There is a kind of love that is insincere

I opened my eyes, my head was a little dizzy, and I felt like I was floating in the sea, and my body was so light.I won't die, will I?But why am I still conscious?I calmed down and looked carefully at where I was. It turned out to be a hospital, and I came to the hospital again.

I smelled the smell of disinfectant in the hospital and felt uncomfortable. I turned my head and looked to the side. A nurse was changing my drip. Seeing that I woke up, she smiled and said, "Are you going to ask where your brother is?"

I was stunned, "Brother?"

"It's the boy who sent you here. He's worried about you and has been by your side all the time. I don't think he took a bite of his meal yesterday."

"Then where did he go?" She thought she was talking about Lan Shining, right?But only Lan Shining would be so stupid and come to me.

"Should have gone to the bathroom."

I answered.

The nurse changed my IV, and suddenly asked me in a low voice, "Does your brother have a girlfriend?"

I shook my head, my voice hoarse, "Cough, I don't know much about this."

"If he doesn't have you, you can tell me."

I'm speechless.

She looked at me pretending to be shy, and I could only keep silent, although I knew that Lan Shining was handsome, but her charm was too great.

I was thinking about him, so he came in. When the nurse saw him coming back, she shyly packed up her things and left, almost hitting the door, which made me even more speechless.

Lan Shining was strange, but he didn't care, he walked to my bedside, touched my head, and heaved a sigh of relief, "You finally have a fever."

"Have I been burning for a long time? How many degrees?"

"Well, it's almost forty degrees." He said, worry appeared in his eyes, which made me uncomfortable.

I asked guiltily, "Did I make you... particularly worried."

"What do you think? You're going to scare me to death like that. Don't get caught in the rain next time, okay?" After this time, he also knows one of the benefits of mobile phones, that is, he can read the weather forecast, so he must know the weather next time Then let the other party go out.

I touched my head, "I... didn't do it on purpose."

"I know, you shouldn't be in a good mood at that time."

When I heard it, I closed my eyes and responded softly, "Yes."

Lan Shining thought for a moment, then asked me, "Did you break up with him?"

I froze, looked at him, and didn't speak.

"If you don't want to answer me, I won't ask again."

I shook my head and said softly, "That's right, but how did you know I was going to break up with him?"

He smiled lightly, "I guess."

"That's it..." How could I feel that Lan Shining was following me?He shouldn't be the kind of person who would look at my jokes!

"Did he propose to you?"

"I said it, but he didn't explicitly agree." I thought of the scene of Zhuo Luoyin and Yu Yueshui lying on the bed and felt heartache, but what can I do after the heartache?I shouldn't blame Zhuo Luoyin, nor Yu Yueshui, I can only blame me for not meeting him sooner!

"Do you want to break up with him?" He couldn't tell what was going on in his heart, it was very complicated.

I looked at Lan Shining, I didn't want to tell a lie but I couldn't, so I could only shake my head.

"Did he talk about me?"

I nodded.

"Did you get angry because of me and you?"

He asked me like an interrogator, which made me feel strange.

"No, there are others."

"What else?"

I frowned, "Are you going to interrogate me?" I don't like being pressed like this, making me look like a prisoner.

He paused and said, "I just want to know about your situation, but in fact, you still have room for maneuver."

Seeing that the other party was not happy, he explained with a smile, thinking about what he was going to do.

.There's no need, Zhuo Luoyin and I are done. "No matter how much I love him, there is no trust between the two of us. Even if I am with him in the future, there will be disputes. This is my understanding of love, because I have no love with him at all.

"Are you giving up?"

I didn't answer him, even I don't know what I was thinking, maybe, I had that intention, but I couldn't say it.The relationship between the same sex is too fragile, once it collapses, it will never go back, and if I had known that Zhuo Luoyin and I would have today, I would have looked up at him from a distance, so at least I could still treat him as a Idol, it would be hard if I was talking to him now.

"Yuan Yi, you can give you and Zhuo Luoyin a chance," Lan Shining seemed to be persuading, but his heart was not like that.

"I'm afraid it's not that I don't give him a chance, but that he doesn't give me a chance." I smiled wryly, thinking that I should have recognized my heart long ago.

"Then you've decided?"

I nodded.

"Well, I won't say much about you, just don't regret it in the future."

"I won't regret it." Because I didn't love him in the first place, so how can I use the word regret?

"That's fine."

He looked at me and finally sighed.

In the afternoon, Lan Shining went to discharge me from the hospital. I think I spent a lot of money on him, and I need to pay him back in the future.I tidied up and left the ward.I wanted to go downstairs to look for Lan Shining, but when I walked up the stairs, my feet suddenly cramped and I fell.

I closed my eyes in fright, but there was no pain as imagined, but a fresh scent of jasmine entered my mouth and nose.

I was supported by someone, and I was about to thank him, but when I looked up, I was stunned. I saw the man in front of me, wearing light blue casual clothes, with blue pupils, flaxen hair, and a high nose bridge. As carved by God, there is no blemish at all.

His lips curled up slightly, and his smile was enchanting. I couldn't help but marvel in my heart. It turns out that there is another evildoer in this world, who also has a flawless face, which makes people fall in love with it at a glance, and a face that can never be forgotten in this life.

I stared at him, frowned, feeling uncomfortable with his wet and hot palms, I struggled out of his arms, and politely said, "Thank you."

"It's okay," he said softly, his voice was magnetic, but I was shocked by his voice, and there was a chill behind me.

I think he feels a little familiar to me, but I have never seen his face before, otherwise I will definitely remember him, it's just his voice...

Maybe I was thinking too much, maybe it was just my illusion.

I walked downstairs, not thinking much about this man, let alone caring about him, the strange face, the familiar voice, resonated with someone, but I forgot about that person.

Lan Shining was at the front desk, I saw him frowning looking at his wallet, and came to his side.

"Are my medical bills too expensive?"

He smiled and shook his head, "No."

"I'll pay you back."

"It's okay, the two of us don't have to settle this matter." He smiled and rubbed my head.

I didn't say anything, I will definitely pay him back the money, but I don't have enough money, so I need to tell my parents about it.

"Yuan Yi, do you want to go back to my house?" After asking, he was inexplicably looking forward to it.

I shook my head, "I want to go back to my house." I saw a look of disappointment in Lan Shi Ning's eyes, and I continued, "Would you like to come to my house for a few days?"

He squeezed my hand, "No."

"Alright then." I really wanted to be with Lan Shining, but I was in a panic when I slept on the floor of his house.

"Come on, I'll take you back."

I nodded, "OK."

But just as I was about to leave the gate of the hospital, I stopped suddenly. I don't know if it was my illusion, but I always felt that someone was staring at me.I looked back and saw that enchanting man on the second floor, he smiled at me.His smile seemed a little weird, and I was terrified to see it.

Seeing me stop, Lan Shi Ning was a little puzzled, but she didn't turn her head, "What's wrong?"

"It's okay..." I shook my head at him, and looked at the second floor again, the man was gone, is he my hallucination?

Lan Shining and I walked to the station together, there were very few people scattered here and there.I sat in the waiting seat beside me, a little sleepy.

Seeing Lan Shi Ning, she leaned my head on his shoulder.

I thought it was nothing at first, but someone pointed at me not far away, so I quickly sat up straight.I forgot that there are still some people with conservative ideas in this society, and not all people can accept same-sex intimacy.

The car came, and he pulled me into the car. There were two empty seats at the back, and we sat in it.There weren't many people in the car, so it wasn't stuffy, but I still opened the window to let the outside wind blow to me, and he closed the window for me.

He frowned, "You just have a fever, don't catch a cold again."

"No, can I just open it for a while?"

He resolutely said, "No." He still remembered what the doctor told him.

Seeing that there was no room for maneuver, I had no choice but to sit obediently, but my head was getting heavier and heavier, and I slowly fell asleep.

Lan Shining felt his shoulders sink. It turned out that the other party was asleep. He stared at the other party's cheek and smiled.He thought the car would drive a little slower, and then a little slower, and it would never arrive at the stop in the end.

It's a pity that the time can't be extended, and the car will eventually arrive at the station.

"Yuan Yi, wake up, it's time to stop."

Lan Shining called in a low voice, his voice faded away in my ears, I opened my eyes in a daze, and looked at him, a little dazed.

He smiled helplessly and pulled me out of the car. He and I walked on the path home, neither of us spoke.

When he got to my door, he looked at me and moved his lips, but only said, "Go up."

I nodded, "Well, you should go home quickly."

He responded, and I was about to go upstairs when suddenly he hugged me and asked in a trembling voice, "Yuan Yi, I mean if, if I do something to take advantage of you, will you forgive me?"

I don't know why Lan Shining asked this, but if he really uses me, I will forgive him.

I smiled, "Yes. As long as what you do is not something that hurts me, I can forgive you."

After hearing this answer, he was taken aback, maybe he should have known that the other party would answer this way, and the other party regarded him as a true friend.

I wondered what he meant by asking this question.

He smiled, patted me on the shoulder, turned his back to me and said without explaining to me, "I'm leaving."

I looked at his distant figure, and felt that he was quite lonely, which made me want to cry for him.

I sniffed and walked upstairs, but I saw Yu Yueshui at the top of the stairs.I froze in place, didn't turn my head back for a long time, and rubbed my eyes.

He looked at me coldly, but didn't speak. I was uncomfortable by his look, I clenched my hands and continued to walk upstairs, but when I passed by him, he pressed me against the wall.

He was so strong that I couldn't move. I glared at him, wondering if he was here to find fault with me, but it must be something bad.

He snorted coldly, "Bai Yuanyi, you're really shameless, you broke up with Luo Yin on the front foot, and you're making love to him so quickly on the back foot?"

I frowned, but smiled, "It's none of your business if I get involved with you."

Yu Yueshui grabbed my neck with his hands. I thought that as long as he tried harder, I would definitely be strangled to death by him. I was a little scared.

Yu Yueshui looked at me and said, "It's none of my business who you hang out with, but Bai Yuanyi, I warned you last time, if you make Luo Yin feel sad, I won't let you go."

After I heard his words, I felt very ironic. I pushed him away and smiled, "You won't let me go? Why do you pretend to be Zhuo Luoyin's good friend in front of me! I broke up with him Isn't it just what you want?"

Yu Yueshui was slightly stunned, frowned, and sneered back at me, "It suits me, but that's because I don't think you are worthy of Luo Yin at all, you simply ruined Luo Yin's feelings for you!"

"You're right, so I broke up with him, why do you still have dissatisfaction?" In this way, you can be with Zhuo Luoyin, but what about me?

"Do you think I'll let you go if you break up with him! Bai Yuanyi, aren't you so naive!" His eyes were vicious, and I was terrified, but I couldn't let go of him.

I sneered, "Then what do you want? Beat me up or kill me?"

After hearing this, Yu Yueshui punched me in the stomach, the pain made me dizzy, and I slid down the wall.I was pulled up by his hair, he looked down at me indifferently, I felt funny looking at his face, I said to him, "Do you know why I don't hate you? Because you are more pitiful than me!"

Snapped--

He slapped me hard, and my eyes were blacked out, and the strong smell of blood in my mouth made me want to vomit. I coughed up a mouthful of blood, and the corners of my mouth were bloodshot, and my face should be swollen. This was the second time he slapped me.

I glared at him, hoping to feel disgust for him, but my heart ached, how could I hate him?

Yu Yueshui looked down at the other party, looking at the other party's swollen cheeks, feeling a little distressed, isn't that funny?

He grabbed my hair and pulled it up, and I was in pain. He said to me viciously, "Bai Yuanyi! I will beat you to death! You asked for it!"

I froze for a moment, then smiled slightly, "Then let the horse come over, don't just speak harshly like back then, I'm afraid you won't have the guts to punish me."

His face darkened, and he slapped him again. The force was so heavy that I hit my head against the wall and almost passed out.

I propped myself up, standing a little shaky, I looked at him, and grinned lightly.

Yu Yueshui was uncomfortable being looked at by the other party, and grabbed my neck. This time I resisted him, and he kicked me, probably not realizing that I was too strong, and I was kicked down the stairs by him.

I rolled to the ground, my head was bled this time, my vision became blurred, my head became heavier, and there seemed to be a sharp whistle in my ears.

Yu Yueshui was stunned, and wanted to see if the other party was seriously injured, but felt that the other party deserved it.He walked down the stairs, leaving me alone, and left.It took me a long time to calm down, but Yu Yueshui was no longer there. I thought if he was still there, I would definitely call the police.Even if I love him, I can't bear him hurting me like this. I'm also human, and my heart will hurt.

I looked down at my arms and legs, there were bruises, and I raised my hand to touch my head, it hurt even more.But why should I suffer this?do i owe anyoneI showed a sad smile, went home, fell down on the bed, really didn't want to care about the wound, I was so tired, so tired to live.