After Transmigrating into Cannon Fodder White Moonlight [Transmigration Book]

"There are only 15 minutes left, so don't cry, let's talk?" the original owner said with a smile.

Ruan Miao also felt that she was worthless, so she raised her hand and silently wiped away her tears, "Okay."

The two sat side by side by the stream, the original owner slowly leaned over, leaned gently on Ruan Miao's shoulder, and whispered to him, "It would be great if you could come earlier..."

"If you had come earlier, I might not have given up on myself so early."

When he said this, he felt funny again, "No, if I don't give up on myself, you won't be able to come here."

Ruan Miao let him lean on her, and for some reason he had a strange calmness when facing him, "Actually, what you said is wrong, it's not that no one loves you in this world."

"Your mother actually cared about you very much, but she was also in pain, so the way of expressing it was wrong, but she always missed you and apologized before she died."

The young man leaning against him smiled, with some regret in his tone: "Really?"

"Unfortunately it's too late."

Ruan Miao's heart began to ache again when he heard his words, perhaps because they now share the same body, so they are the same mentally, and they can sense each other's emotional changes.

Under normal circumstances, who would be willing to give up their lives easily?But it's all because of being too tired.

"Don't be sad, I'm really not unwilling." The original owner said softly, "I'm different from you. I'm very selfish. In my grandmother's words, I have a cold nature. Sooner or later, everyone will betray me."

"In fact, I didn't care much about my mother. I might have expected something when I was a child, but when I grew up, I gradually knew her helplessness and pain, but I didn't care."

"I'm really not a good person. Probably no one can say hello to me except Xiaolu. I hated Jian Fanyu the first time I saw him. At that time, he was just like you, a very simple Kind young master, he follows Yan Yang all day long, everyone says he is good, but I hate him."

"My mother said I was jealous, maybe a little bit jealous." He said while playing with his fingers around his hair, and said heartlessly: "I just got close to Yan Yang on purpose, seeing that he was very angry but I am very happy that I have to bear it again."

"Am I perverted?"

Ruan Miao nodded hesitantly: "Very much."

The original owner covered his stomach and laughed, "Can't you be more tactful?"

"But it's strange, I hate all the guys who pretend to be nice, but I don't hate you." He sat up and moved in front of Ruan Miao, looked around and smiled: "Why are you so cute?"

Ruan Miao was embarrassed by him, and he found that he really couldn't keep up with the rhythm of the other party's conversation, and was always choked by him and didn't know what to say.

"So, you were the one who guided me in those dreams before?" He picked another topic to start, for fear that he would tease himself again.

The original owner snorted, "Otherwise? You are really stupid. I have hinted at you many times but failed to understand. I will bring you back to my past memories, so that I can meet you when I was young."

"Why?" Ruan Miao was puzzled.

The original owner rolled his eyes, "Can't I also want an angel brother to protect me?"

He was just trying to fulfill a childhood dream. He always wanted to have a reliable and gentle person who could protect him once, so he took Ruan Miao back to the past without hesitation.

Maybe this is the time loop. He really met Ruan Miao when he was a child, but he never thought that it was brought by his future self. In a sense, he himself created this coincidence.

Ruan Miao was silent, he regretted that he hadn't discovered all this earlier in his dream, if he could have done better, maybe the original owner would not have given up his life.

"What about Xiaolu? What do you think of him? He likes you so much, he should be the person who cares about you most in this world? Do you have the heart to leave him?"

When Xiaolu was mentioned, the original owner's eyes were a little dark: "How can I see it? I really never liked him. He is just a younger brother. Would you like your younger brother? Besides, he is not my type."

"That damn kid has a stubborn temper, he believes in whatever he is, and he has learned to be in love with others at a young age." He sighed softly, "I have no chance with him, if I still care about someone, He probably counts as one."

"It's just that I didn't expect him to be stubborn enough to hurt you. I apologize to you on his behalf."

Ruan Miao hurriedly waved her hands and shook her head: "It's okay, it's okay, this body is yours, you are the master, you are the master."

The original owner burst out laughing after hearing his words, and rolled on the ground indecently, "Hahahahahaha is also right, that bastard Xiaolu hurt my body!"

Ruan Miao watched him rolling all over the ground with black hair. He picked him up from the ground and said helplessly, "If you don't want to laugh, then don't laugh. I won't laugh at you if you cry a few times."

"You're talking nonsense, I've never cried." The original owner lay on top of him in a serious manner, "I haven't cried since I was ten years old, and I didn't cry when I was beaten by that dog Ye Ling in the toilet. crying."

Ruan Miao heard him talking about these things calmly, and hugged him gently: "It's okay, he won't hit you again in the future."

After being hugged by him, something flickered in the boy's eyes. He buried his face in Ruan Miao's shoulder and rubbed back and forth, took a deep breath and said, "I kind of know why even He Shangye, a humanoid machine I like you too, you are so nice."

"If only we could be in the same time and space at the same time, there's no such thing as Jane Fanyu."

"What are you talking about?" Ruan Miao couldn't hear what he was muttering, but felt itchy on his neck, and couldn't help moving his body back and forth.

"Can I ask you something?" After laying in his arms for a while, the boy raised his head and asked with some pleading: "When you go back, can you...don't pursue Xiaolu's behavior?"

"I know he's sorry for you, and I know that my behavior is a bit shameless, but...can you please let him go this time? Even for my sake, okay?"

Ruan Miao hadn't blamed Xiaolu at all, and it would be normal to think differently if he wanted to kill herself. After all, Xiaolu didn't understand anything, but felt that he was a robber who robbed his most important person, and it was reasonable to want him to disappear.

"Don't worry, I will definitely not pursue it." Ruan Miao asked him hesitantly after thinking about it: "But... you really don't intend to try again?"

"I think you should also want to live a good life? You don't really care about anyone. I think you really want everyone to like you, but you don't know how to make others agree with you, so you can only use self-destructive methods. Get someone's attention."

"You are just too pessimistic. I think if you are such a smart person, if you live well, you will definitely have a bright future in the future. There will also be someone who likes you and you like him, but you gave up. too early."

"Do you want to try again?"

The boy on the opposite side kept his head down and listened to his words, and suddenly laughed, "Then what should you do? You rely on my body to survive, if I survive, what will you do?"

Ruan Miao rubbed her clothes tangledly, and made up her mind: "I, I want to live, but I don't want to take other people's lives. I'm going back where I came from. I'm already a dead person. , it was only a coincidence that I met you, without you, my soul would have returned to heaven and earth long ago."

"I just, even if I can't bear Big Brother and them, I also can't bear Jane Fanyu."

Ruan Miao lowered her head and endured her sadness and whispered, "I didn't even say 'goodbye'."

Suddenly there was a cool feeling on the head, Ruan Miao raised his head, and found that the original owner was looking at him tenderly, he stared at him blankly, like an ignorant child.

"Miao Miao, don't be so soft-hearted to everyone in the future, you will suffer." He hugged him tightly, his voice choked up: "I like you so much..."

"If only, if only there was a chance to choose."

He hugged Ruan Miao tightly, as if he wanted to imprint him deep in his soul, "The time is coming, we have no time."

"I am very selfish, but I really want to pay for you once."

"You have to live well."

The world around Ruan Miao suddenly began to disintegrate. The scene that was just as beautiful as a fairyland just now quickly decayed. Everything was collapsing, and there was an invisible abyss under his feet. There was nothing to stand on except for standing.

And he was pushed down without any precautions, and fell into the boundless darkness. Ruan Miao stretched out his hand in a panic to grab something, but he could only see the beautiful boy on the cloud with tears on his face. looking at myself.

He caught his words.

He was saying "goodbye" to himself.

Ruan Miao stared at him blankly, her body continued to fall rapidly.

The figure of the young man left in the cloud was gradually dissipating. He watched Ruan Miao under the abyss gradually lose sight, and finally couldn't help crying.

'Actually, I once made a wish to the gods, praying for an angel to appear by my side. '

'The god heard my prayer, so he brought you. '

'Unfortunately, I was the one not allowed to stay. '

This is the first and last time they will meet.

Pushed from the operating room to the general ward, He Shangye finally heaved a sigh of relief when he learned that the person who was rescued in time was all right. Jian Fanyu sat by the bed and watched him without leaving.

Ruan Miao's hand moved slightly, and then he slowly opened his eyes under everyone's gaze, staring blankly at the ceiling of the hospital, as if he could not hear the pleasant voices of others talking to him, nor could he see anyone around him. .

He lay there for a while like an unconscious person, tears slowly falling from his eyes.

wake up.