stalker

"I don't want to be a homosexual either, but I can't change it." Yu Ling loosened his tie. "From the day I knew I was different, I was afraid to do anything that might be found to be homosexual."

It's late at night, and it's pitch black outside, only Shao Yiran's place is bright.

"When I was in college and separated from my parents, I really started to face my own heart and try to have sex with men."

Shao Yiran listened quietly with his head down, his hands on both sides of his body, his body tensed.

"Later, I got a job and met more people of the same kind who entered this circle," he chuckled, "and then gradually sank into this circle, not seeking love but lust."

"Senior, it's too late today." The more he said the words, the more he felt worried, Shao Yiran felt something was wrong, he wanted to stop it but Yu Ling didn't stop.

"Listen to me, okay?" Yu Ling stroked Shao Yiran's head and smiled, his words were gentle but undeniable.

Shao Yiran wanted to retreat, but there was no space behind him, he wanted to push away but Yu Ling bullied him, he forced a smile, extremely blunt, "Senior, I know I feel uncomfortable, rest well at this late hour, rest well Only in a good mood."

Yu Ling didn't move, his fingers slid from Shao Yiran's head to Shao Yiran's forehead, "I'm very sober now, and I want to say everything while I'm sober, otherwise I won't have a chance in the future."

Yu Ling's eyes looked at Shao Yiran, but Shao Yiran avoided his eyes, lowered his head, and did not respond.

Yu Ling smiled bitterly, "Some people's love always comes later than ordinary people, and they don't know how to love before the real love comes, so it is absurd, so presumptuous, because of absurdity, because of presumptuousness, they miss a lot, and when the time comes, they will regret it." And," he slid his finger to Shao Yiran's chin and gently raised it, "is this kind of person worthy of pursuing true love?"

Only then did Shao Yiran open his eyes and met Yu Ling, the two looked at each other, Yu Ling was about to blurt out his confession, Shao Yiran finally said, "It's not a question of whether you deserve it, but whether you are that person's true love question."

Yu Ling stared at Shao Yiran closely, and exerted strength with his hands, "Then what about me?"

Shao Yiran smiled, "What do you think?"

Yu Ling's throat moved, "I don't know, I want to hear from you."

Shao Yiran didn't hesitate, "No."

Yu Ling's hand tightened and loosened, loosened and tightened again, Shao Yiran's chin was pinched with fingerprints, "Why!" He gritted his teeth with hatred.

Shao Yiran moved his finger away and rubbed his chin, "Senior, why bother with this, you also said that everyone meets true love later than ordinary people, true love is mutual, the one you meet now It may not be true love, he doesn't cherish you, why should you cherish him."

Yu Ling stood up, with his back to the light, unable to see his expression clearly, only heard his voice resounding in the silent room, "In short, it's just that I love him, and he doesn't love me."

After a pause for a few seconds, he sneered, "After nearly 30 years of chaos, I still come and go between love and love. People, I can't escape this circle."

"Yes, I can't escape." Shao Yiran breathed a sigh of relief as the distance between the two opened up.

Yu Ling put on his glasses and looked gentle and friendly again, as if nothing happened just now, "I'm thirsty, can you pour me a glass of water?"

Shao Yiran nodded, and got up quickly. He felt depressed when he was with Yu Ling, which made him uncomfortable.

Shao Yiran went to fetch water, Yu Ling sat alone on the sofa, his eyes followed Shao Yiran.

Shao Yiran was still wearing yesterday's clothes, and he took off his coat when he entered the door. Under the bright white light, he could see the skin inside through the white shirt from behind.Shao Yiran's skin is very fair, and different skin colors can be seen clearly. He stared at Shao Yiran's back, and the patches of bruises on his back could be vaguely seen, but this was enough.

But he still didn't give up, his eyes moved upwards along the back, and he saw the neck with his breasts exposed. There were no obvious marks on the neck, but as Shao Yiran lowered his waist to catch the water and pulled down the collar, a piece of skin on the back was exposed, A small piece of skin, a little bit of red marks, he can imagine the intensity of the two of them just by looking at it.

He was late, the junior he liked already belonged to someone else.

"Senior, drink water." Shao Yiran waited for a few minutes because he had to wait for the water to boil. Yu Ling picked up the water on the table. The temperature was just right, and it was mixed with cold water. He was caring, gentle, handsome, and wise. However, it is someone else's. Even though he has passed the age of youth and vitality, he can't let it go and wants to snatch it.

The water was very suitable. He drank it in one gulp. After drinking it, he seemed to be a different person. The corners of his mouth turned up, "Do you think Wu Qing is your true love?"

Shao Yiran froze for a moment, then returned to normal, "This is between me and him, as long as we understand each other."

"Then do you understand?" Yu Ling was aggressive.

Shao Yiran frowned. Being asked about his personal relationship like this, he felt like being peeped at. He instinctively didn't want to answer, so he prevaricated, "Understood, he is my true love."

"How do you know he is? Without comparison, you don't know what love is. Are you sure it's not your own illusion?"

"Senior!" Shao Yiran was angry, and Yu Ling touched his bottom line more and more.

"Don't be angry." Yu Ling didn't seem to feel his anger. "Only by comparing can you know whether it is right or not. Are you right? This is the first time you even fell in love."

If he hadn't cared about the relationship between senior and junior, he would have turned against Yu Ling, but Yu Ling was in the final struggle at this time. He had no family affection, he needed the comfort and nourishment of love, he needed Shao Yiran, even if he wanted to rob him.

"Why don't you try it with me? Try it with me and compare it." Yu Ling grabbed Shao Yiran's arms and forced Shao Yiran to look at him, "I won't tell Wu Qing, with two people, Which one is better?" He is confident that he can beat Wu Qing, as long as Shao Yiran gives him a chance.

Shao Yiran felt that Yu Ling was very strange at this time, and he was directly disgusted by the strangeness, and the sympathy just now was also exhausted by this disgust, "No, no need." He directly refused without the slightest hesitation.

"why?"

"There's no reason, I just don't want to." Shao Yiran got rid of Yu Ling, "It's so late, senior, go back quickly." He picked up Yu Ling's coat, and the meaning of seeing off the guests was obvious.

Yu Ling smiled miserably, his complexion pale, "I understand," he picked up his clothes and went out, Shao Yiran followed behind him, the door was not closed yet, he turned around, "I'm leaving the day after tomorrow, I'm afraid we won't see each other again We're here." Shao Yiran paused for a moment before closing the door, his almost desperate eyes flickered.

"Wait a minute." Shao Yiran entered the room, and Yu Ling stayed where he was, with hope.

Two minutes later, Shao Yiran came out, holding a glass box in his hand, which was a gift given to him by Yu Ling on the day he attended the party.

"Give it back to you, I don't like it."

Yu Ling didn't listen to what he was doing, and took the box. He watched Shao Yiran go back, and closed the door without looking at him again.He didn't know how he got back, and when he came back to his senses, he was already lying on the bed at home, looking at the ceiling, silently sad.

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Yu Ling is so miserable, I feel a little unbearable for the god horse puppet