There is a kind of love that is insincere

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The sound of knocking on the door woke me up. When I moved my body, I only felt pain, feeling like my whole body was being run over by a car.

I got up, still a little dazed, looking at the bright sky outside the window, I won't sleep until the next day, right?

"Bai Yuanyi! Yuan Yi!" Lan Shining shouted anxiously outside the door, and there were dissuading voices from some neighbors, so I got up and went to open the door.

When Lan Shining saw the door open, she was going to relax, but when she saw the other person's body was full of injuries, anger, worry, and even self-blame all came out.

I saw the neighbors outside looked at me in surprise, with guessing in their eyes, I remembered my embarrassment at this time, after pulling into Lan Shining, I hurriedly closed the door to prevent those curious eyes.

He frowned and asked, "Who hurt you?" He saw the large and small wounds on the other person's body, his complexion was heavy, and the blood on the other party's forehead made him feel that the other party had walked through the gate of hell.

I smiled and said, "I accidentally fell." I still don't want Lan Shiting to worry, he has worried a lot about me recently.

Lan Shining could tell at a glance that the other party's injuries were not caused by wrestling, "Can you do this with one fall?"

I whispered, "I fell down the stairs," and then I dared not look at him.

He pointed at me,.Can your swollen face fall out too? "He thought that the other party must have been beaten by someone yesterday, and he should have been with the other party at that time, maybe this kind of thing would not have happened to the other party.

Seeing the self-blame in Lan Shi Ning's eyes, I felt very uncomfortable, and couldn't bear to lie to him, so I said, "I was actually slapped twice, and then struggled and fell down the stairs."

He frowned tightly, "Who hit you?" He had an intuition that the person who hit the opponent this time was the same person who hit the opponent last time, and it must be related to Zhuo Luoyin.

"you do not know."

"He can't be Zhuo Luoyin's friend?"

I silently responded again, feeling that his guesses were quite accurate every time.

"Zhuo Luoyin asked him to hit you?"

I shook my head and said, "Probably not." Yu Yueshui would beat me, and wanted to punish me because she hated me, but would Zhuo Luoyin be willing to hurt me?If Yu Yueshui could have been as kind to me as Zhuo Luoyin once was, the two of them and I would not be in the situation we are in today, but the only one I can blame is myself.

"Yuan Yi, are you planning to swallow your anger again?" He felt distressed seeing the other party like this, thinking that he was injured, not the other party.

I smiled, looked at him and said, "It's just that he doesn't like me." I still want to say good things to Yu Yueshui, and I don't want Lan Shining to worry about my affairs.

He raised his voice and said, "It's not pleasing to the eye once, but it's not pleasing to the eye the second time? Yuan Yi, you are like this! He will always bully you!" He was a little emotional, and he didn't want to see the other party suffer, which made him believe in an idea. A decision not to change.

"He definitely won't. At worst, next time he wants to hit me again, I'll call the police."

I smiled lightly, pretending to be relaxed, but who knows what will happen in the future, will Yu Yueshui really make my life worse than death?So can I wear away my love for him?

Looking at the other party's smile, he panicked in his heart. If he had the ability, he would not let the other party suffer.It was the first time that he hated his ordinaryness so much, and the first time he wanted to complain that God didn't give him a better life.

He suddenly knew how great power and money are. If he has power and money, he can protect the other party.He didn't want the other party to suffer, not at all.

"Yuan Yi, I'm sorry."

I smiled, "Why are you apologizing, you didn't cause my injury." I heard him say it strangely, but I didn't understand the emotion contained in his words.

He hugged me so tight that I felt like he wanted me to become one with him.But he hugged me like this, it hurt my injury, I couldn't push him away, so I had to let him hug me tightly.His embrace is very warm, different from when Zhuo Luoyin hugged me.He is like my relatives. There are not many colors in this hug, and his heart is very ordinary.I mean a lot to him, and he means a lot to me.I am him in the night, and he is me in the daytime, and there is an inevitable connection.

"Lan Shining, we've always been good friends, haven't we?"

Lan Shining let go of me, touched my swollen face, and looked at me distressedly.I didn't resist when I was touched by him, maybe I accepted his closeness subconsciously.

He pulled me to the sofa, looked at my forehead again, and frowned, "Is there a medicine box?"

"Yes, it's in the cabinet under the TV." I said, and was about to get up to get it, but he held it down.

"I'll go, you sit down obediently."

When he said this, he seemed to regard me as a child, and he took care of me too carefully.

He took the medicine box, rummaged through the disinfectant and cotton swabs for wounds, applied them for me, and then treated my wounds with gauze and bandages.He was so careful and attentive that I almost thought he was a doctor.

I looked at him, thought for a while and asked, "Lan Shining, do you want to live at my house?"

He stopped for a while, then resumed, and didn't answer me, but I was still waiting for his answer.

Seeing the other party looking at him with those beautiful eyes, he nodded helplessly. After all, he really wanted to live with the other party. The feeling in this idea was just attachment, not admiration.He wants to live with each other, wants to take good care of each other, is it just this little thought, is it just this thought?

After he bandaged me, I counted the injuries on my body, no less than ten. It turns out that rolling down the stairs is so powerful.

He tidied up the medicine box, looked at me and said, "Have you had breakfast?"

"I just woke up ahead."

He tapped my head and said helplessly, "I'll make it for you, you go wash up first."

I nodded, watching Lan Shining's back entering the kitchen, thinking how great it would be if my mother gave me a brother like Lan Shining, then I wouldn't be bullied and unable to resist.

I shook my head, got rid of my thoughts, went into the bathroom to wash up, and came out with new clothes.

The porridge he cooks is very fragrant, and the aroma spreads in my house.My stomach started growling, it seems that I am really hungry.

After he was done, I served him porridge, and he also made some side dishes, which I applauded.

While eating, I couldn't help but ask, "Why do you know everything?"

"I just learned a lot." He used to work in many shops, restaurants and restaurants, and watched some chefs cook, so he gradually learned.

Lan Shining's answer reminded me of Zhuo Luoyin, he also learned a lot.Both he and Lan Shiting are hardworking people, but there is a big difference between me and them.

"Then you can teach me how to cook in the future," I didn't see Lan Shining frowning after I finished speaking.

He picked up the bowl, "I'll make it for you in the future."

"Are you willing to live in my house forever?" I was a little happy and looked at him expectantly.

"But I don't know what your parents say. I can't say that I'm here to take care of you, right?" He didn't think about how his parents would treat him when he came to live in the other party's house. He still had many things to worry about, but After what happened today, he wanted to stay by his side.

"It's true that you can't say that, so I'll just say it, you can stay at ease." I smiled, trying to figure out how to explain my parents, I don't think they would mind having one more person in the family.

He looked at me, "How about I ask if there are any vacant houses in your community?"

I shook my head and said, forget it, the houses here are a bit expensive to rent. "I thought about this sentence as if it hurt his self-esteem a bit, and said, "You live alone, you might as well live in my house, we have a caretaker. "

He hesitated, what he was thinking about was not money, but the other party's parents. If a stranger lived in his own home, it would be a little unsafe to think about it. Why didn't the other party even think about it? How much did the other party trust him?

"My parents are very reasonable. You can cook and take care of me. They must like you very much." I didn't want him to go back on his word, so I had to bite the bullet and say this. It's a foregone conclusion.

He wondered, "Really?"

"Yeah." I nodded quickly, it was really tiring to persuade him to live in my house.

He was silent for a moment, "Then I'll stay temporarily, but your parents will come back to tell me, I'd better look for a house here again."

I moved my chopsticks and said with a smile, "They sure wouldn't do that."

He looked at me and said nothing, but frowned slightly, as if thinking about something, but I didn't notice the change in his expression.

Lan Shining moved his things to my house at night, I didn't say much about his things, I remember a few boxes of books at most.

I put his books in my bookcase, which is just empty, and it just fills up when something is put in.Lan Shining took a look at the other party's room, it was very clean, and the bed seemed a bit cramped for two people to sleep on.

"Yuan Yi, I'll sleep on the floor at night from now on."

I shook my head, "No, you can sleep on the bed." I closed the cabinet and smiled back at him.

"Are you sure you can sleep two people? I'm afraid your bed will collapse?" He said, coming to me, his brow furrowed on his sunny face.

I smiled and said, "Then you sleep on my bed, and I will sleep on my parents' bed."

"What about when your parents come back? You sleep with them?" He felt that if he acted according to the other party's thinking, it would be tearing down the east wall to make up for the west wall.

"Let's talk about it at that time." I want to make a decision like this first. I can't let him sleep on the floor. After all, he is also a guest.

He was speechless, the other party had already said that, what else could he say?

"Is your toilet outside?"

I nodded and replied, "Yes."

He looked at me, "Then I'll go to the bathroom," and then he left the room, and when I saw him leave, I lay down on the bed.

Although Lan Shining and I can laugh and laugh, this is wearing a strong mask.I'm actually very tired. If I live at home alone, I will definitely not be able to make it through.Every time I think of Yu Yueshui, my heart hurts, but after that day, he didn't appear in my life again, didn't he say that he wanted to make my life worse than death?Or give up torturing me?

I won't stalk him, if he wants to be with Zhuo Luoyin, I will bless him, after all he won't fall in love with me, let alone fall in love with me one day.

Bai Yuanyi, you are so stupid, you can be stupid!

An ordinary person like me should have an ordinary life, longing for the extraordinary is the so-called delusion.

I will never be qualified to watch that grand arctic snow.I curled up on the bed, and when I heard the sound of approaching outside, I hurriedly got up from the bed, not wanting Lan Shining to see my slumped appearance, which would make me feel uncomfortable.

I pretended to pick up the picture book that Lan Shining brought with me on the table to read, but I didn't expect him to draw me on the first page, and I was still sleeping.

When he came in, he was stunned when he saw the album in the other party's hand, his face was rarely flushed.

I looked at him, "When did you draw it?" I looked at the painting and thought he drew me very nicely and realistically, as if he wanted to copy my face again.

He looked at me, then put his eyes on the painting, and replied, "Hospital."

I laughed, "That's it."

I continued to flip back, it was still me, but I was smiling. I was smiling happily in this painting, but I had never smiled so happily.

"This..." I looked up at him, not knowing what to say.

"This is what I imagined to draw. I think you should look like this when you are smiling happily."

He had a warm smile on his lips, but my heart felt oppressed. If he knew that I couldn't smile like this, would he be sad?

I put down the album, and suddenly I didn't want to read any more, because I could guess what I would look like if he painted behind him.His paintings are so realistic that I can feel the emotions hidden in my own face in the paintings.

"Why didn't you see it?"

I shook my head and lowered my head, afraid that if I looked into his eyes, I would show my true colors.I want to be strong, I want to be able to calmly face the tempering that life brings to me like him, but I know I can't do it.

The matter of me breaking up with Zhuo Luoyin, the matter of Li Liyi looking for me, the matter of Yu Yueshui beating me, one thing after another weighed me down so much that I couldn't breathe, living was really tiring.

Lan Shi Ning hugged me, he could feel the sadness hidden in the other person, which made him feel distressed.

In the past few days, he knew that the other party had been holding on, but he didn't expose it.

He whispered, "Yuan Yi, we live in this society, we should understand that joy, anger, sorrow and joy are normal in the world, and cannot be avoided or escaped."

His words hit my heart, I nodded, tears flowed from my eyes, and wet the front of his chest.

He patted my back and comforted me. I gritted my teeth and kept crying, but I still couldn't suppress the choking in my throat.

The moon hanging high outside looked lonely at night, and the moonlight fell on Lan Shining and me, casting long, long shadows.