Woke up and I became Da Jae's bandage

Xiaoyuan came to my house on a Sunday afternoon.

It was snowing that day, and when Osamu Dazai opened the door of his house, a four or five-year-old girl followed behind him.She was wearing a thick winter coat, with small gloves on her hands, and her big eyes were rippling with water.She pulled Osamu Dazai's clothes and looked at me curiously.

Osamu Dazai knelt down, took her hand, and pointed at me: "Xiaoyuan, go over and say hello?"

Xiao Yuan moved to me with small steps, and tentatively took my hand.

There was still a little snow on her little gloves, and it felt a little cold to the touch, so I rubbed her hair.

"Xiao Yuan, welcome home."

Perhaps it was because she was too young to be born, but Xiao Yuan quickly adapted to our living environment and rhythm.Every day after returning home from kindergarten, she would happily tell Osamu Dazai what happened that day, and sometimes when I came back from work, she would repeat it to me.

When I was painting, she would climb from the side of the chair to my lap, sit in my arms and watch me paint the paper stroke by stroke.

"Can Papa Suzuki teach me how to draw?" She blinked her big eyes and looked up at me.

I held her hand from behind and sketched on paper with a pencil.

The pen tip walks along the drawing paper, from one end of the easel to the other end.

Until Xiaoyuan let out a "huh" in surprise.

She pointed at the painting with her little finger.

"This is... Papa Dazai, and Papa Suzuki! Who's in the middle?"

I tugged at her pigtail: "It's our lovely Xiao Yuan."

Xiaoyuan blinked: "Then... will Dazai's father hang up this painting? Like the one at the back?"

I poked my cheek with a pencil and thought for a while: "If Dazai, he will definitely add some messy things to it, and then get rid of the whole fancy shell."

Xiao Yuan stared at the painting thoughtfully for a while, then turned her head and gently embraced my neck, and kissed my cheek.

"Xiaoyuan likes Papa Dazai and Papa Suzuki." She said, "Will you be with Xiaoyuan forever?"

I rubbed her head and pulled her into my arms.

"Yes, we will always be together."

*******

As the first cherry blossom petals shower the Yokohama sky, the winter snow melts and a new spring begins.

The roster of university volunteers was filled out as early as last winter, because I didn't want to be too far away from Osamu Dazai, so I wrote Yokohama National University.Osamu Dazai didn't express any opinion on this, but accidentally mentioned "Tokyo is not far away" during the chat. I cut rabbit apples next to him, and I replied "No, it's far away".

The Armed Detective Agency has been very busy recently, and I have fewer tasks to take on, so I have to stay in the coffee shop and work part-time to maintain the food and drink expenses of the group of people at home.I don't know why, but Osamu Dazai has been so busy these days that no one can be seen. I asked Doppo Kunikida, but he didn't know what the hell Dazai Osamu was planning.

The day before yesterday afternoon, I sent Xiaoyuan to Sakunosuke Oda's home in the country to stay for a while, and it was also a way for her to experience the leisurely and wonderful rural life.Before leaving, Oda Sakunosuke took Xiaoyuan's hand with emotion, to the effect that Osamu Dazai and I were lucky enough to pick up a girl who was so cute and cute.

I thought about it, and in comparison, this is indeed the case-I still have a psychological shadow on the children of his family.My Xiaoyuan is still the best-behaved.

The street lamps made people's shadows very long. I finished working in the coffee shop, and it was already ten o'clock in the evening when I returned home.

The lights in the living room were brightly lit, a pile of snacks were scattered on the floor, the game console was casually thrown aside, and a few bottles of wine were scattered on the table.

Osamu Dazai curled up on the carpet and slept as casually as he wanted.

I sighed, took off my shoes and stepped onto the carpet with bare feet, knelt down beside Osamu Dazai, pulled him out of the snack pile, took off his crooked coat, and went to the kitchen to cook a bowl of mung bean soup .

When I brought the soup out of the kitchen, Osamu Dazai was already awake, but he was lying on the carpet in that position, without any intention of moving.

I put the dinner plate on the table, sat next to him and patted his shoulder: "Dazai, can you save me a little worry."

He tilted his head slightly, and lay directly on my hand, holding my arm with one hand, looking at me with bright eyes: "Ah Che, you are back."

My heart was suddenly soft and in a mess, and I couldn't say a word of the lesson for a while.

I served him mung bean soup.

"Be good and drink it up. I really don't understand why you drink so happily every time, but it doesn't taste good when you have a serious meal."

Osamu Dazai lazily got up and leaned against the coffee table, still holding my arm.

Come on, this is for me to feed him.

I blew on the mung bean soup and tasted it myself-well, the temperature is okay.Then I brought it to his mouth and watched him drink it. I was really serving him well.

I took the empty bowl and wanted to stand up and go back to the kitchen, but Osamu Dazai still took my arm.I cast a puzzled look at him, he stood up unsteadily, walked briskly to a corner of the living room, and then... came out with a square cake box.

I'm even more confused. It's already past ten o'clock. Is it time to eat cake?

But what Dazai Osamu said next stunned me.

He said.

Che, happy birthday.

Ah, yes.Today is my birthday and I've been so busy lately that I don't remember anything.

Osamu Dazai put the cake box on the table, opened it, took the candle, lit the candle, put a birthday headband on me, pulled me next to the cake, and sang happy birthday to me like a child.It is rare for him to be so interested, and I am happy to be happy with him.

It's my birthday, my first birthday with Osamu Dazai.

"Make a wish, Ache." He put his hands behind his back and looked at me with a smile.

Make a wish?

I closed my eyes and clasped my hands in front of my chest.

God, if you can really hear my prayer, please take care of this person beside me.

Take care of his body and soul, give him the gospel of love and luck, let him be bathed in sunshine every day of his life, and let his heart no longer be invaded by haze. Please wish him a safe and smooth life, good health and no worries. Always be with happiness.

If, I mean if, you have any leftovers of the Gospel to shed, please favor me.

— so that I can always be by his side.

I slowly opened my eyes, and saw Dazai Osamu's gentle eyes.

"I heard it," he said. "God whispered in my ear."

I smiled at him, putting my index finger to my lips.

"Shh, you can't say it, so that your wish will come true."

The compass of fate is still spinning, it determines people's reunion and parting, and it also engraves hope in the gaps of the compass.Time is like flowing water, elongated and far away, I chased after him and ran towards him, fortunately, he was waiting on the shore.The road ahead may be difficult and full of many hardships, but because of him, there will always be a rainbow in the wind and rain.

"Dazai, please teach me more in this life."

【End of text】

The author has something to say: Thank you Qianxixi for the landmines, Wanqi for the nutrient solution, and thank you for your support.

It's over, the extra episode is in the works, and I want to say something to my friends who have been supporting me all the time.

Thank you for your company all the way. It has been a hard month of chasing the article, and I am a mother-in-law with a broken mouth. I am really grateful for everyone being so tolerant.I am very happy that you can read this, thank you for liking this article, and Suzuki Che (bow).

The opening of this article is actually very sudden, which originated from the stalk of Osamu Dazai’s bandages. Suzuki Che’s character design was not so rich at first, it was just a bandage that is sunny, cheerful and loves to complain.

What really made me rethink Suzuki Che's position was in Chapter 7, when Suzuki Che shouted out the phrase "Some people want to live even if they try their best".It was also at that moment that I realized that Suzuki Che was not just a bandage, but a "person" with a soul.He has always regretted his death, which is why he said those words to Osamu Dazai.He naively tried to bring Osamu Dazai back to what he thought was the "right track".

Since then, Suzuki Che has truly lived as a "person".

Although he has been bullied by Osamu Dazai, Che Suzuki actually admires the strong in his heart, which is why he admires Osamu Dazai.However, when getting along day and night, unconsciously, Suzuki Cheru's admiration for Dazai Osamu gave birth to the emotion of "like".Finally, in Hokkaido, this "like" broke through the ground and blossomed.

He is kind, brave, and serious, trying to find love, trying to love, and trying to accept love.

When you like someone, you love them frankly and do your best.Don't care about gains and losses, and don't care about the results.

This is Suzuki Che's love, and he gave it to Osamu Dazai.

People live this life, after all, they come and go alone.In the journey of life, it is not easy to find someone's heart, the time with you is precious and short, and you have to beware of all kinds of unknown parting.Now that I'm older, I can't read or write abusive stories anymore.Life is too bitter, and I am alone, so I always have to find some candy to feed myself.After writing this article, it was a bit dreamy, like a story about a princess and a prince in a fairy tale (laughs).Selfishly, I like Dazai very much, and I want his ending to be warmer, so I tried my best to give him the best Suzuki Che.

Dazai Osamu and Suzuki Che.

I wish you long and lasting happiness.

There is no wish in this life, but to grow old with you.

——Sugar Watermelon July 2020, 7