Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter 110 Scarlett and Paul

No one can help her, and she can only help herself.After several days of contradictory psychological struggles, two nights before the banquet, she finally decided to do what Rhett said, taking advantage of the fact that Lanli and Deason had gone to bed early—fortunately, they had already slept in the same bed. room, so that the probability of being discovered is reduced——she walked into Paul's room.This time, she was doing it for her family responsibilities. Although Scarlett seldom did anything too high-level, but this time she had the courage to tell the truth to Paul only if she raised her own motives.Since he's a Robillard boy, it's not good for him to keep hiding or messing around like this, he has to learn to be a gentleman.Before the war, a boy of his age could get engaged if he had a good character, a good family background, good manners, and popularity. He had a solid foundation in the first two, but now he hasn't even learned basic etiquette, so it's not right to correct it. It's a matter of a day or two.There happened to be a party, although it was organized by a northerner, but it didn't matter, the upper class didn't distinguish between the south and the north, so it wouldn't hurt him to learn how they behaved.Besides, Didn't Deason say that there are many southerners there?A gathering of elites is itself a treasure trove of opportunities that can be exploited in all directions and at multiple levels, depending on how it is used.

Paul was quite surprised in his heart. He wondered why Mrs. Butler turned a blind eye to him after bringing him here but came to him at this time.Angela had told him that there was going to be a grand party at home and invited him, but he had no interest in it, so he didn't care too much about Scarlett's special enthusiasm for this matter. He didn't expect her to be his first The words are: "Paul, you must attend the party in two days." The tone does not leave him any room for negotiation.

"Why?" Although such Mrs. Butler had an involuntary succumbing momentum, he still asked the most inappropriate question.Of course, he knew afterwards that the answer he got must be——

"Don't ask so many reasons, just go if you are told!" She and Mr. Butler are really a natural match, even the tone, sentence structure, and wording of the answers are exactly the same.

"Okay." Apart from obeying, I really have no other way to go.

"Don't make trouble, you are not young anymore, you should learn to be a gentleman and pay attention to your behavior..." Could it be that women like to be so wordy, he thought Mrs. Butler was different?

But among the women he had met, she was considered good, and she stopped after saying a few simple words.Although Paul suspected she was running out of words, he was grateful for the silence she gave him.

It's just that this quiet time is a little too long.Paul turned his head away from the first sentence of the nagging, and he wondered why Mrs. Butler didn't order him to turn his head back. He was ready to fight back if she blamed himself for not being serious by saying "I I'm listening to your teachings," but his neck was sore after being quiet for so long, and he turned his head to see that she hadn't left yet.Just when he was wondering why her patience had improved so much, he heard her asking himself: "Paul, tell me, do you think you are a man?"

"Of course." He said without thinking.Later he learned that when a person asks some questions that make you feel boring because the answer is obvious, it usually means that what he or she will say next will be difficult to say. Unfortunately, the embarrassment after speaking is almost 100% % is about you.

"To be a man, you have to be strong enough, right?" It's better to have more than two answers to the question. He didn't bother to answer this kind of question. He just nodded because of Scarlett's serious expression. Very serious.

"There must be enough tolerance, right?" Not just Paul.Scarlett felt that she was too pretentious, and she had to pave the way for so many things that could be explained clearly in a few sentences, but she really didn't dare to touch the problem itself without Paul's guarantee.In her impression, Paul was a child who didn't have too much trouble in his heart, unlike Jack, who was full of worries, but this was exactly what worried her.Although Jack has something on his mind, he can often adjust himself by relying on the interaction between these things. On the contrary, Paul, who seems to her to be unable to hide things, is more confidant and more elusive.In fact, she also understands that even if she gets a guarantee from a child, it doesn't count.But people are like this sometimes. They know that something cannot be true, but they are unwilling to let it go before it is proved to be false in order to have a certainty in their hearts.

Paul was a little annoyed, and he asked impatiently, "What do you want to tell me right now?"

"I just want to ask you, has Mr. Butler told you about your biological parents?" Scarlett was choked a little angrily. It was obviously Rhett's request, what kind of anger did he get at himself?But she still tried her best to keep herself calm. After all, this matter had nothing to do with herself and Rhett, so after thinking about it, she could only continue to ask insincerely.

"No, he never told me." This answer made Scarlett cry secretly, but the next sentence made her feel relieved immediately, "Besides, I don't care."

Scarlett was so excited that she almost said that was great, but she still ordered herself to calm down. If she said this, she would be in big trouble, and she couldn’t take children’s words seriously—she also felt that she was a little funny If you don’t count the words of others, then what’s the point of talking——she suppressed the mixed emotions of ecstasy and anxiety, and asked with a raised tone as much as possible: "How can you think so?" She felt that what she said was meaningful The level of questioning is more than "why", and the emotion is softer than "you are wrong to say that", and it can advance and retreat-it is a little hypocritical.

"Why can't I think that way?" Paul asked her seriously.

Scarlett was momentarily at a loss for words.The thinking of children is obviously not the same as that of adults. They always like to break the casserole and ask the end. Young people like Paul who are about to grow up are even more difficult to deal with. No one knows what they will do in the next second.She could hear the undisguised grievance and even anger in this sentence. Although it was not directed at her, it also made her feel embarrassed for the adult group she was in.It is full of accusations against the adult world's hypocritical game rules and ignoring children's true inner feelings. Even Scarlett, who has not been sorry for him, feels that he has the right to say this-but how does this make me continue?

"Because you really can't say that, even if you have the right." Before he had time to question the logic and true meaning of this sentence, Scarlett hurriedly continued to persuade her little cousin. "I know you have resentment and feel that your parents are sorry for you, but you can't say that, because you won't be able to be a real adult in this way. And—" Scarlett really hated Rhett, knowing that she She is not good at persuading people, so she has to entrust such a difficult task to her, which is fine, and she has to tell herself who his father is at the end, saying that he is not waiting to see her joke. Scarlett will never believe it. .Although she knew that Rhett could not play tricks on her in that situation, and even if there was a joke, he would not have the chance to see it, but Scarlett still couldn't get rid of the feeling that he was playing herself.

"I remember that you never seem to explain this kind of truth to others. What's wrong with you today?" What helped her out was the problem she had to solve in front of her. Although she felt uncomfortable, Scarlett still thanked him for his right attack. , since one doesn't know the truth and the other doesn't want to listen to the truth, let's say something more practical.

"What if your parents regret it now and want you to go back, and they are capable enough to make you live a better life and never have to depend on others? You don't think so?" Saying this to a child She also thinks it's inappropriate, but since Paul himself doesn't have the status of a child, it's better to treat him as an adult.

"I think money is the most useful thing in the world. I don't count on things that money can't buy. Now I really need money. The more the better, who wouldn't want to live a better life?" It was exactly the same as what Scarlett said when she and Rhett quarreled, but now she felt terrified when she heard the children say these things, and the sentence "I don't count on things that money can't buy" made her feel even more chilled Feeling pity for Paul, she didn't want to see the descendants of the Robillard family get into the eyes of money.This time she finally did not abandon her responsibility, and admitted Paul's identity in her heart.

"But you must know that things that cannot be bought with money are more important than money itself." Although Scarlett was preaching, she tried her best to adjust the language to be contagious, "No matter what time it is, don't forget this matter .People can only keep themselves from getting worse if they always have a thought about these things.”

"But I don't think it's a big deal if it turns bad. Why don't you care so much if you feel comfortable in your heart?" It's the same idea as her original one, but Scarlett feels uncomfortable when it comes from someone else's mouth. Although she is still the same as before, even if she knows where she is wrong, she has no time to change.

"Being comfortable for a while and being comfortable for a lifetime are two different things. You must know that if a person does too many bad things, even if others don't punish you, God forgives you, but one day you will feel regretful in your heart. People can't do bad things , just to prevent myself from regretting it in the future." This kind of statement is actually just putting yourself first, but it's just a better cover, and it won't cause any damage on the surface.But this is the only thing Scarlett can agree with from the bottom of her heart, and this is the only thing she can barely do. In fact, she thinks this is better. Although it is a bit selfish, it will not harm others, at least it is much better than hypocrisy.Admitting that you are bad is at least a little more real than not admitting that you are bad.

"Let's talk about the future, I always think about how to live in the future? Anyway, it doesn't make any difference if people die, go to hell and go to heaven." As expected of my cousin, he said three times in a row He said what he had said before, and completely blocked himself from having anything to say.Scarlett was angry at first, then amused, and before the conversation could make her sad, Paul turned on himself again.

"But you're right, if you only think about the present, you can't do it. After all, tomorrow will come. Tomorrow will become today, and today will become yesterday. One has to think about what one has done before, especially when one is old and can't do anything. time." Scarlett didn't know who was persuading whom, although Paul was in a daze, but he had a way of speaking.But this topic seems to be farther and farther away from her original purpose of coming to Paul.