dreamer

When Ji Ziyang arrived at the old house in the early morning light, he finally found Wei Xi who was sleeping against the wall.

The sun shines on Wei Xi's face through the dilapidated curtains, everything looks so quiet and peaceful.

Is this his Wei Jiale?

Ji Ziyang walked gently to his side, knelt on the ground on one knee, and looked at Wei Xi silently.He slept so soundly, if it wasn't for the weak ups and downs of his body accompanied by breathing, for a moment, Ji Ziyang even felt that the guy in front of him would never wake up again.

"Jia...Wei Xi? Wake up..."

Wei Xi slowly opened his eyes, and it took him a long time to see clearly Ji Ziyang who was calling him softly.

"Don't sleep here, you'll get sick."

Ji Ziyang took off his coat and put it on Wei Xi's body, trying to help him up.

However, Wei Xi, who was awake, just looked around subconsciously, looking for the figure who should be by his side.

"...long thinking..."

Ji Ziyang was taken aback when he heard the words, followed Wei Xi's gaze to look around, and then comforted him in a good voice, "What long thoughts, are you dreaming again?"

"...how could...he..."

Wei Xi didn't believe it, and kept looking around over and over again.

"You are really the only one here, and I saw you leaning here when I came here."

Ji Ziyang is not in a hurry, even if the person he likes opens his eyes and the first person he looks for is another person, at this moment, he can only silently endure the pain, and still comfort him in a kind voice.

"…he's gone…"

Wei Xi stared blankly at one place for a while, as if telling herself.

Ji Ziyang looked at the dusty floor, and the clear traces that could be seen everywhere didn't seem like two people had appeared here before, but he didn't intend to continue arguing with Wei Xi, he just thought Wei Xi was hysterical.

So Ji Ziyang didn't follow Wei Xi's words. He just pulled him to stand up, and helped him dust off his body, "I really convinced you, and ran back by myself. What should I do if I am in danger?"

Wei Xi stared blankly, letting Ji Ziyang clean the dust from his hair like a marionette.

"what happened?"

Then when Ji Ziyang finally asked him this sentence out loud, he looked up at Ji Ziyang, recalling what happened last night in his mind, and his eyes turned red again.

"…me…"

He wanted to tell Ji Ziyang what happened, but for some reason, he didn't know how to say it when the words came to his lips. He didn't know how to tell Ji Ziyang what happened to his past self.

"..."

But how could Ji Ziyang, who already knew everything, not guess what happened?

Seeing Wei Xi like this, Ji Ziyang felt a pain in his heart.As if he had a tacit understanding, he didn't need Wei Xi to continue talking, he just took a small step forward, tightened Wei Xi's clothes, and when he saw a line of tears rolling down Wei Xi's face, he gently helped her. He wiped it off.

"It's okay, it's all over."

Ji Ziyang wanted to hug Wei Xi, but he was afraid of making him unhappy, so he could only half hug Wei Xi's shoulder and pat him comfortingly, then turned his head to look at the house, and said firmly, "Go, Let's get out of here."

Wei Xi nodded, and let Ji Ziyang take him by the arm and lead him out.

The autumn wind was picking up, and the desolate courtyard was covered with withered and yellow leaves. The gloomy-looking small building finally showed peace under the warm sunlight.

The misfortune that fell here has dissipated, and the stories that belong here will continue elsewhere.

While sitting in the car, Ji Ziyang once again said to Wei Xi solemnly, "I'm serious, if you agree, I'll burn this place down for you right now."

Wei Xi smiled helplessly, "...stop making trouble."

"real."

"...I'm also serious, it's fine."

Wei Xi turned her head to the side, her eyes neither confused nor dodged, she just said to Ji Ziyang seriously, "Thank you, Ji Ziyang."

"For so long, I have caused you trouble."

Ji Ziyang was taken aback when he heard the words, then blushed again in the next second, and smiled embarrassedly, "What are you talking about, don't be so polite to me."

Wei Xi gave Ji Ziyang a faint smile, then turned his head to look out the window and stopped talking.

On the way back, the two passed by the Wangchuan River that runs through their hometown.

The Qingqing River stretches into the distance, and a small blue fish swims against the current, flicking its tail vigorously and returning from the distance.When it finally recognized the piece of hometown that belonged to him and found the herring that was wandering in place, the endless joy rippled and spread around them along the water.

The little fish tried its best to swing its fins to swim around the other little fish, but that little fish just stared at it blankly, and then dived into the bottom of the river without looking back.

It no longer recognizes it.

After getting back on track, Ji Ziyang asked Wei Xi, "How much do you remember?"

There was a hint of worry mixed in the tone, but also faintly contained a look of expectation.

At that time, Wei Xi was drawing a picture. Hearing Ji Ziyang ask him this, the paintbrush in his hand dropped, "...Only the day when the accident happened."

The small spark that had just ignited weakened, leaving only sporadic sparks lingering.

"I saw a young man who couldn't see clearly... Later I realized that that young man was me." Wei Xi tried hard to recall the fragments that appeared in his mind, "I recalled many messy pictures..."

Mars has a tendency to start a prairie fire again...

"...But there's nothing about you there."

Ji Ziyang pursed his mouth, and spread out on the sofa with a melancholy expression.That insignificant little spark finally dimmed.

All that Wei Xi could think of was only around the day when the accident happened.Even if there are many memories different from that day, they always only revolve around the self that left him behind.Wei Xi didn't understand why. In his memory, he had never met Ji Ziyang.

And Ji Ziyang couldn't figure it out, he could only guess that it might have something to do with amnesia and recovery of memory, maybe in the future, Wei Xi will always remember the day.

Regarding Wei Xi's mother, Ji Ziyang also talked with Wei Xi.

"...don't have to tell her I'm thinking about it."

"why?"

Ji Ziyang was not surprised by Wei Xi's choice, but just curious why, "Actually, now that things have happened, you may just have a talk."

Wei Xi thought about it, then shook her head, "There's nothing to talk about."

Some things just happened, although there is no way to say whose fault it is, and maybe everyone is a victim, but the damage caused will always be here, and if it is mentioned again, it will be a kind of torture for everyone.

Ji Ziyang thought this was called evasion, but Wei Xi still insisted on his own idea.

"I don't hate her, and I don't blame her," Wei Xi raised her eyes, tried to force a smile, and still hesitated when speaking, "I know, she doesn't want me to think about it, it's for my own good ...but I feel that if I really think about it, she might not know how to face me."

After hearing this, Ji Ziyang sighed slowly. Didn't he always say that Wei Xi was dull and not as sensitive as a child of his age?

In fact, they are all wrong, this person who has always been taciturn may be more slender than anyone else.

Because Wei Jiale is such a gentle person.

"So... Maybe it's the best choice for us to let her think that I can't remember."

Ji Ziyang nodded and patted Wei Xi on the shoulder, "Then don't think about the past anymore, just forget about them."

Wei Xi also nodded along with Ji Ziyang, and there seemed to be nothing wrong with her expression.

But after all, Ji Ziyang still inevitably cared about Wei Xi's every move all the time, even a little more than before.It seemed that as a friend, he was afraid that Wei Xi would still be troubled by nightmares, but to Wei Xi, this worry seemed a bit... troublesome, but he didn't know how to tell Ji Ziyang.

Ji Ziyang is a bit like the beginning again. After learning that Wei Xi has recovered part of his memory, he slowly begins to believe that one day Wei Xi will remember everything, so one day, Wei Xi will change back to what he wanted. That Wei Jiale was with him.

So this confidence and concern made Ji Ziyang more and more powerful towards Wei Xi.It wasn't about being aggressive in treatment, but... the aggressiveness that made Wei Xi feel a little breathless was revealed again.

Ji Ziyang seemed to regard him as Wei Jiale again, something that belonged to him personally.

This made Wei Xi feel a little conflicted.

In fact, he also understood Ji Ziyang's worry about him, and he also understood Ji Ziyang's kindness to him, but he understood why Ji Ziyang was so kind to him.It was precisely because he knew everything that he felt that Ji Ziyang's affection for him had gradually become a burden.

It was a feeling that he couldn't respond to. He clearly knew what kind of eyes the other party was looking at him. If he still let it go and just ignored it, wouldn't he be too selfish?

If you can't give the other party what they want, then it's better to let him go earlier.

"Do you... want to continue treating me?"

So during the meal, Wei Xi took the initiative to ask Ji Ziyang.

"what?"

There is a lot of people around, no matter spring, summer, autumn or winter, this time-honored hot pot restaurant is always very lively.

"Restore my memory for me."

Wei Xi raised her voice slightly.

Ji Ziyang froze for a moment with a vegetable leaf in his mouth, "... Would you like it?"

"Of course, I don't care anymore."

Wei Xi is in good condition recently. Although she is still as dazed as before, compared to when she was confused about the memory in her head before, both her spirit and mood have obviously recovered quite well now.

It's just that his complexion is still not very good, and the dark circles under his eyes are still quite heavy.

"Although everything I don't understand has been clarified, I don't have anything to worry about." Wei Xi said in a slow tone while drinking the dipping sauce in the bowl, "But if you still want me to restore my memory , I am willing to cooperate with you."

Ji Ziyang was never surprised by Wei Xi's obedience, but he was a little surprised by Wei Xi's initiative.When did it start that the child who had always been submissive seemed to start to look forward to it?

"... After all, you helped me in the past," Wei Xi hesitated, not knowing what to say, "I... thank you very much..."

Ah, did you mean to say thank you?

So I want to remember and fulfill the promise that Ji Ziyang mentioned to him before?

If Wei Xi can remember and accept Ji Ziyang's apology, then Ji Ziyang can leave without any worries, and will never disturb his life again.

Ji Ziyang smiled, "Okay, since you said so."

Saying this, he observed Wei Xi's expression.

Wei Xi seemed quite satisfied with the answer, and continued throwing slices of meat into the hot pot on his own.

"Actually, I'm quite satisfied with your current state. I really hesitated before whether I should help you remember it, but you have remembered the worst part yourself, so there is no need to worry about the rest."

Wei Xi nodded with her mouth pursed, wiping her mouth with paper every time she took a bite.

Every time Ji Ziyang sees this kind of habit that he has had since he was a child, he will definitely believe that the guy in front of him is Wei Jiale.

What if Wei Xi couldn't remember?

For the person in front of him, living like this is really not a problem. It seems normal and healthy, except for the loss of childhood memories, but it will not have any impact on future life at all, isn't it nothing?

But is such a person, can Ji Ziyang accept it?

The doubts that had arisen in his heart reappeared again, he couldn't forget the strangeness in Wei Xi's eyes, and he couldn't forget how big the gap was between Wei Xi and Wei Jiale in the past.

The same person is like two different people, obviously there is only one person sitting in front of him and eating meat, but he is torn in two by Ji Ziyang's feeling, one is the current Wei Xi, and the other is the past Wei Jiale.

If you don't think about whether Wei Xi can accept him, it's the "evolved version of Wei Jiale" now, can he accept it?

The answer should obviously be, as long as he is Wei Jiale, he will love no matter what he becomes, right?

This looks like true love.

But why, do you feel that something is missing?

Ji Ziyang couldn't help but sighed softly, struggling with his complicated feelings.

But he was soon relieved, and after thinking of another question, he couldn't help laughing like a self-deprecating one.

Even if it is such an "evolved version of Wei Jiale" that can be touched by reaching out, he can't get his hands on it at all!He already has someone he likes, so what's wrong with getting him to comment on Wei Xi and feel it?

Thinking about it this way, if Wei Xi could remember the past, would he really choose himself as he thought?That guy named Ji Changsi, what if Wei Xi regains his memory and turns back to the old Wei Jiale, and still likes the current Ji Changsi?

After all, Ji Changsi has always been by his side for the past ten years.

And Ji Ziyang himself didn't even know if Wei Jiale liked him back then. He didn't confess his love to others back then, and he was only 14 years old when they separated. It may be a problem whether you know what it means to "like a boy", so people may not have such feelings for him at all.

So, can he, a bamboo horse, compete with Ji Changsi?

Ji Ziyang felt a little guilty, was Wei Jiale angry with him?What if he was still angry with himself after recovering his memory?

Ji Ziyang was taken aback by this question. If this is the case, wouldn't he be too disadvantaged?Compared with a guy who "abandoned" Wei Jiale and a guy who has been with Wei Jiale through thick and thin, is it obvious which one he would choose?

"Have you eaten yet?"

Holding the chopsticks, Wei Xi looked suspiciously at Ji Ziyang, whose face turned green and pale, as if he could barely sit still.

"...Huh? This is where it is. Two more plates of meat."

Ji Ziyang took a sip of beer to suppress his shock, lifted his chopsticks and shook his legs for a while, then suddenly raised his head and asked Wei Xi, "By the way, so many things happened to you, does your little classmate Ji Changsi know?"

Wei Xi gave Ji Ziyang a silent look, he didn't expect that Ji Ziyang would take the initiative to ask about Ji Changsi, and he felt a little disgusted by Ji Ziyang's slightly contemptuous "Ji Changsi's little classmate", so he replied dryly, "Of course I know. "

"You told him everything?"

"kindness."

"How did he say?"

"...didn't say anything," Wei Xi wiped her mouth with a tissue, lowered her eyes but couldn't hide the tenderness that came with mentioning that guy, "he just told me to live well no matter what happened. "

Ji Ziyang was taken aback for a moment, then remembered that Wei Xi had mentioned to him about suicide in high school, and his heart sank suddenly.

In some respects, he seems to be doing nothing like Ji Changsi, okay...

"what happened?"

"No, it's nothing." Ji Ziyang smiled bitterly, "So you recovered pretty well, I mean, after you think about it, you don't have the excitement and trouble I imagined."

Wei Xi also nodded when she heard the words, acquiescing to what Ji Ziyang said.

"...Is he... really nice to you?"

Ji Ziyang played with the matchbox on the table, pretending to be casual, he guessed that Wei Xi would nod silently, and then said, yes.

"Without him, I wouldn't be who I am now."

But it was rare for Wei Xi to answer completely. He lowered his head, as if recalling the past with Ji Changsi, "Without him, I might have died long ago."

Ji Ziyang looked at Wei Xi, nodded silently, his eyes hurt a little from the hot blood from the hot pot, and felt that Wei Xi's words were a little harsh on his ears.

It happened that the waiter came to serve the meat, so Ji Ziyang said to the waiter weakly, as if seeing a savior, "Hurry up and have two more bottles of beer."

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If possible, can you let me know, so far, who do you like more?

(Although whoever I like more can't affect the determined direction and ending OJZ