phantom lover

In March of Yangchun, the grass grows and the warbler flies, the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming, and the flowers in the small garden are fragrant.I sat on a bench and slowly ate a piece of ice cream.I watched intently as the little man made of ice cream gradually melted, and the small eyes made of chocolate sauce lost their shape and turned into a sticky piece.As the weather warmed up, the ice cream melted quickly. I hated the way it melted, so I dug out two chunks with a spoon and put them into my mouth hungrily. It was so cold, but it was also very sweet. I couldn't help grinning.The ice cream that had melted into a liquid leaked from his mouth and dripped onto his chin. It was itchy, uncomfortable, and he felt so sad that he wanted to cry.

At this moment, something soft was rubbing against my chin. I looked down and managed to utter a word: "Handkerchief." A man's voice approached my ear and said, "You Look at you, how dirty it is to eat, give it to me quickly, don't eat it, let the sister nurse over there see it, she must laugh at you."

I was afraid of being laughed at, so I honestly gave the ice cream to the man sitting next to me.Turning to him, he was looking at me tenderly.I raised my hand and tugged at his hair, he grabbed my hand with an ouch, I laughed haha, he kissed my face, I stopped laughing and said, "Jia...Qi , I think... go back."

He nodded, got up and carried me to the wheelchair, then pushed me slowly through the small garden to go back to the inpatient building.The sun was a bit harsh, I closed my eyes, felt the feeling of moving forward, and didn’t look at the scene around me. When I opened my eyes, the scene in front of me was not necessarily what it was. It was like an adventure. This is a small game I like to play recently.

I think the life here is very good, I can play all day long, and I can be with Jiaqi. Although I can’t walk now, Jiaqi takes care of my daily life, but this way I am satisfied, because Jiaqi is considerate and capable , took good care of me.I am doing well now, but my speech is not very good. I have something to say, but I always don’t know what words to use or how to form sentences. I can’t speak fluently and completely, but Jiaqi understands it very well. Me, I always know what I want, so this little flaw doesn't cloud my happy mood.

Although I'm not very good at speaking, my mind is quite clear, that's how I feel.Jiaqi told me that I became like this when I stumbled and fell from the window of my house.He said that my life was very serious, and I was blocked once by the awning of the residents downstairs, which reduced the force of my fall, so I survived by luck.I don't know how I accidentally fell from the window. Jiaqi always said that I was stupid. I think I must be really stupid. Without Jiaqi, I can't do anything well.However, I was still a little unconvinced, because Jiaqi was stupider than me before. I remember that he confessed to me at the beginning, but I rejected him. He was about to die when he returned home, and then he ignored everyone and disappeared. .Once I played with him in the ward and found several scars on his wrists. I asked him what was going on, and he said that he died once because of me. I was so distressed that I cried.I think I'm really not a thing, Jiaqi is taking care of me so well now, and I hurt him like that in the past.He kissed my hand and said he didn't blame me, he did stupid things because he couldn't think about it.I stroked his head and thought to myself: My Jiaqi has really grown up and matured, she doesn't look like a child at all.If Jiaqi still has the same personality as before, no matter how good-looking he is and how infatuated he is with me, I wouldn't dare to have him.During the time he took care of me, he never played the young master's temper, on the contrary, he always tolerated me. Sometimes I sneaked in to see the S-shaped figure of the nurse sister who came in to give injections and medicines. He didn't say a word and never got angry. , at most smiled at me knowingly, which made me feel very guilty.I imitated the previous method and stammered to coax him, but I couldn't say a word. He just hugged me and patted my head, expressing that he would not pursue it.

But Jiaqi also makes me unhappy. During the time when I just woke up, I called his name, but he always ignored me and had to wait a few seconds before turning around, as if I was not calling him. Similar to the name.For this reason, I lost my temper, pulled out the needle of the infusion, and vomited out the pills and water I just took.Sure enough, when his name was called in the future, he would immediately respond.

Generally speaking, life in the hospital is quite comfortable. Once a person is proud, he can think about it. It feels like the generosity of a winner.When I think of my parents now, I feel that their image is gradually blurred, and my love and hatred for them have also faded. Sometimes I think about their behavior in the past and think it is not incomprehensible. If it were me, maybe I just left, all in all, the strokes written in my heart in the past have been diluted, let it go, it doesn't matter.

Jiaqi's parents came to see me once, they are a standard combination of strict father and loving mother.His father has half-white hair, combed meticulously, wears a pair of gold-rimmed glasses, and is full of pedantry. When he came to the ward, he would not even sit down. He just stood by my bed with his arms folded and looked at me seriously. I.His mother is very amiable, well-maintained, and relatively young.She sat obliquely on the edge of my bed, held my cold hand, greeted me warmly, and persuaded me to take a good rest and recover soon.Because I couldn't even tell my uncle and aunt when they entered the door, I was still immersed in shame, so I had to nod repeatedly.Jiaqi's mother turned to Jiaqi and his father, waved to them, and they turned around and went out.My aunt told me softly that they had only one son, and they were too strict with him in the past, which broke the child's heart. Now as long as he can live well, they are satisfied.Of course I knew what my aunt was talking about, but I couldn't speak, so I had to turn her hand over and write the word "safety" on her palm.Then I quietly listened to her praise me as a good boy, and it was very helpful in my heart.

After Jiaqi's parents left that day, Lao Dai and Xiao A also came to see me, and they happened to have a face-to-face meeting with Jiaqi's parents.After Lao Dai waited for Jiaqi's parents to leave, he suddenly turned into a showman, imitating sister Lin and said: "If I had known he was coming, I would not have come." I rolled my eyes, and Xiao A pushed him for a while. , only Jiaqi laughed twice in admiration.Old Dai sat on the edge of my bed, and talked to me about how considerate, gentle and interesting his new female graduate student was, a hundred times better than the yellow-faced mother-in-law at home.He was spitting all over the place, very energetically, I didn't want to interrupt him, my eyes drifted to Jiaqi, I noticed that little A circled around Jiaqi several times, and kept staring at him, Jiaqi Just let him turn frankly, with a calm look.Little A looked at me and met my eyes. He looked at Jiaqi again, shrugged, lit a cigarette and went out to smoke.

I didn't pay much attention to little A's strange behavior, because although little A is a big kid and has a bit of prestige, he is always talking about it. I shook my head at Jiaqi, and Jiaqi also curled her lips and shrugged. shrugged.After Xiao A finished smoking, Lao Dai ended his speech with the sentence that money is a man's guts. Because I missed a lot of content, I didn't understand how this conclusion was drawn, so I nodded calmly. Then Jiaqi sent them out.

Basking in the sun along the way, thinking about things comfortably, it was time for lunch when I returned to the ward.When I was eating, Jiaqi brought me a piece of food with chopsticks and brought it to my mouth. While I was chewing, he picked up the rice in the bowl and ate it quickly, and after I swallowed it, he put something else for me to eat.For one meal, I ate slowly, and he ate in a panic, like fighting a war.After dinner, I took a nap as usual until the moon climbed up. I didn’t let Jiaqi turn on the light, and asked him to hug me to see the moon.Jiaqi said that I had multiple fractures all over my body, and it was very inconvenient to move. I had to rely on someone else’s back or sit in a wheelchair to go anywhere. Once he said that I really enjoyed my life, but what about you? He said he was a coolie.I thought about it, and he quickly said it was a joke.

The moonlight is like water, flowing quietly, the window sill is covered with moonlight, and there is darkness behind, only the light in front of me is clear and bright.I recalled the conversation at that time, and felt sorry for Jiaqi’s hard work in taking care of me. I looked at the moon outside the window and uttered the longest sentence in these days: "Jia... Qi, when will I... be able to walk? "

I was in a wheelchair and he stood beside me without saying a word.I urged: "Jiaqi?" He suddenly knelt down on the ground and fell on my lap, without saying a word, I waited patiently.Suddenly, he tremblingly opened his mouth, with a crying voice, and said: "Ziqi, I'm sorry..." My heart seemed to be grabbed hard, and I understood what he meant immediately, and my knees seemed to be dripping with warm water. liquid, he cried?I panicked, more panicked than accepting that I am disabled from now on. These days, Jiaqi, who is so strong, so tender, and so manly, seems to have suddenly become the same child as before because of me crying. Qi.I couldn't bear it, so I patted his back lightly and said, "Don't cry..."

He sobbed, his shoulders heaved and heaved, and he said with emphasis: "Ziqi, I regret it..." I don't understand why he regrets, I don't understand.I looked at the moon hanging in the sky, tonight is a full moon, probably we are all messed up by the moon, it must be so.I seemed to be infused with energy by the full moon. I wanted to say something, and I was very confident that I could say it. I stroked Jiaqi's back and stammered: "Forgive... you, who told you to be ...where is ... my lover."

Jiaqi raised his head suddenly, stood up and rushed over to hug me. I closed my eyes contentedly, and a familiar breath came over my face. I called his name in a low voice, "Jiaqi..." He hugged me He tightened his grip even more, and said with a choked voice, "I am."

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