There is a kind of love that is insincere

When I went back to the villa, Zhuo Luoyin didn't come back.I put the dish under the sofa like a thief, waiting to read it when Zhuo Luoyin is not around.After I finished everything, I went to the kitchen to drink my saliva, thinking where would Zhuo Luoyin go?Are you looking for Yu Yueshui?If I really go to find him, I want Zhuo Luoyin to bring me along next time, after all I really want to see Yu Yueshui.Thinking about it this way, while I'm dating Zhuo Luoyin, I'm still thinking about Yu Yueshui, it's pretty cheap, but can I change the status quo?

If Yu Yueshui likes me, I don't have to do this, and he probably won't like me in this life either.He said, he likes Zhuo Luoyin, but he hates me.

So what more could I desire?Longing for him to find out one day that there is a boy named Bai Yuanyi who likes him, but is dating the person he likes?Don't be ridiculous, if this is the case, I can't believe it myself, but I owe Zhuo Luoyin too much affection, and I can't fully understand it.

I looked at the dark sky, resonated with my heart, and the pain came out again.There was a sound of opening the door, when I heard it, I looked back and saw Zhuo Luoyin, he didn't go forward, but he came over and hugged him tightly.I want to start acting again, playing a lover who likes him.

"You're finally back, I'm so worried about you," after I finished speaking, I buried my head in Zhuo Luoyin's arms, as if I could feel at ease only when I get in touch with him.

After hearing this, Zhuo Luoyin felt happy in her heart, the other party probably cared about him, and must have been waiting for him at home for a long time.However, he is a little tired. The things he was busy with today gave him a headache. Fortunately, the other party's language comforted him.

He kissed my forehead, "Did you eat on time?"

I nodded, "I ate."

Zhuo Luoyin looked at me suspiciously, I lowered my head, afraid that if I looked directly into Zhuo Luoyin's sharp eyes, he would definitely see that I was lying.

"Yuan Yi, don't lie to me."

"I didn't lie to you." I really didn't lie to him, but I didn't eat dinner, and I ate breakfast and lunch obediently.

"Then tell me what you ate"

"Porridge, buns, rice, tofu mixed with shallots."

"Breakfast plus lunch?" Zhuo Luoyin frowned, only now did he realize what the other party meant when he said he had eaten.

"Ah."

"What about dinner?"

"No, I'm not hungry, I don't want to eat." In fact, I am too lazy to cook by myself. Although my cooking is not bad, I am still not very used to eating at night.

Zhuo Luoyin is helpless, every time he faces the person in front of him, he can't do anything, what can he say to the other person now?I'm afraid I can't say anything to scold me.

Zhuo Luoyin looked at me indifferently, "I'll do it for you."

I grabbed him, "No need."

"You have to feed me well," he said firmly, making it hard for me to say anything else.

When he entered the kitchen, he helped me cook without changing his clothes, which made me feel uncomfortable.

I sat on the edge of the sofa, in a daze, thinking about the other person.Soon I smelled the smell of rice coming from the kitchen and walked towards the kitchen.

Zhuo Luoyin's slender figure was facing away from me. In fact, I could touch him as long as I stretched out my hand, but my mind was like a card, and I just stood behind him in a daze.

Zhuo Luoyin turned her head and saw the other party staring at him in a daze, feeling strange, as if the distance between the two of them was so far that they couldn't touch each other.

He called, "Yuan Yi?"

"Ah? What's the matter?" I came back to my senses, seeing his brow frown slightly, and felt that there should be nothing stuck on my face.

"It's okay, I just wanted to call you."

"Oh."

Zhuo Luoyin turned his back to me again, frying the dishes in the pot, I think they look pretty good, and I have an appetite.At this moment, I am happy to be liked by Zhuo Luoyin, but his happiness will not be given to him by me.

"Yuan Yi, go prepare the bowls and chopsticks."

"Okay." I should go to get the bowl, saw the beautiful patterns on the bowl, and thought that Lan Shining must be able to draw such beautiful patterns.

Seeing me in a daze again, Zhuo Luoyin asked, "What? Is there anything on the bowl?"

"Luo Yin, do you mean the society is dark?" I suddenly turned my head and asked him, feeling a little dazed when I thought of what Lan Shining told me.

Zhuo Luoyin didn't expect that the other party would ask him this question one day, he didn't want to tell the other party the truth, but even if the other party didn't know that now, he would probably have it in the future.

He sighed softly, "Forget it."

"Will people without money and rights be bullied in this society?"

"It should, but fairness is universal."

"Really?" I thought maybe it was, maybe it wasn't, but why was Lan Shiting's experience so unfair?This gave me a new understanding of the world, which made me feel very strange, even Zhuoluoyin was also strange.

"Why do you ask this?" Zhuo Luoyin instinctively felt that the other party must have seen or saw something, otherwise he would not have asked him such a question.

"I met a friend at my house today, and he told me what happened to him."

"What happened?"

I was hesitating whether to tell Zhuo Luoyin about Lan Shining, but at this moment, his phone rang, he gestured to me, turned off the fire, and went to the side to answer the phone.

I saw that he was listening to the phone and went out with the bowls and chopsticks. After thinking about it, I should not tell Zhuo Luoyin about Lan Shining.Even though I know that Zhuo Luoyin won't gossip around after hearing this, but it's a bit wrong to tell other people's bad experiences.

When Zhuo Luoyin came out of the kitchen, she saw the other party with chopsticks in her mouth, feeling helpless.

He walked up to me, rubbed my head, and sat next to me.

"Let's eat."

"Ah."

I picked up the chopsticks to pick up the vegetables, and I never ate the meat in the bowl, but Zhuo Luoyin picked up the meat for me, and it was impossible for me to put the meat back, so I could only forcefully eat it.He didn't give me too much, just a few pieces, but it made me miserable.

Zhuo Luoyin ate a few mouthfuls, and suddenly remembered the conversation he had with me earlier, as if he hadn't finished talking, "What happened to the friend you said you met earlier?"

I looked up at him and shook my head, "Nothing."

Zhuo Luoyin saw that the other party didn't intend to tell, so he didn't ask too much, but is that person the other party's friend?Which friend?

He began to feel irritable in his heart, with an inexplicable uneasiness, as if he was uncomfortable and blocked.

"Is he from our school?"

"No." I don't know why Zhuo Luoyin asked this.

"From another school?"

I thought about it, nodded, "Yeah."

Zhuo Luoyin was silent, didn't ask me anything, he was eating, although I was eating too, I felt like I couldn't finish it.I think it's better not to tell Zhuo Luoyin about Lan Shining in the future, if I tell him now, he doesn't know him either, and he may think that Lan Shining is not a good person, and I'm afraid he will get angry.When he is angry, he seems to be a different person, which scares me.

I finished my bowl of rice, thinking about my cell phone, I should tell Zhuo Luoyin first, lest he call me, Lan Shining answered.

"Luo Yin, I lost my mobile phone on the bus today, don't call me that number again in the future."

My words made Zhuo Luoyin frown, he put down his chopsticks to look at me, and gave me his mobile phone, "You can use mine from now on."

"No need," my chest hurt even more when I heard him say this.

"How can I contact you if you don't have a mobile phone and I can't find you? Or I'll take you to buy a new one tomorrow?"

I shook my head, "It's even worse." Thinking I was with him, he spent a lot of money on me.If he buys me another mobile phone, I owe him more.

"Are you afraid of spending my money?"

I nodded, but he was helpless.

He had clearly told the other party before that he didn't mind, but maybe the other party still didn't have that awareness.

"Then do you have any extra cell phones at home?"

"Will the landline work?"

Zhuo Luoyin was speechless.

The next day he gave me a new phone, I don't know where he conjured it up, but I didn't feel very good when I got it.I know that Zhuo Luoyin treats me well, but he makes me feel uncomfortable and guilty because he is too kind.I feel more and more hypocritical. After giving Lan Shining my mobile phone, she still bought me a mobile phone with Zhuoluoyin. The guilt of deceiving people kept accumulating and suppressed in my heart.

I wonder when will I stop lying?When can I face Zhuo Luoyin with the truth?I'm afraid I will always feel guilty until the day I forget about Yu Yueshui.I found my own shortcomings in my cognition, but I don't know where to change if I want to change.

Do you want to deduct my thoughts and replace my heart?Because I like Yuyue Shui, the pain can only be borne by myself.

Zhuo Luoyin stayed at home these few days, and I couldn't read those discs. I reviewed with him, only to find that there are many things I don't understand in my studies.I do Chinese sprint test papers, and I can't even memorize some ancient poems I have learned. I didn't memorize much in the first year of high school before, but now I feel a lot of memorization and it's so difficult.Zhuo Luoyin asked me to recite two poems for him every day. I always got stuck every time I recited it, and I still am now.

"Zhuang Shengxiao dreams of butterflies, Wangdichun entrusts cuckoos with his heart. There are tears in the sea and moonlight, and Lantian...the sun is warm...what is warm?"

I held back the words for a long time but did not speak out, Zhuo Luoyin put down the book and looked at me with a smile in his eyes.

"It's Lantian Rinuanyu that produces smoke."

I clapped my hands, "Yes, that's it, Luo Yin, you are amazing."

Zhuo Luoyin was speechless, is he good?This is an ancient poem that the teacher asked to memorize in the first year of high school.

I continued to look at the ancient poems in the book, feeling dizzy. I could understand Chinese characters but not the meaning. I really don’t know how the ancients came up with these poems.

"Do you think people today can understand their conversations when they travel to ancient times?"

"Probably not."

I know that when he is not sure, he will always add the word should.

"Are those Gongdou dramas in TV dramas made up randomly?"

He shook his head and said with a smile, "Not all of them, some of them are true."

"That's it."

Zhuo Luoyin looked at the other party as if he understood, and looked at him as if he didn't understand, and he didn't know what he could explain to the other party. Most of the TV dramas were adaptations, not many real ones.What is higher than the real story is the novel, and the interpretation is higher than the novel is the TV series, and what can be said is true and what is false.

He smiled lightly, "Yuan Yi, read more novels, it's better than watching TV dramas."

"why?

He said that he would not be dazzled. "

I was speechless, but he smiled.

He picked up the book and looked at it. In fact, there is a golden house in the book, Yan Ruyu in the book, and the TV series are just something to pass the time.I put down my Chinese papers and went to do science papers. I would rather brush up on the questions than read books, and I chose science, but later on, I was forced to choose the literature department.

Ding-dong-

The doorbell rang, and I was wondering who was here, but when I saw Zhuo Luoyin open the door, I was taken aback.

Standing outside the door is Yu Yueshui, who is also the person I think about day and night.He half-closed his eyes, his eyes were cold, and when he looked at me, he turned his head.

Zhuo Luoyin frowned, but still moved out of the way, and Yu Yueshui felt strange seeing Zhuo Luoyin like this, but frowned when she saw the person sitting by the sofa.

Without a tone, he asked calmly, "Why did you bring him to your home?"

Zhuo Luoyin responded lightly, without answering, and closed the door after Yu Yueshui came in.

Yu Yueshui came to stand by the sofa, I felt his indifferent gaze on me, and I shivered.Why does he look at me like this when he comes?Why is this sight every time?I wanted to ask him so much, but I was too timid. I was afraid that if I asked him out, my love would be in a desperate situation.

"Hello," I stood up and smiled.

He didn't even look at me, and sat on the sofa beside him.

I understand that he doesn't hide his distaste for me, but he doesn't know that my heart is hurting.I lowered my eyes and felt a chill with my arms folded.

Zhuo Luoyin came to look at me, then asked Yu Yueshui, "What's the matter with you here?"

Yu Yueshui looked at him, "What do you think I can say?"

Zhuo Luoyin frowned, looked at me, and didn't say anything, the room was quiet for a moment.

I looked up and said softly, "I'm going upstairs first."

Zhuo Luoyin probably didn't want me to listen to their conversation, and I should avoid it, but I haven't looked at Yu Yueshui a lot yet.

I took the paper and went upstairs quickly. If possible, I would like to walk a little slower by myself, and a little slower.

After seeing the other party go upstairs, Zhuo Luoyin sat down and said, "Have you finished that matter for me?"

Yu Yueshui shook her head, "No, I guess you still have to call your mother yourself to clarify your attitude."

"I'm going to call her, she will notice," Zhuo Luoyin sighed softly, if he could handle it well by himself, he didn't need to bother Yu Yueshui.

"Are you going to stay for him? You don't want to think about your own future?"

Yu Yueshui didn't understand Zhuo Luoyin's thoughts, could it really be possible to give up her good future for the sake of one person.

Zhuo Luoyin didn't look at him, "I have made this decision, it's something I've already thought through."

"You think clearly? I don't think you have thought about it at all!" Yu Yueshui will not believe that Zhuo Luoyin can seriously want to go abroad. If it is really for his own good, he should want to go abroad instead of staying domestic.

"I think about it, and it's not just because of him." There are two reasons why he doesn't want to go abroad. One is that he hates going back to see his mother, and the other is because of that person. With his current ability, he can't take him abroad together. Besides, If his mother knew the existence of the other party, the other party would be in a very dangerous situation.

Yu Yueshui seemed to see through him, "Don't tell me you are still because of your mother, don't you think it's far-fetched to use this excuse?"

Zhuo Luoyin remained silent and did not refute.

Yu Yueshui knew Zhuo Luoyin's thoughts, after all, he had been friends with Zhuo Luoyin for so many years, he could still guess what the other party was thinking, "Luo Yin, you have paid so much for him, what if he fails you in the future?"

Zhuo Luoyin looked at him, "He won't."

In fact, Zhuo Luoyin could feel that the man still reserved some things for him, there was something missing between them.

"People's hearts will change."

"But it hasn't changed now."

"What about in the future? What if he doesn't like you in the future?" Zhuo Luoyin looked gloomy as soon as Yu Yueshui said, but quickly covered it up.

"Let's talk about the future, and he stared at Yu Yueshui, and said, if he doesn't like me, I will imprison him by my side, and I won't let anyone take him away. Focus more on the present."

After Yu Yueshui heard this, she suddenly felt that Zhuo Luoyin liked that person to the point of being hopeless and unable to extricate herself.But he wanted to laugh at Zhuo Luoyin, why give up so much for one person?So where did that idealistic Zhuo Luoyin go?Love is a thing that hurts people, but there are still people who fall.

"You'll regret saying that in the future."

Zhuo Luoyin smiled, "If you don't regret it in the future, it depends on whether some people will get in the way."

Yu Yueshui frowned, "What do you mean?" He seemed to feel that Zhuo Luoyin was angry with him, was it his illusion?

"I don't mean anything, even if I regret it, it's worth it for him."

Yu Yueshui felt uncomfortable listening, Zhuo Luoyin's previous words seemed to be aimed at him, but also seemed to remind him, "Have you ever thought that you will get tired of him? What if he pesters you in the future?"

Zhuo Luoyin's complexion changed, and he looked at Yu Yueshui with alienation and strangeness, "Don't make judgments, and do you care about him? Ask me from his perspective?" Then he said, "Don't let me Misunderstood you."

Yu Yueshui was speechless, she didn't know how Zhuo Luoyin related him to the other party, even if he wanted to care, it was Zhuo Luoyin, what did that person do?

"I'm thinking about you, not about him."

Zhuo Luoyin looked at him, as if thinking about what he said, "I will never regret everything I have done, at most it is only regret, but if you want to consider my feelings, please stop in front of me Say something negative."

Yu Yueshui knew that if he gave Zhuo Luoyin any advice at this time, Zhuo Luoyin would still not listen to him.What he can do for Zhuo Luoyin is to help the other party, but Zhuo Luoyin, don't you know that the person you love the most is a loser?Does he really love you as deeply as you love him?

He sighed, "Forget about that, I'll help you do it again, but don't blame me if it's successful or not."

"Then thank you, Yue Shui." For this reason, you should never do things that destroy the relationship between brothers.Zhuo Luoyin smiled, probably only Zhuo Luoyin knew what was behind the smile.

The one who falls in love with the other first is a fool. This sentence is true, but who is willing to be a fool?