Stand at forty

"So he guessed it right, and you still came here?" Lin Tianyuan and Yu Jinhuan stood together in front of the iron gate of Lincheng High School.

Yu Jinhuan nodded. It took a lot of effort for him to make a decision, but when he came here with his friends, he was very calm.They didn't go through the main entrance, climbed up to the railing of the iron gate, climbed over it lightly, and stood firmly on the ground without making any sound.

"Your skill is much better than before."

"I've learned a little bit of boxing and taekwondo, and I'm on par with you now."

This weekend, the campus is very quiet. The teaching building is still in the original place, but it has been renovated. There is a forest behind the playground in the east. When they went to school, they were just saplings with no branches and leaves. Now they are lush trees. In the autumn wind, the leaves gradually turned yellow, and the branches swayed with the wind, and the golden color fluttered all over the ground.

I found the tree that belonged to me. There was still a red plastic sign hanging on the tree, which had faded in the sun and rain, but I could still see the words "Yu Jinhuan, Class Three, Class Three, Senior High School".

Yu Jinhuan hadn't been here for a long time. He took off his coat, rolled up his sleeves, took out the small shovel he brought, and carefully dug out a hole with a small shovel until he saw the soft plastic film. Gently wiped off the dust on it with his hands, and took out a clay pot wrapped with several layers of sealing film.

"I'm quite curious. How did you bury things with Yuan Tianyi? It's incredible."

"At that time, I just thought the proposal was very good, so I agreed." Yu Jinhuan said lightly while removing the plastic wrap from the clay pot, "Besides, what I want to bury is the past, but I don't want to bother about it." Stuff is thrown in, and what he's planting may be the future."

The pottery pot finally showed its original appearance. It was an antique stone pottery white clay pot, nearly half a meter high, with a diameter slightly larger than an open palm. The sun shone on the pottery pot, and the rough pottery surface reflected softness. The bright colors give people a simple and warm feeling.

Yu Jinhuan gently scraped off the thick paraffin on the seal with a knife, uncovered the clay pot, and slowly stretched his arm in. He could touch the thick book, the scattered woodcut gadgets, the cold small iron box, and the There are fluffy and dry rose petals.

He has never been able to understand why Yuan Tianyi loves roses so much. He can't stand the strong fragrance, but prefers the mixed fragrance of milk and fruit.

"Jinhuan, want to see what's inside here?"

"Well, let's go to the stadium and sit for a while. After I finish watching, let's bury it here."

Lin Tianyuan glanced at him incomprehensibly, then shook his head, "It's up to you, but I guess you won't be willing to bury it any longer."

Yu Jinhuan did not speak, the clay pot in his hand was heavy, he was a little nervous and looking forward to it, suddenly he was like a child who got a new favorite toy, held it in his arms like a baby, and was reluctant to give it up to others , even myself, I touched it very carefully.

Sitting down on the high stands, Yu Jinhuan was a little dazed, as if the blurry figures of them playing here before appeared in front of his eyes, someone would yell at him in the stands, and come up to complain that he was so far away How to admire his heroic appearance, he will be ruffled by the other party, and he will be coaxed by the other party before getting angry, and he will roll forward and backward with laughter.

It seemed as if I could hear my old laughter, so carefree and wanton, Yu Jinhuan sighed.

"I think back then, when Jiashu and I were playing football underneath, you would sit high above the ground, saying that you could see the overall situation clearly from a high stand, but in fact you were holding a book and reading it intently, and you would only watch us play football occasionally. Jiashu will always come to make trouble for you when you are resting."

Yu Jinhuan raised the corners of his mouth, looked at the stadium without saying a word, and his smile slowly dropped, "Let's not talk about him, let's go and see him sometime, I'm going to read here, old rules, you can do whatever you want."

Lin Tianyuan nodded, and walked down the steps step by step. The sun shone on his back. Yu Jinhuan suddenly felt that the person seemed to disappear before his eyes, and shouted excitedly and anxiously: "Lin Tianyuan."

Lin Tianyuan turned his head and gave him a bright smile, then turned around, waved his hands, jumped down the stairs of the stands in two or three steps, and walked towards the side gate of the stadium.

Yu Jinhuan sat down with confidence, and took out the contents of the clay pot bit by bit. One of the two blue lacquered tin boxes belonged to him, and the other belonged to Yuan Tianyi. Putting it aside, he took the thread-bound cowhide book, put it on his lap, stared at the familiar writing on it, and opened the page mixed with rose fragrance after a long silence.

【Meeting you is the window of new life bestowed on me by God. I accidentally glimpsed your smile and regained my heartbeat. 】The sun shone on the pale yellow paper, which was slightly dazzling, but Yu Jinhuan remained motionless. He maintained the same posture, with his hands lightly pressing the corner of the rolled up book, his eyes were red, and he wanted to laugh or cry. His heart was overwhelmed, his face was quiet and silent, and he tangled himself into a statue.

After a long time, he closed the book, which he had only read a small part of, and pressed it against his chest. His body trembled a little, and he raised his head to look at the clear, cloudless sky, with a hot teardrop rolling from the corner of his eye.

He stood up and shouted to the sky:

"Yuan Tianyi, you are a liar, you are a bastard, I won't believe you."

Then he shouted again:

"Yu Jinhuan, be strong for me."

"Yu Jinhuan, at what age do you still play such little tricks?" Lin Tianyuan appeared on the court, and he responded loudly to Yu Jinhuan.

Yu Jinhuan wiped away tears, calmed down his ups and downs, watched him walk up the stairs step by step, and smiled unconsciously.

"Tianyuan, thank you."

"Thanks for what?"

"A lot, thank you..."

"Don't be long-winded and polite. Brothers don't mind. I'm not Yuan Tianyi. I can stand your sentimentality and improvisation before I come back. You should treat me to a meal first."

Yu Jinhuan suddenly wanted to ask, "Why don't you mind what Yuan Tianyi did to you?", but he suppressed this thought, he didn't want to expose the scars that were not easy to close.

Yu Jinhuan put the tin box and books into the clay pot, and as Lin Tianyuan expected, he left Lincheng High School with this not-so-small thing, and brought Lin Tianyuan back to his small apartment.

"After so many years, your preferences have not changed. Log furniture, burlap sofas, landscape oil paintings, and even the deer prints on the ceramic cups are the same as before." Lin Tianyuan said meaningfully as he walked around and looked at the furnishings of the apartment. "Sometimes, I think that time has changed many of us, but it hasn't changed you. You are still the same as before, stubbornly guarding your own corner, firmly rooted there, and unwilling to leave."

"God is also partial to you, even my face has a lot of wrinkles, you look at yourself in the mirror, you are thin and tender, you really answered that sentence, a man has 41 flowers." With that said, Lin Tianyuan couldn't help joking.

"Who said I was hypocritical at school, I think you are the one who is fake and unrestrained and really hypocritical." As soon as Yu Jinhuan finished speaking, he frowned secretly, and looked at Lin Tianyuan cautiously.

"Don't look at me like that, be careful I'm empathizing with you," Lin Tianyuan was still smiling, "Okay, I don't care. Compared with you, I always want to be more free and easy, let's not talk about it, I am now I'm hungry and thirsty."

"I'm going to cook. If you want to drink, go to the refrigerator or the bar to get it yourself." Yu Jinhuan turned and went into the kitchen.

Lin Tianyuan walked to the bar that was out of place with the living room, restrained his smile, poured himself a glass of red wine, shook the glass, looked at the back of Yu Jinhuan in the kitchen, and sighed long.

"Jinhuan, you are a dead duck with a stubborn mouth. You dare not say what you want in your heart, but you are still soft-hearted. After so many years of stubbornness, why don't you give yourself a chance? You are obviously worried, but you have to pretend that you don't care. The appearance of not asking is not torturing myself."

However, he will not say this to Yu Jinhuan again, because he has said it thousands of times, "Maybe, only he can change your mind." Lin Tianyuan said to himself.

Knowing that Lin Tianyuan was going back to Lincheng today, Yu Jinhuan prepared the ingredients in advance and made some semi-finished products, so the meal was made very quickly, and the two of them ate very happily.

"It's been a long time since I enjoyed your craft, and I've completely got the true biography of the godmother. When will we go and see her together." Lin Tianyuan asked casually while feasting.

"There are still 2 months until my mother's memorial day. Come with me when you are free. After staying abroad for so long, don't you plan to return to China to develop?"

Lin Tianyuan shook his head, "I'm used to living abroad, and..."

He was about to continue when the phone rang, he made an apologetic gesture, took out the phone, with a relaxed smile on his face, and picked up the phone. "Lele."

"Well, it's good to see Jinhuan, he's okay, he'll let you know."

"I'm eating, why haven't you slept yet?"

"Little thing, be careful, I'll go back and clean you up."

"OK Bye Bye."

Intermittent voices reached Yu Jinhuan's ears, and when Lin Tianyuan returned to the dining table, he quickly asked, "New boyfriend?"

Lin Tianyuan nodded, "It's not settled yet, but we got along very happily."

"No wonder you don't want to come back."

"To be honest, if Yuan Tianyi wakes up, would you like to go to the United States? Anyway, you can speak English so well, and you can be regarded as a little bit capable. There is no problem in living there."

"I never thought about leaving Lincheng."

"Jinhuan, you are too nostalgic for the past, do you not want to leave Lin Cheng, or do you not want to leave Yuan Tianyi, haven't you already broken up your relationship?"

"But now he—"

Lin Tianyuan interrupted him, "Even without this accident, would you leave Lincheng? You probably won't, and you probably haven't even thought about what you would do if he let go. Seriously, even though you swore at the beginning You want to cut off contact with him, but I think you are just punishing him, and you actually think in your heart that he will not let go. "

"But he doesn't want me anymore, he really let go." Yu Jinhuan roared suddenly.

"He left me, left me everything, and then wanted to leave. He didn't want to see me anymore, but God didn't let him go. You see, he is lying on the bed now, unable to move , won’t talk to me, I can even torture him as much as I want.” Yu Jinhuan’s tears rolled down his cheeks without disappointment.

"I won't let him do what he wants. He can't spend the rest of his life quietly like this."

Lin Tianyuan grabbed Yu Jinhuan's shoulder and said loudly: "Jinhuan, calm down, come, sit down, and drink some water."

Yu Jinhuan sat on the chair, took the teacup, took a sip of water, and laughed at himself.

"I look ugly, don't I?"

"Jinhuan, I don't know why you have to make a 12-year agreement. You have been silent to him for 12 years, and he finally followed your wishes, but you are not unhappy. How did you get over these 12 years? of?"

12 years, from 27 to 39 years old, is the most vigorous stage of life.How did he and Yuan Tianyi get along?

In the first few years, Yuan Tianyi wanted to take him with him in everything. As long as the other party asked, he would agree and never refute. In that cage-like villa, he was like a marionette with no expression. Tianyi's subordinates acted like the other party liked.

Later, Yuan Tianyi gradually became busy and tired, and spent less time with him. He would not take him to the company or on business trips, nor would he take him out for fun. Sitting together silently in every part of the villa, eating together, drinking tea together, taking a walk together, basking in the sun together, reading together, drawing together, dazed together, showering together, sleeping together, but that’s all, Yuan Tianyi’s There were fewer hugs and kisses, and he was starting to feel more at ease.

No one has ever watched his whereabouts. He often wanders out alone. Once he ate a piece of sweet and greasy cream cake, he fell in love with that taste like crazy. His life was full of vitality again, and he began to study To make desserts, he hired a professional pastry chef to develop varieties together, and opened the first sweet house under the oak tree, and then several others, and he also started to get busy.

Every morning, he set off from the villa, and in the evening, when he returned to the villa, he moved out of Yuan Tianyi's bedroom, and the other party didn't say anything. The atmosphere between them seemed to have eased, but they were still relatively silent. They came less and less, but they knew each other's whereabouts. The old housekeeper would tirelessly tell them who came back, who hadn't come back, where they went, and who would come back in a few days.

Even if they met, they were like strangers, without words, without hugs and kisses. During several nights of unbearable desire, he was ashamed thinking about each other's body on the bed, and they were very close in bed. Harmony, it seems that they are tailor-made for each other and they fit perfectly. Every tiny movement of Yuan Tianyi can drive him crazy.

Sometimes he would think that with the other party's vigorous energy, where would he be, and whose bed would he be galloping and sweating?This thought always made his heart ache, and gradually he stopped thinking about it, whatever, they were about to separate anyway.

After recovering from the scattered memories, Yu Jinhuan had mixed senses, "There is only silence."

"Are you silent, or is he silent?"

"It was me at first, but then he also fell silent."

Lin Tianyuan looked at Yu Jinhuan with worried and sympathetic eyes, "Next, do you still want to live like this? You have seen the things he gave you, and you must know that he has always loved you. Are you going to Stay silent with him, or find out the truth of what happened back then?"

"The truth? My parents are dead, my sister is gone, Jiashu's body is gone, and even Qinglian has gone. What truth do I want?" Yu Jinhuan said in a low voice, with deep pain in his words .

"I thought that in the past 12 years, you will figure out these things, whether you are still willing to be with him or not, but at least you have to figure out the reason, so many coincidences, you really stubbornly think it's all about him wrong."

"I gave him a chance. In 12 years, there was something unclear, but he didn't give me a single explanation."

"Or maybe what he said was just that you didn't hear it, you didn't want to hear it, Jinhuan, you think about it, why would a person like him put all the malice on you."

Yu Jinhuan didn't speak anymore, fell into contemplation, thought a lot, suddenly stood up in a hurry, knocked over the chair, and rushed out of the house like flying.

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