accompany me

"It's a bit far away, in the suburbs... Actually, I can't remember exactly where it is. I just remember that it's at the terminal station. I can only take the bus. If I feel uncomfortable, I can sleep for a while, huh?"

He Yi shook his head, his face turned pale.After growing up, he rarely gets motion sickness, but the old road is not easy to drive, and the shock absorption of the bus is far inferior to that of a private car, so he feels dizzy after sitting for a long time.

The air conditioner was turned on in the car, and the closed environment was filled with a complex and breathless smell.He Yi opened the first window to ventilate, and closed it again considering the woman sitting in the front row with a young child in her arms. He could only lower his head and close his eyes to rest, curled up in his large down jacket, and forced himself to think about other things.

In a trance, someone touched his forehead, and then moved upwards to stroke his hair in a comforting way-the small and noisy voices in the carriage suddenly went away, and the ear suddenly became quiet.

Chi Yang plugged in the earphones for him.

"Listen to the nursery rhyme for a while." He lightly rubbed He Yi's ear, "Come here, lean on me."

His original intention was to let He Yi sleep on his shoulder for a while, but the other party obviously misunderstood, looked up at him in a little confusion, and then pointed to his legs: "It will be very tired."

It can also be used on the pillow legs. Anyway, they sit last, and no one can see it.So Chi Yang would make the wrong mistake, put his arms around his shoulders and pressed him to his side, and said softly: "I'm not tired, you're the only one who weighs. Hurry up, there's a mountain road ahead again."

There was a piece of soothing light music in the earphones, which seemed to have the sea breeze and the singing of gulls, which slightly relieved his breathless depression.He Yi hesitated for a moment, but still accepted the arrangement, and lay down on Chi Yang's lap while leaning on the seat.

The space between the car seats is narrow, and this posture is still a bit forced for him, so he can only curl up to make each other as comfortable as possible.Chi Yang was wearing a peaked cap today, so he took it off and placed it on his head to protect him from the wind from the heating unit.

"Close your eyes, and lie down for a while if you can't sleep." The other party's arms circled him, and he could feel the tense forearm muscles through his clothes, which made people feel at ease for no reason.

He Yi gave a low "hmm", didn't know if he heard it, but raised his hand after a while, as if he was afraid that he would let go and leave, he restrainedly grabbed his forearm.

"Go to sleep." Chi Yang's heart softened because of his action, and his tone subconsciously softened, "I won't go."

He Yi rested on Chi Yang's lap, with a gleam of clarity from his defensive instincts, but his thoughts sank uncontrollably. He felt vague bumps and complex smells from afar, and had a short and chaotic dream.

He even knew it was a dream—in the dream he was less than half his current size, wearing a finely tailored white shirt and black overalls, holding a heavy black umbrella that didn't match his body shape, standing far away from the noisy crowd outside.

There was dazzling light and shadow in front of him, but he stood in the darkness, refusing to take a step forward.

He saw his parents coming together, and as if he didn't see him, he passed him straight, walking towards the cloudy light that was so bright that people were shocked.

His mother was holding her husband's arm, she was wearing a beautiful and elegant long dress, she was looking up and saying something, he couldn't see the woman's face clearly, but for some reason he knew that she had put on flower-like makeup, spring flowers in March and April, Bright and moving.

His father, on the other hand, was dressed in a suit, lowered his head slightly, listened to his wife's laughing words, occasionally echoed a gentlemanly sentence, and raised his hand to straighten her slipping temple hair.

This was a scene of harmony and happiness that he didn't even dare to imagine in his dreams.

He opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound, he could only stand there silently, watching them drift away, their backs melted into the blurred white light, and walked out of his sight.

So more and more people came towards him, passed him, and walked towards the world that he couldn't see clearly or understand - there was even Chi Yang's mother whom he had seen in it.

The woman named "Kite" wore a white skirt and a white cloth apron with floral patterns, her long hair was tied up in a loose bun, holding her little daughter in one hand and her husband's in the other, walking away talking and laughing. passed him.

It was a kite holding a string, floating leisurely into the distance.

Then there was Chi Yang.

In fact, he had never seen Chi Yang like this before. He was wearing a black sweater with exaggerated patterns, the hood covered half of his face, and his long but uncut hair. Only the lower half of his expressionless face was exposed, with a cigarette in his mouth. , is a sweet and astringent mint flavor, the earphone cord hangs dangling down, not in the pocket.

When he really knew Chi Yang, this person had already started to wear harmless light-colored clothes, covered himself with loose and soft skin, and blended in with most normal people—but this person had a past that he would never be able to empathize with , hidden in the years of scars on his body, there are also earphones that are rarely taken off, and the bad habit of smoking and drinking that I don't know when I got caught.

"Are you going too..." He wanted to ask, but he couldn't make a sound. He could only stand there silently, watching the other party pass by him and walk towards the white light.

——In most of his dreams, he is just a bystander who can't participate and can't speak.

But Chi Yang seemed to have heard his words, and before walking into the ball of light, he stopped suddenly, turned around, looked at him——then stretched out his hand to him: "Come here."

He Yi stood in the shadow, looked at him steadily, and shook his head.

No, just like his seemingly happy parents before, if he walks forward, he will only step into a more terrifying darkness that is beyond redemption.

He wanted to tell Chi Yang, "Come back soon, don't go any further", but he couldn't speak, so he could only look at him from a distance like this - the other party looked down at him like that, with a height of a few centimeters Cha has never been so real before. The wolf-like aggressive gaze makes him a little startled, but he dare not look away.

Don't go any further, he thought.

In the next second, he heard the other party's voice with a smile—the other party withdrew his hand, and really walked towards him step by step, running against the distant light, and walked into the dark shadow in front of his eyes.

"I don't want to go," he heard Chi Yang say, "Then I won't go, anyway, no matter where you are, I will accompany you."

The white mist of the smoke tail rises little by little, enveloping him slowly, with a sweet minty smell but not at all, more like the smell of laundry detergent at Chi Yang's house, clean and gentle, making people feel close.

He sniffed the smell greedily, nodded, and before he had time to say anything, he saw the world in front of him bump up suddenly, and the ball of white light collapsed and swelled rapidly, making him unable to open his eyes. Surroundings surged, enveloping him airtightly.

--"elder brother?"

——"Wake up, it's here..."

The bus was parked in a dilapidated old station that was hardly seen to be still in operation. The driver had already left, and there were only the two of them left in the whole bus.

He Yi propped up his legs and stood up. He had already woken up quickly, but he couldn't tell the difference between dream and reality for a while. It was not until he saw the fluffy white coat on his body that he finally came back to his senses, and called his name in a low voice. .

"What's the matter?" Chi Yang straightened his sleepy hair and took off his earphones, "Are you still dizzy? Are you feeling better?"

Maybe it was because the car door was opened, the greasy and oppressive smell in the car also dissipated with the heating, and it was no longer so breathless.He Yi nodded, stood up, his voice was still hoarse: "It's nothing...get out of the car first."

When he got out of the car and saw the surrounding scene, He Yi had roughly guessed where it was - the last time he came here was more than ten years ago, he followed his father to visit the orphanage, and he also saw this abrupt day lily field, but At that time, it was early summer, and the flowering period was not over yet. The brilliant yellow bloomed to the brightest, but now it has withered.

"Walk over there, and you will be there after crossing a bridge." Chi Yang studied the navigation for a while, and found that the location of this area is very biased. It is more reliable to find the way manually from memory, "Do you remember where this is?"

Of course he remembered the place where they first met.

Someone seems to have said that couples can't walk side by side when they go out, they can't help holding each other's hands together when they touch each other's hands, and then they can't control it... Chi Yang has implemented this very well, when two people walk together, they only need to move around No one will naturally come to hold his hand until the second before he has to let go.

Like now.He led He Yi across the bridge and walked towards the back door of the old orphanage, feeling a little emotional: "There are still people in this place..."

In the early years, such "orphanages" and "shelters" that operated illegally were very common in the countryside. Most of them consisted of a few bungalows in a yard. The name of the orphanage accepts funding, and of course the living conditions cannot be good--where food and clothing are a problem, let alone education.

Chi Yang didn't take him in, and stopped a few steps away from the back door, but he could still smell the disgusting damp and rancid smell, mixed with the stench of mud, overflowing from between the rusty iron railings.

"I have escaped from here before," Chi Yang pointed to the back door, with a smile on his lips, but the words he said were heavy and distressing, "I was caught back, beaten up, and tied my hands to make an example... I They bit off a piece of flesh from the dean's arm, and they starved me for three days just for this."

He Yi took a breath of restraint, looked up at him, and tightened his hand calmly.

"I don't know why I brought you here. You've come all the way, and you'll have to suffer." Chi Yang paused, then added, "It stands to reason that you should be brought to see your parents..."

But I have no relatives, and I don’t have a childhood destination worth looking back at. The most precious memory in the first 20 years is meeting you—meeting here.

The scenery here is not good, the smell of rust is lingering, and even the sky is gloomy.

Chi Yang looked at the iron gate with mottled railings, and the familiar yet unfamiliar old bungalow at the other end of the iron gate, and said softly: "I want to show you here, this is the place that almost killed me, and it is also the place where you saved me. took my place."

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