How much will you sell it to me?

190.

"An Yang, let go."

An Yang turned her head when she heard my words, and let go of her hands.

The end of the street was dark, I didn't look at An Yang, I lowered my head and said, "I won't bother you at this late hour." An Yang didn't speak, I continued, "Besides... where did I go to sleep?"

An Yang was silent.

The two of us stood in the same place for a long time, until the ringing of the passing bicycle brought me back to reality, and I realized that An Yang didn't hold my hand, and I could leave whenever I wanted.

What am I waiting for?

I turned around and saw An Yang's hand raised and lowered from the corner of my eye.

When did the two of us become so wary of approaching each other?

191.

Qiao Qingguo was very surprised when he saw me come back: "Didn't you go to An Yang's house..." He was halfway through the sentence, and when he realized something was wrong with me, he changed his words, "Do you want some tea?"

I shook my head: "I have to go to class tomorrow, I can't fall asleep after drinking."

Qiao Qingguo nodded: "That's right, do you want to sit with me?"

I looked at him in surprise, and he said shyly, "Talk to your father about something, of course I'm not forcing you..."

"Okay." I left my schoolbag on the bed and laughed, "I haven't watched TV for a long time."

Qiao Qingguo nodded repeatedly. He smoothed out the wrinkles on the sofa and told me to sit down.

I couldn't tell what it was like, neither of us spoke after we sat down.

He opened his mouth several times to say something to me, but he stopped as if he couldn't find a topic.

192.

"Did you quarrel with An Yang?"

"No. He's in college now, so he doesn't have much contact with him." I said in a panic. I used to be the worst at lying, but now I can say it without changing my face.

Qiao Qingguo didn't care what I said at all, he said: "Little boy, just make up after arguing."

"Dad." I reminded aloud, "I'm already eighteen, an adult."

Qiao Qingguo was taken aback for a moment, then nodded with a smile and said, "Yes, yes, you are eighteen, and your father always treats you like a child."

"Dad." I raised my head and looked straight at Qiao Qingguo, "I..."

"Ok?"

"No, it's nothing..." My fingertips trembled, "I'll think about it again."

Qiao Qingguo didn't question me, he finished the rest of the tea, patted my shoulder and told me to go to bed early, then got up and went back to the room.

193.

There are still 48 days before the college entrance examination, and a large number of test papers and exercises are rushing towards my face, leaving me with no time to think about An Yang.

In fact, that's okay, we haven't been in touch for a long time.

In the past, I always thought that leaving An Yang would be like losing my soul.How can it be so exaggerated?But there is only one person missing.

Lan came back alone again after getting drunk that time, and I asked him if he really didn't want to learn anymore.

Lan just said: "It's enough to have Mu Le. As long as Mu Le can graduate smoothly, I, as an older brother, can rest assured. What about you? The college entrance examination is coming soon. How do you plan?"

There was a faint thought in my heart, "I haven't thought about it yet."

Lan said: "Don't worry about it right now, sooner or later you'll figure it out."

Lan bought a return ticket for that night. I wanted to see him off, but he stopped me.

The reason he gave was: "I want to walk alone."

I twitched the corner of my mouth: "It's disgusting."

Lan smiled: "Really, I think it's quite emotional."

"Where did the confidence come from?"

"Ah, that's right." Lan said, "Call me Mu Jing from now on, 'Lan' is strange."

I didn't know what this meant, so I paused for two seconds before saying, "...you know it too."

Lan waved at me, turned and left.

Looking at his back, I stretched out my hand and waved it lightly.

"Goodbye, Lan."

194.

The definition of coincidence on Baidu is: it happens to coincide, and it happens to be the same.

I don't know if it's a coincidence that when I turned my head, I saw An Yang holding his knees and panting.

—Obviously not.

I asked, "Why are you here?"

An Yang stood up straight and looked at me panting.

"What are you running for?"

He still doesn't speak.

I made a gesture to leave, but he took two steps forward, grabbed my arm, and said pitifully, "Have you eaten yet?"

"I ate."

An Yang was speechless, and I sighed: "You ran here?"

"Ah... um, um." Anyang replied dryly.

195.

In the end, we both went to the night stall for dinner.

"Mutton skewers, do you want to eat?"

"..."

Seeing that he didn't speak, I had no choice but to repeat: "Do you want to eat mutton skewers?"

An Yang was startled, and nodded in a daze: "Eat."

The mutton skewers came up, and An Yang poked me.

"I've eaten it, don't eat it." I said.

An Yang had no choice but to take it and eat it by himself, and he stopped eating after two mouthfuls.

I knocked on the table, "Are you hungry?"

An Yang suddenly called my name: "Joe Xi."

At the roadside stall full of smog and yelling, An Yang's face was so smoky that it was distorted.

But in the end no match for good-looking people.

"Are you hiding from me?"

"No."

An Yang's hand stretched out, I blinked in the smoke, subconsciously dodged his hand.

An Yang smiled wryly, his voice trembled slightly, and said jokingly: "When did you learn to lie?"

When?

When you don't know it.

196.

On the way home, An Yang followed me all the time.

When I was almost at the entrance of the corridor, I turned around and called him: "An Yang."

An Yang was distracted, and after hearing my words, he reacted for a few seconds before saying: "Mmmmmm."

"I think some things are better explained clearly." I said, "Are you listening?"

An Yang nodded: "Yeah."

"I do like men, if you think it's unacceptable..." My throat was a little choked, I never thought that my future would be without An Yang, I always thought it would be good to cherish the present... Now that I think about it, why do I feel that He will always be by my side.

"Josh, I can accept it." An Yang answered quickly, he even grabbed my wrist, "I can."

"That's good." I took a deep breath, "And Lan...Mu Jing, I don't like him, we are just friends."

An Yang let go of my hand, his eyes were dark, and I could see the emotions in them at a glance.

But he still said, "Well, you two... just friends."

An Yang's eyes were full of doubts, he was clearly asking "Qiao Xi, when did you learn to lie?"

He doesn't trust me.

Or maybe he never trusted me.

197.

There is nothing left to say.

"Let's go here." I said, "Just send it here. It's getting late, so you go back early."

The relationship between the two of us should stop here, this is enough.

I let go of all the assumptions I shouldn't have.

I like you.

I said these four words silently the moment he turned and walked away.

198.

The story should end here.

How can there be any good results in secret love?

Seeing that the college entrance examination is coming, the weather is getting hotter and hotter.

One night in the summer, I said to Qiao Qingguo, "Dad, I want to go to Q University."

An Yang said that he wanted to stay in a city where his parents had me. At that time, I also thought that I would choose to stay in this city.

The expectations that Qiao Qingguo placed on me and the various things that happened recently caused my thoughts to change again and again.

I was the first to leave.

199.

Mu Jing heard that I was going to Q University, and asked me if I really thought about it.

"Ah."

"Then go, go outside and have a look." Mu Jing said, "At least don't be like me, knowing that there is no hope and still clinging to it."

"You asked for it, who is to blame?"

"Hey, do you know how to chat? What about An Yang, did you tell him?"

"My dad told my aunt, he should know."

"You two really haven't been in touch since that day?"

"……Um."

Mu Jing suddenly laughed several times, and said, "It should be fine..."

I didn't understand: "What?"

"It's okay, you take the exam well, I still have to hang up beforehand."

I don't know why Mu Jing's voice was full of guilt, he hung up in a hurry, I didn't take it seriously, put down the phone and continued writing the paper.

200.

During the three days of the college entrance examination, An Yang sent me to the test center.

Neither of us spoke on the first day, and the atmosphere was awkward.

The next day eased up, An Yang asked me if I was nervous, I said no.It could be seen that he had a lot of things to say, but he held back.While I wanted to laugh, my heart felt sour.

On the last day, An Yang didn't hold back. When the test center was about to open, he said a lot, but his mouth was dry. I handed him the mineral water, and he took a sip before returning it to me.

Me: "...do you despise me?"

An Yang was taken aback: "No, I'm afraid you don't have enough to drink."

I stuffed him with mineral water: "Drink."

201.

The college entrance examination is over, and the holiday with no homework and no key exam papers officially begins.

An Yang told me not to have psychological pressure on WeChat, because my grades are so good that I will definitely be admitted to Q University.

I replied: [No. ]

Anyang: [? ? ? ]

Me: [There is no psychological pressure. ]

Anyang: [Oh. ]

Anyang: [That's good. ]

It's probably my delusion, since An Yang found out about my sexual orientation, An Yang has become so silly.

202.

Mu Jing and Mu Le came back from vacation, and I went to the train station to pick them up.

Mu Jing came up and asked, "Did An Yang tell you anything?"

I looked puzzled: "Say what?"

Mu Jing was also stunned: "Is he... a fool?"

I kicked him: "You are sick, you are the fool."

Mu Jing hopped on one foot, "Why are you protecting him so tightly?"

"He's my brother." I kicked him again, "Hurry up and help your brother carry luggage, let him carry two luggage by himself, are you an animal?"

Hearing this, Mu Jing put his feet down and ran to help Mu Le with his luggage.

I like An Yang for so long, how can I just let it go.

203.

Today I agreed with An Yang's mother to go to An Yang's house for dinner. After I picked up Mu Jing and Mu Le, I took the bus to An Yang's house.

It was An Yang who came to open the door. He shaved off both sideburns because of the hot weather a few days ago. I asked him what Shamat hairstyle was.

I asked casually, but he struggled for a long time and said, "That's the only way to go. It takes a few months to raise it back."

I didn't expect him to answer so seriously, and I was stunned for two seconds before I said, "Ah, no...it's pretty nice."

"Are you sure?" An Yang asked me with his eyes. After I nodded, he showed a reassuring expression, "That's good."

I'm getting goosebumps, tell him to be normal.

An Yang hesitated for a long time and asked, "Have you received Mu Jing?"

"Well, pick up..." I raised my head, "Wait a minute, how do you know I'm going to pick someone up?"