Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter 110 Waiting

Scarlett had never taken the initiative to talk about her experience before. Of course, she was not because of shyness, but because she was extremely unwilling to admit her failure and stupidity in dealing with feelings.No one likes the feeling of failure, and no one is willing to deny the previous self. After all, life is already very hard, and it is nothing to be defeated by life. It is really unacceptable to be defeated by oneself.Although people and their own lives have never been separated and cannot be separated, people always have stricter requirements for themselves than for life.For their own failures, what they do more is to ignore.Perhaps this is human arrogance.It's like the reason why human beings are the spirits of all creatures is that other creatures cannot deny it.

But Scarlett now believes that some people can do it, such as Rhett, like her, and she hopes that Lanli can also face up to this.She told her own story not because of anything else, but because she felt it, but no one told her that other people's stories are actually easier for people to recognize themselves.She didn't comment on Lanli's actions presumptuously. Her own story has already explained her own attitude. Although the stories of the two of them are not exactly the same, the reasons for this result are the same. She is selfish. Because she has no conscience, because she doesn't know how to cherish, but as for Lanli, she is conscientious and considerate of others, but Scarlett feels that her way of running away is also because of selfishness.In fact, she still doesn't know that people who talk about conscience are the most selfish. He (she) can ignore everything for their own conscience.Moral standards are imposed by a few people on everyone. If someone completely internalizes it into a code of conduct, it will only hurt those who love themselves—but to be honest, only those who love themselves can go without scruples. Hurt—just to please strangers who have nothing to do with them, because strangers will never allow others to treat themselves like this.

She looked at Lan Li's surprised expression and gave her a shallow smile, which represented reconciliation.She had expected that Lanli would have such a reaction, and she believed that Lanli would continue to comfort herself and let her relax, not to blame herself so much, and Mr. Butler would definitely get back together with her.In fact, it would be fine if this is the case, because she never comforts others, and if she says the next thing, it will only be cold.As for those comforting words, she just listened to them and didn't take them too seriously. After all, her life was spent in the process of constantly forgiving herself a long time ago.

Lan Li also smiled, although her smile looked like she had struggled out of a swamp.She took the initiative to hold Scarlett's hand, bridging the misunderstanding and gap between them with the warmth of her palm. "Scarlett, please forgive me for not knowing that there are so many secrets between you and Mr. Butler, I'm sorry." She lowered her head, her lips trembling slightly, and carefully considered her words, "Don't take it too seriously, After all, what happened to Mr. Butler was an accident. Don't worry, he'll be all right—"

"Okay, Lanli, you don't have to think about how to comfort me." This was the first time Scarlett interrupted Lanli, but she didn't feel uneasy at all. "What happened to Rhett has always been my fault. Even his being caught this time should be blamed on me. I just want to rely on my own strength to rescue him. The farther things are beyond my current consideration. Our relationship has gone wrong. There have been too many problems and it has been too long. Of course, I want him to come back to me overnight, but that is impossible. But no matter what our relationship will become in the future, I can’t help him. I just want to do what I can do, no matter what I become or what he becomes. I don’t always think about others like you, but I know that if today’s situation changes Be Rhett, I think he is the same." After she finished speaking, she realized that her words were inappropriate, "I don't always think about others like you" sounds like the most vicious irony to Lanli now, She has exposed the most vulnerable core of her character to herself, but she still doesn't know how serious she is to expose her wounds and remind her what stupid things she has done. She is not like herself. Only Scarlett knows how strict she is with herself. .But before Scarlett wanted to change her words and apologize to her, Lanli had already started talking again.

"Neither of us has the right to blame each other, only our husband." Scarlett was pleasantly surprised to hear that Lanli had admitted Disson's identity, and she regretted that Disson was not around now. "But neither of them is here at this time, so we can only criticize each other. You think you are sorry for Mr. Butler, and I think I am sorry for Deason. I used to be too selfish. I only wanted to make myself feel better. I didn't think about it. I didn't think about Dieson's feelings, nor did I think about Angela. They were separated for so long, but no one was angry with me. I, a woman who dare not even face her true feelings, I think I am lucky enough It's over, stop begging God to give me more things, Angela, Deason, and you, your love is enough for me to be grateful for a lifetime. Especially you, dear Scarlett, I must Thank you for insisting on coming to the north, thank you for questioning me, thank you for being careful, otherwise I don’t think I would have the courage to face Deason. Although he fell in love with me because of the illusion on the battlefield , I have always had resentment towards him, always thought that I was just a substitute for his ex-wife, and always wanted to yell at him that I was not the one he was looking for, but after so many years, he is still the same him, and he has not changed his mind. He no longer regards me as his savior, he has come out, I think, it is time for me to get over the hurdle in my heart."

Although Lanli didn't say "I love him" in the whole passage, Scarlett knew there was no need for it.Lan Li is grateful to her for helping her to recognize her feelings, but this is also considered Lan Li's luck. She met a good man who is infatuated with her. Although there was a misunderstanding, he did not change his mind; Nor did it stop him from pursuing her.What she met was a better person than her, but because of the different levels of goodness, they turned into two stars with different brightness, reflecting each other's unknown side.In the process of mutual repulsion, attraction and collision, they both suffer losses, and all the past turns into dust scattered by the wind.But after all, he contained everything about her with his stronger light, and finally won her heart.Because she is such a good person, she deserves to be happy.In other words, a person like her who suffers from herself always needs someone who really cares about her.Although Lanli's story is full of coincidences, from the beginning when Meili picked up the photo, to now she is standing here to confess her love, no matter which link there is a deviation in the middle, it will not be the current result.But Scarlett felt that there must be divine guidance hidden in it.

For some reason, she suddenly felt that Rhett's arrest was actually not such a tragic thing, at least he unintentionally fulfilled a pair of lovers.From suffering day and night at the beginning to having fun now, Scarlett can clearly feel that her mentality has changed. It should be a good thing to change from negative to positive, but she feels a little uncomfortable, maybe it is herself I have been too nervous these days, and I finally encountered a good thing to relax my mind, and I am not used to it.

But after all, this good thing does not belong to her. Scarlett found to her dismay that this was the root of her uneasiness.Moreover, the promotion of a good thing started with the occurrence of another bad thing, which made her even more unbalanced.Reiter is still locked up in prison, and his life and death are worrying, but he has the mind to help others protect the media. Although it is really done, but after the small sense of accomplishment, it is a deeper loss.Even if people are willing to share some happiness with you, you are not blessed to enjoy it, especially when you are surrounded by misfortune.Happiness and misfortune do not necessarily cancel each other out, especially other people's and your own.

So instead of waiting for Disson to come back with Lan Li, she went upstairs by herself.This kind of reunion scene of two people is not at all suitable for the presence of a third party, and she still has a trouble to solve, instead she helps others to deal with it first, Scarlett really thinks that she can't say that she is nosy, But self-sacrifice is not her usual style.Forget it, it’s a good thing to be able to help your friends, and it’s not in vain for you to work from the bright sun at noon to the stars in the middle of the night.Now I can just concentrate on my own affairs.Scarlett persuaded herself like this, and finally she felt better again.Isn't it just a child's thing, nothing special.

The chiming clock was ringing happily, it was past eleven o'clock, but Dison hadn't come back yet, Lan Li was really anxious.Really falling in love with someone is not an easy task. When he is with you, you feel that time passes too fast and you are not satisfied; when he is not with you, you feel that time passes too slowly and you are not at ease.Love is always full of such contradictions, and no one can solve it. If you want to truly get love, you must first learn to endure its teasing.Lan Li sat on the sofa, looking at the things she held in her hands from time to time, her mood was bumping back and forth in calm and ups and downs like a small boat in the sea.

It's getting closer, it's getting closer, the sound of short and powerful footsteps makes Lan Li fidgety, but she must remain calm.She, who had never felt embarrassed in front of Disson, felt at a loss for the first time. She wished she could disappear from the room so that he could not see her, as long as she could see him.In fact, it was only one day, but her feelings towards Disson turned upside down. She thought it was absurd, but it felt like it was an instant - even though that person had been waiting for many years for this instant change.