After breaking up the engagement, Slag Gong is really sweet to White Swan

People often compare love to war, probably because love is the same as war, you always advance and retreat, one ebbs and the other. Only now does Shen Liangyue know that five years ago, they both became deserters in love.

Feelings are like water, flowing back and forth, dynamically circulating between two people. When He Mingfeng took a step back because of various concerns, he was still complacent because of his own reserve, and even tried to catch him. This made He Mingfeng even more unsure and hesitant. , and after Shen Liangyue felt his shaking, she also lost her sense of security and couldn't be honest with herself.

Once this vicious cycle occurs, they have no choice but to retreat step by step. Although they love each other, they push each other farther and farther away. Both of them are defeated on the battlefield of love. .

They were young and proud at that time, and no one wanted to love without dignity. If you gave love, you must get affirmative response, otherwise frustration would kill them half of their lives.Shen Liangyue once heard Chu Fei express his heart to He Mingfeng with his own ears, and he was deeply stimulated by this, not only because he saw their intimate behavior with his own eyes, but also because Shen Liangyue would never be able to say these words if he could not be sure that He Mingfeng loved him.

Would everything have been different if he had said "I love you" that year instead of saying "I really loved you then" five years later?

Maybe just like what He Mingfeng said, he shouldn't put his dignity above their feelings, or maybe Shen Liangyue's love at that time was also not sensible and mature enough.

In the past few years, Shen Liangyue has sometimes reflected on this relationship, and it seems that He Mingfeng is the same. His words sound absurd at first glance, but when you think about it carefully, it is not unreasonable—probably life is absurd, so it cannot be said. Predictable, unpredictable, everyone has emotions and impulses, and when the mind turns, it will do many unreasonable things.

That failed relationship largely made them who they are today, especially He Mingfeng. Omegas are naturally more emotionally aware than alphas, and most alphas can't manage their bodies and minds well. They are easily seduced and live by instinct. Just like when Shen Liangyue repeatedly questioned He Mingfeng's emotional choices, alphas can only be confused He answered "I don't know" in confusion. He was wrapped in love, sex, affection, and pheromones, and he couldn't tell the difference like a blind man.In the past five years, he finally began to reflect on himself because of the loss and pain, and after peeling off his instinct layer by layer, he just saw

See blood dripping sincerity.

Feelings are something that can only be done without hesitation if it is clearly recognized, otherwise it will be vacillating if it is slightly unsatisfactory.Whether it's ridiculous or not, this confession allowed Shen Liangyue to hear He Mingfeng's understanding of feelings. Five years ago, they couldn't have such a conversation, because Alpha had never thought deeply about these "twists and turns, details", this kind of thinking In itself, it is already valuable.

Shen Liangyue does not deny that there may be a perfect alpha in the world, who has extraordinary emotional sensibility, knows love without a teacher, is firm and has a sense of responsibility, and it is extremely lucky to be loved by such an alpha.But the alpha he loved was emotionally clumsy and absurd, like a poor student who couldn't teach at all, so when He Mingfeng handed over such an answer sheet that could be seen at a glance that he had put in a lot of hard work, Shen Liangyue still felt that What he did back then was stupid and hurtful, and he had to admit that he was working hard and regretting it.

The person He Mingfeng loves has always been him, and he only has subtle empathy and superficial affection for others. Can this give Shen Liangyue some comfort?Maybe a little bit, but it also added to his regret and heartbreak.They are clearly in love, but they have made trouble like this, so what is the suffering and pain he endured night after night smelling the smell of rotting roses?What is that innocent child? !

If it was a child who was not loved and expected, Shen Liangyue could still tell herself that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, but now He Mingfeng knelt on the ground and told him that in fact, he has always loved him, and their relationship may be revived, but that The child can never come back to life.

How could Shen Liangyue not blame He Mingfeng?

He felt that his mind was like a swinging pendulum, floating over when He Mingfeng hugged him tightly, swinging over in distress when he was on the shooting range, floating over when stroking Alpha's hair and seeing the gray hair roots , but slumped back when thinking of the child...

Uncertain mind made Shen Liangyue sleep restless, a heart was thrown up and down in the dream, for a while he dreamed of holding a four or five year old boy, and for a while the thing he was holding in his hand suddenly turned into a ball again Indistinct flesh and blood.After being forced into estrus by drugs, she was frightened, and suppressed her body's reaction with inhibitors. Two days of continuous travel and two nights of extremely restless sleep caused Shen Liangyue, who was already physically weak, to have a high fever in the morning.

He Mingfeng finally broke free from the darkness and woke up. Sleeping pills and muscle relaxants hindered his judgment. He didn't know whether the feeling last night was a dream or real.he's in a daze

Looking around, everything was the same as before he fell asleep, and there was no clue that someone had been there.

Uneasy, he got out of bed to wash up, and before going to the office, he mustered up the courage to knock on Shen Liangyue's door.Has he ever been here?Did he believe what he said?He Mingfeng was anxious and worried, but after a long time, no one came to open the door for him.

He Mingfeng's heart suddenly tugged, Shen Liangyue didn't want to see him?Or something happened?He didn't care too much, ran back to the house and took out the spare key, even if he was scolded by Shen Liangyue, he had to make sure of his safety immediately.

"Liangyue, are you okay? Have you had breakfast?" He Mingfeng pushed open the door, stood at the door and said, "I came in, but there was no response when I knocked on your door. I'm very worried."

"...You should answer me anyway, if you don't want to see me, I'll leave now."

After waiting for a while, still no one said anything, He Mingfeng was sure something was wrong, and hurried into the bedroom, only to see Shen Liangyue lying on the bed with blushing cheeks, her body shivering non-stop, and she was unconscious from the fever!

Xueqiu stood by his side, rubbing his cold nose against his master's face, and let out a miserable cry when he saw He Mingfeng.

"Liangyue! Wake up, can you hear me?"

Shen Liangyue was dazed and didn't respond at all. He Mingfeng's heart seemed to be tightly pinched by someone. He hurriedly wrapped him tighter with the quilt, touched Shen Liangyue's hot cheeks with his hands, and tried to test the temperature with his forehead - just like When he was a child, he stood by Shen Liangyue's hospital bed, as he often did.

Shen Liangyue unconsciously rubbed against his slightly cool palm, and gave a soft moan comfortably. His fiery breath brushed against He Mingfeng's face, burning Alpha's skin like magma.He Mingfeng got up and put a cool towel on his forehead, and immediately called the secretary to ask him to buy anti-fever medicine. He Mingfeng remembered clearly what the most effective medicine was for Shen Liangyue since he was a child.

"The car that took you to the office has been parked downstairs and is ready to leave at any time. I can take care of the Duke..."

"I won't go to the office today," He Mingfeng interrupted him. "Bring all the documents here. I have to take care of him. When he is sick, he needs someone to accompany him. He also needs to drink porridge and listen to stories. He has many special things." Little habits, you don't know, and you can't take care of him well."

"...Okay." It's fine to drink porridge, what the hell is listening to stories!I wish the Marshal, who lived in the office all year round, was absent from work for the first time. Fortunately, there was no combat meeting today. The secretary sent documents and medicine, and he was happy to have a leisurely day.

He Mingfeng fed the pills and water into Shen Liangyue's mouth, and his lips overlapped, like a bitter kiss with the smell of medicine.He changed Shen Liangyue's cold towel every 15 minutes, and the towel was twisted very dry, because He Mingfeng remembered that Shen Liangyue said that he didn't like the wet touch, and if there were water droplets on his face, Shen Liangyue would feel very uncomfortable.He stuffed the snowball with a body temperature higher than that of a human into Shen Liangyue's bed, and hugged the cold omega tightly through the quilt, "I like you to accompany me with Snowball, it will be very warm." , He Mingfeng can still think of what he said, this kind of understanding has been accumulated for more than ten years, it is forged by the companionship from childhood to adulthood, and no one else can replace it.

Shen Liangyue fell into a coma for a long time, and the antipyretic medicine finally took effect, and he gradually woke up at noon.He Mingfeng was leaning on the bed, carefully soaking omega's dry lips with a wet cotton swab.

"You're awake, are you better?" He Mingfeng breathed a sigh of relief, leaned over to touch his forehead, and murmured: "It seems that it's not so hot anymore..."

For a moment, Shen Liangyue didn't know what was going on, this scene had happened many times when she was a child, so naturally he almost wanted to hug Alpha's neck and play like a baby in his brother's arms.

"These two days have exhausted you, do you want to drink water?" He Mingfeng helped him sit up halfway, "I have already asked the secretary to push off your schedule for the next few days, don't worry, you can go or not Face project, with me around, no one can say anything."

Shen Liangyue just drank half a glass of water with his hands, the water had a faint lemon flavor and the temperature was just right, everything he was most used to.Shen Liangyue felt that she should say something, but his throat was sore and his heart was numb, all the words were stuck in his throat.

"Do you want to go to the hospital?"

Shen Liangyue shook her head, he hated the white walls of the hospital, and would rather recuperate slowly at home.

"Then let's sleep for a while, okay?" He Mingfeng pulled the quilt for him, "How about some porridge at night? Your favorite chicken and vegetable porridge when you were young, I learned it from Mrs. Shen... It's the only one I have something that will do."

It may be because of the high body temperature or the fragility of the sick person, Shen Liangyue's eye sockets were a little hot, he lowered his eyes and nodded, then lay back on the bed weakly.

He Mingfeng sat on the head of his bed and watched for a while, then lightly changed a cold towel for him.Shen Liangyue closed her eyes and felt He Mingfeng kiss his forehead through the towel.

With a soft "click", the bedroom door was closed. Shen Liangyue raised her hand to touch the cool towel, and her heart began to wander uncontrollably again.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-07-2710:09:52~2020-07-2806:45:04期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who cast the landmines: Xingruyu, Shakeakee013, Yiwei, Fox at 1pm, [-] old city farewell snow;

Thank you to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 7 bottles of Ni Ni nickname, free flying flower light like a dream; 2 bottles of irritable rice; 1 bottle of little yellow duck;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!