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After eating, Ji Ziyang and Wei Xi came out of the hot pot restaurant.

A gust of cool wind blew in front of him, Ji Ziyang shivered, but he was not in a hurry to stop the car.

"Shall we go for a while?"

Ji Ziyang didn't drive today, and the hot pot restaurant is quite close to Wei Xi's home, so Ji Ziyang suggested this.

Wei Xi said it didn't matter, and walked towards home with Ji Ziyang.

The weather is getting colder and colder, but the street is still as lively as in summer. Ji Ziyang remembers that when he was a child, every autumn, Wei Jiale's mother would boil pear water for them to drink.Wei Jiale likes to eat sweets, and every time he has to add two pieces of rock sugar to his bowl of pear water, but if he can't drink it, he will blame it on Ji Ziyang who doesn't like sweets, making Ji Ziyang always feel his throat is even worse.

But now everything is different.

For a moment, Ji Ziyang really wanted to lament the impermanence of the world.

Can he and Wei Jiale really go back to the past one day?

Look at this guy next to him, not so long ago he was convincing himself about how much he had a crush on another guy.

So does the person in Wei Xi's heart also like him?

"How are you and Ji Changsi?"

Wei Xi didn't raise her head, "What's the matter?"

"Don't you like him?" Ji Ziyang also looked down at the road in front of him, only looking at Wei Xi from the corner of his eye, "What about him?"

Wei Xi was taken aback when she heard the words, as if a little lonely, "...I don't know."

"Didn't you confess?"

"…How can it be."

"why?"

"...Because we are friends." Wei Xi raised his head and looked at the neon lights on the street corner, his voice was so soft that he almost lost his voice, "I don't want to be hated by him."

Ji Ziyang looked at Wei Xi, how could anyone hate such a guy.But he didn't say anything, he didn't want to encourage Wei Xi to be a man who dared to confess, that would be digging his own grave.

"So you get along... quite...friends?"

This is what Ji Ziyang cares about.

"...What does it mean to be friends with each other?"

Wei Xi paused, then turned her head to look at Ji Ziyang, as if she didn't understand his question.

"...Do you think he likes you?" Ji Ziyang thought for a while, but still mustered up the courage to say, "Do you think there is anything special about him to you, maybe you think he also treats you..."

Hearing such a question, Wei Xi lowered her head and thought hard for a while, then replied lazily, "I don't feel it."

In fact, if Ji Ziyang could clearly see the relationship between Wei Xi and Ji Changsi, he would be able to find the answer without Wei Xi telling him.However, Ji Ziyang has never met Ji Changsi, let alone seeing Wei Xi and Ji Changsi together, so he can only rely on Wei Xi's words to guess what kind of situation these two people have reached.

The result is worth a boost of confidence. Wei Xi said that he and Ji Changsi are friends, and he didn't think that Ji Changsi might also like him.

Ji Ziyang suddenly felt that his depressed mood had eased a lot. Although Wei Xi doesn't like him now, it doesn't mean that the person Wei Xi likes also likes Wei Xi. If Ji Changsi doesn't like Wei Xi at all, his pressure will be great. It's much smaller.

But Ji Ziyang obviously believed in Wei Xi too much, and had no doubts about what Wei Xi said.

But Wei Xi did not lie to him, he really didn't think Ji Changsi had any special thoughts about him.

In Wei Xi's eyes, Ji Changsi has always been an existence that is too bright, he illuminates his life, and even guides his direction.For Wei Xi, Ji Changsi is too good to be compared with that cowardly self, their shoulders are not aligned at all.It was a kind of weird inferiority complex. In Wei Xi's perception, a gentle and handsome person like Ji Changsi would never fall in love with him.

In fact, if Wei Xi could look at Ji Ziyang in front of him, maybe he should think about it from a different angle. Isn't such a guy who is very similar to Ji Changsi and equally good just in love with him?What's more, Wei Xi should learn to take a good look in the mirror. He looks pretty good, and he can rely on his own ability to eat at a young age. Although he is not as good as the top, he is more than the bottom. Among his peers, his conditions are also very good. He didn't need to take himself so lightly.

But obviously, Wei Xi's gaze has never been able to stay on Ji Ziyang, his world is full of Ji Changsi, so he can't think that much at all.What's more, Wei Xi had so many unfortunate experiences in the past, the flaw caused by the subtle influence is that he didn't know how not to underestimate himself.

So from Wei Xi's point of view, he really doesn't think that Ji Changsi might like him too, and everything he has with Ji Changsi, whether it's hugs, care, or long-term company, can only show that Ji Changsi is a Just a very kind person.

Willing to stretch out his hands to this kind of self, and willing to be by his side, Ji Changsi is the best person in the world.

Thinking of this, Wei Xi even felt quite lucky, such a useless self was lucky to meet such a Ji Changsi.

Later, the two of them chatted all the way, Ji Ziyang sent Wei Xi downstairs, and said to him before leaving, "Always stay with me, and I will start the treatment to restore your memory later, so don't delay the meeting between the two of you." You are not willing to cooperate with me."

"How could it be?" Wei Xi smiled lightly, "He also has his own things to do."

Ji Ziyang also smiled helplessly, and then became a little curious again, "Speaking of when you will meet, why do I feel that I have never heard of you two going out for a meal together?"

"...we prefer to stay at home."

Ji Ziyang felt suffocated when he heard the words, and murmured in a low voice, "I'll stay at your house from now on."

Wei Xi glanced at Ji Ziyang expressionlessly, turned her head away and said nothing.

He didn't understand why Ji Ziyang was so curious about him and Ji Changsi recently, always asking questions like a gossip maniac.

But before Wei Xi could figure it out, when he got home and changed his clothes, a figure jumped onto his body from behind.

The bedroom was not too big or small, and the lights hadn't even been turned on yet, and only a little light from the living room could be seen through the open door.

"Where have you been?"

Familiar breaths and voices surrounded Wei Xi, Wei Xi's head was dizzy, and he turned his head to see Ji Changsi with a bad expression.

"Have a meal…"

"with who?"

"Ji Ziyang."

"Oh…"

Ji Changsi let out a long voice, and nodded thoughtfully, but he couldn't bear the usual bright smile on his face.

"what happened?"

Feeling that something was wrong with Ji Changsi, Wei Xi raised his eyes and asked in a low voice, and couldn't help pulling Ji Changsi's clothes, like a little daughter-in-law.

"...you've been very close to him recently."

"He said he would help me recover my memory."

"Didn't you already remember?"

"I only remember the things before the amnesia, but I still can't remember things about him, so I still need him to continue to help me treat."

"Is this important to you?"

"what?"

"Memories between you and him?"

"...I can't say whether it's important or not," Wei Xi thought about the agreement with Ji Ziyang, and couldn't help answering, "But it's very important to Ji Ziyang, so I think about it."

Ji Changsi seemed a little surprised when he heard this. He lowered his head and thought for a while, then he looked away, "I remember you were annoying him at first?"

Wei Xi couldn't help showing a faint smile when she heard the words, "Yes, but he's much better now, and he's not so annoying anymore."

Something sharp stabbed Ji Changsi, he frowned slightly, and felt an unpleasant stabbing pain in his heart, but he couldn't tell what it was for, he could only look up and down Wei Xi's eyes. say.

"…what happened to you?"

Wei Xi was a little confused. He and Ji Changsi had known each other for so long, even if Ji Changsi didn't say anything, he could feel that something was wrong.

"It's nothing." Ji Changsi lowered his eyes and paused, his tone was neither good nor bad, but he whispered again, "...I'm leaving."

With that said, he really turned around and flashed out of the bedroom.

"Long thinking!"

Wei Xi hurriedly chased after him, trying to grab Ji Changsi's hand, but he couldn't reach out anyway, so he could only grab his clothes again anxiously, "Did I make you angry?"

Ji Changsi was dragged away by Wei Xi, but he couldn't bear to get rid of him, so he turned his head away and said calmly, "...No."

"Then why are you leaving?"

"..."

Facing Wei Xi's question, Ji Changsi didn't know how to answer, so he could only silently push Wei Xi's hand away.

"Why are you leaving?"

But the hand holding the hem of the clothes not only did not loosen, but became tighter and tighter. Wei Xi frowned slightly, and raised his eyes to stare at Ji Changsi closely, as if the guy in front of him would disappear if he didn't pay attention.

"...don't go..." Wei Xi said pitifully, "...don't go."

Hearing such a weak begging, Ji Changsi couldn't help but turned his head and glanced at Wei Xi, but with just this one glance, the previous uneasiness eased a little.

Ji Changsi looked into Wei Xi's eyes without blinking; Wei Xi stared closely at Ji Changsi's eyes, for fear that this person would leave again.

The two of them stared at each other and stood in a stalemate. One insisted on pushing away the hand that was holding him tight, while the other firmly held on to the hem of his clothes and never let go.

After an unknown amount of time, Ji Changsi sighed slowly, squeezed his repelling fingers into Wei Xi's hand that was holding onto the hem of his clothes, and then hooked his fingertips a little, and held that hand.

In fact, Ji Changsi didn't know where his anger came from, he was rarely angry with Wei Xi like today.Sometimes in order to tease him, it's not like he didn't scare him and ignore him, but today he was really not joking, he really felt for a moment that he didn't want to stay here anymore.

He couldn't say why, but ever since that guy named Ji Ziyang appeared, he felt that a certain sense of balance between him and Wei Xi had been broken.He always felt that something was changing, but he couldn't figure out what it was.

It was obvious that he didn't like Ji Ziyang, even with a hint of resistance.

Especially when I heard that Wei Xi and Ji Ziyang were together, I felt an indescribable feeling of suffocation.

When did Wei Xi have friends?

Well, I have to admit that as long as you don't get in touch with Wei Xi for a long time, and if you are intimidated by Wei Xi's overly dull personality, Wei Xi can really catch people based on appearance alone.The class monitor in high school, classmates in college, and the editors who took care of Wei Xi, all of them took the initiative to surround him at first.

At that time, Ji Changsi was teasing Wei Xi, like a close brother, "Try to date? It's not like there is no one you like, right?"

But Wei Xi only looked at Ji Changsi in confusion, "What are you talking about?"

It's like a child who doesn't understand love at all, seems to be born lacking in this aspect.

"I'm saying, shouldn't it be time for you to find a girlfriend too?"

"...ah... yes, yes?"

"Well, people of our age should at least have dated a few times before it's normal."

"Yes, is that so..." Wei Xi's expression was a little gloomy at that time, "You...you also..."

Ji Changsi didn't speak, just looked at Wei Xi with a half smile.

Then Wei Xi's little face became cuter in Ji Changsi's eyes, a little more bleak than before, even the circles of his eyes were almost red, but he was still trying to force a smile.

"Then...then I, also..."

"What are you?"

"..."

Well, everyone is about to cry.

"Wei Xi, look at me," Ji Changsi pressed Wei Xi's shoulders, made him look up at himself, and then said to him seriously, "As long as your eyes only look at me, I will only stay in your eyes." How about you?"

Wei Xi blinked her red eyes hard, and nodded vigorously.

"But if one day you look at someone else, or have someone you like, I will leave immediately, and I will never come to you again, and you will never see me again," Ji Changsi said to Wei Xi with a smile He looked, but his eyes were so serious, "Do you remember?"

Like a threat, like a coercion.

Wei Xi still nodded vigorously, "I only look at you, I only look at Changsi..."

Then Ji Changsi really smiled from the bottom of his heart.

Wei Xi looks a little useless, but he just likes this kind of Wei Xi, because only in this way can he feel that it is Wei Xi who only belongs to him.

Has Wei Xi really been unable to make friends for so many years?

Although society is so cold and cruel, does the most basic kindness between people really exist?Is it true that no one has ever thought that Wei Xi's somewhat dull but harmless personality is not good?He has no obstacles, is it true that there is no one who is willing to approach Wei Xi?

Not so.

But what if a guy with an unpleasant personality voluntarily closes the door to accept others?

Wei Xi was always alone.

Who can he see in his eyes?Except for Ji Changsi.

But why, that Ji Ziyang, who appeared out of nowhere, was like an invader, step by step touching the boundary that Ji Changsi had built by himself, and even had a tendency to cross the boundary.

Ji Changsi had never met Ji Ziyang, so he could only learn about that person from Wei Xi's words, but even so, Ji Ziyang made Ji Changsi feel an invisible pressure.

Wei Xi said they were very similar, and Ji Changsi spit on his face.

But I still couldn't help but hesitate a little in my heart. Judging from the past that Wei Xi told him, from the oppression at the beginning to the hot pursuit later, Ji Changsi felt that this guy should be killed, but at the same time he couldn't help feeling that He seemed to be able to guess what Ji Ziyang was thinking.

Because he felt that they seemed to be the same kind of people.

Originally, he wasn't worried at all, but he was even distracted by Wei Xi's increasingly painful memory.

However, now that it was all over, another situation that shocked him happened again.

Why is Ji Changsi angry?

Wei Xi actually felt that Ji Ziyang didn't hate him anymore, and even cared about something very important to Ji Ziyang, which Ji Changsi couldn't accept.

Why did he feel as if he was about to lose him?

He clearly said that if he looked at someone else, he would leave him immediately.

Isn't Wei Xi afraid anymore?

Was Wei Xi, who belonged to him alone, about to be snatched away by another guy?

Sitting on the ground, Ji Changsi raised his head and stared blankly at the moon outside the window. There was no abnormal expression on his face, but his heart was desolate, as if bottomless and empty.

At this moment, Ji Changsi's back suddenly felt warm.

There was no light in the dark room, only the moonlight shining through the window.

Wei Xi came behind Ji Changsi, sat down quietly, carefully tugged at the corner of Ji Changsi's clothes, and then gently pressed his face to his back.

He didn't say anything, and he felt he didn't need to say anything.He knew that he made Ji Changsi angry, and he wanted to explain to Ji Changsi, but what he wanted to do most at this moment was to warm that cold heart first.

For some reason, although he couldn't guess what Ji Changsi was thinking, he just felt that he could feel Ji Changsi's heart.

The two were silent like this, one was leaning on the other's back, and the other was still staring blankly at the moon outside the window.

Heh, what are you doing coaxing him at this time?Aren't there other more important people?

Ji Changsi was still thinking a little angrily, but there was a trace of tenderness between the originally cold and resolute brows and eyes.

After an unknown amount of time, the hand holding the clothes was pulled over.

Ji Changsi took Wei Xi's hands and wrapped them around his waist.

Wei Xi didn't speak, but carefully tightened the arms holding Ji Changsi.

"...If Changsi doesn't like it, I don't want to restore the memory."

A soft voice sounded in the silent room, and the clear and cool voice dispelled the condensed haze all at once.

"Ji Ziyang said that he wanted to apologize to the past me, and if he did, he wouldn't bother me again."

Ah, is it because of this?

"He helped me, and I also want to thank him." Wei Xi leaned on Ji Changsi's back and whispered, "But if Changsi doesn't like it, I will never see him again."

Ji Changsi slowly lowered his eyes, and then slowly lowered his head.He was still holding Wei Xi's hand in his hand. Those hands used to hold the paintbrush were really beautiful.

"I... just look at you."

The slightly shy words finally bent the corners of Ji Changsi's lips. The smile was bright and proud, but the guy behind him couldn't see it. I'm afraid even Ji Changsi himself didn't realize it.

Later, Wei Xi fell asleep leaning on Ji Changsi just like that.

This fool!

Ji Changsi hugged Wei Xi to the bed, then watched Wei Xi silently for a while, then bent down gently...

The author has something to say:

Wake up to how Ziyang treated Wei Jiale when he was young

Ji Changsi and Wei Xi are like the reflections of Ji Ziyang and Wei Jiale standing on the water...

...There will be a day when it will be explained clearly

PS When will I learn to control the word count