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"He Yi, do you think... I am quite a waste?"

He Yi put down his chopsticks and looked up at him. He didn't answer rashly, but silently motioned him to continue.

The other party pretended to be listening patiently, but he was a little bit at a loss.

Chi Yang leaned on the sofa, and said after deliberation: "I just... don't like studying at all, and my temper is not good, like a gangster, just like what those teachers said, I don't have any skills when I get out of society, and I have to eat old... "

He wasn't sure why he was asking such a question.He has never been a person who worries about gains and losses, and he rarely doubts himself. He knows the answer to the question, maybe someone just needs to tell him firmly that you are not—to pull him back from the edge of the precipice.

Or pull down.

He Yi looked at him, he seemed to be hesitating, and after a long time, he picked up his chopsticks again, and didn't answer, just picked up a piece of sweet and sour tenderloin from his own bowl, and brought it to Chi Yang's mouth, with a calm expression: "Ah— —”

Chi Yang was taken aback for a moment, but he didn't realize it, he opened his mouth obediently, and only recovered after eating: "Why all of a sudden..."

You don’t need to ask, you know, it’s probably the “trick to coax your boyfriend” from somewhere... He Yi didn’t mean to explain, put down his chopsticks, with his usual calm expression, and said softly, “People don’t have only one side.”

Chi Yang didn't hear clearly: "What?"

"What I mean is," He Yi smiled ambiguously, as if it was not just for him, "everyone does not only have an absolutely good side or an absolutely bad side. Human nature is complicated, and every kind of Traits have their causes, and this cause is inevitable, and there is no need to escape, it is just a normal part of the growth process..."

He spoke very slowly, giving the other party enough leeway to refute - this is his usual speaking style, he will not rush to express his point of view, and accept anyone's rebuttal anytime and anywhere, but few people can open their mouths to refute him.

He paused, and continued: "For example, I have the side of "good character and learning" that most people agree with, because my family really pays attention to education, whether it is family rules and politeness or cultural literacy, but I also have extreme and lacking aspects. I will do things that are unreasonable and incomprehensible to most people, and I am so defensive that it is difficult to communicate with others, because my family is somewhat deformed, and the influence it brings to me is also abnormal...don't look at me like that, Like I said, there's no running away from it, I've been through this, I've become who I am, and if I want to continue living, I need to accept these qualities. I know it's hard, and I don't know how to do it. but……"

"Ok?"

"Chi Yang," He Yi looked into his eyes and said seriously, "At least from my standpoint, I can accept every side of you, and I am willing to accept more dark sides that may arise in your future. I can't define whether you are a... trash like you said, but at least in my eyes you are not, never have been."

This scene is actually very similar to the night they had a showdown together.

It is also such a calm, unscripted speech that seems to have been rehearsed countless times, every word is serious and sincere-but what He Yi wants to express is not just the literal meaning.

Chi Yang looked at him steadily, and after a few seconds, he still couldn't help laughing, and teased him with familiar words: "Are you always talking so obliquely..."

"Just like me, no matter what I am now or what I will become in the future, you will like me, right?"

He Yi looked at him and nodded.

"Understood." Chi Yang reached out and stroked his hair, and leaned back on the sofa in a more relaxed posture, "Next time, don't believe those tricks to coax boyfriends, just say what you want...you There are more strategies than those, and you are very talented, so there is no need to learn."

He Yi opened his mouth, as if he wanted to refute, but in the end he didn't say anything - Chi Yang forcibly changed the subject before he could speak: "Oh, by the way, I'm going to talk to my mother tomorrow, I'm not at home during the day, you I have to stay alone."

This seems like a good thing.He Yi bent his eyes subconsciously when he heard the words, but he was still a little worried, and he thought about it: "Do you need me to accompany you..."

"No, let's eat your food," Chi Yang said, "Take it as if I didn't mention it today, don't worry about what you have... I just want you to relax and be happy every day, understand? .”

There was no one in the restaurant at 10:30, and there was no need to book a box in advance. Before Chi Yang came, he ate a bowl of instant noodles very poorly, and he didn't think he could eat in front of the big and small faces. The menu was pushed in front of his biological mother, without looking at it, he said, "Order what you want, I won't pay for it."

After all, this place can be regarded as a wealthy area, and it is in the city center, so the prices of dishes in any restaurant are not cheap.The woman took it and looked at it, with a complicated expression: "It's still not, it's not time for meal, and I'm not hungry..."

The little girl sitting next to her didn't buy it, she pointed at the exquisite food pictures on the menu and pouted: "Mom, I want to eat this!"

"No," the woman looked at her in embarrassment, then glanced at Chi Yang, lowered her head and coaxed, "Children can't eat this, it's unhealthy, mommy will go back and cook braised pork for you, okay? Be good..."

He doesn't know if it's healthy or not, but it's expensive.Chi Yang didn't bother to intervene, and lowered his hair to hear the news - anyway, this restaurant charges an hourly fee for the private rooms, and no one will come to remind you if you don't order food.

I don't know what's the point of bringing a little girl here, to gain sympathy.

When the little girl calmed down, the woman's hair was already a little messy.She breathed a sigh of relief, looked up at Chi Yang, looked at his face and said carefully, "Xiao Yang, you're here, let's have a good chat, shall we..."

"Is there anything to talk about?" Chi Yang leaned back on the chair with a cold expression, "I'm too lazy to talk, I just called you here today and just say a word, don't look for me in the future, it's meaningless."

It's absurd to say that he has lived for nearly 20 years and has seen his biological mother a lot, and no one even knows her name—and he doesn't bother to find out.

It can be seen that a woman should have outstanding looks when she was young. Until now, she is 40 to [-] years old and has given birth to two children. She can still look like a beauty with light makeup and a skirt. It's like he's the only one with nowhere to go.

It's a pity that the person is not right... He was thinking eccentrically, if He Yi looked at him like this, he would surrender in less than three seconds and take whatever he wants.

"Xiao Yang," the woman's hand unconsciously gripped the hem of the skirt, "at least it's a mother-child relationship. I've never begged anyone in my life, so I beg you as a mother. This time, just this time..."

He really underestimated the other party, and actually thought that calling him out and having a face-to-face chat would solve the problem.Chi Yang smiled inexplicably, pushed the chair and stood up: "Okay, mother and child, what have you done to make you have such a face, now come and beg me."

After all, he is tall, has a fierce appearance, and has no warmth when he smiles. It is easy to make people feel timid when looking down at others from a high position.Seeing that the other party couldn't answer, he suppressed his smile, and added another sentence with a blank face: "Except for giving birth to me and wanting to change my name - I haven't changed it yet - what else have you done for me, say If you come out with one piece, I promise you that I will give you whatever you want."

The answer is well known to each other.He didn't like to get angry in public, and he wasn't interested in scaring women and children. He just saw the other party's hesitant expression and couldn't suppress the anger in his heart. He subconsciously picked up the water glass and drank it down, then put it back heavily.

The little girl—his half-sister by blood was taken aback by fright, and her mouth was puckered and she sobbed silently.

That familiar feeling slowly enveloped him again, grabbing him—even though his emotions were uncontrollable, he looked at him calmly and even indifferently like a bystander. Explore why.

The last time this happened was before he dated He Yi, when he met an "old friend" from the orphanage at a night snack stand, and he started a fight.

He even heard a hallucinatory knock on the door in the empty tinnitus.

—and then someone gave him a hand.

"Why are you here?" He recovered from the bewildered state of numbness for a moment, frowned and met He Yi's calm gaze, his tone was still somewhat unkind, "Didn't I tell you not to come? "

He Yi glanced at him, rarely did not answer, let go of the hand holding him, and patted Chi Yang lightly where Chi's mother couldn't see.

His eyes were clearly calm, and his black jade-like eyes looked up at him from bottom to top, but for some reason there was a hint of cold warning.

"Auntie," he walked in front of Chi Yang, blocked him calmly, turned to the woman and said politely, "Don't let the children watch the adult's affairs. When I was young, I often saw my parents quarreling, and even now I often have nightmares." ... Well, let me introduce myself, my name is He Yi, I am Chi Yang's classmate, and also the monitor of their class, Chi Yang has a special personality, I am worried that you may have disputes when communicating, so come and have a look."

After listening to his words, the woman frowned, and cast a grateful look at him as if seeing a savior: "He Yi...Xiao Yi, then you can help Auntie persuade him, so let's sit down and have a good chat. Let's talk about it..."

The reason He Yi gave was actually very far-fetched, but it did give the other party the illusion that there was room for maneuver.

He smiled politely, and said in a gentle tone, "This is a family matter between you and Chi Yang, so it's inconvenient for me to get involved... But, like I said just now, it's better not to let the children be present when talking about these issues .”

"Then you mean..."

"It's getting late. If you want to continue chatting with Chi Yang, I can take your daughter to lunch first." He Yi walked up to her and bent down. He gently touched the little girl's face and took her place. Wiping her tears, she coaxed gently, "Stop crying, good boy... Come on, tell brother, what's your name?"

The little girl looked at him sobbing, as if she had found some sense of security from this harmless-looking, gentle-spoken brother, and replied vaguely: "My name is Zheng Die, the butterfly of the butterfly..."

He actually doesn't know what Chi Yang's mother's name is—even Chi Yang himself may not know, the only impression is that her WeChat name is "Kite".The woman named "Kite" sized him up for a moment, as if she was considering the feasibility of handing over the child to a stranger, until she caught sight of Chi Yang's impatient eyes from the corner of her eye, she finally nodded: "Well, I'll trouble you ..."

"Well, don't worry, I'll take good care of her... I'm in the same class as Chi Yang, if something goes wrong, you can be held accountable to the end," He Yi squatted down, and at eye level with the little girl, asked gently , "My brother will take you to dinner, eat strawberry cake, okay?"

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