There is a love that goes without saying

It is very common for me to be busy from morning to afternoon, but somehow, I am eagerly looking forward to getting off work today.

"What time is Xia Qian?" Xia Qian and I sat at the next table, so it was very convenient to talk.

Xia Qian looked at me helplessly, "You've already asked me seven times."

"Really?" I scratched my head in embarrassment and looked at him embarrassedly.

"There's still an hour and a half before get off work." Xia Qian pointed to the corner under my computer screen, indicating that I could also check the time myself.

"Are you in a hurry? Or ask the supervisor for leave."

"No need!" Are you kidding, ask the supervisor for leave?So where does my bonus come from?If I ask for leave, my bonus will be deducted. With my meager salary, if I get deducted here and there, I will lose it all.

"Aren't you in a hurry?" Xia Qian looked at me strangely, with some doubts.

"It's okay, I'm just asking casually." I gritted my teeth at Xia Qian, and went back to work.

Xia Qian looked at me, a little speechless, and asked me the time seven times, would it be okay?No fool would believe it.

I ignored Xia Qian's probing eyes and went back to deal with official business.

Hearing the sound of fingers hitting the keyboard, I became more and more anxious. I don't know why I was so anxious.Just thinking of the good times makes me feel distressed.

I look forward to the time passing quickly, but the more I look forward to it, the slower the time goes. I have the illusion of hopelessness.

"Xiao Xia, Xiao Tu, the supervisor is looking for you." A female colleague came over and said to Xia Qian and me.

I have a bad premonition, there is absolutely nothing good for the supervisor to find us!

The female colleague looked at Xia Qian and me sympathetically, and left silently.The corner of my mouth twitched, and then I went to the supervisor's office with Xia Qian.

When I opened the door and saw the supervisor's face, I frowned.

"Are you all okay this afternoon?" The supervisor glanced at Xia Qian and me, and my heart tightened, no, here we come.

Xia Qian glanced at me, then turned to the supervisor and said flatly, "I'm fine."

"Where's Xiaotu?"

The supervisor raised his delicate eyebrows, I cracked a smile, looked at Xia Qian, and then at the supervisor.

"Of course it's okay!" I cried silently in my heart, this was definitely not what was in my heart, what was in my heart was that I had to get off work!get off work!

"That's good." The supervisor squinted his eyes and smiled, changing his face faster than turning a book, I almost couldn't help rolling my eyes.

"There is a plan that needs to be revised, so you two should work overtime to get it done. I will use it tomorrow, but I need to revise it quickly." The supervisor said and handed me the thick proposal, and I took it over in silent mourning, holding back The urge to shoot the supervisor to death with the book.

"Can you fix it?" The supervisor took a sip of his tea, and the little orchid was so sticky that I couldn't help but want to break it off.

"Of course I can." With a smiling face, I cast my gaze at the supervisor. God knows, how much I want to kill him.

"That's good."

"We're going out first." I said holding my breath, afraid that I would not leave, so I was really going to blurt out a curse on the supervisor, the official is amazing!

"Go." The supervisor waved his hand, and Xia Qian and I quickly left.

When I returned to my seat, I threw the proposal on the table, and almost cursed when I was so angry.

Xia Qian took the plan from my desk and looked at it, then said in silence for a while, "It's a bit troublesome to do this, it might be late, are you okay?"

I looked at the thick planning book discouraged, sad that I couldn't get off work, it seemed impossible to go back.

I forced a smile, "It's okay, let's stay and do it."

But I can't help worrying whether I will be in a hurry when I go back to the good scene late?Just why should I think so!

"If you really have something to do, I can do it by myself." Xia Qian is so gentle, sometimes I don't know what to say.

"Don't worry, I'm fine." I gave him a very relaxed look, but only I knew that it was anxiety in my heart.

I sat silently on my seat, looking at the proposal without thinking.

Seeing the time go by little by little, I can't do anything, I can only see other colleagues happily leaving get off work together, and I feel terrible.

Gradually, everyone left, and only Xia Qian and I were left. I frown anxiously.

Xia Qian is very quiet, not as anxious as I am, but I remember that he is a family man, is he not in a hurry?

Xia Qian got married at the age of 26. Although I didn't attend, I remember that he and his wife got married very quickly. After that, Xia Qian just looked indifferent, which made me suspect that he didn't like his wife very much.

"What? Is there something on my face?" Xia Qian asked puzzled seeing me staring at him.

I always feel that if I ask about other people's family affairs, it is a bad thing, but somehow I want to ask.

"Hey, aren't you in a hurry to go home?" I looked away, pretending to be unintentional, with my own thoughts in mind.

Xia Qian looked at me, shook his head in silence and said, "I'm not in a hurry."

"That's it." I pondered for a while and said, "By the way, I couldn't attend your wedding with your wife at that time, I really feel very sorry."

Xia Qian didn't speak, and I somehow felt that the atmosphere was a bit awkward. Could it be that I said something wrong?

At this time, Xia Qian shifted his gaze to the document and said softly, "It's fine."

"That's it, haha." I twitched the corners of my mouth stiffly, lamenting in my heart why I was such a badass, I would have known better if I didn't ask, and now I don't know how to continue the conversation.

Xia Qian didn't look at me, and said, "There's one more thing to fix, let's get it done."

I just remembered that going home is the most important thing. I have nothing to worry about other people's family affairs and what to do.

"Ah."

I threw myself into work again, and missed the faint sadness in Xia Qian's eyes, and I don't know who the sadness appeared for.So under the impetus of Xia Qian's words, I quickly revised the proposal, and only then did I complete the work that the old eunuch gave us.

Xia Qian wasn't as happy as I was going home, so he quietly packed his things.

I was really anxious. Seeing Xia Qian's slow look, I couldn't help but say, "Well, why don't I go first, I... have something to do at home."

"Let's go, I'm fine by myself." Xia Qian stopped packing his things and looked at me calmly, which made me a little embarrassed.

"Am I really leaving?" I picked up the phone, but I was still standing there, wondering, should I go?Or not to go?

"Ah."

Seeing what Xia Qian didn't say, I turned silent for a moment and turned to leave, but when I got halfway, I felt that I was being very unkind.

"So what, am I really leaving?" I still turned around and said this.

"It's okay, you can leave at ease." Xia Qian gave me a shallow smile, and I left in peace.

The reason why I am so embarrassed is because Xia Qian would accompany me when I worked overtime before. Although I knew he didn't want to go back to his house and stayed with me, I still thank him very much.At least he is the person who has the best relationship with me in the company.

I shook off some irritating things in my mind and ran home quickly.Looking at the already dark sky, I feel a little worried, why worry?Maybe it's because of the good scenery.

It's just that Haojing and I have known each other for less than two days. I'm so worried about what he is doing?Am I really overwhelmed with love?Thinking of my pace, I couldn't help slowing down, maybe the appearance of a good scene will disrupt my original life, and what should I do at that time?

I suddenly realized these things at this moment, and my heart was always a little impatient. Did I do something wrong?Is it a mistake to bring home a good view?

"Fuck!" I kicked a stone on the ground irritably, and said this, which aroused strange looks from passers-by.I hurriedly left with a gray face.What a shame!

Until I stood at the door of the house and suddenly hesitated whether I should go in or not?Doing multiple-choice questions is the thing I hate the most. Anyway, I have brought back the good times, so I have nothing to regret. The big deal is just raising one more person.

I comforted myself like this, and opened the door of the house, but the house was dark, as quiet as when I came back from get off work before.

Let's go, I can't help but think, my heart hurts inexplicably, where can that child go?

I took off my clothes, walked into the room with my head covered in a headache, I didn't want to cook, I just wanted to sleep, so that my mood wouldn't be so bad.

But as soon as I lay on the bed, I felt a big thing pressing on my waist, which scared me to stand up.

"Who?"

Suddenly I seemed to realize something, pulled back the quilt, only to find that I was lying on the bed in a good scene, and silently breathed a sigh of relief.Heart... I thought it was a thief, but it's impossible for a thief to lie on my bed.

Haojing opened his eyes in a daze, and when he saw it was me, he sat up stiffly and looked at me in a panic, "I'm sorry..."

I don't know if I scare him, but he is a little afraid of me. Maybe he has some bad shadows in his heart.I always feel that once I face a good situation, I feel a little powerless.

"Go on to sleep." I rubbed my temples, left the bedroom quickly after leaving these words.

I don't know why I walked so fast, isn't this my home?Am I using it so carefully?

I went into the kitchen and poured a glass of water, just to quench my thirst and calm my frightened heart by the way.

"that……"

Suddenly I heard a voice behind me, the water in my mouth was stuck in my throat before I swallowed it, "Cough! Cough! Cough..."

It was the first time I drank water and I choked on it. I was so uncomfortable that I coughed.

"I'm sorry."

Haojing wanted to go forward, but looked at me with a little fear, standing there awkwardly, with a layer of mist in his eyes.

I see the good scene like this, I really don't know what to say, the most important thing is that it is difficult for me to say a word right now.

I patted my chest, and the discomfort eased a little.I looked at the good scene, and as soon as I stretched out my hand, the good scene seemed to be frightened and backed away.He fell to the ground, curled up, as if he was afraid that I would hit him.

My hands were frozen in the air, but I just wanted to call him over, I didn't want to make it like this.

I walked over, and as soon as I touched him, he began to tremble and begged, "Don't hit me...don't..."

"A good scene? A good scene?" I really felt sorry for the good scene. I lifted him up and hugged him tightly, and said sorry, "I didn't mean to hit you, don't be afraid."

He grabbed the collar of my chest and cried in my arms. Every sound made me feel so uncomfortable, as if a knife was cutting me.

I don't know how to comfort him, I can only be afraid of his back and let him relax.Fortunately, Haojing didn't cry for a long time, otherwise I really don't know what to do, but looking at Haojing's red eyes, I feel an inexplicable sense of guilt.

"It's fine if you don't cry." I wiped the corners of Haojing's eyes with the back of my hand, felt the cold tears on my hand, and felt that something was changing in my heart.

"I'm sorry, I..." Hao Jing stared at his helpless eyes, just like a child.Yes, he is also a child to me.

"You don't need to apologize to me, you didn't do anything wrong." I helped him up, only to realize that there is really only a skeleton left in the good scene, what kind of people were his former parents!It's not human to be able to abuse one's own child like this!Animals are inferior!

I frowned, looking at the good scene of sitting on the sofa with my legs crossed, I felt extremely powerless.

"I didn't want to hit you earlier, so don't be afraid." I sat next to him and saw him timidly looking at me, trying to maintain my smile, and I couldn't help wondering if I was really scary looking.

Haojing looked up at me, then lowered his head again, I cried silently in my heart, does this mean for sure?

"Are you afraid of me?" I really don't know what tone to use to speak to Hao Jing, I just want to communicate with Hao Jing normally.

Hao Jing shook his head lightly, but did not speak.

"Don't be afraid of me, why are you crying?"

"I don't know." Hao Jing's fingers intertwined, and she looked at me anxiously, as if she didn't know how to organize her words, so helpless.

My heart hurts, I just wanted to raise my hand to touch his head, but I put it down silently.

He looks like this, maybe I should take him to see a psychiatrist, but why am I hesitating?Hesitating again?

"Don't be afraid of me, I won't hurt you, so don't worry." I smiled slightly, hoping that this would make Haojing relax a little.

Haojing nodded obediently, letting go of some guard in her eyes.

I glanced at the clock, only to remember that I didn't make dinner for Haojing, and it became a supper at this time.

"Are you hungry?" I asked him, I didn't expect this at first, but I touched Haojing's poor flesh.

"En." Haojing hummed very softly, but I still heard it.

"Wait here for a while, I'm going to get you a bowl of noodles." After I finished speaking, I stood up, but before I could take a step, I felt my clothes being pulled.

I turned to look at him and found that he was looking at me helplessly.I was taken aback for a moment before I understood Haojing's mood, and comforted me, "I'm in the kitchen, I'll be back later."

But Haojing still didn't let go of his hand, and I felt helpless, "Why don't you go to the kitchen with me?"

When I said this casually, Hao Jing stood up silently, but he still didn't let go of his hand, and kept grabbing my clothes.

I had no choice but to take him to the kitchen to make noodles, like carrying a burden on my back, but I didn't let go of the good times, and I didn't say anything.

I served the noodles skillfully, and didn't pay attention to Haojing's gaze, but I knew that Haojing was always looking at me, and my back felt a little chilled.

"Hao Jing, do you want to put eggs?" I don't know if it is my illusion, the moment I turned my head to look at Hao Jing, I seemed to see Hao Jing's indifferent expression, it should be my illusion.

Haojing looked at the egg in my hand and shook his head, he looked very dumb at all, maybe the front was my illusion.

I put the eggs down and picked them up when the noodles opened.After finishing everything, I brought the noodles to the table for Haojing to eat.

Hao Jing held the chopsticks without moving, looked at me, I probably understood what he meant, and sat next to him.

"You eat it, I ate it in the company." I don't really like to eat before going to bed, so I only ordered a bowl for Haojing.

Haojing moved his chopsticks after hearing what I said. I looked away from him, and turned my attention to the dark night outside the window. It must be my hallucination.

I waited for Haojing to finish eating and wash the dishes before going to bed, and Haojing slept on my bed, and I didn’t feel uncomfortable at all. Is there something wrong?

Closing my eyes, I suddenly began to look forward to what tomorrow will be like.I was confused and felt that I was really a little abnormal.