phantom lover

When I woke up, it was [-]:[-] in the morning, and the luminous screen of the electronic clock was the only light source in the room.My head was hurting from drinking too much alcohol, and I couldn't sleep through the headache as if nothing had happened.Putting my body up on my arms and getting out of bed, I staggered to the bathroom, turned on the light, and spit out the wine I drank.The nausea didn't go away. I turned on the faucet, rinsed my mouth, brushed my teeth, and got rid of the nasty breath in my mouth, and then I felt better.

In the early hours of the morning, it was extremely cold, to the point of shivering. I looked up at my face in the mirror, pale and haggard.Suddenly remembered the saying that looking in the mirror at night would be haunted, and then I felt that I was too timid, so I smiled sarcastically, but was frightened by my own superficial smile.Covering your eyes with your hands, lamenting that you are still so useless in your 20s, and you are afraid of looking in the mirror in the middle of the night, what the hell.

"Are you okay?" The sudden voice made me startled.

"It's you again?" My temples began to throb slightly.

"Seeing that you are not feeling well, ask."

After a while of tossing just now, the drowsiness has long since disappeared. I want to have a chat with this guy, at least to find out what's going on with him.I raised my hand to support my temple, "It's just that I drank too much alcohol. But you, who don't sleep most of the night, what are you talking to me about?"

"I, I only slept after the sun came out."

I laughed, "It seems that you are really a ghost, what are you doing with me, and you say I am yours...uh..." The word lover is a bit too formal for me. There is so much tenderness and cherishment, I have a feeling that I can't express it anyway.

"Love." This guy continued my words simply and clearly.Before I could speak, it said, "I want to be with you forever."

I was amused, "Hey, why did you come up and confess your love? I don't even know who you are. It's very embarrassing for me to say such things all of a sudden."

"I'm sorry, I'm taking the liberty. I really can't help it. I've been with you for a long time. I feel very uncomfortable not being able to talk to you. Today I really can't help it."

I was speechless for a while, not knowing what to say, and the conversation was interrupted and fell into silence.

"Are you angry?" the voice sounded again.

"No, I'm a little tired." For some reason, after just saying a few words, I felt the fatigue from the depths of my body, and I planned to hurry up and ask the question that I wanted to ask the most in my heart.

"Can you tell me why you love me?"

I got the answer right away, and the tone was natural and taken for granted, "You are very beautiful and gentle."

"What?" I couldn't help laughing, "Is this a compliment to girls, you..." I found that this ghost has a kind of stupid and aggressive feeling, probably because it is stupid and hardworking.

I thought it would tell me what's good about me, but I didn't expect such a nonsensical answer. I decided to persuade it to leave quickly, "You, don't talk about whether you love me or not. I don't love you."

"But I love you, and you will love me."

This natural tone makes me very dissatisfied, it is almost annoyingly confident.I retorted: "Stop joking, I don't know who you are, where you come from, you don't even have a body, why should I love you?"

He shot back slightly flustered: "Isn't loving someone a love of his soul? I have no name, no entity, so what does it matter? Until you understand me, I won't leave, I will take care of you." You, love you."

"Huh?" This answer really surprised me. I still wanted to say something, but I couldn't resist the deep fatigue.

"I'm going to sleep, tomorrow you..." Before I finished speaking, I felt darkness in front of my eyes, and my body fell backwards uncontrollably. I only heard the sound of a thud and the sound of the floor hitting, and my consciousness was pulled out of my body. Leave.

When I woke up again, it was already afternoon.The setting sun is setting, and the setting sun is like blood.I buried my face in the soft pillow, felt the comfort of it brushing against my face, and suddenly realized that I was on the bed.I was startled, I clearly remembered that I fell to the ground, why did I move my position.I sat up abruptly and got out of bed, wondering if someone had entered the house, but there wasn't.I suspect that it is the ghost of that guy, it can still do this, it seems that I underestimated him.Although I was put on the bed, I was not very happy. I felt offended and uncomfortable.

Looking at the clock, there was supposed to be a party tonight, but I was so distraught by the ghost that I was not in the mood to go out, so I called the organizer and said I was unwell and would be absent.The person on the other end of the phone pestered me for a long time to persuade me. He told me to definitely go. He also said that today we are just drinking tea and talking together, and it is not a physical effort.I don't know if it's because of his age, but this person's mouth is very broken, and he chatters like a gossip. I don't want to interrupt him, so I hooked up the phone line with my fingers in boredom.Finally caught the moment when he paused for breath, I pulled my fingers out of the phone coil and said, "Next time, I'm not feeling well, I'm going to sleep."Immediately afterwards, he hung up the phone and took a long breath, as if he had passed through a catastrophe.

I turned on the computer and was about to play two games to relax. I just clicked on the mouse to start the game, but there was an update. I am a person who always updates every time I update, so I can only stare blankly and wait.I realized that I hadn't eaten anything since last night, so I went to the kitchen, made a simple sandwich, and ate it with black tea, within half an hour.

I sat down in front of the computer contentedly, ready to play, when suddenly the doorbell rang.I am a little melancholy, the melancholy that my wish is not satisfied.I put down the mouse in frustration, walked to the door, and opened it, but the person who came surprised me a little.

"Yo! Leaf stage! Do you miss me?" The man greeted me cheerfully, and shook the bag in his hand at me, which seemed to contain some food.

He is Wang Jiaqi, who used to be one of my many friends, a very lively and cheerful young man.He is about the same age as Little A. We used to play together a lot. I don’t like to talk. I always smile and listen to everyone chatting. The good thing is that maybe he caught the lonely breath that exudes from me. He always likes to take the initiative to talk to me. For a while, I interacted with him quite frequently. In fact, I am a little envious of him. My parents are still alive. , a happy family, and a very outgoing personality.I treated him like a child the whole time.Children are lively, innocent, and vulnerable.For the sake of harmony, I have to coax and protect, and I have said a lot of comforting words that don't distract my heart.Gradually, I found that whenever I had some contact with someone, even in ordinary conversation, he would stand behind me with a dark face and lose his temper with me. I guess it was a child's willful or possessive desire or something. Never mind.Until one day, a friend held a birthday party at home. He didn’t know how much wine he drank, and he got drunk and blocked me under a sycamore tree in the back garden of the villa. He said he loved me and wanted to be an official lover with me.Of course I sternly refused, I am afraid of falling in love, not to mention he is just a child.When I said no, something seemed to be broken in his eyes, and he lost his former brilliance and luster. He lowered his voice and asked me: "We have been together for a long time, but we didn't make it very clear. That's all, I thought you understood! Don't you?" I was taken aback, and quickly said that I only regarded him as a friend and a younger brother.He was furious and asked me why I comforted him when he was jealous, and why I spoke sweet words to him.I shook my head again and again, indicating that he was thinking too much.He stared straight at me, making me hairy. He gritted his teeth and forced out the words "Leaf stage, you shouldn't have lied to me" through his teeth. He stretched out his hand and pressed it against my face. , His hands are very warm, just like his fiery heart, he can't stand a little neglect, otherwise, he will burst into flames and burn others.He looked at me bitterly, I didn't know if I should explain, but even if I wanted to explain, it was just those words, adding fuel to the fire.I could only look at him quietly, and I was flustered by his hurt eyes, so I lowered my head.He called me hypocritical and treated him like a monkey.Before I had time to defend myself, he walked away in a daze.

After that night, he disappeared.

Today, his sudden appearance made me feel a little overwhelmed. At that time, his loneliness was still imprinted in my mind, making me feel like a thorn in my throat.But he was smiling all over his face, and he couldn't see any difference from before, so I reluctantly nodded.He smiled, almost barged in, and closed the door behind him.

I wanted him to leave sooner, but I couldn't say it out. I thought my refusal had hurt him, and I felt guilty.After that incident, Wang Jiaqi never appeared in any public places again, and no one could contact him, including me, as if he had disappeared from the world.There were rumors that he committed suicide and went to the hospital. I was not completely worried. I thought about calling him to ask, but I was worried that he would think that I had let go, so I gave up.

He was wearing a sweater that was a bit long for grapefruit, and a part of the sweater sleeve was exposed from the cuff of the jacket.He walked into the living room, looked around like a visitor, and I said, "You sit first, and I'll pour tea."

He put the bag in his hand on the coffee table, then sat down, leaned back on the sofa, shook his head and smiled, and said: "No, I heard from Lao Dai that you are sick and can't go today, but I really want to see you , come to see you."

Ah, Dai Moyan, a man with a bad mouth... I complained in my heart, and smiled on my face: "I'm fine, you don't have to be so polite." I deliberately didn't mention what happened before, and didn't ask where he disappeared, Get along with him as if nothing had happened, praying to get through this hurdle safely.

Wang Jiaqi smiled all over his face, and said with concern: "I'm afraid you won't have an appetite, so I brought you seafood porridge, would you like to eat some now?" I nodded: "Thank you, I will eat it later."

After hearing what I said, he was still smiling, but he put his legs on the coffee table unscrupulously, and his words also revealed irony: "Ziqi, coax me again? When I leave, you must throw it in the garbage can."

As soon as I heard his words come in a bad way, his tone seemed to contain resentment, coupled with his smile, like a poisonous snake spit out a message, slowly but firmly climbed up my back, cold, sticky and slippery.I suppressed this disgusting feeling, turned my eyes away, and said with a smile on my face, "Jiaqi, are you kidding again? I didn't."

Wang Jiaqi took his legs off the table, stood up and walked in front of me. He leaned into my ear and whispered softly: "Yeziqi, I've been thinking about it all this time, and I've been thinking about it to death. If you don't want it, say no." No, it’s fine, the sweet words coaxed me, making me think that you are a thousand-year-old iron tree blooming, but in the end you pretend to be innocent, who will you show it to?”

There was a buzzing sound in my head, pretending to be innocent?Fuck it, I tugged at the nape of his neck to keep him away from me.She restrained her awkward smile, and raised her voice, "Jiaqi, don't be so self-righteous, even if I cheat, I can't fool a child of yours."

He couldn't help laughing out as if he heard a joke, and I looked at him warily.He tilted his head slightly, and said: "Yo, I really think I'm a child, yes, I look at you, it's because I'm a child that I lied, you are just an empty skin, sooner or later you will suck up other people's feelings."

I was poked at the sore spot all of a sudden, and I was almost furious. I pushed him away, tried my best to suppress the surge of anger in my chest, and pointed in the direction of the entrance: "Get out, get out."

He was pushed down on the sofa by me, his face changed drastically, his smile was completely replaced by anger, he stood up abruptly, rushed towards me with a stride, squeezed my chin firmly, and sarcastically said: "Did I hit the mark?" I was in so much pain that I grabbed his wrist, trying to break his hand away, but he was so strong, his hands were like iron pliers, I was eager to break free, and in a panic, I slapped him.

There was a crisp sound of "pop", and we were all stunned.Wang Jiaqi let go of her hand, her eyes were watery, the corners of her mouth were raised, and she smiled miserably, "Yeziqi, what are you in a hurry for? I haven't finished talking yet, me, I am willing to let you suck, you Do you hear me? I am willing. You wait for me."

He smiled slightly, but there was no smile in his eyes. I was dazed when I heard that he pulled out a knife out of nowhere.I took a step back subconsciously, thinking that it was over, he was going to be serious.

His eyes were like hooks, and he would not give up until he hooked all my flesh and blood. Holding a knife, he said coldly: "My surname Ye, I know you look good, so I want to take a look. If you become ugly, nothing but Who else do I want from you. When the time comes, we will be locked in the same room, we will be tired of meat, and I will tell you how much I miss you these days. "

Wang Jiaqi in front of him is like a demon, which cannot be judged by common sense.I retreated all the way into the bedroom, looking for something to defend myself, and threw all the things within my reach at him one by one, but they were all useless.He was getting closer and closer to me, and the knife was right in front of my eyes. He raised his hand and swiped it, and I dodged immediately, looking for an opportunity to punch him in the face. He was in pain, and rushed towards me like crazy. The force was too great, and I was caught off guard by the floor-to-ceiling window.The lights in the room were not turned on, and during the process of falling to the ground, the sky flashed in front of my eyes, and it was almost dark.Wang Jiaqi was on top of me. I grabbed his hands and tried my best not to let the knife come close to me. During the dispute, Wang Jiaqi's sleeve was rubbed up, and there were hideous scratches on his wrist. He really cut his wrist... As soon as I was distracted, I couldn't support the sinking force of his arm, and the tip of the knife approached my face little by little. At that moment, a thought flashed in my mind, I am still young, and I don't want to be destroyed yet .

I stared at the tip of the knife, at this moment, the knife flew out from above my left face with a strange trajectory, and fell to the ground with a clang.Then, my body suddenly relaxed, and Wang Jiaqi fell to the door of the bedroom as if someone grabbed her by the collar and threw her out.I quickly sat up, Wang Jiaqi was stunned by the fall, leaning against the bedroom door, staring at me blankly, before I could react, a knife flew towards him, and instantly smashed the door next to his neck , This surreal scene almost stunned me.My conditioned reflex is to look out the window, the sky is already dark, and night has fallen.