[Comprehensive Writer] Lonely Hell

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———————The moment he sank, he saw a khaki hope and despair

Akutagawa Ryunosuke was walking aimlessly, the orange glow at dusk shone on half of his body, while the other half was in shadow.But no matter which side felt the slightest warmth, the wind passed through his hair, entangled in the black color that seemed to be irreversible no matter what.

One of his hands was hanging by his waist, and the other hand was pressed slightly below his neck. Most of the bystanders thought that this young man was ill, but who knew that the distance from his neck was less than half a centimeter. finger.

The slender and pale fingers that glowed like white porcelain were about to pinch the fragile neck.

Akutagawa shuttled through the crowd, his gaze wandering and lightly sweeping across the towering buildings around him, those black crystal-like pupils without any emotional fluctuations reflected this strange world filled with steel cages. world.

He was alone in the crowd.

The lungs were poured into the cold wind, as if someone was tearing the soft flesh with a knife, and the fishy-smelling blood foamed in the stomach, Akutagawa frowned slightly, he turned his head sideways, free His gaze slowly focused on the blurred figure reflected in the glass window.

The figure looked at him, his brows and eyes were blurry, but he seemed to have seen something unbelievable, and he took a step back in horror. The fingers that were originally on the collarbone slowly pressed upwards to his neck, in a gesture of choking his throat. Standing on the street blankly.

The body of the distorted figure swayed slightly, and he clearly felt that the surrounding air seemed to be continuously suppressed by the transparent glass towards him, as if to lock him in this hopeless transparent cage.

He clearly felt the increasing force on his neck, as if he was about to suffocate.

Who is strangling him?

Akutagawa Ryunosuke thought blankly, why didn't he feel pain?

The human figure on the glass window swayed, and the blurred facial features revealed a kind of pity and ridicule that seemed to be absent.

Ryunosuke Akutagawa stood in a daze outside the glass window of this closed shop, then turned around and fled towards the park with woods over there, at an extremely fast speed, as if he was being chased by some monster behind him. ran into the woods in the park.

Behind him, the figure shaking on the glass window disappeared in the blink of an eye.

The young man in black was panting, and his footsteps gradually slowed down. He looked up and looked around, full of dark green trees.It seems... lost, Akutagawa Ryunosuke suddenly thought, and then he recalled the stupid thing he did a few minutes ago, and slowly smiled wryly.

The most important imprint of a person is neither identity nor longevity, but all the memories he has experienced.Is he still Akutagawa Ryunosuke at this moment?Akutagawa Ryunosuke can't be sure, the past of the Taisho and Showa eras is vivid in his memory, but this torso gives him scattered fragments of memory, although he is indifferent like a bystander, but those "new" memories cannot be denied Like a branding iron, it imprinted a crimson brand on his brain.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke is an evil spirit under Rashomon. This fact that he is most unwilling to admit is nakedly displayed in front of him, and the pain spreading from the bottom of his heart freezes all his blood.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke raised his head in a daze, staring at the half-sinking golden color of the sky, at some point he had walked out of the woods and came to the calm lake.

The young man dragged himself slowly to the edge of the lake. At dusk, the slightly cool wind had blown a pool of ripples, and the water waves were shaking slightly. Through the surface of the water, one could clearly see the soft dancing of the aquatic plants below. Green body.

Akutagawa slowly knelt down by the lake, not caring that his pants were stained with fresh grass juice, he lowered his long eyelashes, and slowly watched the strange yet familiar figure reflected on the lake. The sadness and sorrow described in words robbed his whole mind.

This is not fair, Akutagawa Ryunosuke thought, he did not have any right to change the life trajectory of the original owner of this body, but there was another vague voice in his head clamoring that they were the same.

What is the same?

Akutagawa Ryunosuke was a little confused, his curled fingers stretched out gently, and slowly stretched forward, touching the icy lake water, and the figure on the lake surface that he could never grasp.

What reason does he have to excuse himself?Akutagawa Ryunosuke opened his mouth, and squeezed out a mocking laugh from his throat, and the moment he blurted out, he quickly evaporated into the air.

No matter in the past or now, this world has never given him any room to save him, the reality is still running, and the pain like ice is like a shadow.Fate made a big joke for him. The person who should have died was unexpectedly reborn, and even death, the only thing he could pin his hopes on, abandoned him.

An evil husband, evil son, evil person breathes fresh air in another world.

How ridiculous, how ironic.

The young man was kneeling by the lake, with his head bowed, his back still straight, but his hands on his knees tightened nervously, clutching the fabric on his trouser legs, twitching convulsively, his drooping black hair covered his All the expressions on his face were suppressed, only the fingers on his knees were trembling constantly.

The last ray of sunlight was completely hidden on the horizon, and the young man kneeling by the lake raised his head little by little, watching the shaking figures on the lake.He slowly raised the corners of his lips, without any joyful emotion, a tiny trace of sadness that had been suppressed for a long time but was finally able to be revealed in the clear black crystal-like eyes was deep and shallow in the dark sea in the eyes Float shallowly.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke has always been an egoist, he suddenly thought, this moment just showed this essence again.The branches of the woods not far away rustled, and a few faint crows rang out. The clouds floated quietly in the air as if they were stagnant. The sky far away was deep purple. From time to time, a few bright colored lights flashed by, and the faint voices of noisy people sounded in the young man's ears through the air.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke slowly closed his eyes, and slowly opened them again. He stood up from the grass and walked slowly into the lake water. When the water waves submerged his calves, he turned around and folded his arms Put it on your abdomen, and fall down quietly with your back facing the lake.

A piece of hazy light blue water, Akutagawa Ryunosuke opened his eyes, looked at the huge and cold bright moon in the sky through the water layer, the water waves pushed his body coldly and submerged him, and there seemed to be a few unclear shouts in a trance The sound came from the shore.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke moved his lips, and a faint sigh dissipated between his lips. He closed his eyes, and his consciousness sank into the gentle darkness.

There seemed to be something shimmering in the corner of the young man's eyes, melting silently into the icy water of the lake.

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感谢在2020-01-1216:28:14~2020-01-1622:32:07期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 11 bottles of Yohji; 10 bottles of "Colorful Painting Collection"; 2 bottles of Jingluke; 1 bottle of Mr. W;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!

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