Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter 39 Jack's plan

"Great, you have taken the first step, this is a good start, congratulations!" Jack's tone was also rarely excited, "Then from now on, for yourself, you can help me One thing?" He suddenly thought of his plan for tomorrow, if Paul participated, the chance of success would be higher.

"Do you want me to do things for you or for me? Isn't your calculation too good?" Paul's expression that had just calmed down became cautious again, as if Jack had woven a net, and he almost became a chicken without a head crashed into it.

"I didn't make it clear. Although I took the initiative to do this, it's not for me, but for my guardian and your guardian." Seeing Paul's curious expression, Jack knew the time was right, and whispered his first The plan for the next day told him.Paul looked very excited after hearing this and promised to cooperate fully.He didn't want to help others, but simply thought it was interesting, just like the pranks he used to do, but he didn't expect that pranks could also help people.He vaguely felt something new entering his body, bringing him a comfortable feeling he had never had before.Watching Paul's eyes light up in the dark, Jack knew he had succeeded.He knew that Paul's motive for agreeing at this time was not noble, but he would soon get used to this feeling, and then he would be willing to take the initiative to do good things.

"Doing good things is addictive, just like doing bad things is addictive, but the former is better than the latter." Jack thought, "Anyway, as long as you don't get misunderstood, even if others don't know, you still know you did it." Good things, every time I think about them, I will feel happy in my heart, that's enough; if it's bad things, even if others don't know, even if I feel excited at the time, and then want to repeat this feeling, I will regret it later, no matter sooner or later, there will be One day you will regret it. If you say this, I can understand what the Chinese often say, "Good will be rewarded with good, and evil will be rewarded with evil. It's not that there is no reward, but the time has not yet come." It seems that this is not entirely true. Bluffing."

After Paul left, Jack took out the notebook and reviewed it carefully out of prudence. After confirming that all the details of tomorrow's plan were correct, he breathed a sigh of relief, put the notebook back in its original place, and quietly Wait for the next day to come.

Scarlett was in a bad mood early this morning, not because of Rhett, but because of Suellen's three girls who had been nagging in her ears about buying a new storybook since early in the morning, so she couldn't even have breakfast. Did not eat well.Really, they are all so old, and they still pester people to tell them stories like three-year-old dolls. What's more annoying is that after listening to one is not enough, they have to tell two more.In the past, Wade and Ella were enough for her, but now the two of them are more sensible, and she has to take care of her children for her sister, and Suellen is about to give birth—she can't stop Will there be one less baby?Will was busy with work in the field again, and the servants were left in Atlanta by him. Why did he leave in such a hurry at that time, and only brought back one Abby, and all the others stayed on Peachtree Street.Abby took care of herself fairly well, but she had never taken care of a child at all, and besides, she was a girl not much younger than herself, and even if she wanted to, Scarlett was not at ease.Jack is a born king of children, but he is still a child, and he is still a boy, so he can't help her manage the three little girls all day long, and tell them a few stories at most-how can he tell so fast? The storybooks are all done—the rest is up to me.Rhett didn't even give himself a suggestion, didn't even bother to look on, went to see Jack's herbs early every morning-she did, but only that time-and Rhett took her hand when he went out. Let it go - she thinks what Jack said is too exaggerated, I don't know why he is so interested in them, and then look at the red land, then I don't know where to wander, so I can come back on time before dark , but she didn’t say where she went after she came back. With their current relationship, Scarlett didn’t dare to ask him at all, and it was probably nothing more than a place like a bar. Of course, Scarlett felt uncomfortable, but every time she saw him He still has to put on a smile, even if he doesn't respond to himself at all.She has scolded herself for being spineless more than once in her heart, but there is no better way to make their relationship go further. I really don't know how long this superficial calm can last.When Rhett agreed to stay, she said that she would go to the north in a few days. She didn't know how much time she had left. If she couldn't do anything before that day, I'm afraid she would never have another chance in the future.She even thought about stalking her like Rhett did when she pursued her back then, but in the end she didn't have the courage to implement it. After all, they are no longer the two people they were back then. If she really did this, Rhett might be satisfied She smiled mockingly at her stupidity, and then had even more reason to avoid her.She also thought about being nice to Paul, but she soon found out that it wouldn't work.Leaving aside whether Paul still hates her after being bitten by her, just look at Rhett's attitude towards Paul, you can know that he doesn't actually like this child, but just fulfilling his own responsibility, no matter how good she is to Paul It didn't work either.In Tara, except for Jack, who is relatively friendly to him, almost no one cares about him anymore. She feels a little pitiful for a child being treated like this, but she has no time to fulfill a mother's responsibility to him right now. problem has not been solved yet.

I never thought that loving someone would be so uneasy, this feeling is really uncomfortable, I have never felt such an uncomfortable feeling when I loved Ashley before.Scarlett wondered why she thought of Ashley, and thought she would never think of him again.But what surprised her even more was that she didn't feel any strange feeling at all, but her mood was calmed by thinking of him.She really doesn't love Ashley anymore, thinking of him is just a comparison with Rhett in front of her, he is a reference and nothing else.When I was with Ashley, I was never afraid, and I didn't have to bother to guess what he was thinking. He always gave her a sense of peace of mind.But Rhett is different. She had never been able to figure out what his heart was thinking before, and she still couldn't understand his thoughts after she found that she fell in love with him. It is possible to understand him, and he has indeed done so, but he seems to have realized something. Since he reminded himself to be careful of Landria, they have never communicated in depth.He didn't want her to understand himself, why?Doesn't he still believe her? Is he still afraid that he will look down on him after he understands his thoughts? How is this possible?She obviously loves him, and she is willing to treat him well, as long as he returns to her, she will pay whatever price.But why doesn't he understand her heart, how can she let him understand her love?Even if he doesn't love herself anymore, this thought makes her heartbroken, but she still orders herself to think about it, even if he doesn't love herself anymore, she has told her more than once, but why is he still with her? Together, you are still willing to comfort yourself, but you are so indifferent to yourself afterwards?Thinking of this level, his words suddenly appeared, what did he say to her, "Since I can enjoy such a wonderful drama and the protagonist's performance is so hard, why should I not do it?" Could it be that he was acting with her, but she put all her feelings into it, and he has been performing with a gentle mask?Could this guy have been torturing himself with his love, hanging her heart in the air like a steel wire, going up to tease her from time to time, giving her a little hope, and then torturing her with indifference?He is the most reciprocated person. Scarlett knew this before, but she never thought that he would use such cruel means to get justice from her. Could it be that her love for him is to let him Is it such a waste?This damned bastard, scoundrel who deserves to go to hell, why does he treat her like this, why does he think he can do whatever he wants, why... She immediately stopped her anger again, and a huge desolation filled her heart: she has no right to do this Blame him, he has every right to do that to her.He has loved her for more than ten years, and she has hurt him for more than ten years. She has never been clear about these injuries in her whole life, and she has no words to say how he treats her.She never owed anyone but Rhett the creditor.

"He can treat me as he likes." Rhett had left the restaurant and went outside, and Scarlett sat alone reflecting.She didn't know how much emotion Rhett saw when she was in a daze just now, but she didn't care, "This is what I owe him, and I will never pay it back. The money can be paid back, but some things can't. One point is one point, as long as he is happy, I don’t care what I do. Even if he doesn’t love me anymore, even if he hates me to the bone now, I’m still willing to let him hate me, because I still don’t know his feelings, just like his Said, I have to carry the cross for the rest of my life, but I still have to pay it back, because I still love him, because I have always loved him. Falling in love with someone who doesn’t love me anymore, maybe it’s God who spoiled me who loves me I have to bear the punishment of human feelings, even if I can't stand it in the end, I have to bear it, because loving someone is not fair, that's it." She finally sorted out her complicated thoughts, feeling depressed The feeling finally disappeared, but it was not easy, just like her dream, she was running in the fog, the fog cleared, but there was darkness in front of her eyes, only this time, Rhett would not come, she could only face it alone .Now her love has nothing to do with whether Rhett loves her or not, she is only loving for her own heart.She couldn't stop this love, couldn't lie to herself that Rhett didn't love her so she didn't have to love him anymore, that she wasn't her, that was just a coward, a self-deluded fool, not Scarlett O'Hara.