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"We were all wrong."

When meeting Xu Fei, Ji Ziyang's first words were to tell him that we were all wrong.

At this time, Wei Xi was sitting on a bed in a ward, and the nurse was examining him step by step, while Ji Ziyang and Xu Fei stood outside, looking at him through the transparent glass, with expressions that could not be described as relaxed.

When Xu Fei heard about such a thing, he couldn't help but suddenly realized, and felt that he was short-sighted.

"So, this also explains why he sleeps in such a way, but he always looks like he lacks sleep."

"Because he did sleep, but his body didn't rest," Ji Ziyang sighed, "Wei Xi fell asleep, but Ji Changsi woke up. Fortunately, I paid attention to the time when Ji Changsi appeared as a sub-personality, and according to I guessed from my previous memory that he didn't appear very frequently, and he didn't threaten Wei Xi's main control over this body as the protagonist."

"But... as the main personality, it is generally impossible to perceive the existence of the sub-personality. If there are double or more personalities, I don't doubt that there will be perception between the sub-personalities, but Wei Xi's situation..."

Ji Ziyang couldn't help but feel a little suspicious when he heard the words, "And it's strange, Wei Xi was able to communicate with Ji Changsi before, but after taking the medicine, he couldn't see Ji Changsi anymore."

"...Does Ji Changsi know about his relationship with Wei Xi?"

"No, he didn't realize it, and neither of them can perceive each other now."

"...Is it a hallucination?" Xu Fei bit his finger and pondered, "Multiple personalities may be accompanied by schizophrenia symptoms. For example, the space in which the patient communicates with the sub-personality and the people they see each other are actually mental. Contact, not contact in reality, that is just an illusion that exists in the mind..."

Ji Ziyang was silent and did not speak.

"What are you going to do?" Xu Fei paused for a while, then turned to look at Ji Ziyang and asked, "Should I tell Wei Xi first?"

"No, don't do it yet," Ji Ziyang lowered his head and thought, "I'm not sure if Wei Xi can accept this. To be honest, I didn't tell you before that he couldn't accept that Ji Changsi was an illusion, let alone now..."

Xu Fei lowered his eyes and smiled. Although he didn't answer the question, he obviously knew it already.

But when asked whether he could accept such a fact, Xu Fei couldn't help reminding Ji Ziyang, "...Wei Xi likes that guy very much, right? Ji Changsi."

Ji Ziyang's eyes weakened, and he replied softly, "Yes."

"That's why it's happening now."

Xu Fei said so, then turned to look at Wei Xi in the ward.

"What do you mean?"

Ji Ziyang asked puzzled.

"Isn't it? The encounter between personalities is mostly accompanied by reduction."

Ji Ziyang nodded knowingly, and couldn't help sighing again.

In the past, when treating patients with multiple personality disorder, doctors would choose hypnotherapy to summon the sub-personality and build a bridge between each personality. It will cause a certain degree of attenuation, especially when you know that the existence of the other party is a threat to your control over this body... It is a means of treating multiple personalities in a attenuated way.

But later, with the development of medicine and the exploration of multiple personality disorders, people found that whenever such rigid means are used to reduce personality, the side effect is that the birth of a new personality may be ushered in at any time.

Therefore, the most common way to treat multiple personality nowadays is to replace and reduce, to find the connection between the sub-personality and the main personality, to dig out the experience of the main personality and the reason for the birth of the sub-personality, and to integrate the similarities between the personalities.

"So, when are you going to start the treatment of personality integration?" Xu Fei asked Ji Ziyang again, "You know, no matter what, the two personalities met without guidance and have not been accompanied by attenuation. Why... "

Why is this?

Ji Ziyang looked at Xu Fei silently, but did not speak.

Of course he knew the answer to this question, Wei Xi and Ji Changsi met, but no personality died out, it was because they fell in love.

It's just that Ji Ziyang couldn't say this because he didn't want to accept this fact.

His rival in love has changed from an illusion to a real personality, and that personality lives in the body of the person he likes.

When I was in college, I learned a lot about multiple personality cases, and it’s not that I haven’t talked with my friends about how to treat a personality.

Countless scholars are arguing about it every day, because how to treat patients with multiple personality disorder and each of their sub-personalities involves many fields, including sociology, philosophy, law, medicine, and so on.For example, whether each personality is considered a person, how to define a personality, how to popularize the concept to the society, how to establish laws based on this concept, and how to establish an appropriate concept to treat such a person and personality.

You can treat a personality as a person, but this personality coexists with other personalities in a body, just like there are many souls living in a body, each of which is an independent individual.So if one of the personalities breaks the law, who should bear the responsibility?Is it the main personality of this body, or the sub-personality who committed the crime?Should the sub-personality be punished, or should the body take the responsibility?

And as a doctor who treats multiple personalities, is it killing people while reducing personality?

Everyone has a different opinion on this, and everyone has a reason for it.

But Ji Ziyang has never been overly confused by this. He always believes that each personality should be treated as an independent person, and they just happen to live in the same body.

Although the so-called integration mentioned in the later treatment, each personality is indeed born due to the early experience and trauma of the main personality, and they are all part of the main personality.But regardless of the cause of birth, each personality is independent in the later development process, they are all formed through self-improvement, and any of their thoughts, concepts, and actions cannot be determined by anyone. A personality, including the main personality, can be controlled.

Just like the birth of a person is created by the combination of father and mother, each of us inherits a part of our parents.Each of us can be regarded as a continuation of the life of our parents, and each of our children also represents the continuation of each of us.

But because of this, can we be regarded as a replica of our parents?Are our children also ourselves?

The so-called father's debt is paid by the son, but must the parents of the murderer also be the murderer?

Ji Ziyang has always felt that every personality needs to be respected as an independent person.

But now this kind of thing happened to him. In the past, standing and talking didn't hurt his back, but now when the person in front of him, even the person he has always loved, has become such an existence, he began to ponder in his mind again. These are concepts that have been thought about countless times in the past.

Xu Fei suggested to stop the medicine that Wei Xi had been taking, because it seemed to have an isolation effect on the contact between Wei Xi and Ji Changsi. He thought that if the two personalities continued to contact before effective integration, there might be some unexpected surprises Discovery, for example, about the birth reason of Ji Changsi's sub-personality, maybe some clues can be found.

Ji Ziyang has reservations about this, not because he has any new ideas, but because he doesn't know what to do.

When he got home, he looked through the treatment records he had done to Wei Xi over and over again, and even shared it with Xu Fei, asking him to look for clues with him.

It's just that the sharing seems to have some meaning of shirking responsibility.

Ji Ziyang has always been a little restless, unable to calm down and look at Wei Xi from a calm and objective perspective.Maybe he is still not professional enough, he just can't treat Wei Xi and Ji Changsi like other patients.

The views on how to look at a personality that I mentioned before are constantly lingering in his mind every day. In the past, he thought that Ji Changsi was just an illusion caused by schizophrenia, and he was a guy imagined by Wei Xi, so he didn't care about Ji Changsi's existence.

But it's different now, with a change in the concept and a different way of looking at it, Ji Ziyang couldn't help but feel an inexplicable resistance to Ji Changsi while trying to help Wei Xi.

Ji Changsi appeared twice more, and each time he happened to slip out under Ji Ziyang's nose.

Ji Ziyang also used Wei Xi as a bargaining chip to blackmail Ji Changsi, and even threw out conditions that might provide them with a chance to meet to get Ji Changsi to lie down, close his eyes quietly, listen to his instructions, and enter a hypnotic state.

Ji Ziyang asked Ji Changsi many questions. Originally, he just wanted to analyze Ji Changsi's personality and find similarities between him and Wei Xi.

But during the treatment, whenever Ji Changsi talked about "getting along" with Wei Xi, Ji Ziyang felt a kind of invisible anger from the bottom of his heart.

Then he turned around, and when he asked Wei Xi for those clues, Wei Xi's longing for Ji Changsi would turn into a thorn again, piercing deeply into Ji Ziyang's heart.

Whether it is Ji Ziyang, Wei Xi or Ji Changsi, this kind of treatment process is a torment for everyone.

I don't know how long the days have passed, and the streets and alleys are already covered in silver.

Xu Fei took Wei Xi's latest physical examination and asked Ji Ziyang, "You haven't stopped his medication yet, have you?"

Ji Ziyang glanced at Xu Fei, "Yes."

"I don't object to you not stopping the medicine, but don't tell me you didn't control the dose?"

Ji Ziyang pursed his lips, turned his head away, unable to look into Xu Fei's eyes.

"What on earth are you thinking?" Xu Fei frowned and stared at Ji Ziyang for a while, then suddenly thought of something, and asked Ji Ziyang in a softer tone, "Are you okay recently? Is there something on your mind? Do you want to have a drink at night? Let's chat?"

"Stop it."

Ji Ziyang snorted contemptuously in his heart, what happened to him?Want to teach him a lesson?Still want to talk to him?Technical discussion?Give him psychological counseling?Heh, it's not certain who will tutor whom by then, so don't come here.

But Ji Ziyang obviously didn't show any such feeling, he just met Xu Fei's gaze as usual, and patted him on the shoulder frankly, "I didn't reduce the dose, but I didn't give him more, you What’s the rush, don’t worry, if you definitely don’t think you need to eat it, I won’t give it to him.”

Xu Fei looked at Ji Ziyang, then looked at the data that did not exceed the normal level, and finally heaved a sigh of relief from the standpoint of trusting his friends.

"Take your medicine."

But before going to bed, Ji Ziyang handed the water glass and pills to Wei Xi.

Wei Xi looked at Ji Ziyang puzzled, her voice was small and timid, "I...haven't I proved that I'm not sick...why do I still have to take medicine?"

Ji Ziyang put away the not-so-glamorous calculations in his heart without any trace, and stuffed the pills into Wei Xi's hands, "Well...but won't you still sleep for a long time? Continuing to take the medicine is also good for this, not just for those... Anyway, eat it, I won't hurt you."

Wei Xi silently looked at the medicine in his hand, then at Ji Ziyang, and finally put the medicine into his mouth under the silent gaze.

Ji Ziyang looked at Wei Xi who fell into a deep sleep shortly after taking the medicine, walked out expressionlessly, and closed the bedroom door.

In the past, he would still care about whether such medicines would stimulate Wei Xi's body, but now he doesn't seem to care much about those things. Even if Wei Xi's body develops resistance to the medicine in the future, before he successfully makes Ji Changsi disappear, he won't worry about it. Other drugs can be obtained to prevent any chance of Wei Xi meeting Ji Changsi.

Whether it will affect the body function, or will it make Wei Xi's perception and senses more dull, Ji Ziyang sometimes even thinks darkly, even if Wei Xi abolishes him, he can still take care of him for the rest of his life.

He could accept his Wei Jiale becoming whatever he wanted, but he couldn't accept that his Wei Jiale fell in love with anyone other than himself.

But one morning, when Ji Ziyang called Wei Xi many times but failed to wake him up, Ji Ziyang panicked all of a sudden.

He quickly rolled over Wei Xi's eyelids, checked Wei Xi's pulse, then hugged Wei Xi tightly in his arms, patted his face over and over again, and kept calling him, "Wake up, Wei Xi? Wake up?"

After an unknown amount of time, Wei Xi, who was in a coma, slowly woke up.

After Wei Xi opened her eyes, the first thing she said was, "...I don't want to take medicine anymore."

"Don't eat, don't eat."

Ji Ziyang hugged the still drowsy Wei Xi, his eyes were sore.

He's going crazy.

He really didn't know what to do.

Wei Xi's medicine was finally stopped.

But Ji Ziyang couldn't let Wei Xi out of his sight for a moment.

He was very worried, worried that Wei Xi would see that Ji Changsi again sooner or later.

He tried to dissuade Ji Changsi, and when Ji Changsi reappeared, he advised him, "Can you...can you stop looking for Wei Xi?"

It was in a very sober state, Ji Ziyang was doing talk therapy with Ji Changsi.

"why?"

"Wei Xi is not suitable for emotional agitation. It is best to stay in a state where there are no waves. I am afraid that he will be too happy to see you... So can you please stop thinking about looking for him in a short time?"

Ji Changsi lowered his head with a complicated expression, as if he didn't know what to do.

Until the end, Ji Changsi did not give Ji Ziyang a clear answer.

Seeing Wei Xi's withdrawal time getting longer and longer, Ji Ziyang calculated how long it would take until the two of them meet again, and at the same time calculated a bolder idea.

So before he was ready for the integrated treatment, Ji Ziyang wanted to take the risk. He wanted to try to give Ji Changsi a chance to kill himself.

That was the first time he tried to summon Ji Changsi by hypnotizing Wei Xi, and he succeeded in one attempt without any preparation.

Ji Changsi opened his eyes in a deep sleep, as if he hadn't woken up from a dream.

Such a calling is dangerous because it has the potential to awaken the personality-to-personality connection, making a personality that does not know that it is just a sub-personality realize what it is, and then be dangerous to other personalities.

But this is Ji Ziyang's purpose at this time, he wants to tell Ji Changsi what he is.

Maybe when Wei Xi just remembered what happened before he lost his memory, he didn't dare to do this, because he was not sure about one thing at that time.But through the contact with Ji Changsi during this period, he already has enough reasons to confirm that matter.

If Ji Changsi was told that there could only be one of him and Wei Xi, he already knew how Ji Changsi would choose.

The big one is that Ji Changsi will "suicide", and the small one is that Ji Changsi will try every means to "kill" Wei Xi.

Ji Ziyang was overwhelmed.

Because he knew that Ji Changsi would not let Wei Xi disappear.