don't you want me

If it could rot, Ling Ke hoped that that afternoon would be decomposed and melted by microorganisms, and disappear forever in his memory.

When he felt as if he was about to bite his teeth, he revealed his sexual orientation that he had buried for many years and never dared to tell his family, and he could only grasp the only straw to solve the huge hospital bill. He did not expect that he had always been indifferent Ru Liangshui's mother would say the word disgusting.

"You guys make me sick."

This sentence became a nightmare, maybe he jumped into Ling Kemeng to tease him.

Ling Ke went to his father's grave, and sat there for a day and a night when it was the most difficult time.

Only then did he realize that everything was wrong.His original self-blame, guilt and confusion turned into a joke in front of his father.

Li Shu was right, his father and son were so disgusting that he yelled at him.

Ling Ke never realized how huge a gap existed between his parents.He didn't know why they had no children, why they adopted him, and why the two who had been married for 20 years treated each other with respect every day.

Later he finally knew that his father, like him, was the kind of person his mother said made her sick.

For so many years, he had been careful to be a qualified adopted son, so that he was kicked out of the house when he finally went out of line once.

Ling Ke didn't dare to go back, and didn't even dare to mention it.He deluded himself into thinking that just letting them pass with time, as long as he didn't mention them again, he could pretend they never happened.

So, when Xia Shen proposed to go back, Ling Ke was dumbfounded.No, he doesn't want to go back, he can't go back.

"Ke Ke, Ke Ke?" Xia Shen was in a hurry, Ling Ke seemed to have fallen into a nightmare, breaking out in a cold sweat, and couldn't stop talking.

"Okay, we won't go back, we won't go back." Xia Shen kissed Ling Ke's ear, the corner of his mouth lightly, and gently pinched his cold hand with one hand, trying to comfort him.

At night, after Ling Ke fell asleep, Xia Shen went to the window and lit a cigarette.He bought this cigarette a long time ago when he had a cold war with Ling Ke. During that time, he couldn't sleep every night, and when he felt extremely uncomfortable, he thought of cigarettes.He quietly bought a pack, but seldom smoked it, so that after several months, there was still a lot left in a pack of cigarettes.

Tonight was the first time since the last insomnia that I had difficulty falling asleep.

He stood by the window and lit a cigarette, he knew that he should go outside, it would be easy to be discovered, but at this moment, he felt extremely strong and unbearable that he would not be able to see Ling Ke.

The cigarette in his hand was trembling, Xia Shen could hardly hold it back.After taking two long puffs, Xia Shen turned around and went into the bathroom, flushing the cigarette down the drain.

Xia Shen dialed Ren Xue's number, and it was morning over there.

After hanging up the phone, although Ren Xue was surprised, she was still happy that Xia Shen changed her mind temporarily.

Ling Ke regained his vigor the next day, Xia Shen saw him laughing heartlessly again, but felt sore in his heart, he thought it was him, who else could make him feel more distressed.

"Xia Shen, don't go back on your word, I'll book a ticket!" Ling Ke knew that Xia Shen would be so happy after agreeing to go to country B for the Chinese New Year, and hurried to grab the ticket.

"No need," Xia Shen pulled him back, "I've made an appointment with my aunt, I'll go in two days, we can play for more than half a month."

"Oh, Xia Shen, you are simply too virtuous." Ling Ke exaggeratedly kissed Xia Shen to express his praise.

Xia Shen smiled back, but there was a distress in that smile that Ling Ke couldn't easily detect.

Ling Ke resolutely didn't mention why Xia Shen suddenly changed his mind before, and carefully pretended it never happened.

Li Jin and the others may be right when they say that he has a talent for acting. He is so good at disguising that sometimes he can’t tell what’s real. He just puts away what he doesn’t want to see and what others don’t like. To the corner, became this happy Ling Ke.

And this happy Ling Ke never made him feel more distressed than at this moment.

Before going to Country B, without telling Ling Ke, Xia Shen quietly went to the house where they lived since childhood.His home has been taken into public ownership, and now it is someone else's home, but Ling Ke's home has not changed at all.In the past, Ling Ke would post couplets with Xia Shen before returning to his hometown during Chinese New Year, but after Ling Feng's accident, neither of them posted them again.

The door frame of Ling Ke's house was still empty, while the door frame on the opposite side was no longer his house, but there was still a red couplet that hadn't been torn off last year.

He stood at the door for a long time, knowing that Li Shu had come back from the outside.

He wanted to talk to her, but at this moment he felt that it didn't matter.There are some injuries that can no longer be healed, whether it is to her or to Ling Ke.

Li Shuhe hasn't changed much before, but his complexion is obviously not as good as it was a few years ago.

She didn't even look at Xia Shen, and walked around him to get the key to open the door.

When she entered the room and was about to close the door, Xia Shen said sorry to her back.

"But I still have to thank you. From now on, I will take good care of Ling Ke."

Xia Shen watched Li Shu close the door, turned and left.

Ling Ke knew that after Xia Shen found a psychiatrist for him, he resisted in every possible way, saying nothing to see him, if he hadn't been tricked into country B, he would definitely not have boarded the plane.

"I can't understand what he said. You know my English is not good."

"He is an immigrant, and he has no problem communicating in Chinese."

After exhausting the last excuse he could think of, Ling Ke was sent to the psychological counseling room with his head drooping.

This is a foreign country, and he doesn't know the language, so he doesn't know where to run.

After the interview, Xia Shen asked the doctor about the situation. The confidentiality of the psychological consultation was very strict, and the doctor didn't reveal too much, but said that Ling Ke was very resistant and the effect was not good.

Xia Shen declined the doctor's post-treatment plan. They couldn't stay here for too long, and it would be inconvenient for them to return home.Xia Shen glanced at the listless man stretched out on the chair. Most importantly, Ling Ke seemed to really hate this kind of treatment.

Xia Shen bid farewell to the doctor, and went over to rub Ling Ke's soft hair. His hair was a little long, and it looked softer and more comfortable to the touch.

"Hair should be cut."

"You can go?" Ling Ke raised his voice, and blew upwards on the sea of ​​water that was about to cover his eyes, and said dissatisfiedly, "It's not that the stylist said not to cut your hair, it will be convenient to do the styling after the new year, and now wash it I can't even dry my hair for half a day..."

Ling Ke babbled, and seemed to regain his energy immediately.

It was obvious that he was exhausted just now.

"Let's go." Xia Shen hugged Ling Ke's waist, and Ling Ke almost cried out in fright.

This is a corridor where people come and go, and two people passed by them just now.

"Restraint, everyone is here." Ling Ke elbowed Xia Shen.

Xia Shen smiled and kissed the corner of his mouth, "Are you afraid?"

"I'm afraid of a ghost," Ling Ke curled his lips, "I don't know who is trying to prevent me from making it public."

Xia Shen patted his head and pulled him away.

Xia Shen knew that Ling Ke only had one person in his heart, so no one could go in and heal him except him.

They only stayed in country B for three days, that is, the few days of the domestic year.The flavor of the new year abroad is not strong, but with the family, it can be regarded as a good year.

Afterwards, the two of them began to travel around the world, visiting all the countries around country B.

The originally planned 20 days was far from enough, so Ling Ke changed the ticket. The [-]-day vacation was changed to [-] days by his willfulness. After returning to China, he had to face Liu Su's monstrous anger.

Many countries in country B allow same-sex marriage.On a whim, Ling Ke wanted to drag Xia Shen to pull the marriage certificate, but Xia Shen, who had always pursued simplicity, felt it was too hasty.

"You really don't want to give me a chance to show off? You asked for the marriage, and you bought the ring. Do you need to worry about the marriage certificate?"

Ling Ke grinned, he didn't mind taking care of it himself, as long as people arrived, but since he could enjoy Xia Shen's service, he was also very happy.

"Don't make me wait too long." Ling Ke rarely reminded shyly.

After returning to China, Ling Ke became very busy, and he didn't even have time to support his movie box office.But the box office is really good, there is no shortage of his ticket.

It is rare for a netizen to express approval of a little fresh meat's acting skills. Although it is not the approval of some well-known film critics, Ling Ke is still very happy. He forgets when he is happy, and the miser spends money to invite hundreds of people he knows or not to watch the movie , After being exposed, it almost went on the hot search again.After suffering, Liu Su paid money to find connections later to suppress him.

Ling Ke asked the director for the original DVD, and watched the movie again with Xia Shen in the video room at home before Xia Shen went abroad.At the end, he didn't know whether it was because he was moved by the movie or because someone was leaving, Ling Ke felt relieved and boldly cried again.

Xia Shen sighed, held him in the video room for most of the night, and took him back to the bedroom until he fell asleep crying.

Ling Ke woke up halfway, and pestered Xia Shen to do something, saying that he was leaving soon, and he couldn't waste a day.

Xia Shen carried him into the bathroom and readily accepted the invitation.

Xia Shen went abroad at the end of February, and Ling Ke got involved in a new movie.

During filming, Ling Ke went to Country S. He was not too tired, but Xia Shen was so distressed that he ordered him to stay in the country until he returned to China during the summer vacation.

In July, Xia Shen went back to China and took people to country X to get their marriage certificates. A simple wedding was held in a forest park full of fireflies, and the number of people invited was pitiful.

In October, Ling Ke won the best supporting actor for his new movie. After discussing with Liu Su and the others, he embarked on the path of acting, specializing in acting, and the other messy announcements were reduced a lot.

When An Ji saw him again, he only said congratulations.

Ling Ke smiled shyly, knowing that the other party was not just a courtesy to him for winning the award, but also a congratulation to him for finally finding where he should go.

In January of the following year, Xia Shen returned to China, and the original idea was only now started to be carried out.

Ling Ke loosened ten flower baskets for Xia Shen's studio, which caused Xia Shen a lot of headaches, and he had to put them away carefully.

Ling Ke asked him with a smile on the phone if he was okay, Xia Shen looked at the flower basket that had been moved to his office, and said, "It can't be better."

At this moment, life has just begun.

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