Stand at forty

"I am willing!"

"Yuan Tianyi, you idiot!"

"Fool, fool, villain..."

Yuan Tianyi just hugged Yu Jinhuan like this, his previous charming thoughts were broken by Yu Jinhuan's tears and yelling. After waiting quietly for the other party to vent for a while, he turned on the bed light and wiped the snot of the 40-year-old middle-aged man With tears and mood, he joked: "Don't cry, you are not a child, you are almost middle-aged and elderly, what do you say like this?"

"I want it!" Yu Jinhuan choked up, then felt embarrassed again, and took out a tissue to wipe his face.

"What do you mean by what you just said?" Yuan Tianyi glanced at the familiar box and asked calmly.

Yu Jinhuan thought to himself, what to pretend, and replied casually: "It's literally, I don't understand."

Yuan Tianyi suddenly tightened his arms, stared at him and asked seriously, "Xiao Huan, answer me seriously."

Yu Jinhuan felt the fiery beating heart in the chest that was close to him, and said honestly: "It's literally, you didn't propose a marriage proposal, and I've already given you face by answering like this."

"You promised to marry me?" Yuan Tianyi asked again with a heavy tone.

Looking at Yuan Tianyi's tense face, and those motionless eyes that were all his own reflection, Yu Jinhuan felt that it was a little strange to discuss this matter without clothes on, but he still wanted to make it clear, "Yes, I accepted."

Yuan Tianyi showed a smile, and then Yu Jinhuan felt the other party's stronger enthusiasm than before, and was caught off guard and crushed under him.

At that time, Yu Jinhuan complained: "Yuan Tianyi, you fouled."

"I didn't. Of course I have to respond to Xiao Huan's words like that."

Yu Jinhuan was a little short of breath, and didn't know what to do with Yuan Tianyi, now only if Yuan Tianyi let him, he could speak to the other party, if Yuan Tianyi was serious, he would be crushed to death by the other party.

But now, in addition to joy in his heart, there is also some lingering guilt.

When I opened the box that caused all this, there was an "Application for Marriage Registration Declaration" inside, and all the contents were filled out, leaving the declarant and certifier vacant.

"Yuan Tianyi, how can someone use this as a gift to propose marriage, and put it in a box mysteriously without telling me, how would I know if you don't tell me?"

Yu Jinhuan pretended to be angry and spoke in a tone of questioning the other party. He didn't expect Yuan Tianyi to respond, but this thing, from Christmas to now, after more than half a year, he remembered the cold war at that time, remembered In the past, many gifts that were too late to be opened felt very sad, so I could only use this tone to cover up.

"Do you know, me, I just opened it and saw this thing, did you think I was unwilling?"

Yuan Tianyi didn't want to recall the mood at that time, but nodded silently.

Yu Jinhuan didn't know what to say for a while, Yuan Tianyi didn't say anything, but he could imagine that he said he loved him but didn't want to marry him, he must think that the love he said at that time was actually not love.

Yu Jinhuan felt panic and uneasy again. He didn't know why, but he was always entangled in the past. Before, he was entangled in whether he loved Yuan Tianyi, but now he was entangled in whether the other party believed that he loved him or not.

"Ayi, do you think that after you woke up, I said I love you is also a lie?" Yu Jinhuan felt his heart rise to his throat, and his voice trembled a little.

Yuan Tianyi remained silent, and after a long time, he knew the answer with bitterness on his face.

"During the magical island, you didn't believe that I loved you?" He clenched his fists tightly, enduring something.

Yuan Tianyi remained silent.

"You didn't believe that I really loved you until the end of Dai Ansi's treatment of you, didn't you?"

Yu Jinhuan felt angry in his heart, but his words were weak. He had no right to question him, but he still felt chilled and wronged.

"Ayi, am I right?"

He didn't realize that he was about to cry, so he begged Yuan Tianyi humbly, and Yuan Tianyi also gave an affirmative answer.

Like a prisoner waiting to be sentenced, knowing that there is little hope of salvation, but obsessed with getting a result sooner.

Why ask?Asked, knowing the answer is just making yourself uncomfortable, pretending not to know, and not making yourself so ugly.

Yuan Tianyi gently wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, "You just agreed to marry me, you should be happy, don't be sad, don't think about these past things anymore."

Yu Jinhuan also wanted to cheer himself up. He was obviously excited before, but he couldn't control his emotions at this moment. He buried himself tightly in the other's chest, letting the warm skin bring him more courage.

He straightened up and looked down at Yuan Tianyi's eyes: "When Doctor Dai analyzed my behavior with you, you began to believe that I really fell in love with you, didn't you?"

Yu Jinhuan insisted on clarifying this matter, but Yuan Tianyi had no choice but to cooperate.

"You behave so differently than usual, and I can actually notice it."

"If, I mean if, I just suddenly realized that I love you very much at that time, and I was suddenly afraid of losing and changing, so I behaved abnormally, do you believe it?"

"I have always believed in Xiao Huan. Since Xiao Huan only discovered her feelings at that time, it was normal for me to realize that you love me. Besides, my mind was not normal before that."

"Don't say it! You don't believe me, don't say you always believe me, you always don't believe that I love you, you don't believe it!"

Yu Jinhuan roared hysterically. They had just experienced a love affair and agreed to get married. Now they are still seeing each other sincerely, but he has to think about and sort out this uncomfortable problem.

"Ayi, tell me honestly, if it wasn't for Dr. Dai's guidance, would you really think I love you?"

With such a cruel question, Yu Jinhuan didn't know whether he was tormenting himself or the other party, but he still wanted to continue, "Right now, do you believe that I love you from the bottom of your heart, or are you used to it and feel that I still don't love you? But it's a good deal?"

Yuan Tianyi's forehead and eyebrows were wrinkled, a little at a loss: "Xiao Huan, calm down."

"No," Yu Jinhuan felt a little desperate, "I want you to answer me, answer me seriously."

Yuan Tianyi pondered for a long time, and Yu Jinhuan looked at the other person's eyes, which became increasingly dim. He only heard the other person say: "I don't know, I can't tell the difference now."

It was him who made things difficult for him.Yu Jinhuan was too exhausted, both physically and mentally, he lowered his head, like a defeated peacock, put away all his feathers, lost strength and fell back into Yuan Tianyi's embrace.

It's still so warm, and the heartbeat in his chest is still so powerful, but the spiritual connection he thought was not what it is, between them, they have reached this level, and they have a tacit understanding in everything, except for feelings, only feelings, and they will never be in the same place. on the channel.

Yu Jinhuan never knew that love and trust are such a difficult subject. If he didn't love, or didn't love so much, they wouldn't be so entangled and sad. What a mistake he made to bear such a punishment .

God's will, full of joy, how beautiful and cruel, the incompleteness and imperfection of love, he and Yuan Tianyi drank enough of this glass of wine, will it be sweet after all the hardships, or still feel bitter?He couldn't tell.

Yu Jinhuan didn't want to think about it anymore, he and Yuan Tianyi would never be separated again in this life, so thinking about it was useless.

When he was immersed in his thoughts, Yuan Tianyi didn't know what to do, he would never lie to Yu Jinhuan, this is a virtue, but when he looked at Yu Jinhuan who was depressed, his eyes were full of regret.

"Xiao Huan, don't think about it anymore, you have to remember, I have always loved you."

Yuan Tianyi's love for himself has always been so selfless. He loves me, but he never expects me to love him the same way. Even if I don't love him, he can accept it. Yu Jinhuan has never hated this kind of great love like he does now. He It would be better for Yuan Tianyi to be more selfish. If you give, you will be rewarded. If you love, you will be loved. Maybe the problems between them can be solved better.

If he was Yuan Tianyi, he would say: I love you, and you should love me too.

It's a pity that he is not the other party, and he can't say what he thinks in his heart. He has said too much, and both he and Yuan Tianyi need to digest it slowly.

"I know, I love you too."

He heard himself responding to the other party like this, he had always responded like this, but suddenly remembered that the other party had never replied, "I know, he waited for a long time, and he didn't hear the words he was expecting.

"Go to sleep." Yuan Tianyi whispered, stroking his head tenderly, Yu Jinhuan's heart was torn by various emotions, obviously uncomfortable, but still gave a low hum.

Yuan Tianyi loves you so hard, so hard, you can't let your temper.Yu Jinhuan admonished himself in his heart until he lost the last strength to think before throwing himself into the arms of Duke Zhou.

The next morning, both of them were a little embarrassed. Yu Jinhuan took the initiative to hold Yuan Tianyi's hand, found out the marriage application, and said casually, "Yuan Tianyi, I agreed."

Yuan Tianyi was stunned, then smiled slightly, and then hugged Yu Jinhuan tightly: "Thank you, Xiaohuan."

Yu Jinhuan once again thanked him for being busy in life, he still has a lot of things to do, and getting along with Yuan Tianyi became more natural and harmonious.He doesn't face each other all the time. Although he misses him very much, he can't let go of the Jinzun matter and the matter of finding relatives, and he won't spend more time thinking about what he has and what he doesn't have.

Free time, eating, hugging, talking and laughing, no different from usual, they will soon become a legal husband and wife relationship, will form a family, not only love, but also responsibility.

Grandpa Yu's words came back to his ears again. Before he left, the old man was still persuading him to look away and let go of some obsessions.

Thinking of this, he felt a little ridiculous while waiting for Yuan Tianyi to come back at home.In the past, he thought that Yuan Tianyi was too obsessed with him, but now he felt that he was even more obsessed with him.

It's really a turn of wind and water, and it's coming to my house this year.

The two of them are not planning to hold the wedding for the time being. This may be a tacit understanding. As for the marriage registration, Yu Jinhuan doesn't care what day it is. Yuan Tianyi insists on his birthday, and Yu Jinhuan has no objection.

He had never thought about getting married before, just like what Dai Ansi said, after having Yuan Tianyi by his side, he never considered anyone else, and he didn't reject the fact that he was infatuated with a man. After being unable to get along with this person, he only thinks about living alone. He said, whether he loves Yuan Tianyi or not, he only wants to see this person after all.

He misses Lin Tianyuan's Jiashu a little bit. After meeting Yuan Tianyi, he no longer has any close friends. Before, he lived in a muddleheaded way and no one cared about him. Now that he is sober, he will inevitably feel lonely.

"What are you thinking about? So engrossed?" Yuan Tianyi's voice came from behind.

Yu Jinhuan turned around and smiled at the other party, "I miss Tianyuan and Jiashu, I'm the only two people who are close to me."

What he said was casual, but it carried a sense of loneliness.

"It's not too busy during this time, Xiao Huan can go out more, and connect with old friends."

Yuan Tianyi's words were full of guilt and flattery, and Yu Jinhuan didn't mean to blame him. It was Yuan Tianyi who threatened him back then, but he was the one who made the choice.

Yu Jinhuan got up and gave Yuan Tianyi a comforting kiss, "I didn't settle the old score, don't think too much, I just miss the two of them, besides, I'm going to get married, no one close to me is present, I always feel that I'm missing Order something."

Yuan Tian wanted to apologize, but couldn't say it.He really ruined Yu Jinhuan's life, and it's useless to apologize, he can only make up for it with more love.

Yu Jinhuan tugged Yuan Tianyi's arm, "Let's go, eat, if you don't go, Momo should complain that we made him hungry again."

A smile appeared on Yuan Tianyi's face, and he followed Yu Jinhuan's pace.

The author has something to say:

It was very sweet at first, but it is not so sweet as I wrote it. To be honest, I was not prepared to expose these small contradictions so quickly, so I accidentally wrote it out.Happy reading!