Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter 38 Paul and Jack

"Where did you know so many things?" Scarlett asked Jack. He said that his family owns a pharmacy. Does anyone who owns a pharmacy have to learn how to write herbs better, otherwise no one would buy them? up?

"It's all in the book. If you read more, you will write." Jack answered very easily.

"Not necessarily." Rhett was attracted by their conversation, and put down the newspaper, "Some people have read a lot of books, but they are so stupid that they don't even know how to settle accounts."

Scarlett knew who he was talking about, so she didn't answer, but asked Jack: "What have you read?" Jack reported a long list of book titles, and Scarlett had never heard of any of them, but she still showed a sudden realization. Wang Zi said, "I see. I didn't expect you to read so many books."

"And I don't think I'm stupid." Reiter interjected in a strange way, "However, as long as people read a lot of books, they can write things naturally, such as 'Twelve Oaks', which is really good." Scarlett knew Rhett well, and she could already tell whether Rhett was sincerely praising him or blatantly criticizing him, so she was very surprised that Rhett would actually praise Ashley.

"So I think you should take a look, Scarlett." Rhett took the initiative to hand her the newspaper, and Scarlett took it, but didn't read it immediately, but put it aside on the grounds that she never read it .Rhett didn't say anything, and didn't continue to read the next story, but went out to check the herbs written by Jack.Scarlett offered to go with him, and he did not refuse.Seeing them go out the door arm in arm like ordinary couples, Jack smiled quietly from behind.

"Today's move was really dangerous. I was so nervous when I mentioned Mr. Ashley's name that I almost gave up. Fortunately, it turned out as I wanted, and the two of them finally found a common topic, which is a good thing." Let’s start. The only regret is that we only found what they all like, but not what they all hate, so I don’t know how long it will last. Tomorrow’s second move, Wade, Ella, Susie, it’s up to you.” Jack After writing today's results and tomorrow's plan, I breathed a sigh of relief, locked the diary, and prepared to go to bed, when the door that was originally closed was opened, and Paul's figure appeared in front of the door.His face was ill-looking and spiritless, but his brown eyes seemed to light up even his chestnut hair.Looking at him like this, Jack felt a little fear in his heart for some reason, but his tone was still calm: "Is there something wrong?" In the whole Tara, they had a tacit understanding and never called each other's names. "There is indeed something, I want to talk to you." Paul's usual carefree expression disappeared, and his whole face was rarely serious, and there was even some grievance and anger arising from it.Jack thought, it seems that he can't sleep well tonight.

?Still?????; You came to me and said you wanted to talk to me. I just expressed my opinion. Now that you don’t want me to say it, I won’t say it.It's late, you should be tired, go to rest. "As he said, he got up and was about to close the door, but his hand was stopped halfway.

"What I can't stand the most is your dead look of being indifferent to the world!" Paul grabbed his hand fiercely, as if trying to crush it with all his strength, but found that his strength was completely inadequate. Not useful.Jack's expression was still so calm, without any sign of pain.When Paul let go of his hand out of breath, Jack said lightly to him who was mixed with shame and indignation: "You have great strength, but you just use it in the wrong place." Paul was about to slap him in frustration, but his hand was easily released. When he stopped, he felt that his hand did not listen to him at all, as if it had been snatched away by the boy in front of him who was not as tall as him.How would he treat his hand? It doesn't need to be too complicated, it will break with a light pinch.Intense fear aroused his desire to flee.He threatened in a vicious tone: "Let go of me, or I will be rude to you." But the voice kept trembling, which naturally did not escape Jack's ears.He gave him a slight smile and let go of his hand.Just as Paul wanted to escape back to his room, he would definitely pay back the humiliation tenfold in the future, but his footsteps were stopped by Jack. "You just said that no one is willing to listen to what you say, but I can tell that everything you say is from the heart. Now that I have heard it, for the sake of fairness, let me tell you what is in my heart .Of course, it's up to you to decide whether to listen or not." He dropped his hand, making way for Paul.Paul glared at him, but his feet only moved a few steps and stopped moving.This guy is right, he has listened to what is in his heart, so what if he listens to what is in his heart now?He has always been the most fair, which made him feel that he has the capital to look down on those dishonest street gangsters, although it also made him suffer a lot.

"I didn't force you to say this. Tell me, I'll listen." He walked into Jack's room nonchalantly, sat on his chair generously, and looked at him contemptuously.

Jack didn't care, and he closed the door gently and walked in. Standing opposite him, looking at him quietly with black eyes, took a deep breath like diving, and unhurriedly narrated his life since birth. During the whole process of arriving in the United States, all the bitterness and sweetness that only he knew before flowed into Paul's ears with the air, making Paul's expression change from contempt to doubt to shock and concern, and finally to touch and shame.He never thought that the previous experience of this lovable and smooth person in front of him was so tortuous, several times more difficult than his life.He doesn't know his parents, but if he knows, it's better not to know; he is looked down upon by others, and he is directly trampled under; he is loved by no one, he only has to treat himself better.But he is so much better than him, he never let himself go, always looking for opportunities to survive, always willing to help others when he is able, never learning from being bad, never being as bad as him.

"I'm sorry, I, I blamed you." After hesitating for a long time, Paul apologized to Jack, "I shouldn't say that about you, I don't know anything, so..."

"You don't have to apologize." Jack said with a smile, "As you said, those who don't know are not guilty. In fact, I am like you, and no one would listen to me. You are the first one. Now both of us We exchanged our thoughts, so I think we can be friends." After speaking, he offered Paul a hand of reconciliation.Paul seemed hesitant, but he held it tightly.

"Now, you have told me what is in your heart, which means that you don't want to go on like this. In fact, you can change this situation. As long as you want, I can help you." After Paul let go, Jack suggested.

"Thank you for your kindness, but I don't want to be like that. I don't want to please others, and I don't want to change myself because of someone. Maybe you can do this, but I'm not you." His face became ugly again, until now he Still dismissive of Jack's elegant demeanor.

A cloud of unhappiness flashed across Jack's eyes, but he soon felt relieved: "You misunderstood. I don't want you to please others, nor do I want you to change yourself because of someone. I'm talking about changing this situation, but It’s not about changing you. You can completely let others accept you while maintaining your individuality. This is not to please others, but for yourself, to be better to yourself.” In order to enhance his persuasion, he added: “ The reason why you want others to listen to what you have to say is because you still want to get attention from others and then to be recognized, am I right?"

Paul seemed to be moved, but his tone was still hesitant: "What you said sounds reasonable, but can I do it?"

"How will you know if you don't try?" Jack chased after the victory, "If you decide that you can't do it before you start, then no one can help you; if you try, even if the result is not as good as you think, but you won't either. Sorry. Believe me, I have suffered a lot in this regard before, but I have accumulated a lot of experience because of it. I said that as long as you want, I can help you. More precisely, I can help you Learn how to help yourself."

"If so, I'm willing to give it a try." Paul finally made up his mind.

"Great, you have taken the first step, this is a good start, congratulations!" Jack's tone was also rarely excited, "Then from now on, for yourself, you can help me One thing?" He suddenly thought of his plan for tomorrow, if Paul participated, the chance of success would be higher.

"Do you want me to do things for you or for me? Isn't your calculation too good?" Paul's expression that had just calmed down became cautious again, as if Jack had woven a net, and he almost became a chicken without a head crashed into it.

"I didn't make it clear. Although I took the initiative to do this, it's not for me, but for my guardian and your guardian." Seeing Paul's curious expression, Jack knew the time was right, and whispered his first The plan for the next day told him.Paul looked very excited after hearing this and promised to cooperate fully.He didn't want to help others, but simply thought it was interesting, just like the pranks he used to do, but he didn't expect that pranks could also help people.He vaguely felt something new entering his body, bringing him a comfortable feeling he had never had before.Watching Paul's eyes light up in the dark, Jack knew he had succeeded.He knew that Paul's motive for agreeing at this time was not noble, but he would soon get used to this feeling, and then he would be willing to take the initiative to do good things.

"Doing good things is addictive, just like doing bad things is addictive, but the former is better than the latter." Jack thought, "Anyway, as long as you don't get misunderstood, even if others don't know, you still know you did it." Good things, every time I think about them, I will feel happy in my heart, that's enough; if it's bad things, even if others don't know, even if I feel excited at the time, and then want to repeat this feeling, I will regret it later, no matter sooner or later, there will be One day you will regret it. If you say this, I can understand what the Chinese often say, "Good will be rewarded with good, and evil will be rewarded with evil. It's not that there is no reward, but the time has not yet come." It seems that this is not entirely true. Bluffing."

After Paul left, Jack took out the notebook and reviewed it carefully out of prudence. After confirming that all the details of tomorrow's plan were correct, he breathed a sigh of relief, put the notebook back in its original place, and quietly Wait for the next day to come.

"Well, I'm actually not sleepy. I'll accompany you to talk about whatever you want." Jack smiled at him that would never get a response, but he was complaining in his heart.

"Don't put on an easy-going look to me, I won't accept you!" Paul suddenly became angry and yelled at him.

"Keep your voice down, everyone else is sleeping." Jack was not irritated or frightened by him, but the volume was deliberately lowered a lot. "If I offended you in any way, I apologize, I'm sorry."

"You really offended me, and I've disliked you since the first day I came here." Paul's tone was still vicious, but his voice was involuntarily lowered a lot. "You and I are just begging for food at other people's homes. Why are you so favored? Those little devils are all around you, and you can even intervene in the conversation of adults. I have to be a talking person." A blind man who is dumb and can see, is it just a pair of ears left on my whole body? Tell me, does everyone treat me as a fool and a burden and turn a blind eye to me? Why do they treat me like this? I did something wrong What? Up to now, I don’t even know who my parents are. I don’t even have a person who is willing to listen to what I have to say. I don’t even have a relative or a friend. But you are popular and liked by others. , Some people love others, even own a lot of money and land, right? Why are you so lucky, why am I so unlucky? Tell me clearly, why is this?" In the end, he He was already shouting, but his voice was hoarse during the voice-changing period, as ugly as glass being scratched by sand.Fortunately, his voice could not be sustained to a great extent, otherwise Jack would not be the only one suffering.

"I have never been favored, and no one spoils me at all. It's useless if you don't believe it. I just treat myself better when the situation is worse. It's that simple. In fact, no one wants you to be a dumb, blind, foolish burden, but you You don’t want to let others get close to you because you think so, so others isolate you, so you feel that others are unfair to you. If you always think about what you did wrong, in the end you can’t even do one right thing Can't do it anymore. Whatever you've been through before, it's all over,

if you are willing to……"

"You don't need to teach me!" Paul interrupted him roughly. "What are you, telling me what to do? What I want to do is my business. What does it have to do with you?"

"It really has nothing to do with me, and I didn't want to have anything to do with you." Jack's voice was still calm, "You came to me and said you wanted to talk to me, I just expressed my opinion, now you don't want to I said it, but I won't. It's late, you should be tired, go and rest." He got up and was about to close the door, but his hand was stopped halfway.

"What I can't stand the most is your dead look of being indifferent to the world!" Paul grabbed his hand fiercely, as if trying to crush it with all his strength, but found that his strength was completely inadequate. Not useful.Jack's expression was still so calm, without any sign of pain.When Paul let go of his hand out of breath, Jack said lightly to him who was mixed with shame and indignation: "You have great strength, but you just use it in the wrong place." Paul was about to slap him in frustration, but his hand was easily released. When he stopped, he felt that his hand did not listen to him at all, as if it had been snatched away by the boy in front of him who was not as tall as him.How would he treat his hand? It doesn't need to be too complicated, it will break with a light pinch.Intense fear aroused his desire to flee.He threatened in a vicious tone: "Let go of me, or I will be rude to you." But the voice kept trembling, which naturally did not escape Jack's ears.He gave him a slight smile and let go of his hand.Just as Paul wanted to escape back to his room, he would definitely pay back the humiliation tenfold in the future, but his footsteps were stopped by Jack. "You just said that no one is willing to listen to what you say, but I can tell that everything you say is from the heart. Now that I have heard it, for the sake of fairness, let me tell you what is in my heart .Of course, it's up to you to decide whether to listen or not." He dropped his hand, making way for Paul.Paul glared at him, but his feet only moved a few steps and stopped moving.This guy is right, he has listened to what is in his heart, so what if he listens to what is in his heart now?He has always been the most fair, which made him feel that he has the capital to look down on those dishonest street gangsters, although it also made him suffer a lot.

"I didn't force you to say this. Tell me, I'll listen." He walked into Jack's room nonchalantly, sat on his chair generously, and looked at him contemptuously.

Jack didn't care, and he closed the door gently and walked in. Standing opposite him, looking at him quietly with black eyes, took a deep breath like diving, and unhurriedly narrated his life since birth. During the whole process of arriving in the United States, all the bitterness and sweetness that only he knew before flowed into Paul's ears with the air, making Paul's expression change from contempt to doubt to shock and concern, and finally to touch and shame.He never thought that the previous experience of this lovable and smooth person in front of him was so tortuous, several times more difficult than his life.He doesn't know his parents, but if he knows, it's better not to know; he is looked down upon by others, and he is directly trampled under; he is loved by no one, he only has to treat himself better.But he is so much better than him, he never let himself go, always looking for opportunities to survive, always willing to help others when he is able, never learning from being bad, never being as bad as him.

"I'm sorry, I, I blamed you." After hesitating for a long time, Paul apologized to Jack, "I shouldn't say that about you, I don't know anything, so..."

"You don't have to apologize." Jack said with a smile, "As you said, those who don't know are not guilty. In fact, I am like you, and no one would listen to me. You are the first one. Now both of us We exchanged our thoughts, so I think we can be friends." After speaking, he offered Paul a hand of reconciliation.Paul seemed hesitant, but he held it tightly.

"Now, you have told me what is in your heart, which means that you don't want to go on like this. In fact, you can change this situation. As long as you want, I can help you." After Paul let go, Jack suggested.

"Thank you for your kindness, but I don't want to be like that. I don't want to please others, and I don't want to change myself because of someone. Maybe you can do this, but I'm not you." His face became ugly again, until now he Still dismissive of Jack's elegant demeanor.

A cloud of unhappiness flashed across Jack's eyes, but he soon felt relieved: "You misunderstood. I don't want you to please others, nor do I want you to change yourself because of someone. I'm talking about changing this situation, but It’s not about changing you. You can completely let others accept you while maintaining your individuality. This is not to please others, but for yourself, to be better to yourself.” In order to enhance his persuasion, he added: “ The reason why you want others to listen to what you have to say is because you still want to get attention from others and then to be recognized, am I right?"

Paul seemed to be moved, but his tone was still hesitant: "What you said sounds reasonable, but can I do it?"

"How will you know if you don't try?" Jack chased after the victory, "If you decide that you can't do it before you start, then no one can help you; if you try, even if the result is not as good as you think, but you won't either. Sorry. Believe me, I have suffered a lot in this regard before, but I have accumulated a lot of experience because of it. I said that as long as you want, I can help you. More precisely, I can help you Learn how to help yourself."

"If so, I'm willing to give it a try." Paul finally made up his mind.