Chen Mufengchun

Eleven o'clock in the evening may be the time when the nightlife has just begun for others, but for Chen Shuyu, he has insomnia.Since having three babies, he hasn't slept past nine o'clock, because if he doesn't keep the same schedule as the children, it means he will lose a lot of sleep time.

At 11:30, Chen Shuyu got up and covered the three children with quilts, and then unplugged the electric blanket. The children are prone to get angry if they sleep on the electric blanket for a long time. They plan to buy two electric heaters tomorrow. , Give Tang and Song one.The heating was stopped, and it must have been very cold in the Tang and Song Dynasties. Although it was already early April, spring in the Northeast always came late, and Chen Shuyu always felt that this time was worse than winter.

At [-]:[-], Chen Shuyu opened his eyes and glanced at his phone, okay, he surrendered.

Ever since Cheng Yan said those words, Chen Shuyu's heart has never been at peace. He thought that when he was with the children, they would cause him no time to think about other things. while standing.When Chen Shuyu was left alone, he began to think about Cheng Yan again, thinking about Cheng Yan's goodness, and about meeting Cheng Yan, and then Chen Shuyu thought of the last thing he didn't want to think about.

Chen Shuyu didn't know when other people's memories started. He started with a back view when he was five years old. It was the back view of his father, but it was a little different from that famous article.

It should be when he was in kindergarten, his father hugged his sister and walked in front, and he carried his schoolbag and followed behind. Sometimes his father walked too fast, and he couldn't keep up, so he ran behind and shouted and cried, and then My father would stop and wait for him. My sister would lie on his shoulder and make faces at him. He was crying with tears and runny nose all over his face. His father put his sister down and took out a toilet paper from his schoolbag to wipe his face. His hands were so big and powerful, and Chen Shuyu's face turned red when he rubbed them, but he was very happy because his father had hardly touched him since he was a child, and then his father told Chen Shuyu: Boys are not allowed to cry.

Chen Shuyu sniffed and asked: If I don't cry, can you hug me too?

Later, when going to and from school, Chen Shuyu followed her father closely. If she couldn't keep up, she kept running without crying, so that Chen Shuyu could be hugged once in ten times.

The Chen family is a family of four. Chen Shuyu also has a twin sister named Chen Shuyue. In the eyes of others, this family is extremely happy, with both sons and daughters. It is not considered rich, but it is not considered poor.

My father runs a small restaurant. It is really a small restaurant. There are only a few tables. He is the owner, chef, waiter, cashier and dishwasher, so he always smells of oily smoke. Chen Shuyue hates this smell , she didn't want her father to hug her, and she didn't want her father to kiss her with his bearded chin. Every time her father did this, Chen Shuyue would always complain to Chen Shuyu, but Chen Shuyu looked at her enviously, Once he was picked up by his father, he realized that he would be so high off the ground when he was picked up by his father, and the smell of oily smoke on his father's body was not so unpleasant, and he even touched his father's stubble, which was not so pungent.

Most of the people who come to eat at Chen’s house are neighbors who are busy with work and don’t have time to cook. They always make fun of him, saying that he married a beautiful wife but he is reluctant to show his face. Do not refute.

Chen Shuyu didn't remember whether his mother was pretty or not, because she was in poor health. Chen Shuyu's memory of his mother only stayed before the age of seven, because she died when he was seven years old.Since then, all the photos about her at home have been collected by her father.

Before that, Chen Shuyu's impression of her was a gentle, lingering sick woman. She would touch Chen Shuyu's face with her somewhat cold hands, divide the snacks into two parts fairly, and look at Chen Shuyu helplessly when she was mischievous. Look at him, gently tap his head with your fingers, and gently wipe his tears when Chen Shuyu is crying.

At that time, Chen Shuyu was mischievous and obedient. He would go to the house with a group of boys to dig bird nests from trees, scare little girls with earthworms, and help his father serve dishes and wash dishes when he was too busy.

Then at night, call back Chen Shuyue, who was dancing with the little girl, and bring back the leftover vegetables with her father. The mother of the family has long been waiting for them at the intersection of going home. When the father sees the mother, either Blame her for not wearing enough clothes, or let her wait at home next time, the mother was not angry, she smiled and teased him and Chen Shuyue, and then the family of four walked home slowly.

That was Chen Shuyu's first impression of home, but the word "home" became unrecognizable when Chen Shuyu was seven years old. Since then, Chen Shuyu found that she didn't know the word.

Chen Shuyu had just entered the first grade of elementary school. The weather was particularly good that day. The Chinese teacher was writing the finals on the blackboard. Then he saw the class teacher walking in with a serious face and called him and Chen Shuyue out.He doesn't know what it means to have something at home, let them go home quickly, is it because his father's small restaurant is too busy, then just ask him to go back by himself, why call him sister?

After returning home, Chen Shuyu found that his small home was full of people, some he knew and some he didn't know. Aunt Yang, who was always smiling, had red eyes. She held herself and her sister in her arms and kept talking. Say "go and see your mother again".

The face of the person on the bed was pale and blue, as if she was asleep, and then Chen Shuyue began to cry. Chen Shuyu didn't understand why Chen Shuyue was crying, her mother was just asleep, why so many people were crying and looking at her .

Then he saw his father, who was sitting on the edge of the bed looking at his mother calmly, then suddenly raised his head to look at Chen Shuyu, and asked viciously: "Why don't you cry?"Heartless things!

Chen Shuyu wanted to say: I'm a man, I can't cry, if I cry you won't hug me.

But he didn't dare, his father was too scary, he didn't even have this expression when he was naughty and hit him before, and he didn't know if it was because he didn't cry this time, and his father never hugged him after that.Later, he was carried to the kitchen by Aunt Yang, and he wanted to ask: Why are you crying?what's wrong with my motherBut he didn't dare, he was afraid that Aunt Yang, who was usually smiling, would become like his father.

Chen Shuyu couldn't remember what happened afterwards. For a few days, the family came and went. He and Chen Shuyue were wearing filial piety clothes. Chen Shuyue was crying all the time, and then her father hugged her in his arms when he was free. He seemed to be left alone. Similarly, when eating every day, he either finds something to eat by himself, or Aunt Yang thinks of him and brings him something to eat.

Then the life of the family returned to the original track, the father went to the small restaurant, he and Chen Shuyue went to school, but the family no longer had a mother.Chen Shuyu already knew that his mother had passed away, Aunt Yang told him.Then he asked his deskmate, what is "death", and the deskmate said that death means death, that is, there is no more, and his grandfather just passed away a few days ago.

"Death" means that there is no more. Chen Shuyu feels that his home seems to have "dead". The quietness of the house without his mother is terrible. Even Chen Shuyue is not as talkative and laughing as before. Every day when I go home, I write quietly. Homework, reading.Chen Shuyu was the same as her, the only difference was that after finishing his homework, he went back to help out in the small restaurant at home. His father never said anything to him, and he remained terribly silent every day. He only showed a little tenderness when facing Chen Shuyue.But Chen Shuyu is already a little sensible, he will not want to fight for something like when he was a child, he finds that he is different from Chen Shuyue, even though they look exactly the same.

When Chen Shuyu graduated from elementary school, there were changes in the family. Chen Shuyue was sent by his father to the city to go to junior high school. Chen Shuyu didn't dare to ask why, and he knew that even if he asked, he would not have an answer.At that time, Chen Shuyue was no longer the girl who loved to laugh and make trouble all day long, and she also became silent.The teenage Chen Shuyu was unusually precocious. He felt that the silence of this family made people despair. If Chen Shuyue could leave here, it would be good to live in another place.

The day Chen Shuyue went to school in the city, she took a deep look at Chen Shuyu, and then walked out of the house with a face of relief.Chen Shuyu didn't know if his father saw Chen Shuyue's expression, or what he would think if he saw it.He didn't know, he also wanted to leave this family, but if there was only one chance, he would give it to Chen Shuyue, because he was taught that boys should give way to girls since he was a child.

Because there is nothing to do in the city, Chen Shuyue's student status can't be transferred to a school in the city, so she can only borrow there to study, and she has to pay a large amount of borrowing fees every year, which is a bit difficult for this family.

Chen Shuyu hardly bought any new clothes in the three years of junior high school. Apart from school uniforms, he wore small clothes for neighbors’ children. It became more and more difficult at home. He studied desperately, for fear that his father would use his academic performance as an excuse to let him quit school.

But that day still came.

On the eve of the senior high school entrance examination, the city's key high school No. [-] Middle School gave each junior high school in the affiliated county a guaranteed quota. Chen Shuyu's school was assigned to Chen Shuyu, and there were certain subsidies for poor students.

When Chen Shuyu was called to the office by the teacher, he was still worried about whether his grades had regressed. When the teacher told him about it, he was so happy that he was going crazy. Chen Shuyu felt that he was floating when he walked out of the office.

After school, he excitedly ran to the small restaurant at home and said loudly to his father who was washing the vegetables: Dad, I have something to tell you!He hasn't spoken to his father for a long time, and he hasn't called "Dad" so loudly for a long time.

His father was taken aback by his call, and then said: I also have something to tell you.

Then Chen Shuyu didn't want to talk about him with his father.

My father said, your sister’s teacher told me that she did very well in the mock exam, and she should have no problem going to the fifth middle school, but she still has to pay the tuition fee to go to the fifth middle school; my father said, I am too old to do it anymore. When I grow up, it's time to support the family; my father also said, you are a boy, it doesn't matter if you read less books, but your sister is a girl, what else can you do if you don't study?

Chen Shuyu said, yes, girls should study more, I'm fine, I can do anything.

Father didn't ask Chen Shuyu if he had anything to say to him, and Chen Shuyu didn't speak again after finishing that sentence.He silently helped his father wash the dishes, set the table, and waited all night but no one came to eat.

The next day, Chen Shuyu went to the head teacher during recess, and he said, I don’t want this recommended spot anymore; he said, I want to be admitted to No. [-] Middle School with my own efforts; classmate.

No one knew that Chen Shuyu pinched his arm when he said these few words, and when he walked out of the office, his arm was already oozing blood.Chen Shuyu covered the wound with his baggy school uniform, just as he covered his predicament with fake lies.

A month later, the results of the senior high school entrance examination came out. The full score was 610, Chen Shuyu got full marks in mathematics, English, physical chemistry, and physical examination. She passed [-] in the exam, ranking first in the county and ninth in the city.