Your mother forced you to have a blind date with a man, what should you do?

Fortunately, after entering the third year of junior high school, Zhang Yang's study became more and more intense, so naturally he had no time to take care of the people around him, and he didn't respond much to Zhang's mother's sudden and silent concern for nourishing things.

The days passed so quietly.

What to do as a mother, Zhang's mother still doesn't know what to do.

So I had no choice but to treat him a little bit in the most stupid way.

Zhang's mother remembered Zhang Yang's childhood in the hospital. Zhang Yang was not naughty when he was young, and often stayed at home obediently, but no matter how obedient Zhang Yang was, things against his will would happen from the sky.

For example, when Zhang Yang was playing at Zhang Yang's grandma's house, playing with children of the same generation, he fell off the sofa and fell directly onto the tea table, breaking the bone in his right hand.

Children know pain, but they don't escape it, or they haven't learned to escape it.Therefore, when children are young, it is often convenient to learn dance and acrobatics, because although they know it hurts, in general, they don’t know how to avoid it. Work hard, bear the pain and say nothing.

It was the same with Zhang Yang at that time. The doctor talked with Zhang Yang, and after a few words, Zhang Yang was put off.Honestly and obediently let the doctor connect all his bones.

However, children's bones are inherently soft, and they are easy to move around, so the doctor suggested that they should be hospitalized for observation for a few days, put on a plaster cast, and do not move this hand until the plaster is removed.

At that time, Mama Zhang wanted to find an old woman, and she would obediently sit on the bed every day and wait for Mama Zhang to feed her.

Zhang's mother looked at the person opposite, completely oblivious to her child standing at the door, but recalling her child's childhood.

After receiving the call, Zhang Yang who rushed to the hospital reluctantly saw only one picture.

In fact, Zhang Yang still hated his mother, how could there be a mother who was stupid enough to really give her child a spell full of cinnabar.

Besides, several sisters of Mama Zhang stood confidently in the ward, criticizing Zhang Yang.

Of course, it was also in their complaints that Zhang Yang found out that after he was discharged from the hospital, he was not the only one who almost suffered from depression due to the huge psychological pressure and the weakened body immune system, and basically had to rely on sleeping pills every day to fall asleep. .

It turned out that his own mother was also like this.

They chattered in Zhang Yang's ears and said that Zhang's mother's nerves were stimulated, and she was a little out of control.

She said that it would be better if Zhang Yang was not mentioned, as long as Zhang Yang was mentioned, she would cry every day, even when she saw Zhang Yang's photos.He also cried when he heard Zhang Yang's name.

She said that Zhang's mother has been blaming herself, thinking that she has not taught her children well and that she is an incompetent mother.

To be honest, when Zhang Yang heard this kind of words, he actually didn't have any special feelings in his heart. There is a saying that goes, "If I had known today, why should I have done it before.".

Of course, this matter is also because of Zhang's mother herself.When Zhang's mother was young, she had no concept of marriage. She thought it was just two people living together, quarreling every day, eating and sleeping, and nothing else.

Therefore, Zhang's mother did not have much hope for her marriage.I just want the two of us to be together until we get old or die.

Zhang's mother's parents were married on a blind date before, and they quarreled almost every day, and the quarreling became a habit. It was almost always what Grandma Zhang did, and Grandpa Zhang must intervene, first say what she did wrong, and then change things.

Grandma Zhang and him are basically silent now, but Grandpa Zhang is still rushing to talk to him.

Zhang's mother grew up in this environment, but fortunately, her growth is not particularly distorted.

It’s just that I don’t like to quarrel with others, or I really hate others talking loudly to me, or ordering myself. However, because Zhang’s father has a better family background, when he speaks, it always feels like an order. Every time this time, Zhang’s mother resists with silence. , just don't talk to him.

The two of them became less and less able to talk. Zhang's mother was not in the past, so she could naturally get a divorce, so they divorced like this.

Mother Zhang also treats her children in the same way.

Ms. Zhang feels that her current personality is entirely due to the influence of her parents' personality, and it is also because she feels that her child has become a pervert who likes boys. It is also entirely due to her own reasons, because she did not give him enough. care, or a whole family.

So in this deep self-blame and self-questioning, Zhang's mother completely collapsed.At the same time, in the collapse, he found his crime.

Zhang's mother's condition became serious day by day, and when she was old, she would think of things from many years ago. One day, Zhang's mother suddenly remembered the pornographic magazines Zhang Yang read, and she was arguing in the hospital to go home.

At the same time, she ran into Zhang Yang's room and rummaged. She felt that she needed to do something. She wanted to tell the adolescent Zhang Yang that you can fall in love and don't need to watch this stuff secretly at night, but Zhang Yang is not by his side at all.

Her friends saw Zhang's mother like this, and his friends didn't contact Zhang Yang. His friends thought that Zhang Yang was an unfilial son, and made his mother so angry. If it was his own son, he would definitely be beaten to death, let alone The doctor said that Zhang Yang was the cause of Zhang's mother's irritation, so for several months, Zhang's mother just got worse.

It is aggravated, but in fact, Zhang's mother's mood is relatively stable.There are no major mood swings anymore, and I don’t even remember Zhang Yang’s coming out of the closet. I just remember Zhang Yang’s childhood, and I kept feeling that I had problems with Zhang Yang’s education when I was a child. madman.

The situation became more and more serious. Mama Zhang's sisters had no choice but to send Mama Zhang back to the hospital. After returning to the hospital again, Mama Zhang was diagnosed with Alzheimer's syndrome by the doctor.

But it was only slight, and the main reason was the influence of drugs, but in this case, it was no longer a solution that Zhang's mother's friend could help to sign.

Hearing this, Zhang Yang suddenly had the urge to cry, but he held back in the end.

Zhang Yang still didn't want to forgive Zhang's mother.

For Zhang Yang, Zhang's mother's actions broke all Zhang Yang's dreams.

But hatred for others is often blamed on oneself in the end.

Looking at Zhang's mother, Zhang Yang suddenly felt why he had to tell this matter.

If you don't say it, everyone is still as good as before. If she urges you to marry, just let her urge you to go, and just pretend you didn't hear it?After a few years, when she is too old to remember who you are, why would she be urging you?

Zhang Yang thought so naively, but the thing had already happened, no matter how much he fantasized about it, there would be no result.

Zhang Yang began to stay by Mama Zhang's side for a long time, probably because Zhang Yang was by his side, Mama Zhang's condition suddenly began to recur.

Sometimes I can think of Zhang Yang coming out of the closet, and start scolding Zhang Yang, and after scolding for a while, I start scolding myself, and then scolding Zhang Yang's father.

It was also at this time that Zhang Yang knew his father's name.

Mother Zhang's personality has completely changed during this period, just like the character of Grandma Zhang, whom she dislikes very much. The grievances are all said the same.

Probably because Zhang's mother kept talking, kept talking, and told all the years of depression, Zhang's mother's condition gradually improved little by little.

Zhang Yang even felt that Zhang's mother's personality was much better than before.It's not as quiet as before, and it's not as crazy as it was some time ago, but it's just a bit like a nagging old lady.

It was also at this time that Zhang's mother finally began to listen carefully to the counseling of the doctor in her heart.

When Zhang's mother's condition was almost recovered, Zhang's mother went back to school and went to work again.Going to school to stay with former colleagues, coupled with more active students, will naturally help Zhang's mother's condition better.

Just as Zhang's mother's condition was gradually improving, something unexpected happened.

That is, Zhang's mother turned into a rotten girl at school.

Zhang Yang, who found out about this after a long time, couldn't bear it anymore.