity, and we still have to risk our lives? Nothing will happen to Jiang Mi, right?"

"It's hard to say, I—"

"To shut up."

There was a cold scolding sound from the front, and the few people who were talking in low voices were startled. When they looked up, they saw Xu Ji looking back at them with squinted eyes.

There was no blood on a pale face, only the scarlet bloodshot eyes, Xu Ji's face was on the verge of eruption, and the few people who read eyes closed their mouths immediately.

After another half an hour, they finally saw the figure of Principal Yu on the mountainside of Xishan.

Principal Yu looked very embarrassed, his ankle was sprained, his body was covered with muddy water, his half-broken glasses were hanging unsteadily on his face, and even the exposed skin was covered with fragmentary wounds.

"Principal Yu." Qiu Yue stepped forward to support Yu Chengping first, "How are you? Are you okay?"

"I--"

Just as Yu Chengping was about to speak, someone suddenly stepped forward and grabbed his arm fiercely, and asked hoarsely, "Where's Jiang Yu?"

Yu Chengping raised his eyes and saw Xu Ji was looking at him with frowning.

"When we came back from Dazhuan's house in the afternoon, it happened to be raining heavily, so we hurried to the school. Unexpectedly, when we went down the mountain, we encountered a landslide again. The three of us accidentally walked along the south side of Xishan. The slope slipped down, and the rocks and muddy water took us in different directions, and then I got separated from them..."

Yu Chengping felt that his hand was tightened, and he quickly comforted him: "But you don't have to worry, the soil on the west mountain is soft, and landslides are common in rainy days. Some people have been swept down the mountain before, but they must be lifeless. Dangerous, they may be lost somewhere now, they will be fine."

As soon as the words fell, the people around immediately began to discuss in a low voice——

"My God, how are they going to find them if they get lost? Turn the mountain over?"

"That's right, I've been searching for more than three hours, and I'm almost exhausted."

......

Qian Li, another accompanying teacher of Qixian No. [-] Middle School, thought it over: "It's not an option for us to keep looking for it like this. It's better to call the emergency number in the county than to search here by ourselves."

Just as Qiu Yue was about to speak, Xu Ji suddenly said, "Which direction did you get separated from them?"

Yu Chengping was stunned for two seconds, then pointed to the southwest of Xishan: "It's on the mountainside over there."

As soon as the words fell, Xu Ji walked over there with a flashlight, and Qiu Yue quickly reached out to stop him.

"Xu Ji, don't be impulsive. What Teacher Qian said makes sense. It's raining so hard now. Let's wait for the professional rescue team to come!"

Yu Chengping also persuaded: "Yes, Xiao Ji, I will contact the village head later and ask the village head to bring more people to look for it. It will be soon, don't worry."

Xu Ji was unmoved: "Send Principal Yu back first, I'll look for it myself."

Qiu Yue frowned: "It's raining so hard, what if you encounter landslides and mudslides again? Don't—"

"I fucking said—!" Xu Ji interrupted him abruptly, saying word by word, "I'll find it myself, don't fuck me!"

Seeing the surly determination in Xu Ji's eyes, Qiu Yue let go of his hand for a moment.

After all, Xu Ji ignored everyone's objections and disappeared into the gray rainy night holding the flashlight.

Qian Liwei wondered: "Teacher Qiu, what should I do..."

Qiu Yue smiled bitterly: "Mr. Zhang, please take Principal Yu and the students back to school first. Teacher Qiu and Teacher Li, the three of us will go and look for it with Xu Ji."

The body seemed to be numb, and he could only walk forward mechanically, and the fingers holding the flashlight became extremely stiff. The heavy rain in the sky was like a dense net, wrapping people layer by layer.

Fear, fear, anxiety, restlessness...

These emotions trapped Xu Ji like claws scratching his heart.

Everything was silent, only the sound of the crashing rain rang clearly in my ears, as if someone was crying hoarsely.

In Xu Ji's memory, bad things will always happen in rainy days. He will always remember how it feels like blood mixed with rainwater flowing to his feet. After so many years, the past scenes are still replaying in his mind like a revolving lantern. .

After walking for an unknown amount of time, Xu Ji climbed all the way to the south of the West Mountain, walked down the steepest slope until he reached the creek at the bottom of the mountain, followed the gravel road and found a big rock next to a dead tree——

The dark red bloodstains flashed by under the pale light, Xu Ji almost thought he was dazzled.

He ran two steps forward, and saw the remaining blood on the boulder meandering down along the zigzag lines, all the way into the mud on the ground.

The uneasiness in his heart was further amplified, and Xu Ji shouted——

"Jiang -!"

"Big pile—!"

The sound of the rain was getting louder and louder, as if trying to drown out the last hope in his heart.

"Xu Ji—!"

Xu Ji paused, thinking he was hallucinating.

"Xu Ji—!"

Hearing the calling sound not far away clearly, Xu Ji hurriedly grabbed the flashlight and ran forward.

It wasn't until he was beside the falling rock a hundred meters away that Xu Ji saw Jiang Yu was walking towards this side with great difficulty, holding on to the big pile.

Seeing Xu Ji running all the way in front of him, Jiang Yu was a little surprised and said, "Why—"

Before the words finished, Xu Ji threw the flashlight aside, reached out and grabbed Jiang Yu's shoulder: "How are you? Is there something wrong? Where is the injury?"

Xu Ji glanced at him quickly, Jiang Yu was as dirty as a clay figurine, the thin clothing was torn in several places, and the exposed right elbow was wrapped in a piece of rag, which was still seeping blood.

Jiang Yu was taken aback by his question: "I... I'm fine... It's just him—"

"Jiang Yu!" The suddenly rising tone interrupted Jiang Yu's words, Xu Ji squeezed his shoulders, his eyes were full of questioning, "How did I tell you?"

The turbulent emotions were accumulated in his chest, and he couldn't release it no matter what. Xu Ji panted heavily, unable to control his anger.

"Did I fucking tell you not to go?"

After being yelled at by Xu Ji, Jiang Yu was stunned for a few seconds, and even the big pile beside him was a little scared.

After a long time, Jiang Yu forced a smile: "I'm fine now, you don't have to worry..."

Xu Ji was trembling all over, only the blue veins on his forehead stood out on his pale face, his lips were tightly pursed, and his scarlet eyes were full of anger.

Jiang Yu suddenly realized that something was wrong with Xu Ji, he grabbed Xu Ji's arm with his backhand: "What's wrong with you?"

Xu Ji shook off his arm, closed his eyes, trying to calm himself down.

Jiang Yu stared at Xu Ji's trembling hands, and suddenly thought of something.

"You, where's your medicine?" Jiang Yu frantically stepped forward to touch his coat, "Xu Ji, where's your medicine?"

Xu Ji's body froze, and his mind seemed to stop thinking. He heard his own hollow voice: "You...understand?"

Jiang Qi paused.

When he came out of the utility room on the top floor that day, Jiang Yu accidentally spilled the contents of Xu Ji's bag, and he saw a lot of medicine falling out of it——

Venlafaxine, Sertraline, Chlorpromazine, Olanzapine...

Looking at the familiar drug names one by one, Jiang Yu instantly understood many things.

Jiang Yu smiled wryly: "Well, I know everything."

These are medicines for depression.

"Jiang Yi! Xu Ji!"

The teachers' calls came from behind, and Xu Ji's stiff mind finally regained his thinking.

Ever since he met Jiang Yu, Xu Ji felt that he had been indulging himself.

He indulged himself time and time again in the accidents brought about by Jiang Gui, indulged himself to spread his heart in front of Jiang Gui again and again, indulged himself...to fall in love with Jiang Gui.

And now, it's time for this indulgence to end.