dreamer

When Ji Changsi woke up from his dream, it was already dawn.

I don't know when I fell asleep, and I finally returned to this familiar place, but I couldn't find the guy I was thinking of, but I saw the stranger who broke into here.

Ji Changsi recalled what happened before he fell asleep, then straightened up from the table, rubbed his sore arms, moved his stiff neck, got up, walked to the sofa, squatted down, and carefully observed a man lying on the ground. The motionless man.

Fortunately, the "illegal trespasser" is still there, which means he didn't sleep for a long time this time.

The "illegal intruder" in front of him was a guy he didn't recognize at all, his eyes were closed tightly, and his hands were tied behind his back with tape.Of course, this is Ji Changsi's masterpiece, and he still remembers that he beat this man unconscious last night with his own hands.

But when he saw the face of the visitor clearly, Ji Changsi's eyes widened instantly.

Although he didn't know the "trespasser," he couldn't say he had never seen him.

He knew who this person was, his name was Ji Ziyang, and he had seen him before.

Then, while being surprised at why Ji Ziyang came here, Ji Changsi began to seriously consider whether to give him another blow to his head.

Who is Ji Ziyang?

his rival.

Where is this place?

Wei Xi's bedroom.

What time is it now?

Late at night.

Why did Ji Ziyang come here?

……

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! ! ! ! ! !

Ji Changsi bit his fingers and thought for a while, then dragged Ji Ziyang to the floor in front of the sofa in the living room, and then found a bundle of tape to tie him up.

The above is all the plot that happened last night.

Ji Changsi patted Ji Ziyang's face, and the other party just snorted softly and then the sound was silent, leaving only regular breathing, and there was no sign of waking up at all.

It's really rare that I can sleep so soundly under such "difficult" conditions.

Ji Changsi smiled contemptuously, continued rubbing his shoulders and stood up, walked to the window and stretched his waist towards the sun.

How long has it been since you saw it?sun.

Ji Changsi himself can't figure out the exact date, even though it feels like it's been a little longer this time, but time has never been a thing for him. Anyway, since he can remember, his world has been full of too many unexplainable things. things.He too had been full of doubts, panicked by situations that seemed overwhelming.But as time passed, he gradually got used to all of this, especially after meeting a guy who looked worse than him, he learned not to care about those "insignificant" things.

Anyway, he can still feel the world as he is now, anyway, no matter how confused he is, he can still see the lovely sun, wouldn't that be great?

What's more, anyway, in this world, there is already something more worthy of his attention, isn't there?

Ji Changsi tidied up briefly, and when he passed the living room, he glanced at the sleeping Ji Ziyang again, and then left the place without looking back.

How long has he been here?

Wei Xi's refrigerator is almost empty, and he needs to help him buy something to eat. That guy doesn't know how to take good care of himself. For Ji Changsi, who is also incapable of taking good care of himself, try to do what he can It has become a living habit.

The supermarket is full of beautiful things. Ji Changsi held the shopping basket, scanned the rows of shelves, and picked out what he wanted.When passing by the deli area, a young saleswoman gave him a shy smile.Then he also smiled at her, meeting her every time he came, he was an old acquaintance whose name he didn't know.

There are many such old acquaintances, such as the proprietress of the small supermarket at the entrance of the community, the children who often play football with him in the park, and the bartender in the bar he often goes to.

His time is limited, and he doesn't have the ability to contact many people and have many friends like ordinary people, but he is already very content with being able to establish such interpersonal relationships in this strange world.

Ji Changsi is a very strange guy, he had such a recognition of himself very early on.

who I am?Where do I come from?Where am I going?

Philosophers are always thinking about these three questions, and Ji Changsi is always thinking about these three questions.

It's just that he is not a philosopher, and his original intention of thinking about these three issues is also different from theirs.

He really had a self-doubt on a very superficial level about who he is.

Regarding his own background, Ji Changsi has certain cognitions, for example, he knows his name, for example, he knows that his father is an engineer, for example, he knows that his mother is a strong woman, and for example, they all went there when he was young distance.

And he also knew that he had been to a distant place before. He remembered that when he left Wei Xi for the first time, it was because of that reason that he wanted to leave this place with his parents.

He knew that he had gone to a new school, because his father was an engineer, so he also chose an engineering major when he was in college... Wait, etc., he knows a lot about himself.

It's just that those cognitions are still too vague for Ji Changsi, and he has never been able to delve into them. Every time he doubts himself, his head hurts like it's about to split.

Immediately afterwards, he would fall into a boundless dreamland.When he opened his eyes again, he was still Ji Changsi, seeing a completely different environment from before he fell asleep, and sometimes even couldn't tell whether he was in a dream or in reality, just like that stumbling around looking for a way to let him know. The way to live by yourself.

Ji Changsi also thought about giving up. Every time before falling asleep, he hoped that he would never wake up again.

Because he found that he could never keep up with the pace of the world.

Those times that disappeared without knowing when, those situations that seemed completely disordered, he was different from others, and his experience was also different from others.He still can't remember many things and things. The whole world is like a fragmented oil painting to him. He doesn't know when he will pick up one of the fragments. I don't know when it will be messed up again.

Ji Changsi was going crazy.

But in the end he still stood here.

Because he can always hear someone calling him from afar.

Every time he heard that familiar voice in his dream, he would feel that it was the only destination of his soul.

Meeting Wei Xi was the only thing he felt lucky about.

Wei Xi always told him that he was the one who saved him.

But he never told Wei Xi, in fact, if it wasn't for Wei Xi, he might not be much better than the one who wanted to die back then.

And he never told Wei Xi that he had always liked him.

Although he has also bullied him, such as intimidation in disguise, such as brainwashing for personal purposes.He felt sorry for Wei Xi, and he didn't allow others to bully him.But he also likes Wei Xi when he is weak, even if a boy always sheds tears in front of him, it doesn't matter, he doesn't feel disgusted at all, he loves Wei Xi who is willing to reveal everything to him.

It's just that he won't tell Wei Xi about these things.

Although Ji Changsi's life is very chaotic, he has also touched this world, he has seen many people and things, of course, he has also seen many beautiful girls.

From a long time ago, he learned to go to nightclubs. For himself who was not used to being confused at the time, it was a very suitable place to vent his emotions.

He likes a place where it's hard to tell day from night, he likes loud music and blinding lights, a place where he never has to say who he is or who anyone else is, he likes to see Seeing that everything around him lost his way like him, and then fell into a pile of loose sand.

He has tasted luxury and luxury; he has not never seen a beautiful big sister.

But no matter how expensive the lip balm is, it will never taste so good.

He still prefers the clean corners of his lips, which are slightly upturned even when he is not smiling, and then he will start thinking about how good-looking that guy would be if he could smile.

He wanted Wei Xi to smile more, since the first time he saw him, he wanted him to smile.

When he saw Wei Xi pointing the knife at his neck, he couldn't help jumping out.

He didn't want to watch him die, and even more later, he didn't want Wei Xi to stay alone in this world, just like himself.

He is flawed, and so is Wei Xi, they are not like ordinary people.

So from then on, Ji Changsi learned not to care about his original confusion and confusion about the world, because he needed to become stronger, because he had someone he wanted to protect.

Wei Xi's appearance made him look forward to this world.

He finally got a reason to let himself live.

If only everything could go on so simply.

Ji Changsi carried his things, opened the door of the house, and met the guy who woke up at some point.

It's a pity that there are always troublemakers who want to harm them.

Ji Ziyang was sitting on the ground, leaning on the sofa and looking at Ji Changsi who had just entered the door.

Then he was stunned for two seconds, and immediately shouted at Ji Changsi anxiously, "Come and help me untie it, and then call the police! Call the police first! A burglar has broken into your house!"

Ji Changsi was still thinking about how to communicate "friendly" with this rival in love, but when he heard Ji Ziyang's super-familiar tone, he was stunned for a moment, and then changed his mind and changed into a mentally ill person. Expression, "Are you okay? Sober?"

The tone is not kind, half teasing and half gunpowder.

Then Ji Ziyang was obviously taken aback, and even stopped struggling, as if he had discovered something that shocked him and was very novel, he looked at Ji Changsi with a probing look.

"Wei Xi..."

Ji Changsi glanced at Ji Ziyang, ignored him, locked the door of the house, then walked into the kitchen next to him and put the things in his hand on the ground.After he put the food he bought back into the refrigerator, he changed his shoes and walked into the living room, sat down on the sofa in front of Ji Ziyang, then took out a pack of cigarettes from the bottom of the coffee table, and popped one into his mouth neatly Here, he glanced at Ji Ziyang before lighting the fire.

"Do you want it?"

Then Ji Changsi saw that Ji Ziyang's expression became more complicated, and his whole face was turning green against the miserable appearance of the hangover.

"Ah, I forgot, you are still tied."

Ji Ziyang's pupils tightened, "You tied me up?"

"It's me, what's the matter?"

"...do you know how to smoke?"

Ji Changsi snorted softly, lit a cigarette and took a puff on his own, then leaned on the sofa with his legs crossed, "Huh?"

Ji Ziyang looked at Ji Changsi expressionlessly, and said calmly, "When did you learn to smoke?"

"It's as if you know me?"

"...Shouldn't I know you?"

Ji Changsi smiled when he heard this, "Then it seems that you know who I am?"

Ji Ziyang swallowed visibly, his heart almost jumped out of his throat, "... who are you?"

"Do you want me to introduce myself?" Ji Changsi looked at Ji Ziyang with a half-smile, and flicked the cigarette ash again, "I am Ji Changsi."

I thought that when he said this, based on his understanding of Ji Ziyang, this person would definitely show some hostility towards him.

It's just that the imaginary hostility was not seen, and Ji Changsi only noticed that Ji Ziyang's face became more and more strange. How should I describe it, he seemed stupid, and he seemed to be struck by lightning. After all, it was a very special kind of astonishment.

"...Wait a minute, let me slow down for a while."

Ji Ziyang lowered his head, as if he was thinking hard about something.

Ji Changsi was not in a hurry, he just sat and smoked while watching Ji Ziyang.

I saw Ji Ziyang helplessly raised his head up to the sky for a while, smiled wryly, lowered his eyes and shook his head in confusion, his eyes were sometimes shocked, sometimes frightened, in short, he was not normal.

Then he kept muttering in his mouth, "It's wrong...it's all wrong...it turns out to be like this...it was wrong from the beginning..."

Ji Changsi looked at it for a while, and wondered if the attack was too ruthless last night, making this man stupid.

"...Are you okay?" Then he couldn't help but ask Ji Ziyang, "Are you here for the Beijing Film Academy? Isn't this facial expression too rich?"

Ji Ziyang squinted his eyes and scanned Ji Changsi up and down, then turned his face away with an unacceptable expression, "My brother... please forgive me..."

Ji Changsi was very dissatisfied with Ji Ziyang's attitude, "Can you speak human language? If you don't sober up, I will help you sleep for a while?"

As he said that, he made a gesture to copy the ashtray and hit him again.

Ji Ziyang quickly shrank back, he finally knew what happened last night before the moment.

"You wait, you wait."

Ji Ziyang took a deep breath, as if he had made up his mind, he met Ji Changsi's eyes again, "You said you were Ji Changsi?"

"Do you still need to confirm like this? Isn't it the first time we have met?"

Ji Changsi looked at Ji Ziyang meaningfully.

Ji Ziyang thought for a while, and then showed a suddenly realized expression, "Ah...I remembered."

Ji Ziyang finally understood what was going on with the strange and hostile gaze he had seen before.

"If it wasn't for treating Wei Xi, maybe I would have had the chance to see you sooner..."

"What did you say?"

"Huh? No, it's nothing." Ji Ziyang licked his lips, wanted to move but couldn't move, "Can you let me go?"

"No."

"Why?" Ji Ziyang looked at Ji Changsi awkwardly, his eyes were complicated, as if he was looking at someone familiar, but he spoke with a bit of alienation, just like a stranger who met for the first time, "Yesterday You still beat me, right? Don't worry, let me go quickly, for...for Wei Xi's sake...I won't do anything to you."

"Begging for help is not such a way of asking for the law." Ji Changsi also sneered, "Besides, what else can you do to me? You deserve the beating."

When Ji Ziyang heard this, he was going to be angry, "Why do I deserve it?"

"What did you want to do in Wei Xi's bedroom last night?"

Ji Changsi looked at Ji Ziyang with disgust, Ji Ziyang was taken aback when he heard the words, and tried hard to recall what he could still remember last night.

Then after a while, Ji Ziyang pursed his lips and looked at the ceiling with a particularly elegant expression, "...well..."

"...I should fucking kill you right away."

Ji Changsi gritted his teeth as he said, Ji Ziyang glanced at Ji Changsi, although there was still anger on his face, but also a little guilty.

"I...I went to his bedroom, what's the matter? I'll see if he's sleeping or kicking the quilt. Is there something wrong?"

Ji Changsi glared at Ji Ziyang silently.

Ji Ziyang pursed his mouth and held back for a while, "Okay, maybe it's just a small idea...I drank too much..."

After finishing speaking, Ji Ziyang carefully looked at Ji Changsi's face for a while, and then asked him softly, "Dude, can you let me go first."

"No."

"Really can't?"

"No."

"Are you going to tie me up like this forever?"

"Can't you?"

"Okay," Ji Ziyang leaned back on the sofa with a long voice, and said with a half-smile, "You...haven't seen Wei Xi lately, have you?"

Ji Changsi's eyes flashed when he heard the words, and his mouth tightened.

"How about it, let me go first, I will never do anything," Ji Ziyang smiled, and still looked at Ji Changsi with a relaxed face, "Then let's have a good talk?"

It looks like a particularly rascal.

The author has something to say:

When looking at this section of Ji Changsi, you should take Ji Ziyang back then to watch it together, but it cannot be completely regarded as a copy of Ji Ziyang, because Ji Changsi is indeed an independent personality, even though he was born on the basis of Ji Ziyang, but as a personality , his...development?evolution?Or grow?is independent.

Each personality of multiple personalities is an independent soul, they just happen to live in the same body.

So no matter subjective or objective, Ji Changsi must be viewed as a person.

Probably, above.

I wish you all a happy Chinese New Year and good luck in everything!